Synnøve feeling strong

answer to dailyprompt-2045

how am I feeling right now?

Short answer: I feel quite strong right now. In more than one meaning.

I’m in relief from anxiety and severe pain, it’s a big thing to me to feel normal and slightly more happy with life. They always ask why I chose my names, but I know at my core I’ve always been a Synnøve in addition to my other names.

Depending on the astrology system I’m a Lunar Scorpio or a Lunar Sagittarian within 4th house in my birth chart. I’m very strongly Leo and Virgo, up to four placements in Leo in 12th house if the Ascendant/Rising sign is included. Okay, the reason I mention my astrology features so often is that I feel it’s useful in understanding my own inner world reality and my place in society, my relationships with close ones and with strangers. Here are some links to astrology information;

https://advanced-astrology.com/moon-in-scorpio/

https://advanced-astrology.com/moon-in-sagittarius/

https://advanced-astrology.com/uncategorized/natal-moon-in-the-fourth-house/

https://advanced-astrology.com/signs-of-the-zodiac-scorpio-in-astrology/

https://advanced-astrology.com/pluto-in-fourth-house-natal-meaning-in-astrology/

https://advanced-astrology.com/pluto-in-third-house-natal

https://advanced-astrology.com/signs-of-the-zodiac-virgo-in-astrology/

https://advanced-astrology.com/uncategorized/signs-of-the-zodiac-leo-in-astrology/

https://advanced-astrology.com/twelfth-house-natal-chart

https://advanced-astrology.com/fourth-house-in-natal-chart

https://advanced-astrology.com/mercury-in-twelfth-house-natal

That’s a lot of links to this one site.. but I just discovered it today so this is why I post about it.

I also have moderate-severe degree Asperger syndrome and (bipolar type) schizoaffective disorder. I hear voices frequently and I’m delusional often, and my 12th house and 4th house placements contribute to the expression of the conditions. Plus most of Scorpio sign is within my third house and Pluto in Scorpio sign. I really feel like both 3rd and 4th house Pluto in Scorpio. I don’t know why I talk relatively little about my Asperger syndrome diagnosis, maybe it’s the fact I don’t like thinking too hard about what it really actually means? How embarrassing it is? It’s difficult to understand this condition, even for me. Every time I intend to write about it my mind just goes straight to assuming people think I’m narcissistic or something horrible like that. I hate narcissists. The real ones, vel og merke.

Here is 2NE1 with the song I Am The Best