I wonder if astrology could be used in psychiatry to understand and treat different mental-health conditions based on the astrological features. It could possibly be used to aid in diagnosis as well.
Those are my thoughts on this topic today, I wish you very well and good weekend ❤
This is to add on to last answer, some more about my lost moments being connected to something deep and wonderful.
I need the break from regular mind, certain type music is the best combined with dark environment, closing my eyes to see clearly. Writing from the inner core, listening to lyrics deep or just for fun. I truly enjoy drinking different beverages of the kind of sweet kind like energy drinks and alcopop or cider, sometimes a little vodka or Bacardi Razz.
I value my dreams, my strange nighttime movies, I need them to cope with waking life. I’m of the introspective type, spend time in peace and in the real depth of thought and emotion. And I’m strongly influenced by my 12th house placements in astrology, the realm of dreaming and hidden collective awareness.
Being outside in Nature and the wonderful beauty of our view from the house we live in. In awe of the power of the weather and Light, Midnight sun is coming in May month; it’s beautiful and it’s both very special and also completely normal and expected to Northerners like me.
I lose myself in computer games, documentaries, tv series and watching movies. It’s special experience and I don’t do these activities often, so it’s extra intense to me.
thank you kind person reading ❤
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.
I dislike when people are asking me if I was being bullied and if I have been shitting in my pants.
One time the bullying was especially hard, it truly hurts telling anyone about the words.
This is close to some real example of verbal abuse/bullying I often got from other teens after I had shit in my pants. It’s also very much like the abusive voice-hearing I still struggle with in my 30s. And I’m aware of the sensitive nature of the topics and it’s very childish in many ways. But I needed to express this in a way as it truly was.
‘Se! Torunn driter faktisk i buksa nå, har du med deg en ekstra jeans for sikkerhets skyld, Torunn?! Hun er seriøst en kort jævla tilbakestående nerd. Du har Asperger for faen, er du klar over det? Og du går akkurat som om du nettopp har bæsja i buksa, Torunn. Hun trenger tydeligvis å bruke bleier igjen. Hvem skal skifte på deg?! Hahahaha!’
Translated by Google translate into English:
‘Look! Torunn is actually shitting her pants now, do you have an extra pair of jeans with you just in case, Torunn?! She’s seriously a short fucking retarded nerd. You have Asperger’s for fuck’s sake, do you realize that? And you’re walking a lot like you just pooped your pants, Torunn. She clearly needs to wear diapers again. Who’s going to change you?! Hahahaha!’
Thanks for listening to my true stories ❤
I saw this on cinema and a lot of times during school when our Norwegian supremacist teacher wanted to do something different than planned. Or something like that. I’m of Sámi origins and I was really extremely passionate about genealogy at this young age. I loved the film partly because my ancestors lived in Kautokeino during the real historical revolt/uprising in the 1850s. We also had the dvd eventually so I could watch whenever I wanted to.
Other series, movies and videos are mention in other post on this blog like Lost, Friends and especially a documentary about the Okavango Delta that I saw so many times as a child. I love being immersed in something interesting and beautiful, seeing different aspects of life together in creative ways.
Thank you for reading this, and happy watching something you like to see several times ❤
Which animal would you compare yourself to and why?
I mention these on my other blog site, I feel like both can be compared to some part of my life. The Raven is dark, mystical, wise and unique. The marten is quite beautiful in a unique way, a small animal, solitary and it loves to climb trees.
Btw I like all kinds of animals and their animal rights and I like most human beings also plus of course our universal human rights ❤
I’m not really superstitious in everyday life. But my mental-health conditions affect my beliefs especially in dark times. I should mention I have schizoaffective condition with obsessions and several other symptoms. The thoughts in my head about triggering natural disasters with the wrong thoughts and emotions, my delusions of being identified with infamous people in the news. Once my treatments have continued working I don’t live in constant fear and anxiety, so afraid of my thoughts being wrong and sinful. And also I feel like every experience is potentially useful in some way even if it’s difficult or painful, and our lives are complex in nature. There is nothing wrong with having thoughts and emotions.
thank you for reading ❤
Hei Torunn, hvordan går det med deg? Kan du huske da du var 31 år gammel og hadde denne bloggen som lidenskap? Det har gått mange år siden den tid og jeg håper du har minner fra hele livet, hvordan vanskeligheter i yngre dager gjorde deg sterkere og ga deg stor medfølelse med de vanskeligstilte i samfunnet. Lykke til videre fra ditt yngre jeg ❤
English summary: hi Torunn, how are you doing? Can you remember being 31 years old and having this blog as a true passion in life? It’s been many years since this time and I hope you have memories from every age through life, how adversity in younger days made you stronger and gave great compassionate feeling with the underdogs in society. Best wishes from your younger self ❤
the best compliment I’ve got was from my first psychiatric doctor who was very experienced with treating psychotic patients. I had written a kind of different levels of my psychosis and my particular features in these different situation. When he saw my writing he told me it was the best described he had ever seen. This really open my eyes to my strenghts in writing about my inner world and experience.
thank you T, for listening to me and the compliment from a experienced doctor
Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye to.
When I was younger we moved quite often from different towns mostly due to my mothers studies being at different places. Every time we moved to other house was a new beginning and an end to what was.
I had to navigate different local cultures and deal with same-aged peers that were at times downright abusive toward me, and moderate bullying was a part of my everyday life for many years. My undiagnosed Asperger syndrome affected my education and social life as well, I could not focus well partly because of the adversity and my mind working very different from the average kid.
So every time we moved was hard to say goodbye to, and even if I went to my old towns they are not the same place as 20 years ago and my adult perspective is different from the child I once was.
Thank you for visiting and have a wonderful Saturday evening ❤
What is the last thing you learned?
I went to city centre at the police station to get new ID and passport and I was wearing a hoodie like usual. I wear hoodies without t-shirt under and the police woman asked me if I could take off the hoodie for the photo, but I had literally nothing underneath it so we found a compromise instead. I didn’t do anything illegal btw, just a social thing related possibly to my Aspergian nature. We learn something every day ☺️💗💕
I have a particular store I use for buying clothing, it’s a well-known chain in Scandinavia. When I lived in Nordland fylke/county I loved Bik Bok; often it was the hoodies I wore in my teens, I still love them and still wear them.
my absolute favourite shop in our town(s) are supplements/tea/organic/etc chains named Sunkost and Life. I get my tea from these places and I sometimes buy supplements as well. I enjoy also shopping at the pharmacy, both medications and skin care, pill reminders/boxes etc.
and I really enjoy shopping at places like Clas Ohlson and Normal stores, they have a bit of everything you could need for home and well-being. I buy things like ear buds, digital scale and medication storage/medicine cabinate there.
I enjoy shopping but I don’t like when there is too much crowded space, especially teenagers so I usually shop early to be less likely upset and paranoid by groups of youth strangers or (most importantly) stressed people in rush time.
thanks for reading ❤
I enjoy travelling by train and I’ve been further south where they have trains and railways. But our Norwegian State do not care to pay for train further North and this honestly is f*ckd up to say it like a Northern woman speaking in a type of Norwenglish. They don’t give us this despite our much greater need for it due to our location and distances being significantly longer between the towns. This is one of the many reasons I’m strongly left-leaning and against the concept of centralised government far from the districts.
but yeah, I truly love travelling by train ❤
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?
This is one of my fears, meeting the same-aged peers and possibly my Norwegian supremacist teacher who disliked me and my foreign non-European origin friends. To get me to do this reunion I need plenty of oxazepam and someone I know and trust coming along with me. I don’t live in the same region as my former classmates and teachers and I’m not active on usual social media sites/apps so I’m quite an outsider just like I was back then. Maybe it will happen one day, and I will be stronger within me if I dare to try.
Thanks for visiting ❤
What is your middle name? Does it carry any special meaning/significance?
My birth name is Torunn and it’s not a middle name, it is of Norse origin and the meaning is close to ‘loved by Thor’. I have a close relative with the name Tor and there are plenty in our both sides family with Norse names like Jorunn, Solveig and Bjørn among others. I used to be kind of shameful about my name and it’s very uncommon in my generation, my experiences of people thinking it was unusual still happen even at 31 years now. But I love being a Torunn after all, it’s a special part of my life and identity. I’m an Ingvild and I’m a Johanne too, but my life would not be the same without this particular name growing up. I believe every experience has some potential for good/useful things happening at a certain point in life.
Thank you for reading this blog, I needed to write about my experiences of being different in several ways and share with you. I hope for bright moments in everyone’s life ❤ ❤
What experiences in life helped you grow the most?
Note: This contains some rambling thoughts and psychotic experience from first person perspective.
As some people may know about me I’m dx with severe mental-health conditions and I’ve been psychotic since 2005 at age 12. And many parts of my experiences have made me more mature and given greater strenght to my already strong fighter spirits. And they have torn me apart, wounded my pride, affected my relationships and a lot of emotional struggles in the years.
I remember a couple of times in my manic depressive psychosis that I was listening to some great music and my mind start working at interpretation from my own perspective. This is not always a good thing to act on or ruminate a lot about, but it can be insightful and deeply connected to your inner world. So I was listening to this metal track and I wanted a cup of hot tea, I love tea a lot in everyday life. It was that really great Earl Grey tea from English tea shop and everything made so much sense in that moment, I saw connection with inner world and society in general. Btw I’m a 12th house Sun + Mercury + Chiron in conjunction group (Leo + Virgo signs) and my Saturn in 6th house (Aquarius).
Some examples of songs I’ve listen through over the years that I recall and can recommend to interested music listeners;
Tears don’t fall, all these things I hate revolve around me, waking the demon (Bullet for my Valentine tracks/songs, type of metal genres).
the Power of the Mind, Psychedelic, Just say my Name, Megasound (Headhunterz tracks/songs, hardstyle genre of electronic music).
The tea helps me focus and I like the feeling of having these tea rituals grounding me in the present moment to some degree even when going through a severe episode of schizoaffective condition. It’s not magic, but it’s close.
Thank you so much for reading ❤
as I said on my other blog the weather is wonderful today here, and I heard they had 18°C in Oslo (I heard from someone else, I don’t know for certain if it’s correct). And our local SnowCastle is having difficulties in the warming weather, btw I live in Finnmark county and our local temperature in this town was around 0°C today with wonderful sunny, nice weather and we spent time walking outside.
I like writing about the weather and our local culture, like with the Midnight sun coming here in late May month.
thank you for reading this blog ❤
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.
So who are you, then? (Så hvem er du, da?)
Where do you come from? (Hvor kommer du fra?)
What’s your fathers job? (Hva jobber faren din med/hva er yrket til din far?)
This first and second question made me feel like I was meant to explain to someone everything yet I didn’t know what I was supposed to answer and that they were really wondering why I went along with the other people there since I was obviously not like them.
The third question bother me because I didn’t know my father and he was (and is still) an addict; a poly drug user with difficult life.
These questions doesn’t bother me as much anymore, but it reminds me of the way it used to be in youth. Thank you for reading ❤
How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?
My mean girl tormentors took advantage of my different conditions to lie about their abusive behaviour toward me. They said I had wet in my pants after they intentionally spilled orange juice on me in class, the teacher didn’t believe me and this really hurt my pride deep. And it didn’t help the situation that I actually had real enuresis as well, night and day. Sorry if that’s TMI. I inherited this from my father actually, he was very severely bullied so it’s very painful to say it out loud. xenophobic kids all over the place.. spreading fear and misery in young hearts.
But where is the success in this? It’s my true inner strenght and determination to keep fighting no matter what happens. I don’t let people walk over me, I have pride in my opinions and my perspective and most importantly I’m kind to others as well. We learn by living, our experiences both pleasant and very difficult ones.
I hope your days are good and thanks for reading my blog ❤
it must be the magical combination of total/relative Darkness, closed eyes, dubstep/psytrance/drum&bass/other EDM/awesome heavy metal music on my iPod and sometimes some Battery Blue+Bacardi Breezer to get me out of the restless mind. And dreaming is very important to me, it’s one of why I want to get a good nights sleep and independent of the mood of the dream if it’s vivid and deep meaning within I especially appreciate them. I’m a 12th house Sun in astrology and 12th house is the one most often related to dreaming. I just need a friend sometimes, it’s morning in Norway now. Wish you the best ❤
How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?
I got out of the deepest Darkness to seeing true bright Light at the end of the beginning.
That’s really my thoughts right now, and thank the good-natured Spirit for life on Earth.
(Note: I can apologize if this makes little logical sense, because it comes from the core being of the schizophrenic mind in a border-psychotic state. I also really need the Seroquel for decent sleep and my OCD. Btw I take an SSRI along with my antipsychotics and anticonvulsants, I need all to function better and feel less unwell. Sorry for rambling now.)
edit: what my point really was is that no matter how many times we fail we will still be able to shine bright somewhere else in our life ❤
Thank you all for reading ❤
This film was about the Okavango Delta and the wild animals there, I constantly saw it again and again for a long time as a kid, it’s worth mentioning my undiagnosed autism spectrum condition/Asperger as a part of reason for this.
I’ve also seen all the seasons of Friends show so many times, the Kautokeino rebellion film (by Nils Gaup) and tv series Lost on DVD player.
You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?
My opening sentence:
Music was my escape, and here is my story of songs, sad lyrics.. and the heavy bassline.
Thank you all for the visit ❤
You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?
I wrote about this on my other blog, but here is the opening sentence again:
Soon after sunrise in a Northern town, I was born into the outside world.
As I said earlier I’m very interested in astrology, and I’m also an Aspie/Aspergian with severe mental-health conditions in addition. I was born in the late summer in the early morning hours above the Arctic circle, and I’m part Sámi indigenous on both parents origins. I’m very introspective and introverted in nature, and with significant experiences of adversity in youth. The outside world can be a challenge to cope with for the neurodivergent/mentally ill and this is definitively the case for me in particular.
So this is one of my reasons to use this opening sentence in my potential autobiography. And lastly I want to thank you for visiting and I wish you all very well ❤
What are three objects you couldn’t live without?
my medications, my music/iPod and blankets. Plus hot tea ❤ ❤ ❤
I need several different medications every day, including my anticonvulsants to prevent seizures. I’m thankful for this help and it’s really important to be consistent in the routines(?).
I have mentioned the iPod-life and my music within it on my other blog and it really is that important to me. Some joy to my days, electronic music makes me feel better and more aware of beauty in life. And also the heavy bassline ❤
I have a great love of blankets and I use them every day, they are warm, soft and sometimes cute to look at. They are a must-have in the winter season and I need a cup of hot tea along with them if I’m in the living room at night.
Thank you for reading ❤
As I mention on my other blog I don’t have a middle name, but I have three first names and I use all of them in various occations.
My names are Torunn, Ingvild and Johanne and I’m not revealing my full name or the exact order of the first names. The first two are Norse origin and the third from Hebrew. I especially like the meaning behind my name Ingvild; ‘ancestors struggle’ which is very true of my background and being interested in genealogy research.
I used to feel not so good about having an unusual name for my generation but now I see the true value to it, it’s actually unique and part of who I am at the core.
And about my last name I can tell you it comes from a Northern Norwegian farm our ancestors lived in during the 1800s.
Thanks for reading ❤
What experiences in life helped you grow the most?
I’ve written about this topic before, but I wanted to say some more about it. I have schizoaffective condition, a kind of mix of symptoms related to schizophrenia and mood disorder (in my case bipolarity). I also have Asperger syndrome, diagnosed at age 17. My life history is possibly interesting to you, I will mention some of it. My father was absent from most of my childhood and youth, he is an addict to several substances and my mother left him in 1995. After this I went to many different schools and I had a hard time with my conditions being undiagnosed and the bullying I experienced. In 7th grade I had my schizophrenic break and I got into psychiatry in 2007. I also met my father 3 times during my teenage years, in a safe environment. I was into genealogy and wanted to know more about his biological father side like his many half-siblings and about my fathers youth years, especially since I felt like connections were important.
So what helped me grow the most? A combination of my childhood adversity, my mental-health conditions, my autistic passion and my long-term recovery process. I have been taking psychiatric medications for more than 10 years and I’m honestly grateful for the help they give me in everyday life. I also have learned a lot by blogging and reading different blogs and connect with people all over the World.
Thank you for reading, I hope it was interesting to you hearing my story. Have a wonderful day everyone ❤
Do you believe in fate/destiny?
Note: a lot of nerdy astrology topics in this post, I’m an Aspergian and this is a significant part of my autistic passion.
I’m a 12th house Sun and 4th house Moon in Earth/Fire combination and I really feel like it actually is something to astrology despite people doubt it works. I also have schizoaffective condition and I believe in fate and destiny to some degree being real, or else many things would not make sense to my mind.
Everything is connected and I’m a believer in the Nature based spirits, and my Sámi ancestors had special powers passed from one generation to the next and it’s known our family and our ethnic group are sometimes quite mystical and in particular often especially good as healers. Btw Chiron in astrology/mythology is the wounded healer and this is part of a strong conjunction group in 12th house with Sun, Mercury and Chiron in Leo sign. My father has the conjunction as well but in Pisces sign within 2nd house.
I have a post on my other blog, maybe it’s much better reading as I’m really overtired now with a possible influensa with fever.
Thank you all for listening to my kind of long post, I tend to write a lot more when I’ve been sleepless for some time. Happy Saturday ❤
Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye to.
warning: the Darkness in writing, mental illness
This was the year of 22/07 terrorist attacks in Norway. Everything changed in one fatal day, and it also ignited my worst episode yet of my psychosis. I had severe delusions about the terrorist being connected with me somehow in the mind and soul, he murder children at Utøya and the bombing of Oslo. It’s one person you will never want to believe you are, if you are kind natured inside. I was so obsessive about the trial in 2012 and this is never a good idea when suffering these delusions, just from my own true lived experience with schizoaffective condition. I was obsessed with watching the trial online all of the hours.
I occationally still believe in this delusion, especially after reading something about his case or 22/07 related topics. Anders hater meg, as some of my blog posts here say in the title.
Thank you for your time, best wishes from Norway ❤
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
edit: this is about my other answers to this prompt, I felt like writing this to explain.
I’ve mentioned my paternal grandmother, my father, my former self as alternatives. But really I believe we are not truly right to be inside someone elses head and mind, especially if it’s through any kind of force and invading their space. Yet I share with you all a lot of thoughts and true stories of my life, but I do from free will. So I just thought I should explain my position.
Privacy matters ❤
Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t got around to visiting.
This is a little bit strange but it came into my mind now, how I’ve never been at any of the local hotel bars in our town. I am always just drinking at home or rarely along with family members, one thing I especially enjoy is to be in the Midnight sun paradise of our garden in summer time sitting outside drinking cider and Red Bull in the all-day light of the night so bright. The sun doesn’t set for several weeks, I’m not lying.
If we have a large distances perspective I want to visit Rogaland county/fylke in the Southwest region of Norway. I have deep roots in Rogaland on my mothers side, and I want to see for myself what it’s like being there and speaking with the locals. I love travelling in Norway btw ❤
Thanks for visiting ❤
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
I would like to experience the World like I used to, being outside and hiking or even the very difficult years in my youth. I was anxious and psychotic but I felt alive, like my life was there right in the moment. I need this experience so strong, life is about living.
I have no regrets about taking my medications however as I cannot function at all without them. And this feeling of being alive doesn’t depend on whether or not taking the medications, it’s psychological and lifestyle related. And I don’t expect perfect recovery in a second, it can possibly take months of effort to getting better long-term.
Have wonderful times everyone ❤
one of my least favourite things to be asked when I reveal my epilepsy dx is not really about the topic but the way they ask. It’s about if I wet myself often during these seizures and I don’t mean the neurologists or other doctors, I also remember someone asking this question to a girl on the radio. Btw she was honest about this and handle the question well.
the reason I feel uncomfortable with this is that it is a intrusive question by some of the people asking, they don’t know about my other symptoms of seizures that are much worse. And of course my history of being bullied for my enuresis and bedwetting tendency in childhood and teenage years is a big part, maybe even the main reason.
thank you for reading and I have to say despite not liking to be asked about this it’s still not something to be ashamed of the experiences with epilepsy. We are all just people after all.
Norwegian language: det første jeg kom på akkurat nå er de prosjektene vi holdt på med i dette faget på skolen. Jeg lagde en fjøl av tre (skjærebrett?) for å ha under når vi skjære brød, jeg tror vi fortsatt har den et sted i huset. En annen ting var kunst og håndverk, jeg ble inspirert til å hekle i fritiden i tillegg til skolearbeidet klassen min fikk i oppgave.
Takk for besøket, kanskje jeg kommer på andre ting jeg har prøvd i tillegg til disse prosjektene.
English summary: the first thing that came to my mind was our arts & crafts project classes in school. I made a wood board for bread cutting and I believe we still have it somewhere in the house. I also was inspired to crochet in my free time in addition to our school work.
thanks for visiting, I may remember other projects in addition to these and write about them later.
Have you ever unintentionally broken the law?
Norwegian language: Som jeg nevnte før har jeg vært ute halvnaken på vinteren i snøen rett ved veien for å late vannet grunnet at jeg ikke ville tisse i buksa sittende i annen person sin bil, og dette har hendt meg før et par ganger i baksetet som passasjer. Jeg husker å ha glemt å betale for mat på utesteder/kafé et par ganger da jeg enten var beruset eller psykotisk så dømmekraften og hukommelsen sviktet. De uskrevne lovene er vanskelig for autister å følge intuitivt, derfor har jeg brutt disse lovene ofte uten å mene det bevisst og gjennomtenkt.
I’m turning 32 this year, in 2009 I had so many things happening and even though it was very hard I miss the intensity a lot. I was severely psychotic and bipolar and my peers bullied me a lot. I live in 2009 in my head, thinking of my past in nostalgic ways feeling like nothing can give me the intensity back, my teenage years are still extremely hard to let go of even though I know I need to move on.
Have you ever unintentionally broken the law?
Note: this is mostly about my own history, including school and my mental-health conditions.
Being autistic/Aspergian especially without diagnosis can lead to strange ways of breaking rules. I asked questions about taboo topics and tried hard to hide my genuine self from rejection due to experience with very mean girls. I could not stop talking when I was anxious or manic, laughing at odd things and so on.
I also escaped from school whenever I could, knowing it wasn’t right according to the rules. My judgement was affected by bipolarity and severe psychosis and I don’t blame my child/teenage self for this behaviour, it got too much with the bullying and my Norwegian supremacist teacher who disliked me a lot.
(Btw if you don’t know my story I’m of mostly Sámi indigenous and Kven/Finnish origins along with the Norwegian ancestry, including around 1/4th Southern Scandinavian and of course significant Northern Norwegian).
I spent my truant days outside by the main road sitting on a very large rock while listening to music on my mp3 player, and trying to ignore the abusive voice-hearing and the shame related to my enuresis episodes in public spaces and the chronic bedwetting condition. I was very passionate about music and still so today.
I hope your days are good and that you had some happy moments during your youth years, I had fun sometimes even though my psychosis and bipolar was severe. Well wishes from Norway ❤
What bores you?
Depression is painful and also very dull, feelings of meaningless life are strong and you don’t want to do anything because the ruminating thoughts and the overall feeling of depressive state makes everything very difficult. My own depressive symptoms are related to my psychotic condition, it’s even worse if you consider the delusions and voice-hearing together with this state; I know that the hard way.
Write about your dream home.
I am wondering what it would be like to live the winter season in a SnowCastle, I’m not cold at all in winter time, my cousin actually calls me ‘radiator’ because of my heat. I am also into Inuit culture like the traditional clothing and inspired fashion, like my Amundsen boots inspired by Arctic indigenous shoes made from seal hide.
So it would be a dream home, not entirely realistic but very cool (pun intended).
When I was a teenager I had a lot of difficulties of several types. I was untreated and undiagnosed with severe mental-health conditions and Asperger syndrome and experienced different kinds of youth adversity including bullying. I mentioned last time my enuresis condition and I think I describe that well enough in other post.
What I would tell my teenage self would be to see my own strenght in the face of hard times. Believe in my ideas and develop my talent for creative expressions. How the seasons affect us more than we sometimes believe, and self-punishment does not help anything. I would encourage myself to open up to someone about the adversity and mental illness. And I would also suggest to come out of hiding my preferred direction so I would have opportunities I have missed and regret it a lot now in my 30s.
And I would tell myself the truth about my identity, I’m like the Midnight sun in summer time; always there for myself for help even in the middle of night.
Something on your “to-do list” that never gets done.
I really need to switch medications to high dosage quetiapine as soon as I can because this sleepless state makes me more crazy and the antipsychotics stop working decent when no sleep no dreams no rest. But I have the motivation to keep moving toward quetiapine instead of no sleep and psychotic thinking. I’m sorry if this made no sense. Hood evening front Norway
It would definitively be the experiences with my childhood adversity and bullying, my experiences with severe mental illness and my long-term recovery.
What is your favorite drink?
I just enjoy anything with this taste, I rarely drink true grapefruit juice due to my medications and the interactions but I enjoy small amounts in energy drinks or other soft drinks. I’ve tried finding pink grapefruit hard cider as well in our local store, I believe I found a possible candidate to try some time ❤
Thanks for the visit ❤
Share one of the best gifts you’ve ever received.
Explanation: this is to add on to my previous answer to this prompt. Hope it’s okay reading, and also thanks everyone for the visit ❤
I’m passionate about genealogy and family-history, including our cultural identity and genetics. So when I convinced many of my relatives to join me in DNA-testing, we have learned a lot about our connection with different relatives we didn’t even know of. The gift of this knowledge cannot be ignored and it’s actually profound in nature, compassion and unity.
I’m especially interested in our connection with indigenous cultures and Traveller peoples, and we are documented Sámi ethnicity of course like the genealogy research had shown. It’s deep within me to research history in several ways, my favourite ways being traditional genealogy and research related to DNA-testing matches.
I also write about our ethnicity estimates, my own recent estimate said around 75% Norwegian, 17% Finnish/Sámi, 7% Swedish and 2% Danish. My paternal grandmother also had around 2% Irish estimate, it’s so cool in my humble honest opinion ❤
On our family roots in Traveller cultures it’s on both sides; my father Scandinavian Romani from Trøndelag region and my mother indigenous Norwegian Traveller from Agder and Rogaland region, Scandinavian Romani of Trøndelag and Southern Sweden plus quite distant Yenish origins via the Agder+Rogaland Norwegian Traveller peoples. Our ancestors sometimes lived on boats year-round and the love of traditional travel by the Sea is strong in our family culture.
I’m a true far-left anarchist in my view of society and political themes, my political ideology. So I believe our family roots being very left-leaning or some cases communist ideology combined with ethnicity based discrimination and even violent racism has influenced us a lot.
Thank you, MyHeritage, for introducing me and others in family to genealogy research online. Have a wonderful day everyone ❤
Who are your favorite people to be around?
I like most people, and I’ve heard from family members (and even doctors) that I have a friendly way of being that can help in communication in good ways. I’m autistic but social when my socialise energy is up. So I see potential in other people for kindness and unique way of living life, we need every person on Earth to have the best opportunity to shine.
I don’t know what more to write, thanks for reading ❤
Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.
I have plenty of shoes, especially boots. I’m going to post on other blog about these pairs of black boots, so that could be possibly interesting to read/see as well.
This is about two of my favourite boots from New Rock, I wore these even in winter time and I had quite good heel-walking skills back then, so it was great. One aspect of wearing high heels is the feeling of being average height, how strange it is to be able to reach objects you cannot otherwise.
And I went to a very small rave wearing them, being a badass rave girl. I write about the rave on this blog, btw.
Here are some pictures of both pairs:
I love these boots ❤
Thank you for visiting my blog ❤
if I could be someone else they would have to be me for one day, which is terrifying to imagine. But if I would choose someone I know to significant degree it would be my fathers mother. The reasons are many, I thought of my father first but mostly change my mind. But I truly believe in boundaries and privacy so this deep change would alter everything forever.
I don’t exactly know who really gifted it, but it changed my life forever. It was when I found MyHeritage in 2007 and began researching our family history. I was 14 years old and my autistic passion was powerfully ignited by this deep discovery of my roots. I spent many hours every day to research and record our ancestry. (I was undiagnosed at that time, btw).
There are physical gifts included in this kind of interest, especially photos and other images of relatives and ancestors going back many generations. I love pictures and it’s one of my favourite aspects of genealogy, my grandfather gave me many old photos of his side of family. I wish he was still here so I could thank him again.
Many, many years later my father (I don’t really know him) agreed to do the DNA-test because I wanted to know more about our roots and this is one of the best gifts I have gotten in adult life. It shows me that sometimes the best things are inside of us always, our connection via DNA and history.
This is both interesting, insightful and fun. I cannot imagine life without genealogy, and it’s my roots and my destiny together.
thank you for reading this ❤
Write about your approach to budgeting.
Norwegian language: Jeg tjener ikke så mye siden jeg er ung ufør uten jobb ved siden av, men jeg bor i samme hus som noen som har en ganske godt betalt jobb og min egen inntekt er meget stabil (heldigvis!). Men som jeg skrev om i går har jeg ikke et eget budsjett siden vi samarbeider om utgifter til huset og relaterte tema. Jeg prøver å tenke gjennom om jeg virkelig har behov for det jeg ønsker meg, om det er verdt pengene.
Now, some English language about my own astrology and money: I have a Mars/Jupiter conjunction (both in Libra) in 2nd house, the house of money, values and self-worth. I like buying shoes, clothing, tea, drinks, soft fluffy blankets, merino wool blankets etc. I like pretty sights and wonderful tastes, and feeling very comfortable and safe. My Moon is in 4th house, btw. I am lucky about my money even though I don’t make a lot of it or have a job. And I value fairtrade tea, organic food, co-operation for important justice causes, strenght and determination and an open mind.
Thank you for reading ❤
I don’t really have a budget or a well thought out plan, but I do have some inner core rules I follow. I think twice before buying something especially if expensive and I check my account at least weekly. I actually don’t make that much money, but I have Jupiter (in Libra) within 2nd house in my chart so I’m lucky with posessions in some ways (but please don’t ask me what the bullies did to my things..) yeah life is good.
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?
I really want to go to one large event/several day festival but my conditions make it difficult to predict my mood and mental state. I also am not used to lots of young party lovers taking different substances along with heavy drinking, I’m the kind of person who drinks alone listening to music not too loud to disturb my neighbors. I’m wondering why I want to go to festival now, honestly. Teenage dreams of times past?
But I might actually manage a one night music event, it’s my big goal to get there in the not too distant future ❤
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