Dette er meg (med modifikasjoner)

Norwegian language text about me and some AI avatars based on myself:

Her er noen AI avatarer basert på meg. Jeg heter Torunn. Jeg er samisk, kvensk, finsk, svensk og norsk med noe sannsynlig innfødt arktiske aner/inuitt og i tillegg endel nordafrikansk (kanskje fra Tunisia) noe lengre tilbake i fortiden. Jeg er både nordlending og finnmarking. Jeg har mye aner i Troms fylke og vi bodde i Tromsø og på Senja tidligere. I tillegg fra Agder og Rogaland i nær familie. Jeg har tatt DNA-tester fra MyHeritage og 23andMe, jeg har forsket på slekt siden 2007. Jeg er fylt 32 år snart. Jeg har aner av de Reisende på sørlandet og av Romanifolket i Norge og Sverige.

Jeg har moderat-alvorlig grad av Asperger syndrom og liker å skrive 😂❤️

emotional experience

standing in the rain playing in the background. I love many Billy Talent songs from youth ❤

emo kid with the heavy eyeliner and I also love hoodies still. They bullied me and poured orange juice on my jeans, then told the teachers I had peed on myself. It was worse because I often actually had wet in my jeans in class or during recess, I also had nocturnal enuresis/chronic bedwetting even at age 16. I had other issues with the function of the body. I wore type protective underwear during my heavy womanhood curse and was prescribed this aid from pharmacy like place. The protection works well, I use it still during my womanhood curse and especially at night. I need to write about this sometimes because it does affected my mental health strong.

I was an emo kid but didn’t self-harm with sharp things. I beat myself with glass bottles of Coca-Cola along with plastic bottles, had big bruises I was try hiding from everyone. I had the emo bangs and my hair was it’s own dark brown colour. I listening to MCR and The Used as well as other type emo musicians.

I’m suffering from psychosis and voice-hearing is part of my everyday life. They say very abusive things to me, reminding me of shameful times and emotional pain. They say strange things like ‘she is going to have major accidents in public’, in local grocery store. I’m a psychiatric patient and I’m an Aspie, that is I have Asperger syndrome. I must sometimes write because it actually helps me deal with my mental illness and the vivid memories of childhood adversity and bullying.

Southern Starry Summer Night

What is your favorite type of weather?

We in the Arctic regions have Midnight sun in summer time so the stars cannot be seen in these months. The few times I’ve been to more Southern regions in summer season holiday the sky really is dark, in comparison to our summer.

The favourite things about visiting South in summer season is it’s just strange it gets so dark and the times we saw the visible stars in the night sky ❤

Thank you for reading ❤

my new Sami boots and the Amundsen high-boots 💙☺️❄️

Daily writing prompt
Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.

I just recently bought these and they are already my favourite pair of shoes ever. They are stylish, warm, pretty and some symbolism. Absolutely lovely, and they were expensive shoes at 5000 Norwegian kroner, very pretty shoes and the best things about them are the ability to keep warm even at -25° celsius and the exotic look of the seal fur/hide with fur. I know it’s not suitable for vegans, however.

My journey has been short so far but I know it’s a long lasting type of joy, I’ve always wanted something similar to these boots. Now I actually have two different pair of seal boots from Topaz of Norway.

thank you for reading my blog ❤

I’m getting the Sami boots tomorrow 💗💕

I decided to buy the Topaz Sami boots in addition to my Amundsen high boots also from Topaz brand. Considering our lovely celebration of Samefolkets dag on 6th of February it’s very suitable for the symbolic expression of Sámi culture pride and they look really awesome wearing as well ❤

I hope your days are good everyone ❤

Hey there, father

We have a complex relation, I have much compassion with his struggles and his inner strenghts. But in some ways you could say we all have choices in life, and he made some unfortunate ones in his young adulthood that prevented him knowing me and being my true father image. So what I’m really relating to is only a self-created impression from my own experience and perspective, I don’t actually understand him as he really is. He has at least 4 planets in Pisces and it shows in his life experience and way of speaking. I also watched the 1975 TV series named ‘Benoni og Rosa’ recently to understand his childhood adversity and the severe bullying he experienced in 1970s and 1980s Northern Norwegian society. He is of Sámi origins significantly and the kids called him ‘Lapp’ constantly, he didn’t know of his true Sámi roots until 2008 when I research his biological father history and genealogy. He is clearly over 25% Sámi or Finnish according to DNA-testing and his overall appearance match this as well, dark and coarse hair, high/prominent cheekbones plus almond-like shape to his eyes. I look more like him than I do with my mother in many ways. I wish he didn’t have the substance use addictions and his issues with rage, he has a tendency to play with others mind and emotions I know sadly from own experience in teenage years.

And I hope his Christmas and New Years will bring him more joy than pain.

Thanks for reading this post ❤

Earl Grey therapy

I’m making several cups of tea today, my favourite black tea is English tea shops Earl Grey. It’s just wonderful. And I love tea in general; herbal, iced tea, oolong etc. Snowstorms outside means the house gets colder and we need other heat sources in addition to electricity. So I drink my favourite hot tea and wear the blankets to feel blissfully warm. Norwegian culture ❤

Julaften snart (about our Christmas Eve celebrations)

Nå er det 12 dager til julaften og mørketiden er i gang her for lenge siden. Vi feirer dagen på storslått vis hvert år, julemiddag og pynte på kirkegården, pakke opp gaver og være sammen med familien. Det er skjønnhet i mørket også, det er aldri helt uten mening.