Author: polarMidnight

note: this is about drinks, fruit, summer time and lifestyle topics.

oh, yes the summer time. Some wonderful fruit and Smirnoff Ice very nice. I’m not an addict I love summer season drinking cold beverages to cool down and chill outside in the sunshine days. Fruit salads in the outdoor environments, sometimes we visit family who have bbq and grilling different food outside. I love fruit in different forms and especially orange. Pear flavour drinks like pear cider and Battery energy drinks with pearberry type taste experience.

I like our garden and I must also get the refills on my prescribed medications to function well in the evening and morning, I’m not using them together at same time with a lot of cider because even though I’m impulsive, I use my head to make better decisions on important lifestyle choices and my health, physical and mental. I want to have more little cans of Smirnoff Ice for tomorrow. Summer holiday ❤

Note: about psychiatry related topics, my inner world and plenty of psychoactive beverages.

Yes, my inner world characters. Leah Aurora is the perfect pretty one, Johanne is the Aspergian I wish I wasn’t and Mia is my evil twin born of wounds from life and my inner Darkness. I don’t have DID/dissociative identity, I really have the schizoaffective condition and the moderate case of Asperger syndrome. My own names Ingvild, Synnøve and Torunn. I hear voices since late childhood and it used to be constantly abusive and never-ending agony. Now it’s less intense.

And I would have a pasta salads plus other pasta dish. Plenty of alcohol-containing pear and fruit champagne cider. Along with energy drinks in especially the Battery blue and the pearberry.

I would have deep, open difficult conversations at table of four parts of me. The roots (IC/Nadir point in astrology) of my being are in Scorpio sign with Pluto in it’s own power. The mild percentage alcohol will have an effect on the mood at the gathering.

Sometimes I wonder if this event would help my healing journey become the living reality of my deep dreams. So these are the inner world characters I would invite to have dinner together.

Thank you for reading ❤

I thank the good-natured Spirit for the life I get to experience. Faith in my own 100% concentrated power of will (yes, from a song lyrics) and my strenght and determination of the Finnish roots in our family culture. A sense of humor that honor the sacred forces of true grateful living.

Maybe this doesn’t sound very deep, but it really is profound to me.

an extra answer to dailyprompt-2004

Also known in my Norwegian language as ‘gjemsel’ (sounding more like ‘gjømmsel’, really in this dialect mix) and it’s really hide and seek, quite straight-forward? Both yes and maybe not so clearly after all.

it’s a classic game. And even with the Sheltie we played this game outside. So hide and seek, it’s interesting how we choose to hide ourselves well and where to find others using our mind, the senses and many other inner qualities we have like empathy and memory.

thanks for listening ❤

Note: I’m a very comfort driven person as said in some my other answers to the dailyprompt.

Drinking hot lavender tea during the cold polar nights of December with my soft merino wool blankets and warming merino wool clothing close to me is the best I know in these times when the sun doesn’t rise. I listen to the signals I get from within, I act on my feeling and experiences. Music also plays a big part, sometimes it’s black metal and others like dubstep on my quite good sound system. I’m not lazy, I’m conscious of my limits and needs. We all could listen more to our body and mind, the connection between these and our actions.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

another answer to dailyprompt-2010

my classmate called me ‘Tornerose’ because I arrive late to class in the mornings. I really was difficult waking up and actually get out of bed. Sadly for me I also had nocturnal enuresis so I had this routine when I woke up. Not going into much details. I had a slightly long walk for school so I had to walk fast to arrive in time for lessons. This was in 5th grade level. But the funny thing was it wasn’t percieved by me as an insult really, I’ve been through much worse names called.

so my nickname was Tornerose/Sleeping beauty back then in mid 2000s Norway. Some names stick around and others are just a moment in time. Btw, my current first given name is Torunn 🤭❤️

Currently I’m drinking a lot. But I have it under control somewhat at least. So I drink day and night, now it’s Midnight sun time at 3 in “night” so it’s not at all dark. I wake up when it just happen to stop dreaming or alarm/phone call in morning. That is if I have been sleeping of course. When I stay up it’s wild times of day, and very irregular in nature. I wish to keep the things under control, I have history of addiction in family and certain drugs/substances I really dislike and will never use even if legal in future or currently. I cannot tell people completely to not use substances because I use substances, even if it’s alcohol and legitimate medicines for disabling conditions. So sleep when you can, dreaming is good for us all.

Thanks for listening ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2008

my future plans are visiting Stavanger in Rogaland county of Norway. My great-grandfather was born there and we have strong roots to Rogaland county in our family. I want to visit the Western regions of my country, I’ve been only to Oslo and Kristiansand in Southern regions for days.

and even more i want to visit Oulu city of Northern Finland. I have ancestors from Oulu and I love Finland, so sad to see they joined the evil NATO. But Finnish language is a big part of my liking the country as it truly is. I have from before in year 2016 travel down Torne River Valley on a tourist learning trip for Kven origins Norwegian citizen and others.

so my future travel plans are connected to my roots very strongly. Past times meeting the present day and plan for future events.

aanswer to dailyprompt-2005

what is my go-to comfort food?

I’m so warm now. I’m going for another pear cider to at least in theory cool down. I take lactase supplements when we heat the triple cheese pizza type, being genetics and ethnicity based lactose sensitive/intolerant but I love a lot of cheese on the pizza. It’s so wonderful with just right made pizza with crust and the cheese being a delights for the senses.

i also like as previous mentioned vegan ice cream, lactose-free oreo shake and the iced coffee. If not aware I’m not a native speaker of English. I’m so strongly wanted the cold cider, so I’m getting it from the fridge right now.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2002

I’m mostly familiar with dogs from childhood to now in my 30s. But I like cats also, my cousin is a true cat person; she is a part of Dyrebeskyttelsen in Norway for animal welfare and animal rights. She had four cats in house for several years. I like how Bengal cats look and their unique behaviour from the wild side and domestic cat together. They are so intense and yet funny beings.

I’m a dog person. My mother has an elderly little black dog that I see often and one of my grandmothers has several dogs since like the 1970s to now. We got our first dog in 1999 when I was 6 years old, a great Sheltie that stay with us for 14 years.

I love animals ❤

another answer to dailyprompt-2004

i met the Sims series in 2000 with the original game and I was seven years old then. I loved it! Maybe a little young to play but it’s was great fun. I kept playing the different generations of the games until I moved to other apartment in different town. I really like the concept of Sims games and I have a strong imagination that is useful for enjoying these games. I had a vampire sim that I created and she was me when I was playing at least a very dear friend to my inner world. I play for many hours long sessions. I got so upset when her husband was having secret affair with another sim, I actually killed him by hunger because he did betray my sim and also in extended way me also. That’s an example of how it was back in the days. I wish I still was playing but just now I’m preoccupied by different life aspects that include being outside and other things like writing this blog.

I get lost in time from my cans of alcohol pear cider listening to catchy music of different kinds. I’m not in a serious mood at all now 🤩❤️🇫🇮

The music take me somewhere awesome inside, life is feeling very good right now!

Cha Cha Cha by Finnish musician Käärijä I’m listening tonight and I have this cool YouTube lyrics video with the Finnish lyrics plus the English translation. If you are curious you can check out his other music as well 😊👌

And yes, I’m actually Finnish by ancestry and our family is of Kven culture strongly. I love the Finnish language ❤ ❤

hyviä aikoja toivottaen!

second answer to dailyprompt-2006

I have paranoid schizophrenia with mood disorder (or schizoaffective condition) and I hear voices as part of my inner life and the daily experience of my mental illness. So sometimes I give the voices a chance to speak without censorship, and I note what topics it’s about. I really value my dreams also, the way it shows my inner world in a type of movie version that’s immersive and deep in psychological nature.

as I’ve described before I basically think in lyrics, in musical sounds together. It’s like what comes to mind first when I’m writing or speaking, it’s actually quite useful often.

and I listen to different genres of music, but dubstep is very special to my work activities including mostly writing and introspective work. It’s about the feeling and I really can recommend the songs ‘Elements’ by Fractal, ‘Blue’ by Au5 and Fractal and many others for writing and introspective work.

For energy I listen to a lot of HiTech psytrance as mentioned in earlier answer to this question. Psytrance has several sub-genres like progressive, hitech and forest among others like darkpsy.

so this is what I listen to when working. Thanks for reading ❤

Note/warning; possibly triggering or upsetting topics.

I’m a far-Northern European of nationality (Norway) and most of my more recent ancestors were technically ‘white’. Yet I’m of minority background in my country; a mix of different cultures. And in my childhood and youth the large majority of my friends were non-European origins refugees or immigrants to Northern Norway region.

and our history in my close family is affected heavy by xenophobia and sometimes even plain racism. My father was severely beaten with metal chains and other weapons at age 12 years by some horrible racist violent youths who target him because he was different. They report to police, but nothing came of it so the xenophobic youths got away with this terrible crime.

I had a racist teacher in 8th to 10th grade that hated the different ones generally actually, not only student of foreign origins or of far-Northern mix + far-Southern Romani Traveller peoples ethnicity like me. Btw that teacher taught me a lot about human nature and what is not good about our school system, nothing is without a useful lessons in life.

so xenophobia/racism bothers me on a very profound level due to my experience and seeing friends being affected and our family roots in other minority cultures, and true diversity is the key to inclusive environment overall.

thank you all for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2001

What activities lose my track of time?

So I do some type of light research at least daily and more heavy in-depth research on occation. This helps me connect with my inner and outer part worlds and it’s very meaningful and important to me. Whether it’s astrology, spirituality, genetics, genealogy, social causes and political themes etc osv; I lose the sense of hours going by and sometimes I lose myself inside the activities and mental state. I’m right now taking sedating medicine and drinking chamomille tea along so I’m not entirely my normal self. I’m also prone to lose okay so my writing doesn’t work now the medicine is very strong. Thank you for reading and I’m soon going to sleep, Midnight sun shines through my room window tonight. Happy days! ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2003

what food would I like to make?

I wish I had the skills and motivation for it but I like it this way mostly. I buy things especially local Northern brands and the Finnish brand Battery energy drinks.

Note: I can have an unusual sense of humor sometimes and I’m a mixed Northern Norwegian culture person. I don’t make cider, it’s not legal here to make alcohol-containing drinks without real skill and regulation. No hjemmebrent/moonshine for me, thank you. I’m lucky I’ve never tried it myself.

First the food: I like pasta salads a lot. Especially with the strong dressing (I don’t know what to call it in English) and some nice tuna or chicken with. I actually make this food sometimes even though I’m kind of not experienced actually making food. I buy healthy Norwegian food that is easy to prepare for eating soon after it’s done cooking. Btw I’m quite mindful eating and have no distractions from the meal. I like slightly spicy food so maybe I would make spice mix?

Dessert: Cloudberry anything for dessert. Really.

now the beverages: I drink tea and it’s from organic origins. I have special tea rituals that make it extra meaningful to know how to get the best experience from it. I know my tea preferance very well.

I would like to make my own favourite pear cider, make it my specialty. I like different energy drinks taste like for example apple, raspberry or pear.

Maybe I could make my own strange brand of alcohol and energy drinks mixed called ‘hipster-karsk’? 😂👌 (type Norwegian culture silly/odd inside humor)

thanks for visiting ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2000

what bothers me and why;

I’m not comfortable seeing reflection of my own. It just feels completely wrong inside, I don’t think a lot about my appearance when I interact with others. But when I must see my self in a mirror I really feel uneasy and even guilty. Why am I feeling guilty then? Self-hatred isn’t that good for anything. Doesn’t help when I remember my youth difficulties with my identity and the bullying I was experience then. The words used toward pretty girls from Finnmark county online is a perfect example of the xenophobic views in society. They say to them things like ‘you are so pretty.. for being from Finnmark’. I don’t think they realise what they really implicitly saying. We are as group of many different ethnicities here for centuries, thousand years maybe. So it’s clearly ethnicity motivated abuse disguise as rude compliments.

so that’s some things that bothers and upsets me. Mirror Mirror fuck it all

(Btw, we swear more here in my county, at like in the general society)

Note: I get to the point eventually.

Yes, I enjoy a drinking session and yet I don’t ever want to drink again. I really mean it. Oh, the cold cider is so intoxicating and lovely. I’m Norwegian.

That the answer would be both in different ways. I’m a lot seeking security within me even through dark times. And the inner world is an adventure if you begin to observe it with mindful state and creative expression. I’m autistic and strongly introspective by type, so the safe place is inside my own world.

The adventure has several features that are important to consider. To face the fear with courage and the Darkness of life to heal wounds I carry from life experiences. As an example of the difficult times I struggled with school system and the bullying, I believe it is opportunity to make this a part of my inner strenght even more truly powerful in my healing journey across several generations of childhood/youth adversity.

I want to write a real book about everything I wish to share with the World around all different countries. I have a lot of things on my mind now. My dreams and in several meanings dreaming of something greater than the self, the unity of life and last but not least creative activities like writing and musical expressions. I come from a musical family and I’m so thankful for it.

I hope this was meaningful and of interest to others, thank you for reading my blogs and be safe and explore everything ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2007

The ideal image and the values of thin living. I used to be thinner and had a restrictive eating disorder in late teens. Then after being on antipsychotics I began to gain weight and currently I’m not obese, I was nearly 80 kilos like 6 years ago. One meter plus 56 centimeters ‘tall’. Okay, so what would I change about modern society? It’s on the Internet, the pro-ana culture online. I see these youth on photos and wish so much to challenge this trend with some methods that can get people thinking about themselves differently. No matter your weight or appearance you are worthy and loved by the Spirit.

Thank you, my readers, for the time ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2004

Like I said on other blog a year ago my favourite computer game is Sims. I got lost within the games for hours and my imagination was working on things while playing. It was very immersive and fun, sometimes quite deep experiences for me. The sims were a part of me, I got close with them when I play for several sessions and I still remember the experiences long after.

another game I enjoy is called ‘Skip-Bo’ it’s a card came, I was introduced to it while patient in a psychiatric unit/psych ward. It’s fun as a social activity and I often actually was on the winning team 😂👌

have fun playing ❤ ❤

Note: off-topic in nature, but still relevant.

Both, really. Combined in the right way it can help get things done successfully.

I should add to this that I seek balance in security and adventure. Adventure is needed just like security is also. I’m a Norwegian Aspie so sometimes my expressions of English is different.

And being an Aspie (Asperger syndrome person) my physical coordination and balance can be affected in adverse ways. Like I fell after losing my balance in physical education lesson and the shame from the unfortunate accident. I feel like confessing to my shameful times now, but should I do that? What did the teacher say and do after this episode? I will not go too far with this post. Maybe it’s not needed to reveal all here. I want to respect your feelings and difficult topics. Btw, I used to be quite good in walking gracefully with very high heel boots, other people said so at least.

As I mention in previous answer my Jupiter in Libra is in 2nd/second house and together with Mars in a weak conjunction. Libra themes is very related to fairness and harmony along with grace and beauty. I’m very into astrology at this time right now. Being autistic can make me passionate about my favourite interests and topics like this. Sometimes too strongly, talking with them, for the patience of other persons.

Thank you for reading, for some reason I feel insecurity about this post.

Daily writing prompt

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

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I truly need some adjustment in my antipsychotics and other neuropsychiatric medications as soon as possible. So I would want to gather all my current and my many former doctors to discuss my symptoms and what treatments would be best for me through their common thoughts and suggestions. It would be very useful and my first psychiatric doctor was so interested in my strong points being of use in tangible ways. He liked giving me food recipies to make, of course very healthy and kind of exotic.

answer to dailyprompt-1998

Note: possibly triggering topics

I seek balance of security and adventure. Jupiter in Libra and Moon in Sagittarius, 2nd house and 4th house. My large Pluto in Scorpio influence from 4th house exactly opposite my Taurus Midheaven. My roots. Everything is relevant to my balance in life. I remember a childhood particular physical education lesson that was very difficult experiences. I lost my balance and then right after had an accident, it was very embarrassing and the teacher follow me to wardrobe. I don’t clearly remember everything but I know it was very dark. I don’t know why I’m saying it now, I need some help honestly. I have schizoaffective and Asperger syndrome, I take medicine.

but the real lessons was safety is relative and adventure is indeed risky. The balance is an art, and we all fail sometimes. As I learn from that lessons sometimes shame is profound when we lose that balance.

thank you for listening

answer to dailyprompt-1999

one: my father is my biological father (not surprised at all, we look very alike)

two: I’m maternal haplogroup W4 (again DNA-tests show my relatives and origins)

three: my new given names are Ingvild, Torunn and Synnøve. I chose them myself this year.

four: I’m a Virgo Rising/Ascendant in astrology. I’m actually a double Virgo with strong Leo placements in close conjunction with Virgo in 12th house.

five: I’m soon 32 years old. Omg I’m still young ❤

six: I prefer women even if I’m not ever in romantic relationship.

seven: I have autism spectrum condition. I’ve been diagnosed three different times by three doctors that agree.

eight: my mother is a teacher.

nine: I don’t know when the last day will be. It could be five minutes or fifty years from now.

ten: I’m writing this post to answer the dailyprompt-1999 and I was alive in 1999, began first grade that year.

thanks for reading ❤

About my mental illness conditions and lifestyle.

I’m quite certain if I don’t get to sleep soon my day will be like yesterday; up all day, up all night. It’s my phone and my scrolling and writing listening to music. Mind is going so fast through the rhythms, lyrics are alive very strong in my thinking. So I’m sleepless and a little bit too high energy. I’m not using any strong stimulants, btw.

So Ingvild stays up all day, all night. Currently.

answer to dailyprompt-2006

it’s crazy fun to work to the rhythms and tech aspects. I like psytrance in general. I work best with lyrics related to my work tasks since my thoughts are in lyrics and music sounds.

answer to dailyprompt-1997

as I’m very deeply passionate about genealogy and family research, our family heritage and roots I would like to meet my ancestors in waking reality. One of my ancestors was a deeply conservative Lutheran Christian that form own Church and faith community. Another ancestor was of a spiritual path in healing passed from earlier generation, a feature of the diversity of Sámi culture and faith. And being very interested in my ethnic roots I would be curious where exactly my trace ancestry non-European ancestors estimate is in our history. I’m really wondering also who they were as real people living in past generations with historical events in their lifetime and how they would see our 2025 society. Both women and men from both sides of my family, I would have to ask what they would like to enjoy in food and drinks. If I could just choose something I really like it would be pasta, Swedish meat balls, grated(?) cheese (revet/raspet ost) and pasta sauce as dinner and hard (alcohol-containing) cider to enjoy along with. But that’s my preferance, so it would likely be different if it was to be real, the true meeting of minds and personality.

it would be very interesting to meet all these people around a dinner setting and hear of their stories from centuries back.

thanks for visiting ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2005

what is my go-to comfort food?

Vegan ice cream and lactose-free variants of milkshake and iced coffee.

I am lactose sensitive/intolerant due to genetics/ethnicity so I cannot have regular ice cream without lactase supplements. But one thing I enjoy as a lactose sensitive person is vegan ice cream with dark chocolate, strawberry taste. I’m not otherwise vegan but I admire the lifestyle and qualities that need respect. But that wonderful ice cream alternative is great for the many Sámi and Kven origins persons who are more often lactose sensitive/intolerant. And I love lactose-free oreo shake and the chocolate iced coffee I enjoy that is also without lactose.

these are great comfort food for me, and I stay well with following the rules of my body. I have lactase supplements that I take with any drink/meal with milk that is regular type.

I love vegan ice cream ❤

Right now I’m drinking a cup of raspberry tea mixed with something relaxing herb mix with valerian, chamomille and other herbs. It’s delicious and strong, plus organic (økologisk) of course and no sugar added.

It’s romantic because it is so heart-warming and lovely. It also helps to relax so I would give someone this tea mix if they came to visit me in my home. I enjoy being genuinely useful to others and I really like this cup of hot tea ❤

Other romantic activities and symbols include hugs, deep conversations, comfortable clothing and blankets, raspberry anything (not only as hot tea), dreaming and a lovely hot meal like lasagne or a great pizza. I don’t have experience of true romantic relationship, but I know my own likes in other relationships and my own well-being.

Thanks for listening ❤

So most often I wake up at 5 in the morning and bedtime for sleeping at 23 in the night. Lately my sleep has been often at strange times in late morning or afternoon, but I like the summer time fun we get to have being awake during the sunny days. The winter seasons are most of our year and the polar nights are the opposite of right now with Midnight sun and no snow on the ground.

It is a relief in summer seasons (giđđageassi, geassi, čakčageassi in eight seasons system) that we must appreciate deeply. I like feeling the sun warming my skin and my dark colour hair in the sunshine in comfortable temperatures.

Have a good late evening ❤

Daily writing prompt

What strategies do you use to increase comfort in your daily life?

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The hot tea I’m drinking must be the right temperature for drinking. Not too hot, but just perfect for a pleasant warm feeling.

the clothes are suited to my needs and the weather outside. Pretty in colourful ways and very comfortable both physical feeling and emotional well-being.

blankets made from merino wool plus the others are in year round use, there are few things as wonderful as the merino wool blanket on a very cold winter season night.

so these are some strategies I use to increase comfort in my daily life.

thanks for listening ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1996

At least compared to my early teenage self my confident nature is stronger and I’m not so worried about being different as I used to be. Things began to change when I learn of my conditions after getting diagnosed and treated for the symptoms. I’m still in progress of the process to understanding and living well with my severe mental illness and the moderate Asperger autism spectrum diagnosis. I don’t have a mild case of it, tbh. But I’m doing quite well on medication, I’m trying to get my doctors to switch me over to one antipsychotic the quetiapine instead of two other different antipsychotics.

I also think some food and drinks get better once I reach a certain point in life. I used to hate boiled potatos in early mid childhood but then I had some really good ones so I tried again and liked it. I eat several vegetables now that I would not eat before, it helps when they are included in more spicy healthy foods.

so those are some of the things I feel like get better with age, I’m almost 32 years old so still have likely many more years to experience in future. We never know the last moment will be.

Thank you for reading ❤

Ingvild; the Leo rebel Queen of the Arctic. I’m very identity oriented and I like writing about it to share with others what I think and believe in. I’m a Northern Norwegian so I’m writing something about it in my native language now.

Norwegian language text;

Jeg ønsker å bli mer aktiv i samfunnet jeg er en del av og vise verden hvem jeg faktisk er. Hjelpe andre som har det vanskelig i livet, spesielt flyktninger, romfolket og innvandrere. Jeg hadde venninner med utenlandsk bakgrunn da jeg var tenåring, en var fra Uganda og en var fra irakisk Kurdistan. En annen venninne var fra Afghanistan og hun hadde så spesielt tykt hår. Jeg hadde også tykt hår, men jeg var ikke nær hennes nivå. Okay, nok om det. Jeg er også opptatt av samiske temaer i samfunnet, jeg er med i samemanntallet og kommer til å bruke stemmeretten min i valget i år samtidig som stortingsvalget. Jeg er lidenskapelig opptatt av politiske temaer og menneskerettigheter generelt i globalt perspektiv. Alle kan gjøre noe som hjelper andre å forstå ulike livssyn og å utvikle empati med vanskeligstilte grupper i samfunnet.

English translation mostly from Google translate;

I want to become more active in the society I am a part of and show the world who I really am. Helping others who are having a hard time in life, especially refugees, Roma and immigrants. I had friends with a foreign background when I was a teenager, one was from Uganda and one was from Iraqi Kurdistan. Another friend was from Afghanistan and she had such particularly thick hair. I also had thick hair, but I was nowhere near her level. Okay, enough about that. I am also concerned with Sami issues in society, I am a member of ‘samemanntallet’ and will exercise my right to vote in the elections this year at the same time as the universal Norwegian ‘stortingsvalget’ (for adult Norwegian citizens). I am passionate about political themes and human rights in general from a global perspective. Everyone can do something that helps others understand different views of life and to develop empathy with disadvantaged groups in society.

I hope your days are good, and thanks for reading ❤

My grandmother is really good with making this delicious food for me every time she has opportunity to give it to me or other visitors. I used to eat more often this type of meals and it throws me back to teenage years and my late childhood. The bread, cheese and salami are perfect made and wonderful. Crisp and warm, the right texture of it.

So this is one food that transport me back to young years. I’m going to miss my grandmother so much when the days are gone.

I hope you enjoy the food and drinks that strong takes you back in time emotional, sensory and mental. And writing about this made me crave some grilled sandwich. Thanks for reading ❤

Daily writing prompt

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

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the Billy Talent track came to mind, as I said I think in lyrics and this is an example of that. If I could let go of something for the sake of harmony it would be strong fear of rejection and critical looks. It has big impact on my life, I don’t say things I would myself be upset by if they said it to me. But people are different and complex, so something that I’m okay with could upset them a lot. It’s also related topics to my mental illness and autism spectrum.

it comes from my experiences and how my thoughts are in direction in terms of my moods, themes and the psychosis. The bullying doesn’t stop once you graduate(? It means possibly to leave after being done with the 10th grade in school?) from 10th grade education, it goes on in your head long long after that at least for me. My voice-hearing remind me I’m a wounded person and sensitive to shame and self-hatred.

but honestly there is nothing or very little to lose in this way, I only need to avoid letting fear of rejection rule my life and ruin the inner world of magical joys.

I need to believe in myself and my ability to effectively deal with a challenge from being human beings in communication, from different family cultures and diverse ethnic backgrounds.

i love the music and my mind drawn inspiration from the lyrics and overall mood in the sound and yes, the harmony.

have a very wonderful morning ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1993

note: I’m actually excited about this, but I’m keeping my realistic expectations about what I’ve seen in life.

what I’m most excited about the future is a global awakening to our mission to make the world a better place for every living beings on planet Earth. We really need this awareness of the important nature of global environment and fighting injustice any place in the World, btw I have a Libran Mars and Cancerian Venus signs in astrology in astrological houses of Mars in 2nd house and Venus in 11th house. I have Virgo Rising sign, Sun in Virgo but I’m more like a shy Leo in some ways. Mercury in Leo plus close conjunction aspects to Chiron and my Sun placements in 12th house. I’m kind of sad and lonely tonight.

And the title is relevant to this writing, global awakening is through to become more mindful state of being and deep care for every living beings. Watching someone harming others for fun or status in groups is terrible experiences to me. Be kind and kindness will come your way as a benefit of consequence. I’m doing something kind of similar to mindful state every day now. Watching my thoughts with some distant and yet insightful times, my ego is really sometimes too big for my own good so I’m truly giving my all for getting better in terms of mindful living, consciousness.

And we must never start WWIII and never again. I am an anarchist type of far-left politically, and I’m not hiding this here.

thank you for reading my blogs ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1992

Note: Might be trigger topics for someone with similar life experiences

As I’ve described before I was a bullied child and teenager and with undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and schizoaffective, I was different in ethnicity from the other kids and especially my short height was the issue. I had long-term issues in nocturnal enuresis and wet myself at school. Some things happen I cannot talk about here now. I really think, ruminate and pine over things too much sometimes. So what could I let go of? My strong tendency to focus on something I cannot change and also must live with no matter what happens. I need to let go of the shame. My origins must be respected honestly and fully through. I’m actually far stronger than I believe I am.

btw I’m not drinking, but I’m obsessive about having enough alcohol-containing cider tomorrow for a good session outside in our garden. But the forecast says cloudy all day. The weather here is absolutely wonderful tonight I was even outside sitting with my mother and her dog and drinking lactose-free iced coffee. I love life in summer time ❤

Thank you for listening to my story ❤

Warning: triggering topics for alcoholic persons and also rambling about everything. Happy Sunday everyone ❤

A wonderful pear cider plus a Battery Pearberry. I really enjoy this combination in taste and not to mention the high/intoxicated feeling. I like perry.

I’m not addicted or anything, I just love drinking psychoactive beverages. Alone. Outside in the Midnight sun glow of July. I like combination of effects in my cocktails, caffeine and alcohol together along with my usual medications like SSRI and I’m going likely back to Seroquel soon. I don’t drink a lot of alcohol and I’m more careful with energy drinks now than in my youth years. And I take anticonvulsants for my TLE/temporal lobe epilepsy so I really should not drink much. And my father is an addict, I like drinking. I’m not drunk or tipsy even not affected by my medications either.

So it’s about drinking for me at the moment and drinking is no good without music along. Rock/metal genres or electronic music on my sound system or with ear phones in the Darkness. The really dark roll down curtains will make it dark. Literally, the sun is up at midnight several weeks in May, June and July months. Arctic benefits, and a sometimes slightly difficult aspect also.

I know it sound crazy in several ways but it’s how I feel right now.

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Daily writing prompt

What is your favorite genre of music?

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In addition to my other favourite music genres there is World music and variants of Sámi joik. Joik or Yoik is a type of traditional singing kind of slightly similar to Siberian cultures. I’m of Sámi roots and I’m not practiced in joik, my ancestors were successfully Norwegianized(?) (Fornorsket same/fornorskede samer) so I’m not core Sámi regions identified. Many were Sea Sámi and some Mountain Sámi; including from places like Tysfjord, Måsøy and Kautokeino. Okay, so enough about my ancestry; lets get to my favourite types!

I enjoy listening to Mari Boine (she is my genetic relative in extended family, we are both DNA-tested) and other type Sámi musicians like Sofia Jannok and also other World music artists. I like Native American music, Siberian, Mongolian and indigenous Australian as well as different African traditional song/music. Every culture has great tradition and talented musicians among them.

thanks for listening ❤

Note; an answer to dailyprompt-1990

my absolute favourite year summer holiday was the summer of 2016, I’ve written often a lot about this time and I will write even more about it soon.

but this memory is from 2004 the year I turn 11 and it’s about my strong imagination and about my psychotic thought patterns around events. Btw I just remember something right now, how I had those cotton padding like from removing makeup on during that time.

(I was not happy with my shape and especially the size of the upper pair).

so I was walking outside living in my own world of magical powers and the inner delusional identities, it sometimes began to rain right after I thought it would soon be rainfall. I thought this was special powers on my part and that they were related to the identities within my mind. And don’t get me wrong; I really really don’t have dissociative identity disorder/MPD; I’m diagnosed as autistic and with strong psychotic disorder. And a quite strong vivid imagination as well.

It was an inner world that was heading for the Dark times to come. My mind just got darker every year up until 2013/2014 after effective medications got my psychotic symptoms more under control.

I’m going to write some more (about my great 2016 vacation events and places) on both blogs.

I hope you feel well on this July day of 2025. Thanks for reading ❤

I’ve written about this before on several dailyprompt answers so I just say it was three different regions and many towns in Finland and Scandinavia; both in far-Southern (Agder) and far-Northern (Finnmark) county in Norway. The Finnish region was along the border to Sweden so we pass border several times during our several days trip.

First our visit to the nearest hospital in other town on the coastal region on an island. Finnmark county natives know what this is about very well but I think it’s very strange how the largest town in Finnmark has no hospital. And the roads are frequently closed due to strong weather during winter season which is a big part of our environment. It’s a sensitive issues sometimes because the large town is seen as demanding special treatments but that’s wrong. We have MRI machines here now but no hospital.

The weather condition there that day was very good, it’s s different environment with less trees and more strong winds especially some local places during winter season. We went up a path to a higher level area so we could see town clearly from our position. I love this small town and I lived there for several years in youth and young adult years.

Second our visit to Agder county in far-South areas, we have plenty of living relatives and ancestors living in Agder regions from the Eastern parts to some degree and all to the far Western area very significantly. Rogaland also. It was great weather and comfortable temperature in Kristiansand that year, it’s a beautiful place to be visiting and the local Norwegian dialect is so dear to us my grandfather was far-Southern and he had three living brothers when it was over. We learn so much from my mothers uncle about the history of our family even back to 1900s.

The third adventures were travelling with many other fellow genealogy researchers and the different Kven groups like our towns community.

We had a really awesome summer trip to Northern Finland and Sweden along the Torne River border between the towns. I love being in Finnish local stores and trying to understand the price of something they have Euro currency not our Norwegian kroner currency plus everything is at least written in Finnish language which I unfortunately know not well enough yet to understand immediately without using memory.

Btw I’m of significant Kven ethnicity and culture even though the State policies were very harsh on Kven and Sámi speaking peoples, it’s name is ‘Norwegianization’ or in Norwegian language ‘Fornorskning’. That’s how we lost the languages of their generation to next, and I’m learning some Kven language books for education in our Kven group in this town.

Thanks for listening from my vacation journey ❤

Cannot remember if I’ve written this in previous answer so I’m just going to maybe write again about this. My favourite blankets are of merino wool and so wonderful; especially on very cold winter days at minus 20 to minus 30 degrees celsius. So I wear several blankets together along with organic type Earl Grey hot tea, and don’t need that much electric heat turned on with the indoor oven. (Btw, for some reason I’m rambling more than in my usual state of mind? Or am I a little delusional about my post?). And in minus 30 it’s absolutely needed with blankets and winter sleep duvet (often called ‘vinterdyner’ in local Norwegian terms), there is good in using other methods of keeping warm.

Now it’s summer season here and I love an iced tea tomorrow along with the alcohol and energy drinks together. Thank you for visiting ❤

And enjoy July to the fullest ❤

Note; I know I’ve written about this several times, I just wanted to answer it again. And I had some wonderful green tea with pomegranate, the lovely weather conditions right now too.

Absolutely I would wear my Sami boots from Topaz brand along with dark blue colour jeans and my favourite yellow colour hoodie with blue print design. Most of the year it’s winter in my county of Finnmark so the clothing needs to be winter wearable mostly. I love the two pairs of seal hide boots I bought earlier in January/February this year.

In summer time we most often have temperature around 15°C (celsius, 59°F, Fahrenheit), and quite rarely 30°C (86°F). I would put on my sleeveless hoodies on the very warm days. Okay, so that’s what I would wear most of the year. Hoodies, jeans and some awesome winter season boots.

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I’m soon 32 years old and I have a couple of strong interests as part of my life. I’m passionate about my origins in Arctic region and I feel this is not being an authority but I really care about our cultures and ancestry, diversity in languages. I do genealogy research on my online MyHeritage family tree, have been doing this since age 14 in 2007. I also have learned some about DNA-tests and genetics from this interest in origins and finding genetic relatives.

It’s easier to write about what I’m decent at than what I’m truly an authority. I’m good with research on topics that I care about, such as my medications and different social causes I’m very passionate about. I have strong points in reading astrology texts and thinking on different depth depending on my mood.

I’m an Aspergian and some of my symptoms are actually useful in learning about the different subjects I’m interested in. I know from my own experiences what it’s like to have voice-hearing and other experience with psychosis and insight.

And I’m still learning through experience and research, so it’s always getting more deep and interesting.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤