Intensity of Ingvild

What positive emotion do you feel most often?

Note: astrology. And a lot of psychiatry related themes as well, political ideology. AI art of drinking strong alcohol directly from the bottle. Ethnic minority groups of my country. LGBT persons. I’m here to stay, not shy away.

In some astrology systems I’m a quad Leo (Sun, Ascendant/Rising sign, Mercury and Chiron in Leo sign), all within 12th house. I also have Moon sign in Scorpio within 4th house. In other systems I’m a double Virgo with Moon in Sagittarius sign, in the same astrological houses (12th and 4th house). So my feelings are very deep; very much intense, but with broad spectrum of emotions.

My mental illness is quite severe in degree, I have bipolar type schizoaffective condition plus moderate-severe degree Asperger syndrome. And yeah I’m an alcoholic, no doubt. I hate it. I love it.

I don’t know if I feel the Scorpio influence stronger because of my strong Pluto in Scorpio influence in Western astrology or my Moon being in Scorpio sign in 4th house. I don’t know if I’m feeling like a quadruple Leo or a double Virgo or what is just really the very strong 12th house influence in my chart. I’m quiet, but not at all a doormat. I’m very proud by nature, but also quite humble. Astrology is a real form of psychological art and methods of self-discovery, at least to me.

I have both Reisende and Romani origins from South region and Kven + Sámi ethnic minority groups from North region.

My history of childhood abuse and the other type of youth adversity has deeply influenced my view of different parts of life in strong ways. I really didn’t trust male teachers, especially the blonde Nordic appearance type like the one that abused me. I didn’t feel good about my appearance since I was different from the tall Nordic youth where I lived at that time, I was darker and much shorter.

Very far-left politically, an anarchist in several ways. I’m very against war and against abuse toward any of minority groups in society, I believe in being good-natured and genuine. I have a strong faith without being Christian or Muslim, any organized religion or belief systems.

Overall I live to write from the heart and see Light in the darkest moments, the corners of the Mind that hurt like infected wounds. I don’t fear the heights of the mountains or the sound of thunder. I’m strong within myself and never give up. My name is Ingvild and I am lesbian/bisexual by orientation.

I know it doesn’t sound like much very positive emotions. But they are very strong and that’s a big part of truly living. Not everything is meant to be sunshine and rainbows. And the real Light is found by way of seeing through Darkness inside every aspects of our experience. Bright colours in any mood, pitch black metal and white tea. Deep red t-shirt with some black design and a yellow colour hoodie with the blue design. Blue hoodie. Raspberry rum. Blueberry vodka silence breaking through the icy shell.

Thank you for listening ❤