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Describe your life in an alternate universe.

Yes, I think of this song always to be honest I’m crying now. Hardstyle music ❤

I’m vulnerable and open with the whole world through my blogs. In the alternate universe I’m still me inside just look absolutely exactly like my AI avatars that are based on my true appearance and to be my best version of self. I have different conditions related to psychiatry, neurology and pain. I’m diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia with mood disorder and moderate-severe Asperger syndrome. I’m a Sámi woman; one of different Arctic indigenous peoples of Northern Scandinavia, Finland and North Western Russia. I’m a Kven Finnish woman also.

I drink too much alcohol cider mostly due to I’m very sad and deeply wounded inside, my Chiron (astrology) influence is that of the (wounded) healer qualities also. I was bullied throughout my youth. I live with chronic pain, severe in degree.

In the alternate universe I would be myself without apologies for being different. I’m really emotional inside now. I don’t know if it’s relevant to this prompt. I’m thankful for every readers of this blog and I really truly mean it.

What are you curious about?

I’m from Norway and around 1/4th of my ancestry is far-Southern or South Western regions Norwegian, from Agder and Rogaland counties. My ancestors travel by the sea some generations back and we have strong connection with boat life and travel as well in our times. I have ancestors from Southern Sweden and from Trøndelag in Norway, some were likely Romani people or called ‘tatere’ by local Norwegians.

But I’m also really curious about our deep roots, what countries our Reisende ancestors were influenced by or where they came from many centuries back. Our forefathers likely spoke Rodi language and it’s very interesting learning more about, what influence from Norwegian, German and Yenish languages.

So I’m deeply curious about my Reisende ethnicity ancestors and the culture that is part of our roots, just like my Northern region origins are part of my identity as well.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2022

what is the most money I have spent on a meal?

It’s likely it was take out food, it can quite easily cost 1000 Norwegian kroner if we ordered several warm food types, lactose-free oreo shake, cakes and soda-like rusbrus. Yes, some takeout place we can have alcohol together with it. For the adult of course.

Well, as I said on other blog last year most of the online news are hidden mostly by a pay wall. This is what capitalism is about, make money for public information.

but I’ll find something to write about. I also think every article has a meaning to it if we look at it from a certain perspective, so there are not completely actual entirely uninteresting news.

so this is about a possible future mine in Repparfjord in Finnmark county and reindeer husbandry, I don’t agree much with the author point of view because I’m not against reindeer husbandry and I’m supporting environmental conscious topics. Honestly I think it’s very biased against reindeer husbandry and pro-mining. So it’s relevant to our society in terms of the local debate over mines and reindeer.

answer to dailyprompt-2026

what would I sell?

The perfect place to meet for rebels and the downtrodden we fight for. Books, fashion, true community and let me make this very clear: awesome music will be playing on the sound system inside the buildings 🤩❤️

Describe one habit that brings you joy.

This is about beverages. Several.

I used to have a heavy energy drink habit. For ten years from 2008 to 2018 I was using every day all year. Not just one little can or two. I had 4 to 6 big cans every day, at least. When I was on travel out of our town I could lose count of how many and only notice my head felt like it was up in a cloud. Like the physical sensation of being high up, and enjoy it. I honestly miss it now.

I began drinking them at age 15 and kept my habit up for ten years. When I turn 18 and had my first taste of alcohol I was basically ‘hekta’ as we call it where I live. It’s like you feel 13 times better than just one apart. Escape from my mind. High on music, so much better sounding and pleasure emotionally. Energy and nice tastes.

It was great I got things done when I had it. The big trouble was when I ran out of supply and it was Sunday (I’m from Norway, every normal size grocery store is closed on Sundays) or in several days holidays like Easter and the Christmas days.

The feeling of running out of supply is headaches even before they arrive in the morning. Joint pain and muscle ache. Even dysphoria and worse voices in my head than usual. When I woke up it was basically the first things on my mind: more. I walked to the nearest grocery store looking for that feeling. Carry 10 kilos of drinks nearly every day. Monster. Red Bull. But the real Queen of Energy for me currently is Battery Pearberry and Grevens fruit champagne cider.

Yeah, a combination of caffeine, vitamins, taurine and sweet-tasting alcoholic beverages.

I don’t know if this post is at all relevant to the question asked, really. But this is my story of joy and pain.

Thank you for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2019

one habit that brings me joy?

I really enjoy drinking hot tea, both herbal teas and Darjeeling, oolong, Earl Grey and many others. During long winters it keeps me warm and when wearing soft blankets it’s very comforting in the Darkness of December month when (btw, we have 28° celsius and very heavy thunderstorm right now. My mothers dog is barking a lot upstairs) the polar nights from end of November to mid January here; no sunrise, no sunshine, we have twilight hours at noon and complete darkness rest of the day.

So tea and blankets are one of my habits that bring me joy ❤ Thanks for listening, and gods of thunder really rule the nights. Or the afternoon. From me, Torunn Ingvild to all of you;

Love from the North ❤

What are you curious about?

Being of Sámi origins and I must mention my blog name cloudberry/cloudB nature is meaning a lot to my deep values as an indigenous peoples.

I’m curious about several many topics but I’m mentioning this in particular because it’s big part of our cultural identity and tradition.

We use cloudberry in dessert and jam/syltetøy in particular. We gather it outside in wild nature and make our own types of products for use in family gatherings like birthday celebration or other events like confirmation of teenage youth.

I’m not of close family reindeer husbandry heritage like some traditional families in inner Finnmark; Finnmarksvidda where most are native speakers of North Saami language and many live the region traditional lifestyle.

I’m a city Saami culture person with strong Sea Saami origins my ancestors living in Northern fjords and in coastal regions by the open sea. But I have deep roots in Finnmarksvidda; especially in Kautokeino in Norway and Karesuando in Northern Finland/Sweden.

So cloudberry delights and the strong heritage of our family environment passed from generation to next for centuries.

Thank you very much for reading ❤

Dogs or cats?

The mutual trust it’s a communication and chemistry thing. It isn’t important the cats or dogs aspects, it’s how we relate to the particular being we interact with. I watch in distances around strangers dogs and I’m careful around all animals because they are vulnerable to misunderstanding from any human.

My mother has an elderly little black dog that we all see as dear family member and she is so funny; not like ordinary dogs are funny, but hilarious. 

I like cats also my grandmother had a three leg cat he was originally a stray cat but Dyrebeskyttelsen (animal protection?) and my cousin the volunteer help him recover from severe injury so he could thrive well.

I care for animal welfare and animal rights, we never can forget the suffering of many pets neglect or abuse.

Nature is sacred to our people the Saami (an Arctic, mostly European origin peoples with some Siberian and Mongolian, like North Asian more further back in roots also) that indigenous to Norway, Sweden, Finland and Russia.

So I love both dogs and cats in addition to caring about biodiversity and plantlife. Thank you for reading ❤ ❤

What’s the story behind your nickname?

I have three given names. One of the three is Synnøve. ‘Sun gift’ or ‘gift of the Sun’ it means in Norse and I like being a Synnøve. But what is my nickname? I have many through the years, some nice and some cruel. I was ‘Sleeping Beauty’, I was ‘Jay’, I was ‘Seven of Nine’ and many more.

Sometimes I was the stereotypical “good girl” and did what the others told me to do. My classmates when they play nice called me ‘snill‘ and being snill (kind) is a truly good thing, it should not be ever used as insults. But over some years of experience I was more of a rebel, I define my own identity as a teenager learning about the world. Then after many years of being bullied, psychotic and suffering I went to the dark side.

As soon as I got to legally buy rusbrus and cider I was drinking the way Aspergian alcoholics do; alone listening to music and binge-drinking. I could call myself ‘Razzpergian’! But at my core I’m not the bad girl person I sometimes feel like being to make things okay, that at least I’m a real ‘bad girl’ not someone that needed to be better than she was. But in truth I actually just want to be comfortable living as myself in this society.

Thank you for reading ❤

Write about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.

This isn’t much about random topic with strangers, but I wanted to share with you.

I want to mention something that someone else did for me as well. My same-aged friend helped me feel better after a especially difficult day when I had an accident at school and the bullies were so much worse than usual. My friend made me feel much less alone in this, didn’t mock me for my very embarrassing episode at recess. Just the pure kindness and support for me in that emotional pain and feelings of shame. I was so lucky to be friends with good people caring about me no matter what.

In addition I show the same kindness and loyalty for my friends. They were not allowed by parents to go on days school trips in other places due to the family religion. They told me to give other explain to classmates about why she wasn’t on the trip. I really tried to follow her words in actions and that felt great being loyal to my foreign friends.

I love being helpful and kind with others. They all deserve it so much when we are fellow human beings with real wounds and real compassion for others. Thank you for listening ❤

Was today typical?

It’s getting really warm tomorrow, up to 29° celsius and I’m both inside and outside then, drinking enough cold drinks. However I enjoy really the psychoactive beverages during summer time, our winter time is very long here in Finnmark so the summer is truly a blessing.

Right now I’m having a Monster energy drink and listening to different music I like a lot. Btw, Finnish is an awesome language 💙🇫🇮

I guess it’s so far both typical and atypical, I enjoy the weather conditions even inside in my living room. The Monster is cold from kjøleskapet/the fridge and my painkillers really helped me today, much less pain than usual now.

I love today so far ❤ ❤

I hope your days are very good and thanks for reading ❤

What traditions have you not kept that your parents had?

Yes, that’s right; new tradition. I have discovered so much through our family research that our real culture is more Finnish and Kven than Norwegian. We are significantly Sámi origins and it shows in our family culture, the way Saami raise children and parent relationships. But mostly Kven. The strenght and determination, our Finnish sisu. The Kven sauna experience. Our quiet environment in the home that ethnic Norwegians don’t share in culture. Love in actions, less words. Humor mostly the Finnish way. I have Kven costume and sami boots plus my modern Arctic indigenous inspired boots from Topaz; one called Sami and other Amundsen. They are awesome shoes, so warming in cold weather days of -20° celsius.

I love my roots and the State and Norwegian society tried to make us real ethnic Norwegians, but culture survive; some part you cannot erase.

I’m a proud Kven ❤ ❤ ❤

Was today typical?

Yes, that’s no typical day! I have short hair and I used to have it very long when I was child and teenager, even at age 28 years! But I like mostly having shorter hair. The experience is always unique in the salon, I’m going to be in a quiet space and have the soft blankets around me. It’s raining a lot today in this town, we are soon getting really high temperatures like 27° celsius and sunny days. It’s good with rainfall some days.

Happy end of July to all reading ❤

Was today typical?

Today we are blessed with lovely weather here. I want to spend time outside in the sunshine. The summer season and the vacation is wonderful time being with family members and I’m going to make this my top priority today and some weeks forward also and many are not as lucky as me in this way.

On different topics slightly;

I’m taking my painkillers now, my pain is severe and my mood needs to relief from pain to be honest about how wonderful life is a great gift we all get to have. I’m feeling the difficult choices in my heart. What to say to readers when I cannot respond right, when they don’t feel heard by me.

Wonderful day to you everyone reading ❤

(another) answer to dailyprompt-2014

Today wasn’t that typical. We had some thunderstorm very close to our home and a random patterns of rainfall. We had nice takeout food and I took every medications I am supposed to take daily and as needed. I’m on my sleeping pills at the moment, Stilnoct or zolpidem it’s called. We did a lot of house chores and tidy the rooms. I liked today as overall experience. Now it’s soon time for sleep and dreaming.

Good night, everyone, even if it’s morning to you now ❤

How would you describe yourself to someone?

Well, I’ve already posted several answers to this prompt, but here is another:

My name is Torunn Ingvild and I’m from Northern Norway, I’m very soon 32 years old and I’m diagnosed with severe mental illness and Asperger syndrome. I have different ethnicities in my family history and family cultures; a lot Finnish, Kven, Sámi and Norwegian. I’m passionate about genealogy and other research.

In the summer season I enjoy a cold rusbrus/alcopop or hard cider and a couple cans of energy drinks outside in our garden. I enjoy wearing strong colours in clothing and people like it when I wear something that express my sunny type moods. I’m strongly Leo influenced (Mercury, Chiron; both conjunct my Sun) in astrology along with very strong Virgo (Sun, Ascendant/Rising sign) in 12th house and a Sagittarius Moon plus a strong Pluto in Scorpio sign both within 4th house.

I like having a cup of hot tea during the long winters here and wearing merino wool blankets on the cold days like -20° celsius or lower. I like being truly outside for some time during my days, seeing nature in beauty, feeling the breeze of wind through my hair and the scent of wonder of summer after rainfall. I really like hoodies in different colours and they are comfortable.

I enjoy writing, listening to different genres music like black metal and dubstep, grunge and hardstyle etc osv. I like reading different kinds of texts and blogs about anything that the writer is passionate about and we connect over the Internet even from very different cultures from other world regions. I love diversity and my childhood best friends were non-European origins refugees mostly, so thankful for my good friends helping me feel better despite being often bullied. I’m also still here among the living due to my amazing family and some good support system around me. My medications are necessary for me to function in life, I take also anticonvulsants for temporal lobe epilepsy.

This blog helps me express and reflect on my life and the response from you all is a big part of why I keep writing. Even today with my heavy migraine I really feel like this is an escape from the agony along with my cool, dark room.

Thanks everyone for the read ❤ ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2016

how would I describe myself to someone who cannot see me?

I’m not certain what reason is they cannot see me, but if they are seeing (seende) I’m going to describe some of my appearance.

I have described my appearance somewhat in other dailyprompt recently, but here are some of my features again; I have dark brown straight thick slightly coarse texture hair, green/hazel colour eyes and I’m petite height at 156 cm/5’1. I’m of Northern European origins mostly, especially of indigenous Saami, Finnish, Kven and Norwegian (from Northern Norway and from Agder sørlandet in the far-Southern regions), my Agder/Rogaland county ancestry include also Traveller/Reisende cultures. Me and many in my family are DNA-tested as well.

about my personality; I’m introspective, curious, very sensitive, have a little bit strange but real sense of humor, a creative side, like to listen more than speaking in offline conversations.

my astrology; I’m a double Virgo with Moon in Sagittarius and a strong Leo influence, my Mercury is in Leo in 12th house and close conjunct my Chiron in Leo plus my early Virgo Sun, all in 12th house. They are rulers of my chart due to my Virgo Ascendant/Rising sign, so I’m strongly Leo influenced. My Sagittarius Moon is within 4th house and an important influence on my astrology is Pluto in Scorpio from 4th house exactly opposite my Taurus Midheaven, it forms aspects to my Moon, Mars, Venus, Chiron, Saturn and Mercury.

about my diagnoses; I’m diagnosed with severe mental illness and Asperger syndrome and I have temporal lobe epilepsy. I hear voices frequently, I suffer from delusions and strong paranoia, I’m having delusions of grandiose nature and I struggle with different schizo-obsessive and schizo-bipolar features. I don’t have mild disorder, I have been in psychiatric hospital several times due to my illness.

my history; I’m soon 32 years old and I don’t know my father well because he is a poly-drug user with addiction to alcohol, medications and illegal substances. He had a lot of childhood and youth adversity and we had to leave him in 1995 after very difficult times. I have a great family and they help me cope with life. I had childhood and youth adversity mostly through being target of moderate bullying in my school years. My Asperger wasn’t diagnosis before 2011. My best friends were extremely helpful in making me feel better, together we made each other very happy and be genuinely thankful to each other.

I like writing about different topics related to my life and interests, so I apologize if it was too much or not exactly related to the question asked. Thank you for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2012

if I could bring back one dinosaur which one would it be?

I just want to write about birds because they are related to the dinosaurs in some features and origins. I’m around wild birds every time I’m going outside and I cannot imagine life without birds. So maybe the past isn’t truly as distant as we think it can sometimes?

If you won two free plane tickets, where would you go?

If I could I would visit not only the main tourist spots but those reminding me of home. I’ve heard they have some fjords in New Zealand and there must be small towns in Canada that somewhat similar to my experience living in the districts regions of Norway in the Northern parts. And I believe in experience different cultures within a country so I would like to meet Maori in New Zealand and First Nations and Inuit persons in Canada. I want to learn from my trip in all regions and every experience will be useful to my understanding of the World around us all. Maybe the Norwegians and Saami are considered kind of unusual or exotic in distant countries? If so that would also be interesting to me.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2020

I wrote about this on other blog last year so I’m mostly repeating what I said then

1 blogging

2 reading

3 writing in notebooks

4 eating good meals

5 drinking cold beverages

6 drinking warm beverages

7 talking with my family members

8 talking with my friends

9 play with my mothers little dog

10 listening to dubstep

11 listening to drum&bass

12 listening to grunge and post grunge

13 listening to different metal genres

14 being silly sometimes, including here

15 meeting my friends to drive around town together

16 research my family history

17 being outside during summer time Midnight sun evenings ❤

18 trying to speak Finnish language with my Northern Norway accent

19 looking outside to our amazing view

20 wearing blankets any time ❤

21 getting good quality sleep

22 drinking tea; either hot or iced, herbal or Earl Grey

23 wearing my Arctic boots Amundsen and Sami during really cold winter season days

24 getting likes/views/comments on my blogs

25 reading other blogs

26 trying creative writing of some kind

27 contemplate life in introspective work

28 trying out effective medications that really change my life for the better

29 thinking in lyrics

30 answer dailyprompt

What’s the story behind your nickname?

I’ve answer this several times but I need to write more about the story of why I got the nickname “Seven of Nine’. I was a child during the time Star Trek: Voyager was on air on Norwegian television. I had many traits in common with the character Seven of Nine in large part due to my undiagnosed moderate Asperger syndrome and other significant degree severe psychiatric conditions like early onset schizophrenia and bipolar component.

Seven of Nine was different also, she had a personality similar to mine in many ways. Her history of being part of the Borg was a major aspect of her story and also I really appreciate later in life how my best friend saw my traits as a positive thing referring to a special character in Star Trek ❤

I didn’t understand why I struggled so much with life before getting my autism spectrum condition diagnosed in early 2010s in late teenage years. But now in my early 30s I feel much more comfortable with my identity and living life even with my struggles of severe mental illness.

About my passion for television series and documentaries;

I am so thankful for my friends and also my love for Star Trek I develop early in life from this series and Seven of Nine was a large influence on my life. I love watching different types of series and interesting documentaries also. I mention a Norwegian documentary film about the Norwegian Travellers of far-Southern regions called sometimes ‘skøyere’ and the documentary title is ‘Folket som forsvant’ it’s from year 2022, so it’s recently made. I have far-Southern roots and our family has Traveller origins very likely, so it’s personal to our family culture, our identity.

Thanks for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2014

Was today typical?

today is young, but yesterday was interesting. I was sleeping late into the day and this was due to taking sleeping pills little bit late in the night. Then I took my other medications including my strong painkillers and was able to function well. I was writing on my blogs and speaking with my family members. I love my family and I’m looking forward to meeting my good friend soon.

At night to today I had a really strange dream about my cousin being extremely critical of me and she isn’t that way at all in waking reality. Good-natured and she cares about animals a lot and being involved with Dyrebeskyttelsen

Today I woke up slightly late and took my morning medications. I have severe pain so I need to take strong medicines for this including painkillers and anticonvulsants, I also have TLE, a type of epilepsy. I have Asperger syndrome. I’m not a native speaker of English language, btw. I live in Norway and in the far-Northern region in particular, in Finnmark county. I just mention in case of confusion over my written English if you haven’t read my other posts before. I’m currently drinking cold vitamin water to help with my pain from the conditions. The brand is Vitamin Well and it’s apple flavour, I really like it. They sell it at our local Bunnpris grocery store.

I’m looking forward to the rest of today, writing about different topics and my experiences here on my blogs. I was called nickname Seven of Nine (a character from Star Trek: Voyager) in my childhood years by my friends. One of my given names is Synnøve, it means ‘sun-gift’ and it’s a name of Norse origin. Today the weather here is overcast with clouds and some slightly rainfall and also wonderful light now.

Thanks for listening ❤

What’s the story behind your nickname?

From one of my former given names ‘Johanne’ I got the nickname ‘Jay’, it was also the story of my passion for electronic dance music and deejays.

I wish I had the courage to be a female DJ writing my own lyrics and making different melodies that resonates with people. I create music in my dreams, so maybe I can get there.

I have other nicknames as mentioned in other answers to this question, and I wanted to mention this part also. Btw I liked my old name and I still feel like it’s ‘me’ inside. My identity in Kven culture from my great-grandmother named Johanne and my history of being Jay.

But times change and I was ready to be living as an Ingvild, a Torunn and a Synnøve as my given names. My own chosen path, the mission in life.

Thanks for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2011

where would I go if I won two free plane tickets?

I would visit places in Canada and New Zealand. I’ve been living and visiting only Northern European countries in my current life. I have been wanting to see for myself how English speaking cultures are in real life experience. As may be known I’m from Norway and our culture is often more Scandinavian in nature, I’m heavily Finnish and Sámi influenced by heritage and family cultures. It would be quite different being a true outsider even though understand very well the language spoken.

And I often feel like I’m an outsider in Oslo, not about my autism spectrum condition or schizoaffective but like almost it’s a culture shock just being for a couple of hours on public transport like the especially the train or on the airport Gardermoen. We don’t have any trains in Troms county and Finnmark county. Some few places in Nordland county have trains, but otherwise none in Northern Norway.

I’m wondering how the natural environments are in these locations, I’m used to fjords and the coastal regions with the mountains and pine trees. I remember Northern Finland thick forests and oak trees in Agder county, exotic environment to us. I went outside today in the heat and sunshine it’s lovely but I’m happy to gwt home also, drinking pearberry type Battery energy drink in the Darkness of my firsr level ground apartment.

I hope to know more about our World out there and I would definitively visit if the tickets were free.. and the rest also for free!

thank you for reading my blog ❤

What strategies do you use to maintain your health and well-being?

I have answer before but here is some more.

Note: discussing some medical conditions and adversity of childhood and teenage years.

I read a lot different texts in different languages and I’m trying to learn Finnish language better.

Listening to my body when it’s telling me I need to do things differently, btw during my childhood and youth years I had chronic bedwetting and also frequently wet myself at school so they made fun of my embarrassing accidents and also bullied me quite often. I eventually after turning 13 years because also of my heavy cycles along got (free) aid to avoid this from happening visible in my jeans, thank goodness for Norwegian health-care systems helping teenage girls suffering from these conditions. It felt kind of strange wearing protection as a teenager, but yet I’m so thankful for it.

I write blog to express my thoughts in words and post music videos to share my passion for life and the lyrics important to me, memories and emotions. I eat healthy foods and try my best to stay active physically and socially, I enjoy the summer time when the short time we have it. During winter seasons (three types in our native Sámi culture) I stay warm during cold days (like under -20°C, some days -30°C) drinking the hot tea and wear soft merino wool blankets to feel comfortable and embrace my well-being fully.

I’m happy today, and I hope this was okay texts. Have a wonderful day fellow terrestrial beings ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2010

that’s what I was called often, the short weird one. They kept repeating the word ‘kort’ so one day when we had a lessons where we could talk about important topics I spoke about how it was bothering me a lot. It was a part of my Asperger syndrome that I sometimes could not understand why they bullied me so much, I got diagnosed not before age 17 years so in 4th grade I didn’t get the right help in school to deal with mean girls and the male bully named Kim. I mostly disliked school because of the bullies and I couldn’t concentrate on my school work, very lucky I was sharp and intelligent by nature because that really helped me learn despite this quite difficult time.

so my nickname was related to my short height; I’m of Arctic origins unlike my classmates who were unusually tall Nordic kids with strong xenophobic tendency from local town culture.

thanks for listening to my story and have a good day everyone ❤

It’s all about how they teach. In my case it needs to be not too easy for my own level and I like a challenge sometimes. They believe in my potential and are easy to relate with, passionate about their vocation and inspired thought.

The important aspects are also defined by what makes a teacher not helpful; if I know the person hates me and especially if it’s based on my ethnic roots and/or diagnoses I feel differently and think more for myself than listening to empty words and judgement based on stereotypical views.

I’m planned for a visit to our largest city in Northern Norway that is Tromsø where my parents lived in early 1990s when I was born along with visiting the town Narvik in Nordland county, one of the places I lived in childhood and youth years.

I want to visit Finland in different regions of the country, my ancestors came from mostly Northern Finland and Eastern Finland like Savonia, Karelia and what is now part of Russia. Visit the Capital City of Helsinki and as said previous time Oulu and Kemi. I liked visit Pello in year 2016, I’m coming back next time ❤

Portugal, Spain and Russia. Sweden, Denmark and Western regions of Norway esp in Rogaland county. Countries like Mongolia, Tunisia and India if travel outside of Europe. So many places to see and experience, anywhere on planet Earth is a paradise. Thanks for visiting ❤

What bothers you and why?

The stereotypical image of bisexual people as confused and hypersexual, impulsive decisions.

The idea that trans people are more narcissistic than the other groups in modern society.

The notion that female alcoholics are not to be taken equally seriously as actually addicted to as male alcoholics. (Pardon my own English)

The morally wrong belief that autistic people are not real humans and that we have no soul inside.

All are bothering me because it’s not true and it’s plain false. It’s also very unfair and hypocritical toward other human beings of many vulnerable groups in society.

So those are four of the topics that bothers me.

Thanks for listening, reading and remember we all truly belong to the Spirit world whether we are straight or queer, white or a person of colour.

answer to dailyprompt-2010

what’s the story of my nickname?

my blogs name has a story, I had a profile on a website using the nickname cloudB online. Unfortunately I was kicked out, but it got me where I’m online right now so nothing is meaningless.

It’s from my ancient roots in Northern Scandinavia and Finland; we use cloudberries as part of our cultures, my family like to make cloudberries in dessert or jam/(syltetøy) so it’s deep in our roots.

And I wish you happy mid week from here in the Arctic regions ❤

Answer to dailyprompt-2006

I come from a musical family and environment. It’s part of my core identity to listen to and appreciate the message within the sounds and lyrics, my mind thrives on music and other creative expressions and experiences.

I listen to music when I write, tidy, contemplate and other inner world work. Reading I can do if the music genre and particular track is good for the topic and gentle encouragement to go beyond the surface, beyond the usual expectations.

I listen to different genres of music depending on my current mood and mental state, even in sadness happy music can be heard even if not felt as deeply inside as I would like. Music is awesome and profound to me and my brother is a true metal genre musician, producer, song writer and vocalist. I’m so proud of my older brother for his passion and talent in music, he sings and writes in most often our in common native Norwegian language.

Thank you all ❤

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

I should just post what comes to mind when I write and be genuine about who I am. Often people appreciate honest expressions more than we believe they are, I’m trying to just be me and not the person I want others to see me as.

Btw, Noisecontrollers with Give You Bassline

(I love it, a great hardstyle genre track)

What would you change about modern society?

All of us deserve some real privacy and it’s not okay to be above it and be like a sociopath intrusive to others space and freedom. Good times are yours it doesn’t to belong to everyone. We should share things we are meaning good saying. I have this psychotic disorder and I dislike intrusive acts in general, I leave other people business alone because of respect for privacy, the other person and my self respect, my conscious values

Idk if you can read my posts, real space for all people and true respect toward all living beings.

answer to dailyprompt-2006

Listening to music when I write or physical work like walking outside or to tidy in my home, I like different genres of music including this type of rock music. Here’s some lyrics from ‘Animal I have Become’

‘So what if you can see the darkest side of me, help me believe, it’s not the real me’

I say I think in song lyrics along with the sounds so this comes to mind, lyrics are part of my life in-depth experience.

What do you listen to while you work?

I can fall asleep while listening to hardstyle, I love the rhythms of the psytrance music sub-genres like hitech progressive darkpsy and other. I’m most liking dubstep or psytrance for writing and introspective work. Other times black metal albums and individual songs playing on deep journey into my darkest side prepare for spirituality type dreams with the shadows inside.

And Norwegian. Usic definitively I listen to for familiar culture and my roots in Norwegian ethnicity and language. I’m on Stilnoct now, soon sleep some.

answer to dailyprompt-2009

what strategies do you use to maintain your health and well-being?

I do a couple of things. Taking my different medications is a part of my daily routine. They help me function in both inside and outer level in society to some degree. I write a lot, especially on these blogs and I choose topics based on my mental and emotional state of being. And I listen to music every day, often for several hours. These summer days it’s so good having cold drinks anywhere it’s not like extremely warm at all just around 20 degrees celsius outside perfect temperature actually. I keep active in some aspects of life, both socially and energetic type physical activities like walking fast up a steep hill carrying 10 kilos of beverages for… okay the last part wasn’t that healthy, I’m aware of it.

I think I’m actually thirsty so I need to trade for a can of just regular cola from upstairs, Sunday so every grocery stores are closed today. I’m kind of losing my mind right now. Happy end of week from Northern Norway ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2014

Was today typical?

Listening to hardstyle bootleg versions of Borgeous – Invincible

I need some cheer up mood so I listen to happy music to feel better. Both are on my blog if you wish to listen yourself, it’s a type of electronic dance music/EDM genre. I like the lyrics ❤

it’s summer time now, I enjoy a cider in the evening and some writing as well. It’s soon the times of many birthdays in our family in August and September months, including my own birthday I’m turning 32 years this year.

The Darkness I’m not letting it pull me down too much, this summer is special and I’m really lucky living in comfortable temperatures in summer time. It’s around 20°C outside, a lovely evening and truly great weather, real bright sunshine all night (Midnight sun here until very end of July) and I just love some cold drinks along a wonderful summer day ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2014

Was today typical?

I like the song ‘Reden’ by Tokio Hotel so I try some German in the title along one of my names. I was supposed to learn more German language in videregående but I was too psychotic to study anything and wasn’t on medications before young adult.

Btw, I’m an Aspergian/autistic so this is important to mention some time in my posts for new people not knowing my history of diagnosis and treatments.

so far this day is slightly different from usual, I wish I had more to drink tbh. I’m again not actually alcoholic, the more I say that it seems strange right? I like our summer time light and sunshine and when temperature is just perfect both inside and outside.

I remember my teenage school many video projects with us being actors in the films we made, it was so funny and deeply painful both same time. I’m reminded of my teenage years usual teen angst all of teenagers have, of the bullies and the severe psychosis untreated and not aware of even in youth psychiatry in knowing my conditions.

Okay so that’s part of it, but not everything.

Så faen altså, har bare lyst å skrive om det jeg hiver innpå når jeg trenger det, en pause fra psykosen og når føler meg utilpass i livet:

Smirnoff Ice; very nice.

Battery Blue; I love you.

I’m the Razzpergian.

(Ja, Bacardi Razz og Asperger syndrom. Helt logisk, ikke sant?)

I wish happy days for everyone ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2007

What would I change about modern society?

note: I’m from Norway and I don’t know the united states of America or Western countries like United Kingdom or Australia conditions that well from the inside perspective. But we have some of the culture wars a little in Norway also. Especially around the immigration, ethnicity and Sametinget.

the culture wars are not really about minorities mostly, it’s a way to prevent us from class struggle and uprising against the Ruling class of the rich and those who profit from ecocide and wars. It’s not in my name that they use the downtrodden and minority groups that some I am a part of and others are part of my little social circle, especially non-European origins refugees, immigrants and the immigrants children growing up in Norway. I really am against Progress party politicians and the use of these prejudice against minority persons of different kinds. The rhetoric bothers me a lot for big reasons, I’m a left-leaning anarchist and growing up in leftist family culture going back generations.

I am of Sámi origins and I’m allowed to vote in political elections to Sametinget due to my recent ancestors spoke Sámi languages and I identify as Sámi in my life. But it’s getting more very toxic political environment around our identity as Sámi because some media, politicians and ordinary people are so divide oriented in these topics. It’s harming our culture tbh how it’s a target of social control and identity police.

I don’t have much strong understanding of why people gets very passionate about these topics and not on real war or our destructive acts toward mother Earth.

another part is the unity of our human beings and how we can work together once we truly clear see how the Ruling class is treating everyone else in all of our society.

I’m really hoping we can get focus on human rights and the topics important to class struggle and revolution.

thank you for listening and for the read, fellow members of human nature ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2013

how would I describe myself to someone?

I would describe my appearance, my interests, my experiences in life and all the little things that are unique to me. My cultures and ethnicity, my family, my psychiatric conditions and political ideology. And my three given names.

Here is an example;

I am Synnøve/Ingvild/Torunn and I’m a woman in my early 30s. I’m from far-Northern Norway and my ethnic background is mixed Norwegian, Sámi, Kven, Finnish, in addition of Romani (tatere) plus the indigenous Norwegian Traveller (skøyere, further back Yenish peoples of Central Europe) and some Swedish origins in recent generations. I have quite thick straight hair and a little coarse in texture in dark brown colour, hazel/green colour eyes and I measure at 156 centimeters in height. I’m passionate about genealogy, DNA-tests, genetic genealogy research, far-left political ideology, astrology and diversity in different life areas. I have a Virgo Ascendant/Rising sign. I’m also autistic, I have temporal lobe epilepsy and I’m diagnosed with the severe mental illness of schizoaffective/schizophrenia plus mood disorder. I had some difficult times growing up, especially being bullied. I love listening to music and writing.

Thank you for listening, comrade/fellow terrestrial ❤ ❤

What foods would you like to make?

Note: This is not my own image, I found it online.

I like kebab and I like reindeer meat, so it’s something I would like to make myself without paying so much for it for the fast food aspects.

It’s good to my mind that we are even open to more diversity in food including Sámi traditional types. I’m very thankful for foreign friends and other cultures influence society in ways that we didn’t know before.

And if new to my blog I’m of part Sámi indigenous origins and I know core Sámi regions people in everyday life even though I’m not of the people speaking North Saami language in true free conversations.

Most of us, at least in my home town between the coast and the Mountains, are actually quite mixed background going back many centuries of good relations between the Sámi, Finnish, Kven, Norwegian, Swedish etc.

Note: this is not my own image

Many of my ancestors herd reindeer and some were Mountain Sámi group. Many were Sea Sámi group and at least in one family census record from coastal regions show they had own reindeer on their land. I don’t know if that was common or rare at the time of the census (folketelling) being done.

So I would love to make my own reindeer kebab.

Thank you for looking, reading and have a wonderful summer night ❤