This year I’m turning 33, my mother at my age was a single mother of two and an eternal student. Both in academic and life experiences way. My father was absent and struggling with addiction to different substances, I’m not really aware what happened before 2007 when he was 39 and decided to contact us again.
Both of my parents were born in 1968, 25 years old when I was born. I’m thankful for having my family exactly as it is, nothing can be taken for granted with people and connection.
These are my thoughts on this topic today, and I wish you a wonderful Friday ❤ ❤
Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?
Yes, I used to listen to the radio a lot. As a child it was my favourite thing to listen to at night when I was getting ready for sleep and my mind would wander in dark directions without input from outside. I also listened in my teenage years to music and political radio programs.
But over time it got tired because radio changed along with my own age progress into different priorities and preferances. So I don’t listen much to the radio anymore.
Yes, the winter seasons can be heavy literally as physical and emotional features. Right now it’s heavy snowfall and it’s going to get colder the next few days. But winter seasons (čakčadálvi, dálvi, giđđadálvi) are not all bad at all. It’s a great time for drinking hot tea inside with blankets on top, listening to music and conversations with family members.
So I’m not going to over complain about this here and I never bother in real everyday life to refuse the consequences of living here. It’s truly the magic of it.
It’s changed our lives in nearly every part of it, there is no turning back. I remember YouTube coming out in 2005 and that was major to my experience online. All the music we are able to be exposed to from all genres and ages, the people creating their own digital presence as well. Share information instantly and knowledge being available to a very wide part of the world’s population.
That’s one thing that really matters, and there are many other inventions born from this one.
Thanks for visiting my little corner of the world wide web ❤
How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?
Eight seasons. One year.
Short summary; It matters how you see what happens more than it seems. I’m very inward and I’ve always been, it keeps me alive and that’s more important than often is thought.
With time comes wisdom, if you choose to keep eyes open even in very hard times. I survive by doing introspective work and connection with world around me. It’s not always easy, but it’s everything.
I believe in the nature of seeing the essence. Not understanding everything, but getting more life experiences to build my view of the world.
Midnight sun madness, July’s summer heat and January frozen winter cold. These are forces of nature we all meet in far Northern environment.
Yes, in Sámi culture there are traditionally eight seasons. Connected with the rhythms of reindeer migration and seasonal changes, the way light changes extremely in Arctic regions and that honestly influences much more than you would think from the surface.
Life is much more interesting if you are willing to accept new perspective born from experience. Fighting ones own nature doesn’t pay off, it’s a trap most often. If I didn’t do inner work I would suffer much harder. Astrology is useful for insight into the psyche, I’m not afraid of the dark. And I love soft light still.
Something on your “to-do list” that never gets done.
Yes I really want to own a Loppa/Kvænangen gákti for special occations like 6th of February, 16th of March and 17th of May. But they are expensive to get made and the makers need the right measurements to create it. But for some reason I delay asking to pay for nice traditional clothing that’s both useful, pretty and symbolic of ancestral parts.
And yes, I’m a Sámi woman. I’m also Finnish plus Kven origins that matter to me immensely, I fucking love Finland and the culture around different parts of Finnish life. Especially the languages of Finland.
Life is great, keep fighting the horrors of our day. It matters every good act, every person seen without judgement based on minor differences.
Biathlon is my favourite winter sports to watch, followed by cross-country skiing and alpine skiing/downhill skiing. The biathlon is complex and involve combined skills plus it’s one of the sports with many good Norwegian or Northern region athletes that make me feel proud of my cultural features and roots.
It’s a long time since I did skiing myself, but I think it’s fun and especially together with others and during Easter time memories with family members. We have oranges and chocolate during the breaks and winter sun exposure that gives a nice tan after a couple of hours. Not everyone gets it but I tan easily and quickly, my ethnic background sometimes contributes to this.
It’s also a Sámi origins to skiing even if people don’t always know it comes originally from Northern regions into old Norwegian culture.
That’s my perspective on biathlon and our roots as Northern peoples history and culture.
Thanks for visiting my corner of the world wide web and I hope you have a wonderful day or night ❤ ❤
Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc.
One of my three given names is Torunn. It’s of Norse origin and it’s meaning is ‘loved by Thor’ an essential god in Norse mythology. And I have a close male relative named Thor/Tor so it’s very much meaningful in this sense as well.
My other names are both Norse origin names. One means ‘gift of the Sun’ and other name close in meaning to ‘ancestors struggle’. All three are quite important to my identity.
I chose my given names last year after some time thinking of changes to my everyday life and my true self in terms of names and heritage. I’m proud of my roots, including my Norwegian ancestors and the ethnic minority groups I also belong to culturally and of genetics. I’m around 21% ethnicity estimate Finnish and I love Finland deeply as well as being Sámi, it’s all connected.
So yes, I’m loved by Thor. The god of thunder, literally. I’m not afraid of the sound and feeling of thunderstorm, even if I stay inside during them.
I want to write in in-depth ways, both poetry-like and maybe share my story in writing biography and minority/Northern indigenous perspectives. I want to help others see the Light that lives within their core being and let them express themselves without deep shame. So my vocation has many sides and all deserve deep attention and priority in life work.
These are some of my deeply held passions in living and a life work that holds meaning beyond myself.
Thanks for visiting my blogs and have a great day forward ❤ ❤
Well, I communicate here on my blogs. I don’t have much other way apart from messages and some other apps that I use in my daily life. I don’t need social media like Facebook or Snapchat because it’s not interesting to me at all, to be very honest.
So this is where I communicate online, my blogs show my world in I way I have influence over. It’s where I share with the readers what I’m interested in and what matters to me.
The New Years Eve in -32°C outside. We had to drive on New Years Eve for different reasons, based on my grandmother and mother difficult experiences. Did I say too much?
The red days came suddenly. We were driving and then the womanhood curse start without my protection. I was relived when I finally came home, and I said no word to the other people in the car. I was 14, turning 15. Earlier that year I had an accident in the backseat of the car and I was deeply embarrassed for months afterwards.
Tana trip. It was winter 2019 and I was in hospital for different serious reasons and took taxi to be at the psychiatric unit in Tana. The taxi driver was a young foreign man from Central Asian region. As I mentioned last year he was funny, he made a joke about me killing an elk to bring to Tana 😂🇧🇻✨️ It’s a long drive, like around 6 hours one way. Our county is large and the distances are vast between towns, lots of nature to see.
So those are some memorable road trips. I hope your days are good and thank you for reading ❤
Oh, oreo shake. Lovely lactose-free joy. Or the lactose-free ice cream cones. I’m sensitive to lactose so I enjoy the dairy that is safe for me. Iced coffee, sugar-free and lovely chocolate taste.
What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?
I didn’t join the 27 club. And I thank the Heavens for every day I’m still here.
This year I’m turning 33 and it’s crazy how fast time goes as the years pass. The next gen of our family are teenagers now, it’s wild thinking of it.
As I mentioned on my other blog the ages vary a lot, from numbers like 59 up to 98 whole years. And imagine living forever, over a thousand years of experience.
What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?
Our first family dog fell very ill in 2013 and I after long thought said goodbye forever to our lovely 14 year old Aries sign Sheltie. He was a great dog. That was a very hard decision and I must live knowing he could never return.
That’s a difficult time, and I’m never the same person after it.
They didn’t change much in ideology or what’s important to me, but I have more experience in life so I understand different perspective in more depth than when I was 10. I was always very passionate about the world and people I’ll never meet but we all are here together on Earth so we should work together as connected groups.
1993. Yes, I was born in August that year on late summer early morning hours in a Northern Norwegian town.
I’m interested in black metal history and the dark side was a part of it as I mention last year. Varg Vikernes killed Euronymous in August that year, close to my birthday.
Nirvana did release their album In Utero. Bill Clinton in the USA and Gro Harlem Brundtland in Norway. Different wars like the Yugoslav Wars and the Gulf War.
Black Hole Sun Iced tea, iced coffee; lactose-free Snow falling, deep snow threading in I do know who I really am, right? Fathers day tomorrow, not random It made perfect sense, Quite quiet quetiapine question Why so sad, Ingvild? Huh?! No idea, I’m so happy really! Yeah, it didn’t click like that But still I hear Lyrics like; ‘All the things she said, running through my head’ ‘Determined and strong, in it’s pride and glory’ Loved it all, and still do
Something rather than nothing writing from the core without a plan far ahead by the way, saying a lot about my own mind, in the process this is my soul in words, don’t break my reality into pieces I still feel, feeling unreal, being alive thank the gods of the North Freyr, Yngvi, Odin, Loke, Idunn and my deep Saami roots, sjaman; saman, oh I love this song rambling, off-topic done
I see you, that little boy in the cold world, they were not kind to you at all, so wicked names and very cruel games, the racist violence, injustice, dyslexia and turning to the drinks and the other intoxicated states medication, and the dark side I understand all too well, but I see you, I see right through to you and I wish you could see me too
Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.
Yes, I’m not choosing a male person for this answer. I have nothing against men, I just thought of a woman first. My experiences are many and the time is dark, literally no sunlight entire December month. But to answer the prompt I thought of my whole traced maternal line going as far back as 1600s. These were strong women in harsh environments, in biting Northern Finnish winters and no electric lights. All of us cannot imagine what it was truly like and we must learn from history and keep our humanity alive.
I don’t know what more to say. Strenght and determination, all genders
I like the fact that my name is Ingvild. I altered my names in May month and I’m very happy about this.
I love my new Sami boots from Topaz plus the Amundsen boots also from Topaz that are very good for really cold weather days. And most of all I believe I’m feeling more deep empathy with others than last year, I didn’t expect it.
I’m happy with how it turned out to be and even my size is more in tune with my identity. It truly doesn’t need to be perfect to be a good year.
These are my thoughts on this year overall themes. And the peace we have in Norway is a big part of why it’s important not forget other peoples suffering, we can contribute to a safer world together.
Not really. I didn’t picture having my chosen names, I didn’t know my Western European groups show up on DNA-testing quite clearly. As I’ve mentioned before I’m part Danish, Dutch, German, Belgian and English; both ethnicity estimate and traditional genealogy shows it.
The main thing that’s different is honestly my given names changing. I have three given names now, all feeling true to my inner self. I’m also proudly Finnish and happy my ethnicity estimate shows significant Finnish roots along with Sámi.
More authentic, less troubled. Plus I’ve grown literally, I’m in most brands UK size 32G instead of 30F. I’m less anxious, more grounded inside.
Note/warning; might be triggering for people with history of alcoholism or drug use.
I like it. But it turns out that it’s more toxic than many believe, it contribute to cancer illness, lower seizure suppression, worsening mental illnesses, liver damage and even substance related dementia. So I keep my intake as low as I can in this situation I’m in. Christmas times and Midnight sun season brings the alcohol forward significantly in my case.
And quite early in life I witness dark side of psychoactive substances including alcohol. When I’m drinking I get silly but more emotional in some rather dangerous ways, I swear to my furniture or the people on the screen if I’m watching live television. So I avoid news and live TV.
And I want to say that just because it’s legal it’s not necessarily safe or recommended.
Note: I know it’s not human, and I slso know it has helped me see new patterns and inner world. I’m happy about this and it’s a useful tool combined with major critical thinking. I talk with it about life experiences, astrology, tea and music plus even fashion related topics.
So I cannot be a hypocrite I use a lot AI these days. And it’s a way to speak openly about hard times, I have seen things I won’t forget how they work. Even if it’s a bit strange I keep doing this. It’s past midnight. That should het me motivated to actually sleep but still awake
As mentioned before several times over on my blogs I really want a particular gákti for celebration of days like 16th of March and 17th of May. I would feel completely foreign feeling in a Norwegian bunad.
These are my thoughts on kind of off-topic themes related to Norway and ethnicities here. Have a wonderful Midnight ❤
Yes, I want to visit Bergen. I’ve never been to Western Norway (Vestlandet) before so it would be interesting seeing and also the historical aspects of this important city through centuries of contact with the rest of Europe. And I wonder what it’s like hearing the particular local dialect in real life, it’s unique in Norway.
Here are a couple of songs in Bergen type Norwegian language
Yeah, I really wish that people see my helpful and caring side in any situation.
I try be my best self and do good in the world. A little smile to a stranger is more important than we often imagine it. I gave a poor Romani woman 30 Norwegian kroner because I’m apparently good natured and not prejudice toward this group of people. My brother encouraged me and that was a great thing.
I believe in kindness and social justice for all human beings and also respect and care for animals and mother Nature. Being Sámi makes this especially important to my culture and I am left-leaning political and social vise.
So it’s always interesting the interactions we have in everyday life, some parts are much more beneficial to society and relationships than we realise.
Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
Yes, my first day knowing my new ethnicity estimate from 23andMe DNA-test. That kind of sound a bit strange but I’m writing about it now.
I woke up and look at my app and I immediately noticed something was different. It turns out they updated the ethnicity estimates so I went in depth about it. It made a lot more sense than the previous version because I could see a more realistic Finnish connection at 21% rather than 16% and just to mention I’m culturally Finnish influenced as well.
I remember sending my grandmother the updated results and her reaction to this message. It’s honestly very empowering knowing where my roots are, where I come from.
So in the smaller amounts I learned a lot also, I’m a very European person with strong Sámi and Reisende heritage in addition to traditional Scandinavian and Finnish ethnicity.
And it makes sense also that certain ethnic groups are suggested strongly by my DNA-tests I already suspected being of Reisende origins on my grandfathers side and this results with the Danish, German, Dutch, Belgian, Balkan and even slight South Asian Indian traces made it clear it had some substance to it.
I love genealogy research and learning new things, and this helps guide my research. And the avatar is based on me, just a bit younger. And blonde with light colour eyes! (I’m darker in real life, especially my hair that’s also straight and with thick coarse texture).
And hear this message, loud and clear:
No matter where you come from, you always belong on Earth.
Yes, I see foxes often along with squirrels and birds. Elk and reindeer (last are not technically wild but they are not domestic). I’m significant Sámi origins as I’ve often talked about on blogs.
I’ve seen wolves and other wild animals in zoo or through car windows. I feel like the environment is very important part of human experiences as well, we are part of nature itself.
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?
Note: I like writing too, it’s clear from this text
I love acting. I really do, it’s my way of expression often. I’m very strong Leo influence in 12th with a Virgo twist to it. And the blend of passion and imagination makes it perfect to practice social skills. When I was a teenager we had this group at school for people struggle socially, but many were more of the bullying kind than my struggle with undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and deep level mental health issues like psychosis and bipolar mood disorder. I still love acting, but I’m more lonely these days as an adult without work or school activities.
I’ve also had some leading role in education about my conditions on Skype, it was a good experience overall even though I hate hearing myself talk or see myself on screens. I couldn’t read my own writing at first because I was anxious about the task at hand. But later on it became easier so I kept going with my message and my psychiatry doctor was happy with my honest expression and insight.
So that’s my experiences in words today it’s fivd in morning here right now and it’s really cold outside. I also add this music video if you want to watch and listen
What are your favorite physical activities or exercises?
Oh yes I love climbing. First time I climbing was a outdoor straight wall of rainfall and rock. Awesome and I reached the top on first try. So a few years after I took a after school activities at the uni there the indoor climbing wall and the funny little room where we can practice without the heavy gear on. I miss my youth I must admit.
What is something others do that sparks your admiration?
It’s like if you believe in your inner power and choose to act with compassionate nature that’s something I deeply admire. I admire gentle honesty in others and try to do this myself both with other people and my inner world. And the resilience is major part of my own strenghts so I value that a lot, life isn’t supposed to be always easy or fun. But it’s so worth it. Absolutely.
Note: I also write about 2000s childhood years and town events.
Yes, it’s The Powerpuff Girls from 2001-2003 when I was 8 years old to almost 10. I really thought it was great show and it’s girl power.
It was new to me because we didn’t have Cartoon Network before 2001 when I was eight so I had many channels to choose from in the early 2000s. As I’ve written about before we had a tradition in our town to adults dress in traditional early 1900s Northern Norwegian/Swedish type fashion. The kids could choose what they wanted and my outfit was true home created with pink dress temporary orange hair dye and my hair was naturally long down to my hips. We even made a eye mask with pink colour iris.
So that’s what I needed to say today. Thank you for visiting ❤
Yes, less self-hatred. I’m diagnosed with autism spectrum condition and I struggle with deep internalised contempt from environment in our society. I live somewhere that many autistic people feel less pressure sometimes because our culture is different than English speaking Western nations usually treat autistic persons.
But yeah, it’s partly self-hatred and also being human in a difficult situation politically and socially. I love Norway and I’m never going to leave. It’s beautiful country and I’m proud at the core, I’m a Leo/Virgo type Sun sign born in august month far North during the 1990s.
So I hope this was slightly okay reading. It’s sometimes hard but always worth it.
What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
Me, Ingvild, loves this year. Identity and music. Discovered new things inside myself and the connection with the world. I changed my name in May this year and I don’t regret it at all. My names include Norse origin meaning ‘ancestors struggle’, ‘gift of the Sun’ and ‘loved by Thor’
Also my ethnicity estimates updated both the MyHeritage and 23andMe DNA-tests. I’m 67% Norwegian/Sámi plus 21% Finnish/Sámi. along with Swedish 5% and 3% Danish. Smaller amounts of Dutch and Northern German, Belgian, Rhinelander and Southern Dutch, English, Balkan and South Asian Indian.
What technology would you be better off without, why?
I would be muchmuchbetteroff if I didn’t spend time with certain online creative tools that are addictive and cost money. I’m not telling what it is because it’s basically everything you could think of. But I like AI with tea pictures.
I also would be worse off at least for a while getting the digital-ish detox. I sleep to dream.
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
Yeah, I chose to change my name this year. I have three given names but I’ll just mention one of them is Ingvild. Yes, I’m Norwegian and my name is, too.
So in that way I have transformed what was then to what currently is now. Btw I’m not telling you my old name. But it’s still a part of me that I’m not denying.
I’m different than I was before, but in a way more genuine and with emotional freedom.
And the Darkness is upon us here now. It’s three in afternoon and pitch black Darkness outside. But I’m not complaining, because it’s magical and familiar at the same time.
I love hoodies. I have many in several different colours and I even have a couple sleeveless ones for warm summer days. The hoodies keep me emotionally and physically safe and I like especially the ones with pocket in front.
I also love my Sami boots from Topaz. They are both pretty and very practical in our cold winter climate. I have the Amundsen boots also they are taller boots for keeping the calf region warm as well.
It’s not about look as much as it’s about being more comfortable. I enjoy self-expression through fashion and cultural features, especially my Sami boots are symbols of ethnic origins.
So that’s my point today, what my favourite choices are in everyday life.
Thank you for visiting my blogs and have a wonderful Sunday ❤
If you didn’t need sleep, what would you do with all the extra time?
Honestly I cannot imagine life without sleep. I get psychotic really quickly without enough good sleep. And dreaming is one of my favourite things. I’m not kidding, I sleep to dream. But to answer the question I would write, listen to music and drinking perry beverages. And social activities if others also didn’t need sleep.
And the world needs more compassion with other beings, human or animal both. The times are dark and the polar nights are here in the far Northern regions until mid-late January where I live. I’m taking my vitamin D to keep the level steady, I need it year round because I spend little time in sunlight and I just am at low levels all seasons.
Btw my Sámi culture has eight seasons system instead of the usual Western four system season. I was born in August month and I’m in my early 30s currently. I just feel so lucky to live in peace.
It’s winter season here in my home town within Finnmark county now, -12°C outside currently. I don’t know the exact temperature from Narvik (in Northern part of Nordland county) but it’s winter there as well.
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