What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever found (and kept)?
As I mention on my other blog I altered my given names early this year and I’m keeping them.
I also have found great music on YouTube that I download on my iPod to listen any time I need it. Drum&bass, dubstep, black metal; in short it’s anything I like listening to.
My marbles I found near my home after the bullies took them from me, I still remember how much relief I felt.
I found my cousins through MyHeritage DNA-test and learned a lot about my genetic ethnicity estimates through that too. And yes, I’m a proud Sámi woman. A proud Kven, too. The Northern Lights and reindeer are wonderful features of the awesome natural environment here.
Life is an adventure and it’s worth exploring. So that’s what I’ve chosen to do.
Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?
Yes, my former psychiatrist is the most famous person I’ve known. Yes; known, not just met. I’m not saying much only he is a forensic psychiatry doctor as well. Oh I’ve seen Lady Gaga in person.
I cannot remember exactly if I’ve met anyone else famous. But my mother met many famous people in Tromsø and my brother saw Asgeir Borgermoen in Oslo.
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
Yes. Lovely Arctic indigenous inspired boots. Together they cost at least 10 000 Norwegian kroner and that’s a lot of money for an ung ufør woman with no job. But I absolutely believe it was completely worth the money spent!!
These are both TOPAZ brand shoes and the tall boots are called Amundsen and the shorter boots with red laces are called Sami. They are warm and comfortable boots and I think they are pretty and unique both.
I love them! Btw I’m kind of hyper mood today, as is likely obvious from my use of !!! in the texts.
Thank you for looking at my site and my lovely boots ❤ ❤ ❤
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
I just love this Sea Sámi gákti and I want one so badly and I can have a Sea Sámi gákti because I’m truly identified with my roots and our Sámi culture. Plus some of the Kautokeino Sámi can be particular about who can wear their own regions traditional clothing. But most of all I just love this beautiful traditional clothing!
Thank you for visiting my blog and.. Buorre Eahket! (good evening!)
I used to listen to podcasts in my teenage and younger adult years, but not any currently.
What I was listening to were spiritual theme and mental health related ones plus indigenous topics like mainly the environment and social cultural subjects of this ethnic identities.
So my past includes listening but my present it’s memory, music and blogs mostly.
Yes, I really loved NAMI because I like learning about science in general and especially nature and human behaviour. That was always quite interesting to me and I got good marks/grades in this subject even when my psychosis made me unable to study. I’m not kidding, the voices were that strong and constant. But I did well anyway.
I still love learning as much as possible about anything including social science and language/maths. My mother is a teacher like her mother who still teaches in family even at close to age 84, so I know very well the family perspective too.
I loved my Sámi language lessons in 2009 and I keep my Sámi knowledge updated to modern impressions from media and the local Sámi community members. And the avatar is based on me, I’m also major part Sámi and Kven heritage.
Well, I was bullied a lot through my childhood and teenage years so I often had a hard time at school. Recess was really hard and I had some unfortunate episodes many times, I won’t tell you more about that if you don’t want me to clarify. But the friends I had supported me, one friend even got kicked to the ground for several minutes just because she was my friend. I’m autistic, btw.
On the brighter side I had a clever mind and kindness in me so I got good feedback on my schoolwork up until my mental health broke into pieces and I got into youth psychiatry plus a program for people with many kinds of social difficulties, including bullies I must mention. It was called ART and even with the aggressive kids there I learned some skills.
I very much liked when we were outdoors on mountain trips and beaches, forests and other out of school locations as part of the education and social community.
so those are some of my childhood/youth moments with school and learning skills.
Yes. As I said on my other blog, I have major knockout envy. It means I envy that feeling of freedom from endless scrolling and something deeply meaningful happening. But I try limit my screen time by doing other things instead, like having a cup of pure white tea from ETS and my wool blankets. Sometimes I write in my own little notebooks like I used to before I got my first smartphone, I write to make sense of what is in my mind and what’s going on outside.
I don’t use any social media apart from my blogs and I use YouTube almost only for listening to my favourite music and finding new tracks/song for different artists. I don’t have paid work and I have no children, so my daily life is spent alone most of the time. I have an app on my phone I struggle to use much less time on but it’s like a connection to rest of humanity and feedback on my writing.
I’m going to see my psychiatrist today and I’m hoping my treatments will be stable for the winter season, ours last from November to April and it’s cold but lots of snow too. The days of light are very short now, in end of month we have the polar nights until mid-late January when the sun returns.
I may be rambling now, and I have several errands outside today so I will be more busy.
I just play the Eminem tracks ‘Without Me’ and ‘Lose Yourself’. Without Me is an interesting track these times. I’m not evil, btw. It’s cause we just need a little controversy.
And yeah I need time. Plenty of it. I need time to get ready, time to prepare, time to think. And most of all I need alone-time. I’m gonna quit the drinking hard cider soon. Just not tonight!
Well, I’ll be 35 and likely quite happy. I’m plan getting therapy for my difficult memories and severe mental illness so I can feel better. I want to be truly free to do what I really want, they can’t bully me anymore like they used to back then. I’m safe inside myself and I’m never giving up.
Being Norwegian and living in beautiful place is a very lucky situation for me. I’m not leaving my country to live somewhere else, it’s the most wonderful nation I know from within. I also love anything related to Finland and Finnish topics, I’m nearly 1/4th Finnish/Kven and Sámi origins.
I have Moon in Scorpio or Sagittarius depending on the system used and it’s in 4th house beside Pluto (in Scorpio, I was born in 1993). It makes me very strong inside and resilient, as well as very sensitive personality because my Sun is in 12th house. I also have autism, it’s like both a blessing and a curse in one psychiatric term.
I have alcohol use and energy drink dependence, it’s serious because it makes my illness worse. I’m not complaining, just being honest about what’s happening and not hiding it.
Invent a holiday! Explain how and why everyone should celebrate.
My love for hoodies is deep. I wear them every day, they keep me warm and safe in the far Northern environment and I have sleeveless hoodie for warm summer days. I have in nearly every colour you can imagine. What I think people should celebrate would be to wear a hoodie if they have one and otherwise be comfortable physically and socially. It’s okay for adults to wear colourful hoodies any time they feel like it. It’s a little thing but it makes a bigger difference than it sounds like at first. It’s about being independent and free, yet safe and warm.
My favourite websites are WordPress and YouTube. But my least favourite is a nightmare of people watching everything that happens and then hide it from my awareness but other peple can see it. Yes I know that sounds slightly crazy but it’s my nightmare. I’ll come back when the shadows hide.
Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?
Yes I would like to be 27 again. Not because it was fun, but because that’s when everything changed. I would enjoy myself more, to not break into tiny pieces of sharp needles. But life always moves forward, we only get older and more worn out, more aware and wise. The memories remain, with dark shine from the reflection of moonlight. I’m in a dark mood but I felt like writing.
What’s something you believe everyone should know.
Autistic people are still just as human as anyone else and with intellectal disability also deserve respect and compassion. I’m struggling a lot with my health these days and I cannot blog as often as I would wish. But this is my answer today and I hope your days are good. Thanks for reading ❤
Yes, my maternal grandmother. She is a fiery Sagittarius retired teacher and so loving even if she is quite blunt in expression. She is petite height and with a lot Kven ancestry and culture. We love her so much and she is the oldest of our family still living. She loves to feed forest animals and birds. She keeps our family connected by host of events and keeping up with snapchat and things like that. We will miss her so much at the moment she is no more here.
Yes, I like to run and I love to walk. I like hiking and indoor climbing, I used to do this every day when I was a teenager and it made me quite more strong and the endurance exercise. I also like swimming, I did this practice when I was seven years old. I can carry heavy backpack of over 10kg up a hill in the snow deep.
I like being an Earthling and while I love to see the moon from Earth I don’t want to leave our Mother Gaia. I have Moon in late Scorpio or maybe early Sagittarius if I’m not mistaken. Either way I’m a 4th house moon and I love home as a safe place and the Scorpio depth is profound. I also carry Sagittarius philosophy of faith and greater meaning, some joy and explore my roots.
What alternative career paths have you considered or are interested in?
Well, I’m ung ufør and I’ve never had any paid employment. But that doesn’t mean I’m not willing to work for something that matters to me, I’m a double Virgo and I like feeling truly useful.
I would like to work with the part of healing and creative side, like for example writing or work in pharmacy settings behind the scenes. I would also like to work in a library if it was actually quiet, not the last time I was in the local library. The little children literally screaming right next to us, it took a while before I calm down (I’m autistic, sensitive to sound. Even the neurotypical people I was with thought it was painful!).
So that’s my thoughts on career paths today. I hope to find good vocation/calling, I could also be an activist because I’m very passionate about social-political causes, human and animal rights and the environment.
I wish I did more make my own dinners. But I choose healthy Asian types ready food with varied ingredients. One thing I’m good at is simple pizza and pasta dishes, and to cook the pasta in boiling water there is some small amount of salt in the mix. I’m good with finding ‘pålegg’ to my large round full-grain polarbrød. Norvegia or Jarlsberg cheese and strawberry jam/syltetøy are great on bread.
Otherwise I’m good with making the most out of my favourite teas and herbal like ginger and chamomille. I have my own tea rituals, I wait exactly the minute it’s best to drink. If you don’t know me yet I’m Norwegian and I have AS so that’s sometimes a good thing when it comes to particular rituals, the Virgo part also!
I like choosing cold drinks as well, my fav are the Battery Pearberry and the classic Exotic Fruit. I love ciders like Grevens Pære and Grevens Frukt.
Those are some of the things I like and can prepare quite well.
Well, I remember 22/07 of 2011, it was a Friday. I was watching television and the message came up on the screen about a bombing in our capital city and the rest of that day was very frightening and a major influence on my life even to this day. I was already psychotic and it got much worse.
In the following days and weeks there was also unity in our Norwegian society, they placed roses and other acts of deep solidarity, it shows how we are a compassionate nation.
We must not forget our shared humanity and the resilience we have inside. We are so strong when we are together.
What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?
I would like to quit drinking for good. But I like pear cider and alcopop so I’m tempted every time I’m at the local grocery store to buy more. Eventually I will quit just from it being expensive and my treatment team will know I’m using a lot alcohol so that will play a part. I have a strong mood disorder, psychosis and AS and I need to keep it fun and light. Not two Bacardi Razz in one night, not three large cans Monster energy drinks with six cans of perry or fruit champagne cider.
I’m okay this morning and I’ll quit, I know I can do it.
I got my updated ethnicity estimates from 23andMe recently and I thought it was quite interesting how it changed from last results. I’m around a little over 1% German, Dutch and Belgian and that wasn’t clearly expected to show in my results even though I have known distant Dutch and German roots, it’s likely a much closer ancestor than I thought first. So I’m working on that the last few days along with my self-guided therapy activities as part of my treatment of the conditions that I struggle with.
Thank you for reading and have a wonderful Sunday ❤
Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?
Well, I don’t have paid employment and I’m disabled so I’m quite busy just getting through the days. But if I had to make a statement I would say it’s both. And neither. I’m feeling that I have a mission in this lifetime that goes beyond paid work and status, I might just bring light to some strangers I’ll never meet and that feels better than anything I could ask for. I don’t work because I want to impress others and I don’t work just so I can feel very good about myself. I do it because it’s my mission and I serve the almighty in everything.
When you think of the word “successful,” who’s the first person that comes to mind and why?
Yes, my mother is the first person I think of. She is a teacher in high school (videregående skole) and she is very intelligent and a good teacher that sees the potential in all her students. She teach most foreign origins students that are new to Norway and we are positive toward other cultures and diversity in general, she doesn’t like teachers that discriminate based on ethnicity or reading levels. I love my mother a lot and she’s been there for me always. Takk mamma ❤
I hope this was okay reading and thanks for visiting my blog ❤
I’ve been writing less lately. I’m so busy with everything going on in my life, but I want to write like I used to. So today I’m writing at least this blog post about writing blog. It’s like I don’t know what to say in these moments, I’m lost for words.
I try be very honest in offline life and I prioritize honesty online as well. I believe in being kind and compassionate with the downtrodden person and to other psychiatric patients like myself who are mentally unwell. I’m far left ideology and I do try truly practice my values, I care for my family.
When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?
Every time we moved in my childhood it was growing up fast. And we moved often. I had a lot of difficult experiences related to bullying and abuse in addition to undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and severe mental illness. So in that way I was always had to depend on myself first, one experience that stand out was being 16 in a new town in a different cultural environment. I had thought it would be much better but it was actually quite a lot harder, especially in the beginning where I went to school in normal time in all classes. I lost my one friend there because she moved somewhere else or change direction in education. So that was a time I really felt the age being closer to adult than child.
If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?
I’m Norwegian so I cannot imagine what amount it really is. But if I won a lottery or something else I would give it to anyone in need, especially the poor or downtrodden people in society. It would reach Dyrebeskyttelsen in Norway also, my cousin volunteers with this organizations and they really help the animals (esp stray cats) well-being and health conditions.
It’s better to give to those causes that are close to the heart, so it really feels genuinely good inside.
What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?
It’s really about the force to endure and evolve. I’ve been through many hard times and still moving forward after getting back on my own two feet with some help, and with a lot of inner determination too.
I love hardstyle music, ever since my late teenage years and I’m now 32 years old still listening (even if it’s mostly old tracks). And I like Brennan Heart a lot.
We Come and We Go
Here is a documentary about Brennan (Fabian)
I also like other musicians and every art form, including actors, visual artists, writers and many others. Enjoy creating in any form, it’s so important ❤
What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?
Hyvää iltaa/Buorre eahket!
(Good evening/God kveld)
Note: maybe kind of longer text
In addition to being Scandinavian I’m also very Finnish origins, especially Kven group and Sámi indigenous as well. I’m interested and proud about this part of my cultural heritage because it was taken away from my recent ancestors as part of forced assimilation policies like the type Fornorskning/Norwegianization that include the Reisende and Romani Traveller groups further South even if they are not mentioned anywhere near the times the Sámi are mentioned. It’s not fair because the Reisende suffered at least as much, sometimes more in fact.
But to be on this topic I love Finnish cultural features like the Finnish type sauna experience and the language. Finnish sounds awesome compared to English and Norwegian, it’s in a completely different language family called Uralic language family of Finno-Ugric linguistic heritage including Sámi languages like North Sámi that my Finnmark ancestors spoke in everyday life hundreds years ago. I know some Finnish, Kven and Sámi from education and cultural activities including school lessons language courses and just listening to Sámi media like Ođđasat with some Norwegian language subtitles to understand better.
So it’s also the Finnish sisu and the forests of Northern Finland, when I was visiting/travelling along Torne River Valley in 2016 with our group trip it was a big part of the experience to see the forests when we were driving in the tourist bus to truly explore this region our roots are deeply tied to.
I like to speak about this in social gathering with other passionate people around these subjects, it’s a great way to get to know new interesting people without boring small talk. I’m autistic btw. The languages are important to preserve, and especially the Kven language that is endangered category. There is discussions of creating a Kven Parliament (Kventinget) like the Sámi Parliament (Sametinget/Sámediggi) in Norway.
I support this personally especially if it means Kven people are given equal rights to the Sámi and the cultural heritage is important. I’m not anti-Sámi at all, we all matter to the Spirit in the Sky.
Yes, family research. Genealogy and other methods of knowing more about our roots, like recently DNA-tests and my whole journey has been in community on MyHeritage websites like mine. My great-grandmother was an old style family researcher who wrote a well-known book about the local history in a particular old area of Northern Norway and I own the book myself as well.
I in addition love tea like oolong, Darjeeling and Earl Grey as well as rooibos and chamomille tea. I love listening to music and learning my roots in Finnish language and North Sámi as well. It does really connect deeply with family research in general, it bring me closer to the people I read about in records and my dreamwork, 12th house themes and 4th house roots with Moon-Pluto in Scorpio sign. It’s profound in the importance of my pastime hobbies.
I also explore themes in terms of astrology and inner work, where we come from in a deeper psychological perspective as well. I began this path in 2007 at age 14 and I’m still going in 2025 at age 32, so it’s not only just a pastime of my youth, it’s my core mission for my roots.
And the part of the psychological past is very much important to this family research, it’s the essence of where we came from. My father was struggle with severe bullying and xenophobic abuse from school system and peers, his wounds are not measured by only his own suffering but the heritage I live with today. It’s very sensitive topics for him especially and in my own life also.
So it’s past time, impacting our current society and family cultures. I wish I knew him better, and I miss knowing more about his biological father life history not just the names but the lived lives of my ancestors. Maybe the insights are coming one day, unexpected.
Thanks for listening and have a great research day ❤ ❤
What would you do if you lost all your possessions?
Honestly, I don’t know what I would do if this happened to me. I’m very close connected with my belongings and possesions like money and memories in writing, blankets, tea, clothing and many others and I would feel profound loss and mental worsening of my conditions. I would seek help from family and health care plus other help for building my life back together. I would miss my things and memories a lot. I’m hoping it doesn’t happen in this lifetime, but I get through many difficult times before. It’s about feeling safe at home and what would I do without a home?
Thank you for listening and I hope your days are good ❤
What’s a topic or issue about which you’ve changed your mind?
In my youth I used to believe that asking for help was weakness, that I had to manage everything by myself. But over time this changed into accept my need for other people and medicine help for my conditions and psychological well-being. It’s still sometimes difficult to realise how we all depend on outside world, the people and things we need to survive and heal.
So it’s all about seeing clearly what is important and to realise help is important for well-being.
As I mentioned last year on other blog I had my ‘human-etisk/borgerlig konfirmasjon’ at age 14 in 2008. I really felt out of place the whole day, like it wasn’t about me in a good way but to make me feel less than. I was undiagnosed and psychotic, so this feeling that many teens also have was much stronger in me. I was much shorter than the other teen girls and they placed me in the group so I was barely visible, I was not wearing a Norwegian bunad like all the others because I didn’t feel that represented me as a Sámi/Kven youth. We had food at the local Chinese restaurant and my cousin took pictures of me eating. The most painful part was asking my grandmother not to tell a story about something very painful from my past, luckily the story at the end was something different; still a little embarrassing as any confirmation story, but not highly traumatic.
I used to be the person who thought everything would improve only if I was thinner or other parts of my appearance was perfect. I used to be bullied for my short height and different features related to my ethnicity, I’m of Sámi and (more distantly) Arctic indigenous origins and my classmates were not. I’m also a psychiatric patient and in my youth I was undiagnosed, it was very difficult for me just getting through the nights.
But I want to say it’s not only dark, it’s also great inner strenght and self-awareness from these experiences in life. I’m here for a reason, and it’s a valid feeling to keep moving forward in spite of it being very difficult to feel like I truly belong.
Thank you for reading, listening and have a wonderful Friday ❤
Your life without a computer: what does it look like?
If it was only without the laptop I would listen to dubstep on my iPod. I was without a phone for a week a couple of years ago and it wasn’t easy, I had lost it in a taxi on a long distance trip and the company had to send it back by post service. Thank goodness I got it back again. But it was really revealing how much we rely on technology in everyday life, so I noticed how time moved differently. And yes, when I wasn’t using my phone I did other activities like listening to music on my iPod.. like drinking plenty of tea/herbal teas ❤
So life would be different, not less. Slower and harder, more genuine and free.
Yes, it’s in general a strong Sámi cultural identity core with true skills to feel a part of the wider community and to learn from others about the world. I’m a double Virgo (Sun, Rising) and I like to learn practical skills and feel truly useful. The deep Moon-Pluto in Scorpio within 4th house make my roots extremely important parts of my identity. I’m very interested in astrology as told before in other answers, I see the connections in my everyday life and want to share my thoughts.
It’s part of my connection to the spirit of these skills and creative expressions, I’m getting made traditional clothing for next big celebration once I can afford it. I want to feel it in my own hands, my heritage as an Arctic regions woman. It can be both modern and tradition, it’s about soul and identity plus practical skill in our environment.
I’m ready to learn some more, live through doing work that honour my roots and build connection with the living Sámi community as well.
What details of your life could you pay more attention to?
Sports. Physical activities like beach volleyball could be a good way to exercise and social events, plus the being outside in natural environments. I didn’t particularly enjoy the physical education lessons in school, but I’m feeling it’s easier as an adult to really dive into it head on. I also really really could pick up my old indoor climbing passion, it’s great exercise and I’m not at all afraid of heights.
It’s a sense of mastering the skill and getting tangible results like reaching the top of the wall, I’m strongly Virgo so practices of skill training and like I did my very best efforts is quite rewarding on the inner confidence parts of my life. It’s also tied to my Aquarius Saturn in 6th house, the heights and habits of daily living.
Daily writing prompt
What details of your life could you pay more attention to?
I could pay more attention to the physical world, and it would benefit not only me but including the local community of these activities and show the politicians in our town that the population needs the money and resources for these important health prevention efforts to reduce illness effects and promote well-being in general.
Okay, so that’s some of the aspects I could absolutely prioritize more in my daily life. Enjoy the ride, in it’s pride and glory. That’s the whole experience of being truly human.
What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?
So I’m writing about the traditional clothing now, I want to get one made for me and they are made with great care and skill. Plus it’s really really expensive because they are special and often have unique spiritual meaning to the culture. I’m of Sámi ethnicity on both parents sides, my mother, grandmother, great-grandmother and me are/were in samemanntallet/Sametingets valgmantall we could vote in Sametingsvalget including this years elections.
I really love this very beautiful gákti, it’s not mine. I want one. I especially like the green-blue, red and yellow colours, design and the shape, slightly modern feeling as well.
Also like these. The pictures are not mine, I found it online for this dailyprompt answer.
taking my medicine on time. Yes, really on time because I get sicker when I’m late or miss the dose.
I take anticonvulsants twice daily for epilepsy and I need it to work to prevent seizures and other significant epilepsy symptoms like headaches or confused early mornings.
I take painkillers twice daily as well for several severe pain conditions and this helps keep me functioning at nearly normal level if we consider my other conditions effects on my disability. I don’t get “high” I just suffer less from pain related symptoms and get relief from the type extremely disrupting severity of pain.
Along with these important parts I will listen to music to keep a stable mood and honour the deep feelings inside. I have mentioned my Moon-Pluto in Scorpio within 4th house before and it’s a big issue in life, I need the music as a survival ritual.
Okay, so these thoughts and feelings are my basic priority tomorrow and today. It’s early morning here in Norway at the moment, the day ahead of me and ready to unfold.
In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled?
It’s like.. I know I gave it my best. Nothing could stop me from reaching my goals, my own efforts matter to the results and it could feel rewarding to my schizophrenia negative symptoms of avolition and apathy to get what I need and to move beyond limits.
That’s what’s on my mind at this moment. Simple and clear motivation and efforts pay off inside.
My most valued trait in my life is the meaning in combination of being a Lunar Scorpio, with Moon-Pluto combination in Scorpio within 4th house. I’m quite intense emotionally and I don’t like surface things, I dive into the depths of my subconscious self, and of my ancestors adversity.
And with my Moon-Pluto combination in Scorpio (I’m a early 1990s type, it matters to Scorpio sign individuals in our generation) I’m basically not afraid of anything other than my mental illness and abusive type people, the worst memories.
I’m human and I’ve gone through difficult times in life, including being target of childhood abuse and significant bullying. My ancestors were of minority groups and it affects us even if it’s not conscious in the mind, but in my life it’s deeply rooted awareness. Btw, I sit in complete darkness writing this now. My dreams are very vivid and immersive, sometimes quite depraved but often insightful in theme after waking.
I don’t fear heights and I’m definitively not afraid of my body, I can watch surgery and medical procedures without being negatively affected. I see it, but I’m not fearful. It’s honestly a gift from the inner world, I was born this way and been learning through experience as well.
Arkaine – Fear No More (hardstyle genre EDM)
I seek truth in my life, even if it can hurt me I still value the real experience with all the aspects in it, darkness and Light. I’m a double Virgo, or a double Leo in some systems. But the Sun and other placements are in 12th house, so the dream world is very active as well as writing from the shadows. I need music and creative expression to function in life, in society as a whole.
So I’m thankful for my depths and intensity, even if it shock others and it’s hard to handle at times. Thank you mother Earth for this hidden blessing.
List three jobs you’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter.
Yeah, I would likely be an astrology person full time if I could work. Other related vocation would include being a true musician and a real writer of different types of creative expressive fashion and raw power of words. I love lyrics.
So if you don’t know me well yet, here is some about me. I’m a double Virgo with Sun in 12th house along with Moon-Pluto in Scorpio in 4th house. I’m an Aspie/Aspergian/autistic person and I’m from Norway. In early 30s still. I don’t have children or partner, but I have half-nieces to be their aunt with. My brother is a musician and our family culture is heavily musical. I like writing and I’m also very introspective as probably is visible in the many major planets in water houses (in this 4th, 12th house; also 8th, but I don’t personally have any major placements in 8th house). I’m passionate about anything that interests me. I have a severe mental illness, type of schizophrenia with mood disorder. I really like music and I literally dream of being a deejay at night.
Note: I’m creating several versions of this answer.
yes, I value being deep. I value intensity and true justice. My Moon-Pluto combination in 4th house in Scorpio sign, I was born during early 1990s. Getting through anything life has brought me and learning on the way. But I value also just as much joy and just seeing good in people as well, otherwise the insight doesn’t make sense.
three jobs I’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter?
well, it’s more of a vocation than a true job. I don’t have paid employment as a young disabled woman on ‘ung ufør’ so I don’t know really what usual work feels like from this perspective.
But I know what I would do if money wasn’t that important.
I would listen and create music together with some friends, almost like my half-brother who is a real musician and song writer. I would use all that creative energy into something meaningful and therapeutic both for me and for the listeners. I could connect different genres and themes from my inner world and do a lot of healing through this process. We all struggle with some part of our life and we all can heal some of our wounds with the right help and guidance. Both inner and outer wounds count, I had chronic infected wounds from surgery and only healing after specialised wound nurse got the right health care and methods for me. I’m eternally thankful for her healing efforts and care.
I would write about everything that interests me in this vast existence inner world and outside events in society. I’m passionate about astrology, like some other Aspergian people feel too. I’m a 12th house Sun and a 4th house Moon so the emotional inner world feels like home to me. I’m a Lunar (Moon sign) Scorpio in connection with Pluto in Scorpio (born 1993 btw) in 4th house. My emotional life is intense to a degree maybe many others don’t know. My Sun and Ascendant are in Virgo (or other systems Leo) and my Mercury is in Leo within 12th house.
I have schizoaffective condition/schizophrenia with mood disorder and I hear voices as part of my experience with this and my history of childhood adversity, bullying and different childhood abuse. I have long history of being a patient in psychiatry since 2007 at age 14 years.
And I would dedicate my life to be a true mental health guide in my community and reach out to anyone online need some help from experienced psychiatric patients like myself to understand the way psychiatry works from the patients perspective. Even my psychiatry doctors have told me to use my abilities this way.
So guess what? That’s where I’m heading and what I’m really going to put first on my work goals along maybe with regular work at the pharmacy. But the writing and the music will be essential to my vocation no matter the title or area I work. So it’s all three in one setting. I love fantasy world and I love living in reality as well, this is both.
What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?
Yes, one of my names is Ingvild and this is significant to the answer to this prompt. My name is Norse origin and means similar to ‘ancestors struggle’ from ‘Ing’ a Norse mythology fertility god called ‘Freyr’ or ‘Yngvi’ and ‘hildr’ meaning battle or struggle. I’m proud of our cultural features in my family, we are a mix of different ethnicities and regions. Some include Sámi and Kven origins and also ethnic Northern Norwegian, Southern Swedish, Southern Norwegian, Finnish and also Reisende and Romani Traveller roots. I especially like the many different languages and features like sauna, boat culture and modern variant of traditional food and clothing.
I also have these two pair of boots:
These are called Sami and they are from Topaz. They are inspired from Sámi shoes and Arctic.
These are called Amundsen and they are also from Topaz brand. They are Arctic indigenous inspired.
I want to learn Finnish and North Sámi language as well, I’m Norwegian speaking and didn’t learn the languages of my ancestors from home partly because my ancestors were target of the policy of Norwegianization/Fornorskning and the WWII destructive effects on far-Northern heritage like cultural buildings and traditional clothing within the buildings. I know some Finnish, Kven and also North Sámi language from own experience hearing on news and media plus great language courses I joined and enjoy learning.
Other features I like and respect are the spiritual roots and the culture around the unique natural phenomenon of Midnight sun and polar nights. The Light changes from different seasons, from the all-day twilight and Darkness of December to the all-day light of June. We also have the eight seasons system in Sámi roots related to reindeer and natural environments.
On my Southern Scandinavian side there is a strong boat culture and very conservative Lutheran Christian faith, both Norwegian and Reisende share this feature. My Swedish roots are strong political left ideology and we are most of us still at least left-leaning or like me quite libertarian socialist/anarchist by political themes.
Here are two different versions of me, they are AI generated and loosely based on my real traits.
And I want people to know I appreciate the many different immigrant influences to our culture. Most of my childhood friends were either European immigrants or non-European origins refugees from Asian and African countries. My favourite part is the food and diversity in these new generation Norwegians. I like food like for example reindeer kebab and I love Asian food of different types.
I’m really quite interested in different cultural roots and my ancestors struggle as is the true meaning of my given name Ingvild. I hope it was good to read about the features of my roots and my love for other cultures.
In addition to English Tea shop I often enjoy some Pukka brand tea and herbal tea. I like Kloster te, london fruit&herb and several other brands too. I often like to combine different mix of tea and herbal tea together in one big tea cup so it’s multiple effects and great harmony of flavour.
In my opinion the Three Ginger by Pukka plus the Strawberry & Vanilla by london fruit&herb taste great mixed in one big cup for the true flavour experience. I like rooibos type tea also. Calming chamomille tea is so useful during stressed times.
I like Grevens cider, especially the great fruit champagne type and the regular pear cider/perry in addition to their alcohol free alternatives like the apple taste. I also like beverages like Bacardi Breezer or the much stronger rum Bacardi Razz.
Battery energy drink brand is my favourite, but I’m liking most of the brand we have in just our local grocery stores. I love the Exotic and the Pearberry taste. I like Red Bull, Monster, Burn and a couple more. But the Battery is my favourite of them; Finnish strenght and determination, similar to the world famous concept of Finnish sisu.
I like buying most of my clothes on Cubus store. Most often I order online but not always, when we go to shopping mall it’s good watch the real clothing in person. As mentioned before on blogs I like Bik Bok also even though I’m past their age target groups, but I visit sometimes anyway. I like their tops and hoodies.
There are a lot of aspects to write more in-depth but I have a little list here with some details, so it might be okay also. Thanksforreading❤
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