answer to dailyprompt-2062
lessons I wish I had learned earlier in life?
I used to hide myself a lot in earlier life. I was hiding bullying and abuse from adults and someone I will not specific here in age or relationship. I had to grow up struggles with my identity and wounded inside from these adverse life experiences and I developed severe mental illness in late childhood to early teenage years, hearing voices and strong paranoid delusions connected with this, my identity a big part of it. I almost forgot now to mention my enuresis conditions as part of my issues, it was very harsh and affected my self-worth deeply. I got some relief after being prescribed aid for the conditions but some of the mean girls bullied me for using it at school, threatened to post pictures of me on social media visibly wearing it. No way I caved to that! Sometimes I was so vividly dreaming of revenge and justice being carried out I was sad when I woke up.
(AI avatars are based heavily on my teenage self, they look like me that I was then. Can you tell I’m of Sámi and Northern Finnish ancestry/roots?)
so back to the lessons I wish I had learning earlier in life I would not hide so much my pain and my truth inside. Yes, and now I’m not silent or excessive shame over being different. Thank goodness.
so be proud of your inner strenght and authentic personality. It’s what you carry through life.
cloudB 
I can feel this. In my case, i was forced to hide….conceal the true faces of the 💀💀💀💩💩💩 in my surroundings
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when i was a young girl, my cousins used to bully me. Because i had no confidence, i was full of complexes. Reason: my father was a violent man, he would beat mama and i had to witness this. It erased all my vitality, making me an under confident girl.
one of the cousins tried to touch me on my private areas, i told my aunts. Instrad of helping me out, they silenced me and put all the blame on me. Pronouncing the male cousin as sober and nice. The monster was set free and the squab was forced to remain silent. Above all, cousin’s family took revenge on me by tarnishing my image as a sober girl. The started bullying me all the time in family. They even brainwashed one of my sisters and transformed her into my real enemy
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Thank you for sharing your painful experiences, I can relate to it I believe. It’s hard and extremely difficult going through bullying and abuse. I wish you well on the journey.
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Now that i am grown up, i felt relieved for some yrs until i married and moved with husband. In my culture, brides live with their in laws , in joint family system. My husband has four sisters and a brother with three sons n wife. The bully restarts here. The sisters want control. They want me to act like all other brides do in our culture- do home chores quietly. Make tea and food for them, serve them, give them gifts, offer all my husband s money to them. Sissters made me leave my job, destroyed my career, and now they want to take control fully over husbands finances. If i say something, they bycott me. So the bullying remains
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