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Even with treatments my psychotic/mood disorder affects my daily life significantly. If I don’t sleep for a couple of days I get really psychotic quite fast and to stop it in the beginning phase is very important, because the longer it lasts, the harder it is to get back to baseline. The schizo-deficit symptoms are maybe not as strong in my case but still there, I often cannot get going with my activities. I also have an autistic spectrum condition/Asperger syndrome that influences my whole life in many ways.

Other medical conditions that really affect my daily life are pain and epilepsy. The pain is severe in degree, often due to the conditions of paroxysmal hemicrania and Chiari malformation. I take opioid painkillers when I cannot function due to pain level and the emotional part of physical agony. The epilepsy is kind of in control by my anticonvulsants but I still have some difficult symptoms and there are limits I cannot break due to this disease.

But no matter how many challenges I face, I’m still here and I’m never giving up the fight. Thanks for reading ❤

Every time I see a school, I’m strongly reminded of what happen to me and my father. The xenophobia and my best friends who saved my life through this hell, the teacher who hated anyone not ideal to their Norwegian supremacist point of view. It contributed strongly to my mental-health conditions and I still struggle.

But I’m so grateful to youth psychiatry for finally diagnosing my autism spectrum condition in 2010/2011 and we knew what it was. I’m currently in a somewhat dark mood, and I understand this can be misunderstod by people.

I’m okay now, nothing can ever kill my inner strenght gained from these experiences or my basic passion for this life. I hope you find true peace and someone who sees your Light.

I like stories and acting/roleplay, writing about my thoughts and quasi poetry and I absolutely love music; the visual part almost like a kind of synesthesia. I like interpretation of lyrics and to the overall feeling I get from a track/song.

Another thing I like doing that’s kind of creative is dream interpretation and astrology, I also enjoy visual arts of many types. But I mostly write from the inner core being and I hope you may find it interesting in a way unique to you ❤

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What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?

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I just think of the series ‘True Blood’ when I read this question. How the vampires could get stronger and more powerful with time, but the most interesting part is their perspective on time and death. Living for a over a millenia but being not human, being the undead. I personally would prefer living long enough to almost get tired of living but not wishing death to arrive before timing is right. Sorry I’m so almost morbid in my writing, these are my thoughts today. I hope you will have a wonderful life ❤

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What relationships have a positive impact on you?

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My family is truly great, my best friends saved my life in childhood/youth and even society as a whole can affect how I relate to others joy and suffering and my self-worth. My enemies actually remind me of being the better person and this possibly sometimes helps their own issues as well, nothing is completely random in relationships including the difficult aspects/people we face.

Everyone matters to the Spirit in the Sky.

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What colleges have you attended?

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I have finished one class/topic in 1st year of videregående skole (I believe this corresponds to late high-school years in the USA?) and no more education after this, I was too sick to even get home-based school or special adjustment. But I did what I could to make it through the day, minute by minute. So I have not attended college or university, unfortunately.

thanks for the visit/reading ❤

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Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

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it’s probably clear from my writing where my thinking is most often directed, the past is where I write from frequently. A part of it is the feeling that the future doesn’t exist yet and I cannot remember it.

Another aspect are my passions for astrology and genealogy, I know astrology is related to our future as well but I’m often using it to understand past thoughts and behaviour. So it’s clear I’m into history in general, including DNA-testing.

And I do try and be here in the now as much as possible, but things don’t make sense to me without knowing the past. Thanks for reading ❤

In addition to my schizoaffective condition I am an Aspergian/Aspie/autistic woman and I feel like I have a creative side influenced by these states of being different from the norm. I think outside the box and colour outside the lines on paper in several ways, especially when it comes to social interaction and writing from my core being. It’s not easy being different but it’s my true life and part of my mission in human nature, we make life interesting in ways the NT’s cannot explain from their perspective. Btw I believe we are one in our humanity despite our differences, and I love my mostly neurotypical relatives with every nerve in my inner fire/soul. And we absolutely do have souls like every other living human or animal, never ever forget it 💔🤔

I’m kind of exhausted from this Christmas time celebrations with our large family events, and I’m now going to relax completely the entire evening. I love tea and I really enjoy being comfortable and spend time by myself when I need it. I’m looking forward to the new year.

It’s the most social I’ve been this year, and it’s mostly a good thing. I hope your days are good and have a great holiday ❤

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What is your all time favorite automobile?

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I don’t know how to drive a car, but I have tried successfully driving a snowmobile though it wasn’t strictly legal. Btw I had a lot of fun in the Easter sun spending time there in the Mountains, our family has a cabin/cottage very close to a frozen lake which was where I was driving the snowmobile on. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and I don’t need to know how to drive anyway due to our location and our household is quite environmental minded.

Back to the topic of cars; I like special cars in different kinds, from the very fastest ones to the most iconic looking. Like a Ferrari or similar type of sports car.

I live on this Earth with every terrestrial being. It’s the most obvious answer really, when I think in terms of life itself. And I believe we should honor our host in everyday life, we would be completely lost without Her.

I have looked into spirituality and my experiences with adversity and mental illness, and seen many aspects I’ve never thought about deeply enough. How I affect others with what I share, how my words reveal my mind to the outside world. A lot of what I’ve learned I actually already knew deep within myself, but didn’t think about in the Light of awareness.

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Share what you know about the year you were born.

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I’m currently 31 years old and was born in late summer in Arctic region Scandinavia. Varg Vikernes killed Euronymous in August that year, very close to my birthday. Black metal. Also Nirvana released their album In Utero in 1993. Bill Clinton in the USA and Gro Harlem Brundtland in Norway. Yugoslav Wars and the Gulf War. I’m sorry this is not very in-depth but I’m quite manic and I hear voices so loud I cannot think almost.

Thank you for reading this ❤

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If you started a sports team, what would the colors and mascot be?

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We don’t have mascots in sports in Norway? I might be wrong, but I don’t really think we do. And it matters the particular sport they play, I like volleyball. If I would choose colour and mascots it would be black and red, and the mascot would be a raven. Maybe I should mention I’m an anarchist so black + red is very symbolic of my ideology. Yes, anarchist volleyball with a raven. ❤ ❤ ❤

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What makes you feel nostalgic?

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the biggest one for me is the music I was listening to in my late childhood and youth, it really is special to me. Another thing that makes me nostalgic is looking at old journals and notebooks, especially when my best friends wrote a message to me in them. I miss my youth a lot even though I was psychotic and depressive most of that time, I’m now 31 and quite lonely. And seeing my old toys is especially emotional, the mean kids tried to destroy them when I was “stupid” enough to bring them to school with me. I’m really feeling it now, but maybe that’s a good thing sometimes. Thank you for reading ❤

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Are you a good judge of character?

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in real life/offline I can quite easily tell by my inner feeling if someone is basically good-natured or not. Those who are not good-natured I will try to avoid whenever that is possible, I cannot deal well with mean people because I’m sensitive to rejection and of course to abuse of different types. Online I cannot see the full true behaviour of my fellow visitor of the World Wide Web so I’m really using my inner judgement based on their writing, my own offline experience with people and online reality/social rules.

in addition to see if someone is good-natured, I can tell whether someone truly likes me or not, if they are neurotypical or neurodivergent/autistic and I have a kind of intuition regarding someones music preferance being similar to mine.

When I feel comfortable and relaxing with a cup of tea, seeing our amazing view from our house and knowing I am safe in my environment. I have severe pain and when I get pain relief from the medications I see how prescious life is underneath my agony, being blissfully aware of beauty.

Takk Gud for alt ❤

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What skills or lessons have you learned recently?

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this we all should learn well, how to be kind to all beings, including ourselves. I see it when I beat myself up and then realised it was too much.

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How have your political views changed over time?

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I’ve always been quite far-left politically and I’ve identified as anarchist for many years. I always learn more about the World and my views change slightly from month to month. I also grew up with left/far-left family ideology, my great-grandfather was a true communist and he was even under attention from the Ruling class for his views. I have not gotten more conservative at all with the years but I’m more clear what I truly want to fight for, what is important to my activism.

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List your top 5 grocery store items.

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Earl Grey tea, ginger tea and tea you get only in special tea shops

Energy drinks, esp Battery Blue

Hard cider, esp Mack Secco

Ready-made food, like Toro or other brand

Bacardi Breezer or sometimes Smirnoff Ice (rusbrus/alcopop)

+everything else I want/need in life

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You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?

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the space would adapt to my Light tolerance and mood, I most often live in almost total Darkness. But writing in notebooks require good Light to get down on paper successfully.

In addition it would be tidy and the temperature would be just right depending on weather conditions and season. Very soft ‘gulvteppe’ with beautiful patterns, comfortable chairs and sofa. Wonderful art and pictures of my family members and ancestors, books in the shelf and wood table to have my different type drinks resting on protected surface.

Big windows with adjustable curtains and our truly amazing view outside to be seen. And the room is colourful with several themes, especially reds and greens plus a blue/grey shade corner. My perfect home environment 🙂 ❤

thank you for reading ❤ 😀

My half-brother is a couple of years older than me, and we share a mother and have different fathers. I mentioned him in my related post on other blog, he has blond hair and blue eyes. He resemble both our maternal grandfather and his own father. He is my only sibling and he has two children, both girls. He is also a musician in several metal genres, I feel his creative works are great and useful for his own health as well. He also writes the song lyrics himself in our native language.

What I value most in our relationship is how we care deeply about the others well being and our unique sense of humor in the family, we are quite silly all of us and this is a very good thing to have. He also has bipolar condition, and I think that is part of his positive uniqueness in some ways.

Tusen takk bror, du er et godt menneske ❤

The title is the name of a group of musicians I was listening to a lot in my mid-late teenage years. They are kind of controversial in lyrics, but I enjoy it still. Some examples are the tracks ‘Uncle’, ‘Molly’, Diabolical’ and ‘Shut Me Up’. And I began listening again this year, using my adult perspective to interperate the message in the tracks through lyrics and mood in them.

The reason I mention them is the general feeling of my experiences this year I didn’t expect, my blogs and online life got much more important to my everyday life than I thought they would.

I also experience things differently in offline life, my support system broke down almost completely in April this year and my doctors sometimes being very authoritarian and playing God with my life. I’ve learned to stand up to abuse and being true to my real self, plus working toward healing and relate to others.

I actually appreciate learning from my unexpected experiences this year, also including the painful ones. Thank you for reading this and I wish you good luck and happy moments.

in 9th grade I spent a couple days working at the local library as part of my education, everyone had to choose somewhere they wanted to work and I love books of all kinds. I spoke with the adults working there and sorting through the books, keeping it tidy and organized well. I was quite psychotic at the time with voice-hearing constantly, along with the anxiety-related symptoms affecting my ability to do the tasks confidently and easily. One of the days I got nausea so strongly I just had to go home. But it was a useful experience, seeing how adults interact in work environment and what goes on behind the scenes in a library.

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Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

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Jeg hadde ikke sett for meg hvor mye jeg har lært dette året. Og det jeg lærte er ganske anderledes enn det jeg hadde trodd da, jeg har fått mye mer innsikt rundt hvordan ordene mine kan påvirke andre på enorme avstander fra der jeg bor her i lille Norge. Og hvordan deres ord og kreativitet påvirker både meg og andre folk som leser dem, ser kunsten og hører musikken de deler. Jeg er takknemlig for det og håper å fortsette å lære så mye mer om alt.

i tillegg er jeg et år eldre, tar andre medisiner og er mange erfaringer rikere. På godt og vondt har jeg kommet hit, livet stopper ikke opp.

some English: what is most noticed in my daily life are my connections with the people interacting with me online. And the independent media I’ve been introduced through other blogs has made me open to other parts of life.

Btw this isn’t limited to my substances of use, I write without planning sometimes when in psychosis, strong emotions and intoxicated state.

(Edit: I’m not saying writing is wrong when emotional, just I write without plan)

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What skills or lessons have you learned recently?

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I guess this is something I should really learn, it’s a journey and compassion is needed. Darkness and the night, I love music. Having 8 cans of hard cider in a binge-drinking session today, sometimes I drink when it’s too much to take in real life. Psychotic thinking connection with music and writing here. I want you to know I feel your pain within and I aim to heal these emotional wounds and difficult times in my past. If you don’t have heard I have schizoaffective condition and right now I’m mixed state and drunk and sad really.

Thank you kind person reading this ❤

Hammerfest, I lived there for 6 years in my mid/late teens to early adult years. 10 000 people living there back then. It’s maybe strange to many people calling it a city but it’s actually quite urban in the main town area, much more than my current location and it’s an old city unlike ours. The weather is a lot different than here and some Norwegians can probably guess where I currently live, right?

I also want to see Seattle.

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What cities do you want to visit?

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I’ve never been to Southern parts of Sweden before and Stockholm is an old city, a lot of history to explore. And the people around talk in Swedish language so it’s both familiar and quite different from my perspective. It would also be the largest city I’ve ever visited.

Every day something enters my field of attention that is wild. It could be a magpie or a crow, a fox or a hare, and of course in our summer season there are beautiful stunning insects like the butterfly or dragonfly. We must never forget our own wild Nature and we belong together with all other beings on Earth.

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Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.

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My hope is that people say and believe I’m genuine from my core being, it’s something I value in myself and my friends. I’m not saying I never twist the truth or that I am always straightforward in communication, but I do my best to be myself genuinely and act with true compassion for others.

Another aspect is that I hope people know I’m quite mentally sharp and open minded. I hope they see beyond my diagnoses and labels, that we are all equal together even in our differences.

thank you for your time ❤

I would not change one thing about my true self. But I would let go of the heavy defensive barriers around me, because I don’t need them anymore. I’m here on Earth to live this particular life, and I don’t want to waste it on fears and delusions.

And I want to be young forever, but this is also delusional thinking. We all age in some way and this has good parts as well. And thank you for reading ❤

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Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

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I don’t know if it’s relevant to this question but I will share some of my experiences with the first day after surgery.

I have had many minor procedures in both of my lower limbs due to extremely painful condition. I don’t want to write too much about the reason or graphic detail. Walking is impossible in this state and the first time this surgery I had to be wheeled around the pharmacy to get the pain medications. And you really really need the medications ASAP to be able to fall and stay asleep. And you also need help with anything involving walking or standing for several days after the surgery.

It’s been 4 years since last time thank God and Nature I got treatments that works to prevent this condition.

be strong within yourself ❤

I’ve said this before but not here yet. During May, June and July we have all-day light and night is like day in many ways. We don’t always have sunshine, but it’s literally never dark for several weeks. My favourite part of summer is when we sit outside in our garden in the middle of the night being with a couple of friends and having some cold drinks, in my case a couple of cans of hard alcohol-containing cider and Battery energy drinks. Looking out at the sea, the sky is beautiful and the whole experience is absolutely priceless. I miss the summer time at this moment.

And I’m usually a morning person, usually wake up at 5 in the morning every day. Thank you for reading my blog ❤

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Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?

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I have several times been one of the main characters in dramatic acting performing with others. I surprised some people with the passion because I’m a quiet and sensitive person in other areas, but creatively I’m kind of confident and bold in my way of being. I act with my inner core being living the characters life inside and outside, I take acting very seriously and I have lightminded fun at the same time.

And in 8th grade I performed my own track to my classmates as part of a school project along with my best friend, I wrote the lyrics by myself inspired by aspects of my everyday life. I say don’t worry and share your passion for life in your own creative ways ❤

In particular I enjoy climbing, hiking and I love looking out from the top of our Mountain restaurant; seeing our town in it’s true beauty. I truly am not afraid of heights at all. And all of these activities are good for strenght and endurance as well as your mood and the soul.

I mentioned this beautiful place on my other blog recently, but I want to go more in-depth here. It’s in my home county Finnmark in Norway. This little place is one I lived very close to and I enjoyed to be at the beach and see the truly wonderful scenery every time. And the connections were profound and deep, I was once there with a spiritual man interested in chakras and Eastern religions. I miss him and I hope he is doing great in his native region. We are ment to see/meet many people in our lives and to make it count. The sand and the wildlife, the beauty of the scenery and my mindset connected so strongly to create special feelings and memories I still have over 10 years since being there last time.

Thanks for reading this ❤

And not just any kind; but those deeply connected to my roots. It’s a special shoe used by Sámi people in the winter, especially when the snow is more dry. They are called nutukas/Sámi boots and they are made from reindeer hide.

I also like the mixing of traditional and modern clothing, I wear hoodies along with my nutukas.

edit much later: I know some Sámi people are against mixing cultures and modern clothing, and I think it’s more complex than just saying no to all non-traditional dress. And of course I wear my nutukas with hoodies, I nearly always wear hoodies. Æ e tross alt same æ også ❤

Let me just mention that Chiron is strong in my astrology birth chart and my current life. So I identify with this theme from experience, interesting fact is that my father has the same Sun-Chiron conjunction as I have in his own chart. I believe we are all healers on some level either within ourselves or helping mend others wounds, I know nurses who are very deeply passionate about caring for others, physical wounds or emotional. I really admire these people because it’s inner strenght and also dedication to something larger.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤