Tag: Norway

What is my inner world like?

I mentioned my inner world in previous post and that’s where I live nearly all day (and night!) I remember things good and difficult both so it’s like I mention in other blog both Light and Darkness inside my world. I live in an almost underground environment, the base of our house on the ground. It’s the amazing view that anchors me in the present moment. The local natural environment is a very big part of my experience. Midnight Sun and the dark times of polar nights. It’s again the inner world related also to my astrology; a 12th house Sun and 4th house Moon/Pluto along with a lot of Leo, Virgo, mostly Scorpio and some Sagittarius influence in these water houses. And the darkness is pitch black raw and often emotionally difficult times. Voice-hearing and paranoia used to rule my days for several years, but I’m still living so I get through anything life has brought me so far. But my connections are deep as well, I relate to my close ones on profound levels and we interact with honesty and respect. And I’ve seen and experienced more than my years can show. I like writing about inner world and dreaming. I don’t have children or partner so I’m actually not like my brother and cousins that have several children each, I don’t drive and I’m Asperger syndrome person also with temporal lobe epilepsy so I’m not driving myself. I live on young disabled (ung ufør in Norwegian) and yes I’m Norwegian speaking in everyday life. I’m kind of possibly rambling but it’s real words from my core this time on my blog. I’m connected with the Arctic conditions I live in today weather was summer like sunshine and unusually warm temperatures for september month. I have support network as part of my treatments, I speak with mental health workers often and we go on everyday events like café or local stores. We have a wonderful museum here, tourists visiting year round. I love my home town. Genealogy interests me a lot also, my roots are my guidance in how to answer questions despite my mental illness and strong autistic traits pf the Asperger syndrome diagnosis. My dreams are very vivid and immersive and I value my dreams almost as much as my waking reality.

Jeg elsker å skrive om ting jeg er opptatt av på et dypere nivå. Jeg kommer til å skrive mye om min indre verden også i andre blog posts.

Thank you very deeply for reading my mind represented in words here in this corner of the world wide web ❤ ❤

Skrive litt på norsk (some Norwegian writing)

Været er helt crazy akkurat nå, det blåser mye ute og varmegrader nesten uten snø på bakken. Jeg har et par sko med brodder inkludert og det er veldig nyttig når forholdene tilsier det er spesielt viktig å unngå å skli og falle på isen.

Jeg er litt usikker på om legen kommer til å ringe meg i dag, trenger egentlig å ha en samtale om medisinene mine og annen behandling. Og jeg er i tillegg ganske sulten nå, vil helst ha en kebab og med en energidrikk til maten.

Håper dere har en fin dag ❤

I’m getting the Sami boots tomorrow 💗💕

I decided to buy the Topaz Sami boots in addition to my Amundsen high boots also from Topaz brand. Considering our lovely celebration of Samefolkets dag on 6th of February it’s very suitable for the symbolic expression of Sámi culture pride and they look really awesome wearing as well ❤

I hope your days are good everyone ❤

Hey there, father

We have a complex relation, I have much compassion with his struggles and his inner strenghts. But in some ways you could say we all have choices in life, and he made some unfortunate ones in his young adulthood that prevented him knowing me and being my true father image. So what I’m really relating to is only a self-created impression from my own experience and perspective, I don’t actually understand him as he really is. He has at least 4 planets in Pisces and it shows in his life experience and way of speaking. I also watched the 1975 TV series named ‘Benoni og Rosa’ recently to understand his childhood adversity and the severe bullying he experienced in 1970s and 1980s Northern Norwegian society. He is of Sámi origins significantly and the kids called him ‘Lapp’ constantly, he didn’t know of his true Sámi roots until 2008 when I research his biological father history and genealogy. He is clearly over 25% Sámi or Finnish according to DNA-testing and his overall appearance match this as well, dark and coarse hair, high/prominent cheekbones plus almond-like shape to his eyes. I look more like him than I do with my mother in many ways. I wish he didn’t have the substance use addictions and his issues with rage, he has a tendency to play with others mind and emotions I know sadly from own experience in teenage years.

And I hope his Christmas and New Years will bring him more joy than pain.

Thanks for reading this post ❤

they ask me for ID

yesterday when I was shopping cider at the local store they asked me for identification to confirm my age. I’m kind of used to it but this is funny because I’m really 31 years old and I think it’s because the way I dress like a teenager, I nearly always wear a hoodie and my AS likely make me seem younger maybe?

Thank you for asking, I think it can be a type of compliment really 😀 ❤