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It would be either or both the characters Luna Lovegood and Myrtle Warren from Harry Potter series. Luna is one of a kind and eccentric, very good-natured as well and I truly admire her persona and deep values. She remind me of my brighter days and being authentic no matter what others believe. Myrtle is like me when I’m in a much darker mood, I’m extremely sensitive at times and we share history of being a target of frequent bullying. I also have a big soft spot for troubled male youth, just like Myrtle.

And these characters even feature in my life experiences with my friends when we were acting to be different people from the Harry Potter universe. I wore glasses so I was often also acting as Harry with our group and I also liked being the villain like for example Draco Malfoy. And in our former house we had a room under the stairs like the Dursleys had where Harry used to sleep in the beginning of first book.

Thank you for reading and enjoy the fantastic in real life, and no limits on the imagination ❤

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What is your favorite restaurant?

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in our previous town we always loved to be at the local Peppes Pizza to eat and talk together. It had a nice view to the sea port(?) and the food was good as well. Sadly they closed it after we moved to other town, but they still have a local restaurant right close to it; it’s called Qa and they are known for the food being great and of course the wonderful view.

in my current location I like the local Chinese restaurant a lot, and we have two takeout shops very close to where we live. I must mention we often order from Uno cafe a lot, their lactose-free oreo shake is wonderful and I always enjoy it ❤

So I have several favourites in our Northern Norwegian environment, when I lived in Nordland we very often went to cafe and spoke together over some food.

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Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

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I don’t know my father and I rarely speak with him, but last year he and his mother agreed to take MyHeritage DNA-tests to help my research and know our genetic roots better in several ways. I was kind of surprised he agreed because he had a lot of experience with racist plus xenophobic bullying and education adversity in the 1970s and early 80s. I’ve mentioned before on blogs with his addictions and more about his very difficult school years, and his past affected me even when not knowing how or why we are so alike in many ways. So it’s about our connection more than anything else.

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Note: more thoughts on what I wrote about in previous post regarding this type of pet

We actually did quite well despite our lack of experience taking care of this kind of animal. They are also very cute and funny animals in my memory of them, I think they are good pets.

Here is a picture I found (not mine)

Note: this is partly about Corona virus pandemic and some thoughts about psychiatry in relation to the pandemic. Kind of off-topic, but it’s related to Covid-19 also. Health care was the main things that affected my life in particular during pandemic.

As I said in earlier post my Swedish psychiatric doctor could not travel to Norway for his usual office appointments for over a year. But we had call appointments instead and we spoke once every month through this year of big changes.

I really honestly miss him a lot, my current psychiatrist has not spoken with me for several months and my mental health is suffering so it’s not good. They also are very different doctors in general, he was less authoritarian and more compassionate with my perspective. But I truly hope my current psychiatric doctor will be there now when I need help with the treatments I need to function. And I like having a good relationship with my doctors and health-care workers, so I try and see the positive in every person.

Thank you for reading ❤

In 2003 our family got two degu, a type of South American rodent. They are certainly good for people who know rodent care very well, which we unfortunately didn’t. They had little ones unexpected in early 2004 and it was both joy and sorrow in the years we had them in our house.

My cousin at one point had 4 cats, two of them Bengals and she is a true cat person and animal welfare activist volunteer with Dyrebeskyttelsen to save animals suffering from difficulties and taking care of them, finding new homes. Her cats were/are wonderful pets for their household and very beautiful animals. I like cats and respect their true nature as animals but I’m also really very much a dog person. My mother has an elderly little dog that we love so much, unique and so much a part of our family.

Every animal needs and deserves good conditions for their particular needs and their true nature must be of deep value to the humans living with them in everyday life. Animals are living beings just like us.

This is about my life and of course the genealogy is a big part of my service to others in my offline and online official life.

I do some work for so-called free, I’m not rich by Norwegian standards but I’m  okay with my situation at this time. But what I do is I help my grandmother/other older relatives with phone apps and my ongoing genealogical research interpretation and the DNA-testing information. I’ve been researching our families ancestry since year 2007 at age 14 so I know some of my work well and I embrace genetic genealogy as a way of finding out more about our roots and connection with relatives. There are other activities I do that don’t give me extra money but I love it so much to have something to offer other people that I also enjoy doing for my own mental state and well-being. That’s what it’s about at right now.

Thank you for reading this blog ❤

Note: Very astrology related topics and of course it’s about how I could be described in one word. So Leo influenced truly and double Virgo and a Lunar Sagittarian, etc/osv/aso

The people around me tend to see either my Leo side or my Virgo Rising, but when I tell them I’m a double Virgo it’s often a surprise to them. I’m also a 12th house Sun and importantly I have Mercury and Chiron in Leo close conjunction aspects with them and my Sun and I have Moon in Sagittarius in 4th house. And a fun aspect of astrology is how in-depth and fascinating to think deep about what it really is.

And everyone is special even if they born on the same date and the details truly matter a lot in astrology, something interesting for my strong Virgo perspective 😂❤️👌

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Describe something you learned in high school.

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note: this post is about everything related to my experiences in teenage years and read it with this in mind.

Our Norwegian system of youth education is 10 years obligatorisk education/school including ‘ungdomsskole’ and three years of necessary but not obligatorisk ‘videregående skole/opplæring’ after this. I finished ungdomsskole but not videregående because of my untreated schizoaffective and autism spectrum condition.

In ungdomsskolen I learn some from the teachers and books, but mostly learn from interaction with people including teachers in different settings and my same-aged people. And it was hard, being very unfair and sometimes abusive in nature.

One thing I really became more aware of in these early teenage years was my roots and our different cultures in relation to my school environment. I’m of a type of European Arctic indigenous people called Sámi or the old mostly negative sounding term “Lapp” and the native languages are very different from Norwegian language.

I didn’t really get that good education for considering my untreated severe mental-health conditions and in addition the undiagnosed Asperger syndrome made school difficult in many different ways.

And I love learning from own effort and learning from others, my mother is a teacher and we meet every day including now in my early 30s. We deeply value knowledge and real learning, knowing something inside and out, not on just surface that doesn’t stay with you.

I hope the youths of today will see how society really need awareness and passion for big changes in social and political arenas. Without deep awareness and passion we are not really helping make a positive difference.

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If you could be a character from a book or film, who would you be? Why?

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This is likely many other peoples answer as well, but I am drawn to Harry Potter series from my childhood and youth years and my character I would wish to be is Luna Lovegood. I used to be that way in my school years except I’m also kind of similar to Moaning Myrtle on certain difficult Mind states. I write about my thoughts like Myrtle and share some of her adversity. I’m the distant strange one, my unusual ways of expression with others.

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Note: This is about my perspective living very close to Mountain nature and how I see the world around. So a little bit off-topic.

As I have no trouble with standing at a height looking down to the sea and up at the sky, I understand somewhat the alpine skiers different perspective. I used to live in a wonderful nature environment (and our current town is so nature beautiful as well, naturskjønne omgivelser) in Mountain region with sea and forests, clear lakes; everything really ❤

But slalom and alpine skiing is a lot of fun to watch and I believe we still have Norwegian athletes at top levels of them. And I likely don’t have to remind people reading my blogs that I love watching biathlon 😂❄️🇧🇻

Right now in our town it is transition between spring-winter and spring (eight seasons) and even if the winds are at times storm strenght (vindkast på 30m/s) we are so happy to walk on bare ground after many months of the winter seasons. What I like most about spring is that it is so different since most of our year is winter seasons and the snow is beginning to really melt away most places. And the Sun is up for so long and daylight early, sun is up at 5 am/in the morning here. So thank God and Nature for the eight seasons and our wonderful planet Earth ❤

Norwegian language:

Jeg har i perioder problematisk alkoholforbruk og faren min er alkoholiker og rusavhengig. Det er veldig dyrt å drikke så mye alkohol her i Norge og heldigvis selger ikke matbutikker sterk alkohol her. Jeg orker ikke å dra helt til Vinmonopolet på kjøpesenteret og møte en masse skumle tenåringer jeg blir paranoid av og angsten er ikke verdt det. Men også matbutikken kan være utfordrende hvis man velger feil tidspunkt på dagen eller av en eller annen grunn det er mye ungdommer der akkurat da. Jeg er selfølgelig skeptisk til ungdommer/tenåringer delvis av egen meget negativ erfaring med jevnaldrende og nå nylig har tenåringskulturen blitt betydelig hardere og derfor velger jeg tidspunkt på dagen der det er mindre sannsynlig å treffe på dem. Det er fullt av cider på bordet på sommeren her jeg er glad i cider og drikker av og til 8 halvliter av dem sammen med energidrikk så jeg blir ganske beruset av og til. En annen ting er de fysiske effektene av alkohol og til og med effekter på ting man ikke tenker på som alkoholrelaterte sykdommer. Det går selfølgelig også utover sosiale forhold og evne til å fungere normalt.

Takk for besøket ❤

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What job would you do for free?

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I personally believe any work should be valued as equal to the person doing it, so either every job for free or none of them. I don’t know exactly if this made sense, but it’s what I thought of this moment.

value everything and every job, every person doing the work ❤

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What Olympic sports do you enjoy watching the most?

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I really like biathlon (also known as skiskyting in Norwegian) especially, many of our athletes are very good at this and it’s just great to watch even if you don’t watch other sports. It’s really so thrilling seeing them shoot and moving fast on the snow, the talent and combined skill the athletes have. I like summer olympics also, but biathlon and cross-country skiing are big things to watch here in Norway.

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Our family culture very strongly value the refugees, immigrants, ethnic minorities and diversity in general. So I would like to help immigrants feel welcome in our town and on my own part getting to know new people and learn about other cultures. I also as mentioned on other blog would like less noise from the main road we live right next to, and awareness of autistic peoples sensitive hearing and sensory overload.

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I’ve mentioned the acting passion I had but I also wanted to be like my mother: a student and a type of activist on the left politically/socially. As I write about on other blog I had conversations online with adults about organic/fairtrade tea and they didn’t believe I was only 11 years old. And I admire true activists so much ❤

Note; I don’t know if it’s very relevant to the question asked

I had several surgeries on my foot in 2020 (as well as 2018 and 2019 btw) and I got the first in February and the next surgery in September before my last time in December 2020. It’s not major surgery but major pain still, I have to use strong pain medication for a week after the medical prosedyre at least.

I did heal well from the surgery with good help from wounds specialised nurses and that is a true blessing ❤

And thank you for reading ❤

Always get psychotic in May month, every year; no exceptions for over fifteen years it hits hard. So here are my first hour in May month psychosis:

It’s 4 am in early morning, really close to Midnight sun here it arrive in our town in end of May actually. So it’s not at all dark, I’m really struggle with my thoughts making sense to do important tasks. Like my morning medications I need to remember the different places I keep different pills the most important to get right are my anticonvulsants and antipsychotics or I risk getting much, much worse. I drink something non-alcohol drinks like Imsdal or Battery/Red Bull/other soft drinks together with my medicine. I look at smartphone about different notifications and updates. I listen to music on my iPod during waking hours.

My favourite people to be around are people who truly listen with compassion. It could be a friend, a health-care worker/doctor or a friendly/kind stranger. I really appreciate the people doing this from a place of heartfelt words and actions. If something should be paid work this would definitively be on top of my list.

And also thank you for reading this ❤

Okay, so I’m from Norway and I’m around 1/4th far-Southern Norwegian and also around 1/16th far-Southern Swedish. But most of my ancestors lived in Northern parts of Norway and were of mixed ethnicity groups including especially Sámi and Kven/Finnish. As I write in other recent post I’m Kveninnish (my own term) 😂🇫🇮💙❄️☺️👌

Here are my recent MyHeritage DNA-test results;

(Two different tests, both from me)

73,8/77,4% Norwegian

16/17,4% Finnish

4,4/7,2% Swedish

1,6/2,2% Danish

I write more about my family-history in several posts and also on the other blog. I have some quite interesting ethnicity estimates from my 23andMe DNA-test results, btw.

Have a wonderful day ❤ ❤ ❤

I’m quite interested in astrology, and one important part of it are the aspects. Like for example the opposition (180°) the conjunction (0°) and the square (90°) the aspects are the relation between two planets or the Ascendant/Midheaven/other points of the chart.

What makes us unique consists of many aspects, including astrology and genealogy/genetics among several other features. I write on other blog about this topic also. In my own life what makes me in particular unique is my fighter spirits and my kinder side in interactions with others, I have my mental-health conditions and autistic traits also and it does not adversely affect my own kind of different type of compassion.

I wish you happy unique days and I’m also very thankful for this moment ❤

He was special in several different ways, but what really made me fascinated by him was how interesting conversations we had once I got to know him more. We went to beautiful places in our location like a wonderful beach some half hour drive away. And his interests in deep thought, films, philosophy, music, German language and Eastern spirituality made me admire him a lot.

Especially in summer season one thing that really helps to cope with darker feelings is to focus on the unbelievable, stunning beauty of our local environment. I’m being completely honest about this, it only works when you have both an open heart and an open mind to take it all in to see clearly how wonderful life truly is.

I stand outside feeling the breeze in my hair, sunshine on my skin, summer season scents and warmth from within and outside. It also brings nostalgic feeling to me, how I used to spend so much time outside in my childhood and youth years. I was outside for several hours often, in the local environment to explore the different places deeply.

So it’s really a very powerful way to cope. Thank you all for listening ❤

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If you could have something named after you, what would it be?

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One of my first names or even all three in an awesome track in one of my favourite EDM genres by my most favourite music producers/deejays. Honest words, however grandiose it seems to be ❤

Ingvild stays up all day, all night

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What are your morning rituals? What does the first hour of your day look like?

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I wake up, drink water, take some care of my needs, go upstairs to take my morning medications, then a cup of Darjeeling tea. It’s very basic rituals, I think it’s actually okay this way.

Title is a quote from Norwegian rally/rallycross driver Petter Solberg and it is strong Norwenglish, it really means ‘the steering wheel is loose’.

There are many other funny Norwenglish quotes from him, including the very well-known in Norway quote; ‘it’s not the fart that kills you, it’s the smell’. fart = speed/velocity, smell = bang/impact.

Link in Norwegian with more quotes;

Petter Solberg Sitater – Stor samling av sitater med ekte Solberg-engelsk

I enjoy these kind of funny situations, I laugh out loud several times during the day together with my close family and I’m so thankful for this.

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What Olympic sports do you enjoy watching the most?

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I don’t watch a lot of sports but I’m watching sometimes our famous Norwegian athletes doing amazing at their particular choice of winter sports like especially ‘langrenn/cross-country skiing’, ‘skiskyting/biathlon’ and ‘alpint/alpine skiing’ among other sports. It’s partly my proud patriotic side and a big part just loving to see how great human beings can be in action.

That’s a strange word, right? It combines the ethnic minority Kven group and also the included Finnish roots of my ancestors. I could include many more ethnicities from my research and DNA-testing, but right now it’s true Kveninnish ❤

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When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up?

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I have a vivid, strong imagination and I still wish to live in a fantasy world where anything can happen if only we dare to try.

I’m actually somewhat good at acting as different people in plays and drama lessons, I don’t know if that is one strange trait for an autistic person. I value being honest in everyday life but I’m also a child of big imagination and grandiose fantasies of my bipolar type psychosis so I’m this way and that is reality, imagination is a part of reality within us.

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I have several good strategies to cope with negative/difficult feelings and I have mentioned some of them on blogs. But there is the option of escaping ordinary life in ways that some might see as dysfunctional in nature, in my case I have some psychoactive beverages combined with my different types of medications that can be a powerful way to escape my difficulties for a couple of hours.

But the best thing after this experience is to sleep some and let the mind process it fully, without limits.

Thank you for reading ❤

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What’s something most people don’t understand?

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Most people who don’t have mental-health conditions in first-hand experience or in close family relation don’t understand it. Even the psychiatric doctors may not truly understand what it’s really like from inside view, or they understand some conditions but not others or the comorbid medical/neurological diseases their patients struggle with. My own experiences are deep, profound and has made me very empathic with my fellow psychiatric patients whether family, friends, people I meet at the psych ward or a complete stranger I hear about online or in the news.

My illness affects everything I experience in day to day life. I have abusive voice-hearing and paranoid delusions even I’m on two different antipsychotics and other medical or social interaction treatments. The anxiety, bipolar, obsessive thoughts, and lets not forget to mention my temporal lobe epilepsy and Asperger syndrome as well, are strong influences to my experiences.

And thank you so much for visiting my blog today ❤

I actually enjoy being out in the sunshine when we are lucky enough to have it, since we have several months every year with no sunlight at all; from late November to mid January months we have all-day twilight or polar nights as a result of our Arctic location. And my favourite weather conditions include lots of sunlight whether it’s spring, summer, autumn or winter.

I haven’t found my sunglasses yet and I’m often light sensitive so I often need them, especially outside in brighter days on Easter holiday in the Mountains at our family cottage. Another great thing about living so far North is in summer time we have real all-day light for almost entire summer season, the Midnight sun is real and a powerful reason to visit here if you want to experience the Northern conditions. Being outside during Midnight sun is very rewarding mentally, I have done errands I could get done outside and walking home is easy and importantly quite safe. It can be somewhat difficult even for natives like me to be able to fall and stay asleep during this time, so have sleep aid/sleeping pills and very importantly find some type of dark cover on the bedroom window.

Thanks for reading this blog, and enjoy the pretty sunshine weather while you can ❤

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How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals?

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that’s kind of strange title but that’s how I see it. If I say yes it must be a completely honest heartfelt yes. And no is the same thing because I value honest expression, at the very least in offline conversations. And I don’t live to lie.

I’m not Norwegian, in any way. Yes like 75% according to DNA-testing but still people don’t see me that way. And the Norwegian culture I actually identify with is Agder and Finnmark Norwegian but it’s very mixed, especially the Finnmark region is very strongly Saami, Finnish and Kven influenced always. So I have the secret ability to show my non-Norwegian true nature without saying a word.

Can you tell I’m both not normal not Norwegian?

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What’s a secret skill or ability you have or wish you had?

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I honestly truly with my core being wish I could remove any trace of my existence completely forever from the Universe history. I’m not kidding that’s my deepest wish in my depressive psychosis world. It’s serious and very dark. I didn’t deserve to live on this Earth I’m a useless waste of space and you all know it deep within I’m no good this is my psychotic mind in writing no avoid the pitch black Darkness now I’m deeply wounded inside and I fight my wish to die every time my thoughts go in this way

thank you, all good people of the World

My favourite summer season weather is as I answer before around 20°C and mostly clear sky. I enjoy cold drinks and our wonderful view from the garden outside. And the Midnight sun is beautiful in it’s glory, even trying to sleep it’s worth the wait for summer. I take my sleeping pills as needed and try to cover window with dark curtains, i do need better dark curtains this year.

In winter season my favourite weather is quite cold, dry and a mix of cold and warm influences. I enjoy hot tea and my merino wool blankets when inside at home in living room. On errands I often prefer being outside because I’m by nature a warm type person often called ‘radiator’ by my cousin. I’m happy after entering the very pleasant colder environment outside after getting too warm on errands being inside.

I love our climate in this town far North in Norway and our town is quite special for being so Arctic in location, I lived in other town in Finnmark and coastal climate with much stronger wind and more unpredictable weather. But the wonderful summer season sunshine moments were so welcome and I think living there made me more thankful for our environment and the Nature around always.

Thanks for reading my long post and I wish you well today ❤ ❤

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What’s a secret skill or ability you have or wish you had?

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I used to read this cartoon series when I was a child and I really wanted those powers they had. And being prodromal schizoaffective I felt like sometimes I had these abilities in real life, I especially believed I had powers to control water element. Btw my psychosis in the long term didn’t make me believe in me having special powers, it actually made me be paranoid to the extreme and have negative, constant voice-hearing. It was still a type of prodromal sign, however.

My mother is a teacher in videregående skole/opplæring and her topics include science, maths and Norwegian language. Her students are mostly young immigrants or refugees that prepare to study in regular classes with native speakers of Norwegian. My grandmother is a retired teacher specialised in Norwegian language education. In my opinion they are both very good teachers in their unique ways, they are very passionate about learning from own experience and to be welcoming for foreign origins persons.

Thanks for reading ❤

My blog is much more important than it seems at surface level, because I really actually dream related to this blog every night. This is where I get feedback and inspiration on my writing and the music videos, my world in writing and feelings from reading. The community is important and my life would be very different without this influence in everyday life. My offline life is solitary and kind of dark in several ways, I hear several kind of voices and have strong delusional ways of thinking in everyday life.

So my blog life matters a lot to me and I really appreciate your time and feedback. Have a good night here from Northern Norway ❤

I wish to spend more time enjoying hot tea, and I’m planning well for next trip outside to bring my own quality tea along to share with others too. I’m passionate about tea in different forms, including lavender tea and the best Earl Grey tea I have tried yet. Mindful and present in life with these infusions, I add nothing to my tea because it’s good enough or even better as it is from basic.

I look forward to this next trip when I’ll share with other people my passion and knowledge of tea. Have a wonderful evening everyone ❤