Tag: culture

emotional experience

standing in the rain playing in the background. I love many Billy Talent songs from youth ❤

emo kid with the heavy eyeliner and I also love hoodies still. They bullied me and poured orange juice on my jeans, then told the teachers I had peed on myself. It was worse because I often actually had wet in my jeans in class or during recess, I also had nocturnal enuresis/chronic bedwetting even at age 16. I had other issues with the function of the body. I wore type protective underwear during my heavy womanhood curse and was prescribed this aid from pharmacy like place. The protection works well, I use it still during my womanhood curse and especially at night. I need to write about this sometimes because it does affected my mental health strong.

I was an emo kid but didn’t self-harm with sharp things. I beat myself with glass bottles of Coca-Cola along with plastic bottles, had big bruises I was try hiding from everyone. I had the emo bangs and my hair was it’s own dark brown colour. I listening to MCR and The Used as well as other type emo musicians.

I’m suffering from psychosis and voice-hearing is part of my everyday life. They say very abusive things to me, reminding me of shameful times and emotional pain. They say strange things like ‘she is going to have major accidents in public’, in local grocery store. I’m a psychiatric patient and I’m an Aspie, that is I have Asperger syndrome. I must sometimes write because it actually helps me deal with my mental illness and the vivid memories of childhood adversity and bullying.

I don’t feel like talking about it

I don’t feel like talking about my enuresis and the bullying right this moment. So I’m writing about gákti and Saami culture now. Plus DNA-tests and ancestry, family research/genealogy.

I have ancestry from Kautokeino region from 1850s and going back several centuries before this time. But Kautokeino natives quite often are very passionate about people having recent roots from their town, they really don’t like people who are more outsiders wearing the local Kautokeino gákti.

The gákti is special from place to place, and it’s traditional clothing for the Saami people. It’s called samekofte (or just kofte) in Norwegian language. I currently don’t have one, and they are really expensive for very good reasons. They are made with high quality fabric and other items included traditional silver accessoirer and kommager, a special type of shoes.

I also have significant Sea Saami origins from places like Måsøy and Kvalsund so I’m likely choose one of them as the Saami culture in coastal region are often of ancestors who were much more affected by Norwegianization and found their roots by family research and recently the role of DNA-tests in Norway.

I have done two DNA-tests about my ethnicity estimates and DNA-matches, and it has been useful in several different ways. Btw I’m mostly of Norwegian ancestry, mainly in Northern regions and also Agder county plus Rogaland county regions in the far-Southern parts of Norway. I have around 17% Finnish ethnicity estimate results from these tests and some of it is Finnish/Kven and others of Saami origins. I have a page to the right about my ethnicity and DNA-test results.

Thanks for reading my blog ❤

Torunn

My name, my true name from within. I chose it and I own it, letting go of my four letter name soon to be history of the past. I know I’m 31 years old and used to my offline official name, but I’m doing this life change now because it feels right.

And in addition I identify with the name Ingvild as my parents almost chose it as my birth given name, I really resonate with the strong meaning ‘foremothers struggle’ as a part of my own family research and passion for all of the Norwegian ethnic minority groups in general.

I’m a part of many ethnic groups; mostly Sámi and Kven/Finnish on maternal grandmother side and Reisende on maternal grandfather side, on fathers side with some Finnish/Kven and quite significant Sea Sámi origins. I’m also of so-called ethnic Norwegian origins, but the term is strange.

One thing about changes is that it is difficult getting used to them in the beginning so I’m going to struggle with this aspect in my everyday life. But it’s what I need now, so I’m doing it.

Folket som forsvant

I’m going to watch this very soon along with my mother who has roots in Agder and Rogaland, of (very likely) part Reisende/skøyer ancestry as well as ethnic Norwegian origins. It’s on NRK’s online television (nett-TV) and it’s a documentary about this ethnicity and culture, how the State and ordinary people discriminated against them (or much better said; us), the languages and roots of this coastal region Traveller peoples.