Norwegian language

What is my inner world like?

I mentioned my inner world in previous post and that’s where I live nearly all day (and night!) I remember things good and difficult both so it’s like I mention in other blog both Light and Darkness inside my world. I live in an almost underground environment, the base of our house on the ground. It’s the amazing view that anchors me in the present moment. The local natural environment is a very big part of my experience. Midnight Sun and the dark times of polar nights. It’s again the inner world related also to my astrology; a 12th house Sun and 4th house Moon/Pluto along with a lot of Leo, Virgo, mostly Scorpio and some Sagittarius influence in these water houses. And the darkness is pitch black raw and often emotionally difficult times. Voice-hearing and paranoia used to rule my days for several years, but I’m still living so I get through anything life has brought me so far. But my connections are deep as well, I relate to my close ones on profound levels and we interact with honesty and respect. And I’ve seen and experienced more than my years can show. I like writing about inner world and dreaming. I don’t have children or partner so I’m actually not like my brother and cousins that have several children each, I don’t drive and I’m Asperger syndrome person also with temporal lobe epilepsy so I’m not driving myself. I live on young disabled (ung ufør in Norwegian) and yes I’m Norwegian speaking in everyday life. I’m kind of possibly rambling but it’s real words from my core this time on my blog. I’m connected with the Arctic conditions I live in today weather was summer like sunshine and unusually warm temperatures for september month. I have support network as part of my treatments, I speak with mental health workers often and we go on everyday events like café or local stores. We have a wonderful museum here, tourists visiting year round. I love my home town. Genealogy interests me a lot also, my roots are my guidance in how to answer questions despite my mental illness and strong autistic traits pf the Asperger syndrome diagnosis. My dreams are very vivid and immersive and I value my dreams almost as much as my waking reality.

Jeg elsker å skrive om ting jeg er opptatt av på et dypere nivå. Jeg kommer til å skrive mye om min indre verden også i andre blog posts.

Thank you very deeply for reading my mind represented in words here in this corner of the world wide web ❤ ❤

Dette er meg (med modifikasjoner)

Norwegian language text about me and some AI avatars based on myself:

Her er noen AI avatarer basert på meg. Jeg heter Torunn. Jeg er samisk, kvensk, finsk, svensk og norsk med noe sannsynlig innfødt arktiske aner/inuitt og i tillegg endel nordafrikansk (kanskje fra Tunisia) noe lengre tilbake i fortiden. Jeg er både nordlending og finnmarking. Jeg har mye aner i Troms fylke og vi bodde i Tromsø og på Senja tidligere. I tillegg fra Agder og Rogaland i nær familie. Jeg har tatt DNA-tester fra MyHeritage og 23andMe, jeg har forsket på slekt siden 2007. Jeg er fylt 32 år snart. Jeg har aner av de Reisende på sørlandet og av Romanifolket i Norge og Sverige.

Jeg har moderat-alvorlig grad av Asperger syndrom og liker å skrive 😂❤️

Synnøve likes her metal pitch black (and heavy)

note: I’m not certain of copyright or similar regulations. I want to follow the rules for music and I found on YouTube.

here are example of black metal from 2024

and black metal from 2023

Shame, abuse, bullying, questions and voices

What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.

I dislike when people are asking me if I was being bullied and if I have been shitting in my pants.

One time the bullying was especially hard, it truly hurts telling anyone about the words.

This is close to some real example of verbal abuse/bullying I often got from other teens after I had shit in my pants. It’s also very much like the abusive voice-hearing I still struggle with in my 30s. And I’m aware of the sensitive nature of the topics and it’s very childish in many ways. But I needed to express this in a way as it truly was.

‘Se! Torunn driter faktisk i buksa nå, har du med deg en ekstra jeans for sikkerhets skyld, Torunn?! Hun er seriøst en kort jævla tilbakestående nerd. Du har Asperger for faen, er du klar over det? Og du går akkurat som om du nettopp har bæsja i buksa, Torunn. Hun trenger tydeligvis å bruke bleier igjen. Hvem skal skifte på deg?! Hahahaha!’

Translated by Google translate into English:

‘Look! Torunn is actually shitting her pants now, do you have an extra pair of jeans with you just in case, Torunn?! She’s seriously a short fucking retarded nerd. You have Asperger’s for fuck’s sake, do you realize that? And you’re walking a lot like you just pooped your pants, Torunn. She clearly needs to wear diapers again. Who’s going to change you?! Hahahaha!’

Thanks for listening to my true stories ❤

Skrive litt på norsk (some Norwegian writing)

Været er helt crazy akkurat nå, det blåser mye ute og varmegrader nesten uten snø på bakken. Jeg har et par sko med brodder inkludert og det er veldig nyttig når forholdene tilsier det er spesielt viktig å unngå å skli og falle på isen.

Jeg er litt usikker på om legen kommer til å ringe meg i dag, trenger egentlig å ha en samtale om medisinene mine og annen behandling. Og jeg er i tillegg ganske sulten nå, vil helst ha en kebab og med en energidrikk til maten.

Håper dere har en fin dag ❤

Han der er ikke sånn som deg

Hører på Raga Rockers låt; Noen å hate

https://genius.com/Raga-rockers-noen-a-hate-lyrics

Some lyrics from the track: han der er ikke sånn som deg, fort deg bort og ta han, det er bare å følge fingeren som peker, dit hvor de voksne leker

(dette er om noe annet relatert til temaet, om en nær slektnings erfaringer)

dialekten, anderledes

inne i sin egen verden

mørkt hår, samiske trekk

såkalt løsunge, en uekte sønn av en same

som ikke visste han var av samisk ætt

venstrehendt og med kreative evner

men ignorert og pint av enhver elev som tror

de er mer norsk, mer verdt

enn han

drum&bass partay 💗💕

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

I played the mix I downloaded from YouTube on my old iPod with some good ear buds for music. And I actually love drum&bass; as it says below on the text I enjoy electronic dance music ❤

And I often create music in my dreams, maybe I should be a (female) DJ or something. Have a great time everyone ❤

Folket som forsvant

I’m going to watch this very soon along with my mother who has roots in Agder and Rogaland, of (very likely) part Reisende/skøyer ancestry as well as ethnic Norwegian origins. It’s on NRK’s online television (nett-TV) and it’s a documentary about this ethnicity and culture, how the State and ordinary people discriminated against them (or much better said; us), the languages and roots of this coastal region Traveller peoples.

Norwenglish

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

I always enjoy saying silly and strange things in my native Norwegian language in English sounding words and vice versa, I do this every day including offline. And please don’t fall in the trapp, it’s life-dangerous 🤔🤣 it’s not only-only and I miss Hammer party.

Julaften snart (about our Christmas Eve celebrations)

Nå er det 12 dager til julaften og mørketiden er i gang her for lenge siden. Vi feirer dagen på storslått vis hvert år, julemiddag og pynte på kirkegården, pakke opp gaver og være sammen med familien. Det er skjønnhet i mørket også, det er aldri helt uten mening.

Talking about the storm, my errands outside

Norwegian language:

Det er mye vind i dag, og jeg skal ut på noen ærend om et par timer. Gleder meg ikke akkurat til å være ute i dette været. Men kanskje vi endelig får orden i medisineringen min, det er viktig å se det positive i livet også ❤

Much of the same topics in English:

Thank you all for listening to my little words, there really is a storm outside here now. And I need some different regular/daily medications (esp other type of antipsychotic) and also my as-needed pharmaceuticals for the flare-ups of my conditions. Seeing the bright side of it ❤