All These Things (yeah)

answer to dailyprompt-2056

Red flags? Here is my opinion, my thoughts.

Note: sorry about the drinking, I’m craving it now and I chose image because I feel like drinking now and it relates to the question as well.

I notice these red flags in myself often. So that’s said first. I feel it’s not good being less than honest, but I understand why people are sometimes or quite often fall prey to it.

and fear of truth because it’s painful to see clearly how fuckd up we truly are inside. I have this every time I look in a mirror and god yes I hate my reflection with a burning passion.

even if I cannot percieve my inner Light I know there is Light behind any darkness. So at times I don’t want to see the Light because the darkness is familiar to me.

but one aspects I really really raise red flags is you guess it? Intrusive bullying behaviour. I’m an anarchist for a reason and good at spotting bullies even before they speak. I know well because these people affected my education and social life tremendously. I still struggle with these experiences through my schizoaffective disorder symptoms of voice-hearing and paranoia. I’m officially diagnosed with moderate-severe Asperger syndrome and a strong case of bipolar type schizoaffective/schizophrenia with mood disorder.

so the last part is the biggest one for me. I don’t like being around bullies because they prey on the good-natured and naive persons. Plus they kick your friend to the ground for several minutes. No way I will ever forget, even if I find healing.