Author: polarMidnight

Autistic people are still just as human as anyone else and with intellectal disability also deserve respect and compassion. I’m struggling a lot with my health these days and I cannot blog as often as I would wish. But this is my answer today and I hope your days are good. Thanks for reading ❤

Yes, my maternal grandmother. She is a fiery Sagittarius retired teacher and so loving even if she is quite blunt in expression. She is petite height and with a lot Kven ancestry and culture. We love her so much and she is the oldest of our family still living. She loves to feed forest animals and birds. She keeps our family connected by host of events and keeping up with snapchat and things like that. We will miss her so much at the moment she is no more here.

Takk bestemor for at du er deg selv ❤ ❤

Yes, I like to run and I love to walk. I like hiking and indoor climbing, I used to do this every day when I was a teenager and it made me quite more strong and the endurance exercise. I also like swimming, I did this practice when I was seven years old. I can carry heavy backpack of over 10kg up a hill in the snow deep.

Thank you for visiting my blog ❤

Note: about astrology and the moon

I like being an Earthling and while I love to see the moon from Earth I don’t want to leave our Mother Gaia. I have Moon in late Scorpio or maybe early Sagittarius if I’m not mistaken. Either way I’m a 4th house moon and I love home as a safe place and the Scorpio depth is profound. I also carry Sagittarius philosophy of faith and greater meaning, some joy and explore my roots.

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Well, I’m ung ufør and I’ve never had any paid employment. But that doesn’t mean I’m not willing to work for something that matters to me, I’m a double Virgo and I like feeling truly useful.

I would like to work with the part of healing and creative side, like for example writing or work in pharmacy settings behind the scenes. I would also like to work in a library if it was actually quiet, not the last time I was in the local library. The little children literally screaming right next to us, it took a while before I calm down (I’m autistic, sensitive to sound. Even the neurotypical people I was with thought it was painful!).

So that’s my thoughts on career paths today. I hope to find good vocation/calling, I could also be an activist because I’m very passionate about social-political causes, human and animal rights and the environment.

Thank you for reading ❤

I wish I did more make my own dinners. But I choose healthy Asian types ready food with varied ingredients. One thing I’m good at is simple pizza and pasta dishes, and to cook the pasta in boiling water there is some small amount of salt in the mix. I’m good with finding ‘pålegg’ to my large round full-grain polarbrød. Norvegia or Jarlsberg cheese and strawberry jam/syltetøy are great on bread.

Otherwise I’m good with making the most out of my favourite teas and herbal like ginger and chamomille. I have my own tea rituals, I wait exactly the minute it’s best to drink. If you don’t know me yet I’m Norwegian and I have AS so that’s sometimes a good thing when it comes to particular rituals, the Virgo part also!

I like choosing cold drinks as well, my fav are the Battery Pearberry and the classic Exotic Fruit. I love ciders like Grevens Pære and Grevens Frukt.

Those are some of the things I like and can prepare quite well.

Thank you for reading ❤

Well, I remember 22/07 of 2011, it was a Friday. I was watching television and the message came up on the screen about a bombing in our capital city and the rest of that day was very frightening and a major influence on my life even to this day. I was already psychotic and it got much worse.

In the following days and weeks there was also unity in our Norwegian society, they placed roses and other acts of deep solidarity, it shows how we are a compassionate nation.

We must not forget our shared humanity and the resilience we have inside. We are so strong when we are together.

Thank you for listening ❤

I would like to quit drinking for good. But I like pear cider and alcopop so I’m tempted every time I’m at the local grocery store to buy more. Eventually I will quit just from it being expensive and my treatment team will know I’m using a lot alcohol so that will play a part. I have a strong mood disorder, psychosis and AS and I need to keep it fun and light. Not two Bacardi Razz in one night, not three large cans Monster energy drinks with six cans of perry or fruit champagne cider.

I’m okay this morning and I’ll quit, I know I can do it.

And I love this song

I got my updated ethnicity estimates from 23andMe recently and I thought it was quite interesting how it changed from last results. I’m around a little over 1% German, Dutch and Belgian and that wasn’t clearly expected to show in my results even though I have known distant Dutch and German roots, it’s likely a much closer ancestor than I thought first. So I’m working on that the last few days along with my self-guided therapy activities as part of my treatment of the conditions that I struggle with.

Thank you for reading and have a wonderful Sunday ❤

Well, I don’t have paid employment and I’m disabled so I’m quite busy just getting through the days. But if I had to make a statement I would say it’s both. And neither. I’m feeling that I have a mission in this lifetime that goes beyond paid work and status, I might just bring light to some strangers I’ll never meet and that feels better than anything I could ask for. I don’t work because I want to impress others and I don’t work just so I can feel very good about myself. I do it because it’s my mission and I serve the almighty in everything.

Thank you for reading my blogs ❤

Yes, my mother is the first person I think of. She is a teacher in high school (videregående skole) and she is very intelligent and a good teacher that sees the potential in all her students. She teach most foreign origins students that are new to Norway and we are positive toward other cultures and diversity in general, she doesn’t like teachers that discriminate based on ethnicity or reading levels. I love my mother a lot and she’s been there for me always. Takk mamma ❤

I hope this was okay reading and thanks for visiting my blog ❤

I’ve been writing less lately. I’m so busy with everything going on in my life, but I want to write like I used to. So today I’m writing at least this blog post about writing blog. It’s like I don’t know what to say in these moments, I’m lost for words.

Thank you for listening ❤

Note; I hope this is on topic, I try describe it

I try be very honest in offline life and I prioritize honesty online as well. I believe in being kind and compassionate with the downtrodden person  and to other psychiatric patients like myself who are mentally unwell. I’m far left ideology and I do try truly practice my values, I care for my family.

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Every time we moved in my childhood it was growing up fast. And we moved often. I had a lot of difficult experiences related to bullying and abuse in addition to undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and severe mental illness. So in that way I was always had to depend on myself first, one experience that stand out was being 16 in a new town in a different cultural environment. I had thought it would be much better but it was actually quite a lot harder, especially in the beginning where I went to school in normal time in all classes. I lost my one friend there because she moved somewhere else or change direction in education. So that was a time I really felt the age being closer to adult than child.

Thank you for reading ❤

I’m Norwegian so I cannot imagine what amount it really is. But if I won a lottery or something else I would give it to anyone in need, especially the poor or downtrodden people in society. It would reach Dyrebeskyttelsen in Norway also, my cousin volunteers with this organizations and they really help the animals (esp stray cats) well-being and health conditions.

It’s better to give to those causes that are close to the heart, so it really feels genuinely good inside.

Thanks for visiting ❤

Yes, if I was guaranteed to live a decent life off medications I really would attempt to do so.

Life is good, at least in theory

It’s really about the force to endure and evolve. I’ve been through many hard times and still moving forward after getting back on my own two feet with some help, and with a lot of inner determination too.

I love hardstyle music, ever since my late teenage years and I’m now 32 years old still listening (even if it’s mostly old tracks). And I like Brennan Heart a lot.

We Come and We Go

Here is a documentary about Brennan (Fabian)

I also like other musicians and every art form, including actors, visual artists, writers and many others. Enjoy creating in any form, it’s so important ❤

Thank you for listening ❤

Hyvää iltaa/Buorre eahket!

(Good evening/God kveld)

Note: maybe kind of longer text

In addition to being Scandinavian I’m also very Finnish origins, especially Kven group and Sámi indigenous as well. I’m interested and proud about this part of my cultural heritage because it was taken away from my recent ancestors as part of forced assimilation policies like the type Fornorskning/Norwegianization that include the Reisende and Romani Traveller groups further South even if they are not mentioned anywhere near the times the Sámi are mentioned. It’s not fair because the Reisende suffered at least as much, sometimes more in fact.

But to be on this topic I love Finnish cultural features like the Finnish type sauna experience and the language. Finnish sounds awesome compared to English and Norwegian, it’s in a completely different language family called Uralic language family of Finno-Ugric linguistic heritage including Sámi languages like North Sámi that my Finnmark ancestors spoke in everyday life hundreds years ago. I know some Finnish, Kven and Sámi from education and cultural activities including school lessons language courses and just listening to Sámi media like Ođđasat with some Norwegian language subtitles to understand better.

So it’s also the Finnish sisu and the forests of Northern Finland, when I was visiting/travelling along Torne River Valley in 2016 with our group trip it was a big part of the experience to see the forests when we were driving in the tourist bus to truly explore this region our roots are deeply tied to.

I like to speak about this in social gathering with other passionate people around these subjects, it’s a great way to get to know new interesting people without boring small talk. I’m autistic btw. The languages are important to preserve, and especially the Kven language that is endangered category. There is discussions of creating a Kven Parliament (Kventinget) like the Sámi Parliament (Sametinget/Sámediggi) in Norway.

I support this personally especially if it means Kven people are given equal rights to the Sámi and the cultural heritage is important. I’m not anti-Sámi at all, we all matter to the Spirit in the Sky.

Giitu/Kiitos!

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hobbies and pastimes?

Yes, family research. Genealogy and other methods of knowing more about our roots, like recently DNA-tests and my whole journey has been in community on MyHeritage websites like mine. My great-grandmother was an old style family researcher who wrote a well-known book about the local history in a particular old area of Northern Norway and I own the book myself as well.

I in addition love tea like oolong, Darjeeling and Earl Grey as well as rooibos and chamomille tea. I love listening to music and learning my roots in Finnish language and North Sámi as well. It does really connect deeply with family research in general, it bring me closer to the people I read about in records and my dreamwork, 12th house themes and 4th house roots with Moon-Pluto in Scorpio sign. It’s profound in the importance of my pastime hobbies.

I also explore themes in terms of astrology and inner work, where we come from in a deeper psychological perspective as well. I began this path in 2007 at age 14 and I’m still going in 2025 at age 32, so it’s not only just a pastime of my youth, it’s my core mission for my roots.

And the part of the psychological past is very much important to this family research, it’s the essence of where we came from. My father was struggle with severe bullying and xenophobic abuse from school system and peers, his wounds are not measured by only his own suffering but the heritage I live with today. It’s very sensitive topics for him especially and in my own life also.

So it’s past time, impacting our current society and family cultures. I wish I knew him better, and I miss knowing more about his biological father life history not just the names but the lived lives of my ancestors. Maybe the insights are coming one day, unexpected.

Thanks for listening and have a great research day ❤ ❤

Honestly, I don’t know what I would do if this happened to me. I’m very close connected with my belongings and possesions like money and memories in writing, blankets, tea, clothing and many others and I would feel profound loss and mental worsening of my conditions. I would seek help from family and health care plus other help for building my life back together. I would miss my things and memories a lot. I’m hoping it doesn’t happen in this lifetime, but I get through many difficult times before. It’s about feeling safe at home and what would I do without a home?

Thank you for listening and I hope your days are good ❤

In my youth I used to believe that asking for help was weakness, that I had to manage everything by myself. But over time this changed into accept my need for other people and medicine help for my conditions and psychological well-being. It’s still sometimes difficult to realise how we all depend on outside world, the people and things we need to survive and heal.

So it’s all about seeing clearly what is important and to realise help is important for well-being.

Thank you for reading ❤

As I mentioned last year on other blog I had my ‘human-etisk/borgerlig konfirmasjon’ at age 14 in 2008. I really felt out of place the whole day, like it wasn’t about me in a good way but to make me feel less than. I was undiagnosed and psychotic, so this feeling that many teens also have was much stronger in me. I was much shorter than the other teen girls and they placed me in the group so I was barely visible, I was not wearing a Norwegian bunad like all the others because I didn’t feel that represented me as a Sámi/Kven youth. We had food at the local Chinese restaurant and my cousin took pictures of me eating. The most painful part was asking my grandmother not to tell a story about something very painful from my past, luckily the story at the end was something different; still a little embarrassing as any confirmation story, but not highly traumatic.

Thank you for reading, and you belong here ❤

I used to be the person who thought everything would improve only if I was thinner or other parts of my appearance was perfect. I used to be bullied for my short height and different features related to my ethnicity, I’m of Sámi and (more distantly) Arctic indigenous origins and my classmates were not. I’m also a psychiatric patient and in my youth I was undiagnosed, it was very difficult for me just getting through the nights.

But I want to say it’s not only dark, it’s also great inner strenght and self-awareness from these experiences in life. I’m here for a reason, and it’s a valid feeling to keep moving forward in spite of it being very difficult to feel like I truly belong.

Thank you for reading, listening and have a wonderful Friday ❤

If it was only without the laptop I would listen to dubstep on my iPod. I was without a phone for a week a couple of years ago and it wasn’t easy, I had lost it in a taxi on a long distance trip and the company had to send it back by post service. Thank goodness I got it back again. But it was really revealing how much we rely on technology in everyday life, so I noticed how time moved  differently. And yes, when I wasn’t using my phone I did other activities like listening to music on my iPod.. like drinking plenty of tea/herbal teas ❤

So life would be different, not less. Slower and harder, more genuine and free.

Yes, it’s in general a strong Sámi cultural identity core with true skills to feel a part of the wider community and to learn from others about the world. I’m a double Virgo (Sun, Rising) and I like to learn practical skills and feel truly useful. The deep Moon-Pluto in Scorpio within 4th house make my roots extremely important parts of my identity. I’m very interested in astrology as told before in other answers, I see the connections in my everyday life and want to share my thoughts.

It’s part of my connection to the spirit of these skills and creative expressions, I’m getting made traditional clothing for next big celebration once I can afford it. I want to feel it in my own hands, my heritage as an Arctic regions woman. It can be both modern and tradition, it’s about soul and identity plus practical skill in our environment.

I’m ready to learn some more, live through doing work that honour my roots and build connection with the living Sámi community as well.

Thanks for visiting ❤

Sports. Physical activities like beach volleyball could be a good way to exercise and social events, plus the being outside in natural environments. I didn’t particularly enjoy the physical education lessons in school, but I’m feeling it’s easier as an adult to really dive into it head on. I also really really could pick up my old indoor climbing passion, it’s great exercise and I’m not at all afraid of heights.

It’s a sense of mastering the skill and getting tangible results like reaching the top of the wall, I’m strongly Virgo so practices of skill training and like I did my very best efforts is quite rewarding on the inner confidence parts of my life. It’s also tied to my Aquarius Saturn in 6th house, the heights and habits of daily living.

Daily writing prompt

What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

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I could pay more attention to the physical world, and it would benefit not only me but including the local community of these activities and show the politicians in our town that the population needs the money and resources for these important health prevention efforts to reduce illness effects and promote well-being in general.

Okay, so that’s some of the aspects I could absolutely prioritize more in my daily life. Enjoy the ride, in it’s pride and glory. That’s the whole experience of being truly human.

Thanks for reading ❤

taking my medicine on time. Yes, really on time because I get sicker when I’m late or miss the dose. 

I take anticonvulsants twice daily for epilepsy and I need it to work to prevent seizures and other significant epilepsy symptoms like headaches or confused early mornings.

I take painkillers twice daily as well for several severe pain conditions and this helps keep me functioning at nearly normal level if we consider my other conditions effects on my disability. I don’t get “high” I just suffer less from pain related symptoms and get relief from the type extremely disrupting severity of pain.

Along with these important parts I will listen to music to keep a stable mood and honour the deep feelings inside. I have mentioned my Moon-Pluto in Scorpio within 4th house before and it’s a big issue in life, I need the music as a survival ritual.

Okay, so these thoughts and feelings are my basic priority tomorrow and today. It’s early morning here in Norway at the moment, the day ahead of me and ready to unfold.

Thanks for reading ❤

It’s like.. I know I gave it my best. Nothing could stop me from reaching my goals, my own efforts matter to the results and it could feel rewarding to my schizophrenia negative symptoms of avolition and apathy to get what I need and to move beyond limits.

That’s what’s on my mind at this moment. Simple and clear motivation and efforts pay off inside.

Thanks for reading ❤

Yeah, I would likely be an astrology person full time if I could work. Other related vocation would include being a true musician and a real writer of different types of creative expressive fashion and raw power of words. I love lyrics.

So if you don’t know me well yet, here is some about me. I’m a double Virgo with Sun in 12th house along with Moon-Pluto in Scorpio in 4th house. I’m an Aspie/Aspergian/autistic person and I’m from Norway. In early 30s still. I don’t have children or partner, but I have half-nieces to be their aunt with. My brother is a musician and our family culture is heavily musical. I like writing and I’m also very introspective as probably is visible in the many major planets in water houses (in this 4th, 12th house; also 8th, but I don’t personally have any major placements in 8th house). I’m passionate about anything that interests me. I have a severe mental illness, type of schizophrenia with mood disorder. I really like music and I literally dream of being a deejay at night.

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my most valued trait in myself?

Note: I’m creating several versions of this answer.

yes, I value being deep. I value intensity and true justice. My Moon-Pluto combination in 4th house in Scorpio sign, I was born during early 1990s. Getting through anything life has brought me and learning on the way. But I value also just as much joy and just seeing good in people as well, otherwise the insight doesn’t make sense.

Thank you for listening intently.

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three jobs I’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter?

well, it’s more of a vocation than a true job. I don’t have paid employment as a young disabled woman on ‘ung ufør’ so I don’t know really what usual work feels like from this perspective.

But I know what I would do if money wasn’t that important.

I would listen and create music together with some friends, almost like my half-brother who is a real musician and song writer. I would use all that creative energy into something meaningful and therapeutic both for me and for the listeners. I could connect different genres and themes from my inner world and do a lot of healing through this process. We all struggle with some part of our life and we all can heal some of our wounds with the right help and guidance. Both inner and outer wounds count, I had chronic infected wounds from surgery and only healing after specialised wound nurse got the right health care and methods for me. I’m eternally thankful for her healing efforts and care.

I would write about everything that interests me in this vast existence inner world and outside events in society. I’m passionate about astrology, like some other Aspergian people feel too. I’m a 12th house Sun and a 4th house Moon so the emotional inner world feels like home to me. I’m a Lunar (Moon sign) Scorpio in connection with Pluto in Scorpio (born 1993 btw) in 4th house. My emotional life is intense to a degree maybe many others don’t know. My Sun and Ascendant are in Virgo (or other systems Leo) and my Mercury is in Leo within 12th house.

I have schizoaffective condition/schizophrenia with mood disorder and I hear voices as part of my experience with this and my history of childhood adversity, bullying and different childhood abuse. I have long history of being a patient in psychiatry since 2007 at age 14 years.

And I would dedicate my life to be a true mental health guide in my community and reach out to anyone online need some help from experienced psychiatric patients like myself to understand the way psychiatry works from the patients perspective. Even my psychiatry doctors have told me to use my abilities this way.

So guess what? That’s where I’m heading and what I’m really going to put first on my work goals along maybe with regular work at the pharmacy. But the writing and the music will be essential to my vocation no matter the title or area I work. So it’s all three in one setting. I love fantasy world and I love living in reality as well, this is both.

Thanks for reading ❤

Yes, one of my names is Ingvild and this is significant to the answer to this prompt. My name is Norse origin and means similar to ‘ancestors struggle’ from ‘Ing’ a Norse mythology fertility god called ‘Freyr’ or ‘Yngvi’ and ‘hildr’ meaning battle or struggle. I’m proud of our cultural features in my family, we are a mix of different ethnicities and regions. Some include Sámi and Kven origins and also ethnic Northern Norwegian, Southern Swedish, Southern Norwegian, Finnish and also Reisende and Romani Traveller roots. I especially like the many different languages and features like sauna, boat culture and modern variant of traditional food and clothing.

I also have these two pair of boots:

These are called Sami and they are from Topaz. They are inspired from Sámi shoes and Arctic.

These are called Amundsen and they are also from Topaz brand. They are Arctic indigenous inspired.

I want to learn Finnish and North Sámi language as well, I’m Norwegian speaking and didn’t learn the languages of my ancestors from home partly because my ancestors were target of the policy of Norwegianization/Fornorskning and the WWII destructive effects on far-Northern heritage like cultural buildings and traditional clothing within the buildings. I know some Finnish, Kven and also North Sámi language from own experience hearing on news and media plus great language courses I joined and enjoy learning.

Other features I like and respect are the spiritual roots and the culture around the unique natural phenomenon of Midnight sun and polar nights. The Light changes from different seasons, from the all-day twilight and Darkness of December to the all-day light of June. We also have the eight seasons system in Sámi roots related to reindeer and natural environments.

On my Southern Scandinavian side there is a strong boat culture and very conservative Lutheran Christian faith, both Norwegian and Reisende share this feature. My Swedish roots are strong political left ideology and we are most of us still at least left-leaning or like me quite libertarian socialist/anarchist by political themes.

Here are two different versions of me, they are AI generated and loosely based on my real traits.

And I want people to know I appreciate the many different immigrant influences to our culture. Most of my childhood friends were either European immigrants or non-European origins refugees from Asian and African countries. My favourite part is the food and diversity in these new generation Norwegians. I like food like for example reindeer kebab and I love Asian food of different types.

I’m really quite interested in different cultural roots and my ancestors struggle as is the true meaning of my given name Ingvild. I hope it was good to read about the features of my roots and my love for other cultures.

Giitu go lohket ❤ hyviä aikoja toivottaen!

In addition to English Tea shop I often enjoy some Pukka brand tea and herbal tea. I like Kloster te, london fruit&herb and several other brands too. I often like to combine different mix of tea and herbal tea together in one big tea cup so it’s multiple effects and great harmony of flavour.

In my opinion the Three Ginger by Pukka plus the Strawberry & Vanilla by london fruit&herb taste great mixed in one big cup for the true flavour experience. I like rooibos type tea also. Calming chamomille tea is so useful during stressed times.

I like Grevens cider, especially the great fruit champagne type and the regular pear cider/perry in addition to their alcohol free alternatives like the apple taste. I also like beverages like Bacardi Breezer or the much stronger rum Bacardi Razz.

Battery energy drink brand is my favourite, but I’m liking most of the brand we have in just our local grocery stores. I love the Exotic and the Pearberry taste. I like Red Bull, Monster, Burn and a couple more. But the Battery is my favourite of them; Finnish strenght and determination, similar to the world famous concept of Finnish sisu.

I like buying most of my clothes on Cubus store. Most often I order online but not always, when we go to shopping mall it’s good watch the real clothing in person. As mentioned before on blogs I like Bik Bok also even though I’m past their age target groups, but I visit sometimes anyway. I like their tops and hoodies.

There are a lot of aspects to write more in-depth but I have a little list here with some details, so it might be okay also. Thanks for reading ❤

Another aspect of my everyday living is to be introspective and contemplate reality as it arise from my awareness. I sometimes practice certain activities related to meditation and mindfulness, especially trying to be an observer of my own thoughts and pay attention to the real present sensations in my being.

Note: I’m from Norway, I try writing in good English language for people to understand my posts better. This may go wider in topics than expected.

One of the ways to do it in my life is to drink tea regularly and with some tea rituals along, the rituals are not complicated but still powerful enough to shape my perception of reality. I don’t remember if I’ve told this here before, I love Darjeeling type black tea as well as many other teas and different herbal teas. I drink the lavender tea when I need the peace of mind and matcha green tea for clarity and helping my meditative state of being.

I’m diagnosed with severe mental illness, in particular schizophrenia and mood disorder, sometimes it’s very similar to the condition schizoaffective disorder. I am in addition diagnosed with Asperger syndrome in a moderate-severe case, I have the autistic passion for my environment and the political ideology of my ancestors related to my own political opinion. The medicine is important to keep me stable and feeling better in several life areas.

I’m very interested in exploring genealogy and the astrology features of my life story and my true mission, my vocation in mind. Being a double Leo or Virgo (Sun + Rising sign) in 12th house shapes my path and my spirituality. I’m of Sámi origins and it’s very important to me to honour my ancestors and my cultural roots. I have Moon in 4th house (in Scorpio) and Pluto conjunction with this essential piece of my own emotional life.

The music I listen to is necessary to my complete well-being and mental health. I like the electronic music for some purpose and grunge/post grunge music for the feeling of authentic expression. I listen a lot to heavy metal and the black metal as well. I live for the music and my thoughts are in most ways driven in lyrics, it’s a big part of life to listening to the messages in sound, the overall mood of a track/song plus of course the song lyrics themselves.

I want to mention something I thought about recently and it’s how it can be a burden to be unusually pretty. I’m average and my avatars are truly based on me, but better looking. Yet I’ve heard from some that strong beauty puts a lot of pressure on a person, high expectations and other difficulties. Like they have hidden pain within, I don’t know the experience from their point of view. I’m not really saying I’m extremely not good but the extremely beautiful people do suffer just as much as the average person.

That’s a lot of my writing, but I just want to write something from the heart. And thank you for listening ❤

My favourite tea brand is English Tea shop. I love nearly all their teas of different kinds, it’s special feeling of excited thoughts about the next lovely tea experience. The Earl Grey is wonderful and I like several other teas and herbal mixes they are having. Like their hibiscus and rooibos tea with berries. I buy it mostly through the Norwegian Sunkost supplements/health food stores.

In clothing my most common brand is Cubus and especially the hoodies are my favourite things to buy there, including many different colours. I know the size I wear in this brand and that’s important to my shopping experience.

Lastly the brand of Battery energy drinks is part of my everyday life significantly and affect my mood and subjective experience in well-being. I like the exotic and the pearberry among others like the peachberry and blueberry taste drinks.

Those are some different brands I like. They are not my favourite from just name or image, but because I genuinely like their products and possibly the ethical topics are significantly affect my choices in brands.

Thanks for reading, and have a truly wonderful day ❤

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what could I do more of?

exercise and going outside more. To walk where and when it’s possible without having someone driving me there, and to enjoy what this activity brings to my health and well-being. I don’t own a car and I’m not allowed to drive because I have no drivers license and my epilepsy.

another aspect is being social in general, I live most of my time alone with my thoughts and my memories. It’s meant to do things and meet people to live fully, I’m just as worthy as anyone else in the human company and sometimes we must venture a bit outside our comfort zone to grow as a person.

I could also practice on my writing, especially the creative side. I could do more inner work and try different meditation methods in everyday life. Explore many new foods and several tea types, including the herbal variety.

So these are some things I could do more of. Exercise, walking, nature, social interaction and going outside my comfort zone, writing/creative writing, inner world activities like meditation and explore new foods and drinks like especially for example tea/herbal tea.

Thanks for reading ❤

This piece of advice came from an inner voice in a psychotic state, but it’s so true in it’s words. We need complete honesty inside ourselves to be truly living our best life possible. It’s also an example of voice-hearing being not always a bad experience at the core, even if it’s very difficult times inside and truth sometimes is hard to hear.

So that’s one of the useful advice I’ve received in my lifetime, even if it came from within my own mind. Sometimes that’s the lessons we learn the most from.

Thanks for listening ❤

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what brands do I associate with?

I use a lot of things from these brands;

Cubus (clothing store), English Tea shop (tea, herbal tea) Grevens (alcohol-containing cider, plus a few couple regular non-alcoholic options) Battery, Red Bull, Monster, Burn (all energy drink brands, I don’t use just one brands because I’m just like that. But I do prefer Battery for several reasons, it’s a Finnish brand and I truly like the cultures of country Finland and Finnish themes also partly because I’m a very proud Finnish and including Kven origins woman) and yes I also drink Coca-Cola regularly. My cousin loves the Coca-Cola but her partner only drinks Pepsi Max.

I love energy drinks, and I like the astrology symbols of these AI illustrations.

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As I mention on other blog last year I’m feeling energy from green tea and matcha. It’s a balanced energy partly from the theanine in tea contribute to calm feeling and gentle focus.

I also am actually given energy from herbal teas like the ginseng based tea and my favourite blend of ginger and strawberry tea because it’s rich taste and very warm from the ginger part.

Otherwise of course I feel the quite stronger stimulating effects of energy drinks combined with mild alcohol-containing beverages. It motivates me like a stimulant and the alcohol makes me feel slight euphoria and much less inhibitions.

So it’s different beverages that contribute to my energy levels most. And I truly love matcha type tea as well as Earl Grey, oolong and white tea to name different kinds of tea also.

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Life in Cartoon Motion by Mika, especially the songs Grace Kelly, Relax, Take It Easy and Big Girl (You Are Beautiful)

It makes me happy in listening to it when I’m already feeling okay so it’s a mood lift of some type. I was listening to these songs in my early teenage years mostly so it’s a part of this time.

So that’s my favourite album in some ways. I also have plenty I like to listen to in different mental states and moods.

answer to dailyprompt-2072

What am I most proud of or interested in about my cultural heritage?

note: I’m from Norway, from Northern regions including Nordland, Troms and Finnmark counties. I currently live in Finnmark county, but spent my childhood and early to mid teenage years in Nordland and Troms. Btw it’s somewhat long text because I had a lot on my mind writing.

I’m proud of our diversity in cultures in the Northern regions and also the far-Southern roots of my grandfather side. Our different languages and ethnicities traditionally and the modern influence from immigrants, including both European and non-European groups. I’m proud of our traditional clothing, the Sámi cuisine in general and our unique sense of humor. I have Finnish roots as well as Sámi, Kven and general Scandinavian plus Traveller/Reisende ancestry.

I love Finnish language and I want to learn how to speak Finnish so Finnish natives understand me when I say something in their language. I want to learn North Sámi language also, maybe learning two Uralic origin languages will help a lot more to understand both Finnish/Kven and Sámi languages and way of thought; a big part of culture and identity is tied to language.

(This is not my own gákti, but I really want one)

I like sauna experience and the culture of great strenght and brave determination in my heritage, our polar nights or twilight of winter seasons and summer Midnight Sun phenomenon are part of our cultural features that give us special point of view as an Arctic regions population.

The Light changes is a large influence on our everyday life, and sometimes visiting Southern Scandinavian persons are surprised by the bright Midnight sun and cannot sleep at all. In our case it’s strange the sun (in their location) actually sets in June! And Christmas Eve sunlight? That’s actually even more strange!

Some more about the sauna tradition; in Norway it’s often called ‘badstue’ or ‘sauna’ and they are always present in swimming halls. It’s very good sometimes to be in strong heat with other people, we talk about different topics while relaxing in the warm environment. It’s kind of fun when we pour water on the stones and it makes the sound.

These are a pair of my own Arctic indigenous inspired (modern) boots from Topaz called Sami:

Our languages are important part of my passion for family research and the big community of the local Kven group as well as the many different Sámi identities, including city Sámi culture like I’m identified with being from small-medium size Northern towns currently and growing up. I’m pro diversity in all forms, European or any other background is welcome here, if you ask me at least so it is. I’m also interested in identity themes in general like trans/non-binary identity and I’m myself a bisexual/lesbian woman. I’m autistic/Asperger syndrome person and have severe mental illness including schizoaffective disorder and childhood adversity history. My political opinions go far left, and it’s also in my deep family roots being left-leaning culture.

I also have done DNA-tests myself and many family members and relatives have also take the tests. The results match well what our research has shown with records and I also importantly have many true photos/pictures of my ancestors in my genealogy collection of many aspects of our heritage. I keep some in frames on my living room wall, they watch me with care and it can be very insightful into both general history and the family dynamics of our roots.

So that’s something about my cultural features and family heritage, there is so much more than I can write down in words.

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(Giitu go lohket ❤ Kiitos kun luit ❤ )

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History, science, health and to manage money

I also want to be very deeply informed about spirituality and psychological insight in terms of alternative systems like astrology and symbols.

The money management is very important and I don’t have high pay as I’m 100% on ung ufør (disability pay for people with severe conditions appear before adulthood, I’m Aspergian and severely mentally ill with psychosis and mood disorder, plus some neurological conditions like temporal lobe epilepsy) so I need to plan well my choices in economic topics.

Health is kind of obvious from my last part, I’m after all strongly Virgo influenced so I pay attention to my health in general like eating well and getting good sleep. And I want to know more about my many necessary medications and other treatments.

I want to know about science topics, climate change and technology to help us live sustainable lifestyle and communicate better with diverse groups of people. I also very much value social science and research into minority populations and neurodiversity. Ethics and social justice, legal justice for all who need help from these useful institutions.

I want to know much more in-depth about history; both general and personal/family history. The process of researching Norwegianization (or in Norwegian called Fornorskning) is one large part of it) and how it impacts us today. I want to get to the roots of my family heritage, what we came from and how it shaped us.

So these are some of the topics I want to be more informed about.

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Oh yes, I’m holding a grudge. It’s my favourite beverages and the thing I escape to in hard times. But it ruins life, family relationships and is even involved in deadly cancer for many. I don’t want my fathers addiction to be inherited by me, I’m not supposed to fall prey to this lovely poison.

So I’m doing my best to keep away, at least in my everyday life. It’s not worth it.

Note: I’m very much a music person and quite introspective by nature, shown in my 12th house and 4th house influences from astrology. I think in lyrics and my world is shaped by music.

Daily writing prompt

What would your life be like without music?

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I’ve always been deeply connected with music, my mother told me I used to sing when I was little. As mentioned in previous posts I dream of making electronic dance music at night, a deejay of the dark hours.

I like this: Bleed American by Jimmy Eat World

I also think in lyrics, music is always a part of my thoughts and inner world it’s how I do inner work to heal wounded parts of my mind. I’m mentally ill and autistic so my inner world is quite intense and emotional, it would severely alter my moods and also my mental well-being if music disappear completely. To function I need rhythms and melodic beauty, and without lyrics with sounds associated with my identity I would likely collapse into psychosis and deep emotional numbness.

I also like this: Pain by Jimmy Eat World

I choose the path of music to introspective work and spiritual side, it’s as important to me as writing feels. It’s on a profound way my life being connected with these creative energies, including my dreaming state of consciousness.

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Note: about music, astrology and a lot of inner world topics. Plenty of music videos here as well.

My life would be very difficult without music, I cannot imagine how empty it could get. I think in lyrics together with the sound and overall mood associated with my inner world. I truly heal with the help of music listening and other inner work. I live for the music, it’s profoundly important to my well-being and mental health. And I have schizoaffective disorder and Asperger syndrome, so I often struggle with voice-hearing and deep paranoia. My musical family is also a very big part of my appreciation of music, instruments, vocals and last but definitively not least: lyrics.

Okay, so it’s my astrology features I will include in my answer to this prompt. I have Sun in 12th house and Moon in 4th house. Depending on the system I’m either a double Leo or Virgo and with Moon in Scorpio conjunct the 4th house Pluto. Alternative my Moon is in Sagittarius, also within my 4th house. Sun+Asc/Rising in Leo or Virgo. Midheaven in Taurus. My Mercury is in Leo sign within 12th house conjunction with my Sun and Chiron, the ‘Wounded Healer’ as it’s called.

My Moon-Pluto combination in Scorpio in 4th house influences my taste in music and lyrics that resonates with this. Combined with my 12th house placements it’s deep within me to listen and learn from lyrics; it helps me understand other people on a level I cannot reach otherwise.

Here are some tracks I really like:

the song Hatred by Dimension (drum&bass)

Do you feel alive?

the anthem The Power of the Mind by Headhunterz (hardstyle)

the intention of our minds is powerful.. and a curse

the song Going Under by Deetox

(rawstyle, female deejay! Yay!)

save me from myself, I’m going under

And to end.. this (yes, Norwegian black metal!)

The Pentagram Burns by Satyricon

Determined and strong

Thank you for listening ❤

Note: Nearly every holiday in my family/our home country of Norway.

First there is 6th of February, Samefolkets dag in Norwegian language. It’s a special day for the Sámi and in my region we celebrate in public with wearing traditional clothing like gákti/samekofte of our particular ancestors location like the Kautokeino gákti, Lule Sámi or Sea Sámi among several other types and regions. I don’t have one yet, but I’m going to choose which and get one made from my measurements and the associated silver and other important parts of the traditional dress and modern features.

Then 16th of March, the Kven people’s day. I am strongly Kven ethnicity and culture so we celebrate with family and the wider groups local Kven community. I have a Kven costume but I was 17 years old and very thin back then so I cannot wear it anymore. They are expensive because it’s such high quality clothing and hand made from experienced persons, just like with the different types of Sámi gákti.

Easter is important to us, in my family we stay at our mountain cabin for several days when every grocery stores are closed and we enjoy being outside during day and playing board games at night. Eating Kvikk lunsj chocolate and oranges, warm dinner like reindeer based food and it’s very family oriented activities plus skiing across the frozen lake with the fellow cabin staying families.

So comes 17th of May, the National Day of Norway. We celebrate big time with several different ways, including parade (tog) wearing our traditional clothing like a Norwegian bunad or other culture like as mentioned before Sámi gákti and Kven costume. In addition many wear non-traditional clothing with special occations features.

Sankthans/Midsummer is also celebrated in Norway, but quite different from the Swedish type celebration. We have bonfire events and community activities like bbq or grilling outside.

My birthday is celebrated with family in the form of eating wonderful cakes together and some gifts. I also have my own way of giving myself a gift like a couple cans of alcohol-containing cider and energy drinks while listening to music at home.

Halloween I listen to dark music at home or we sometimes have party with friends sometimes dress in kind of supernatural themes.

Christmas and New Years Eve are during the darkest time of year, in the Arctic region we have polar nights and the sun doesn’t rise for over a month. We get together with family members big celebration with Christmas Eve dinner including pork belly/ribbe and sausages among others type. The presents gifts are another big main feature of this yearly event. It takes several hours and we love sometimes being with the large group of close family. New Years Eve is also special, we eat together and often at Midnight go outside with fireworks like many celebrate with. Many adults drink a lot on this night, so some are struggling with hangover on 1st of January.

Thank you for reading my long yearly celebration of different Northern holidays. Have a great day ❤