good-natured people

Daily writing prompt
Are you a good judge of character?

in real life/offline I can quite easily tell by my inner feeling if someone is basically good-natured or not. Those who are not good-natured I will try to avoid whenever that is possible, I cannot deal well with mean people because I’m sensitive to rejection and of course to abuse of different types. Online I cannot see the full true behaviour of my fellow visitor of the World Wide Web so I’m really using my inner judgement based on their writing, my own offline experience with people and online reality/social rules.

in addition to see if someone is good-natured, I can tell whether someone truly likes me or not, if they are neurotypical or neurodivergent/autistic and I have a kind of intuition regarding someones music preferance being similar to mine.

Norwenglish

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

I always enjoy saying silly and strange things in my native Norwegian language in English sounding words and vice versa, I do this every day including offline. And please don’t fall in the trapp, it’s life-dangerous 🤔🤣 it’s not only-only and I miss Hammer party.

on political themes

Daily writing prompt
How have your political views changed over time?

I’ve always been quite far-left politically and I’ve identified as anarchist for many years. I always learn more about the World and my views change slightly from month to month. I also grew up with left/far-left family ideology, my great-grandfather was a true communist and he was even under attention from the Ruling class for his views. I have not gotten more conservative at all with the years but I’m more clear what I truly want to fight for, what is important to my activism.

Natural Light, total Darkness

Daily writing prompt
You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?

the space would adapt to my Light tolerance and mood, I most often live in almost total Darkness. But writing in notebooks require good Light to get down on paper successfully.

In addition it would be tidy and the temperature would be just right depending on weather conditions and season. Very soft ‘gulvteppe’ with beautiful patterns, comfortable chairs and sofa. Wonderful art and pictures of my family members and ancestors, books in the shelf and wood table to have my different type drinks resting on protected surface.

Big windows with adjustable curtains and our truly amazing view outside to be seen. And the room is colourful with several themes, especially reds and greens plus a blue/grey shade corner. My perfect home environment 🙂 ❤

thank you for reading ❤ 😀

My brother

Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

My half-brother is a couple of years older than me, and we share a mother and have different fathers. I mentioned him in my related post on other blog, he has blond hair and blue eyes. He resemble both our maternal grandfather and his own father. He is my only sibling and he has two children, both girls. He is also a musician in several metal genres, I feel his creative works are great and useful for his own health as well. He also writes the song lyrics himself in our native language.

What I value most in our relationship is how we care deeply about the others well being and our unique sense of humor in the family, we are quite silly all of us and this is a very good thing to have. He also has bipolar condition, and I think that is part of his positive uniqueness in some ways.

Tusen takk bror, du er et godt menneske ❤

Mindless Self Indulgence

Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

The title is the name of a group of musicians I was listening to a lot in my mid-late teenage years. They are kind of controversial in lyrics, but I enjoy it still. Some examples are the tracks ‘Uncle’, ‘Molly’, Diabolical’ and ‘Shut Me Up’. And I began listening again this year, using my adult perspective to interperate the message in the tracks through lyrics and mood in them.

The reason I mention them is the general feeling of my experiences this year I didn’t expect, my blogs and online life got much more important to my everyday life than I thought they would.

I also experience things differently in offline life, my support system broke down almost completely in April this year and my doctors sometimes being very authoritarian and playing God with my life. I’ve learned to stand up to abuse and being true to my real self, plus working toward healing and relate to others.

I actually appreciate learning from my unexpected experiences this year, also including the painful ones. Thank you for reading this and I wish you good luck and happy moments.

My taste of work life

Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

in 9th grade I spent a couple days working at the local library as part of my education, everyone had to choose somewhere they wanted to work and I love books of all kinds. I spoke with the adults working there and sorting through the books, keeping it tidy and organized well. I was quite psychotic at the time with voice-hearing constantly, along with the anxiety-related symptoms affecting my ability to do the tasks confidently and easily. One of the days I got nausea so strongly I just had to go home. But it was a useful experience, seeing how adults interact in work environment and what goes on behind the scenes in a library.

Nei (No)

Daily writing prompt
Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

Jeg hadde ikke sett for meg hvor mye jeg har lært dette året. Og det jeg lærte er ganske anderledes enn det jeg hadde trodd da, jeg har fått mye mer innsikt rundt hvordan ordene mine kan påvirke andre på enorme avstander fra der jeg bor her i lille Norge. Og hvordan deres ord og kreativitet påvirker både meg og andre folk som leser dem, ser kunsten og hører musikken de deler. Jeg er takknemlig for det og håper å fortsette å lære så mye mer om alt.

i tillegg er jeg et år eldre, tar andre medisiner og er mange erfaringer rikere. På godt og vondt har jeg kommet hit, livet stopper ikke opp.

some English: what is most noticed in my daily life are my connections with the people interacting with me online. And the independent media I’ve been introduced through other blogs has made me open to other parts of life.

Don’t write under the influence?

Daily writing prompt
What skills or lessons have you learned recently?

I guess this is something I should really learn, it’s a journey and compassion is needed. Darkness and the night, I love music. Having 8 cans of hard cider in a binge-drinking session today, sometimes I drink when it’s too much to take in real life. Psychotic thinking connection with music and writing here. I want you to know I feel your pain within and I aim to heal these emotional wounds and difficult times in my past. If you don’t have heard I have schizoaffective condition and right now I’m mixed state and drunk and sad really.

Thank you kind person reading this ❤

I miss Hammer Party

What cities do you want to visit?

Hammerfest, I lived there for 6 years in my mid/late teens to early adult years. 10 000 people living there back then. It’s maybe strange to many people calling it a city but it’s actually quite urban in the main town area, much more than my current location and it’s an old city unlike ours. The weather is a lot different than here and some Norwegians can probably guess where I currently live, right?

I also want to see Seattle.

New Rock 🖤❤️🖤❤️

What are your two favorite things to wear?

I said in my other blog that I have several pairs of New Rock brand boots and I believe I had 4 pairs at one point several years ago when I had a habit of buying shoes. I wish I had kept my thin legs and still had very good heel-walking skills. And the lower limb surgery made me very sensitive to discomfort. But life is still certainly interesting and absolutely worth living from my point of view today 🤔❤️

Genuine

Daily writing prompt
Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.

My hope is that people say and believe I’m genuine from my core being, it’s something I value in myself and my friends. I’m not saying I never twist the truth or that I am always straightforward in communication, but I do my best to be myself genuinely and act with true compassion for others.

Another aspect is that I hope people know I’m quite mentally sharp and open minded. I hope they see beyond my diagnoses and labels, that we are all equal together even in our differences.

thank you for your time ❤

True self-worth

What is one thing you would change about yourself?

I would not change one thing about my true self. But I would let go of the heavy defensive barriers around me, because I don’t need them anymore. I’m here on Earth to live this particular life, and I don’t want to waste it on fears and delusions.

And I want to be young forever, but this is also delusional thinking. We all age in some way and this has good parts as well. And thank you for reading ❤

Surgery

Daily writing prompt
Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

I don’t know if it’s relevant to this question but I will share some of my experiences with the first day after surgery.

I have had many minor procedures in both of my lower limbs due to extremely painful condition. I don’t want to write too much about the reason or graphic detail. Walking is impossible in this state and the first time this surgery I had to be wheeled around the pharmacy to get the pain medications. And you really really need the medications ASAP to be able to fall and stay asleep. And you also need help with anything involving walking or standing for several days after the surgery.

It’s been 4 years since last time thank God and Nature I got treatments that works to prevent this condition.

be strong within yourself ❤

I love the Midnight sun

Are you more of a night or morning person?

I’ve said this before but not here yet. During May, June and July we have all-day light and night is like day in many ways. We don’t always have sunshine, but it’s literally never dark for several weeks. My favourite part of summer is when we sit outside in our garden in the middle of the night being with a couple of friends and having some cold drinks, in my case a couple of cans of hard alcohol-containing cider and Battery energy drinks. Looking out at the sea, the sky is beautiful and the whole experience is absolutely priceless. I miss the summer time at this moment.

And I’m usually a morning person, usually wake up at 5 in the morning every day. Thank you for reading my blog ❤

Actress with passion

Daily writing prompt
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?

I have several times been one of the main characters in dramatic acting performing with others. I surprised some people with the passion because I’m a quiet and sensitive person in other areas, but creatively I’m kind of confident and bold in my way of being. I act with my inner core being living the characters life inside and outside, I take acting very seriously and I have lightminded fun at the same time.

And in 8th grade I performed my own track to my classmates as part of a school project along with my best friend, I wrote the lyrics by myself inspired by aspects of my everyday life. I say don’t worry and share your passion for life in your own creative ways ❤

Being at the heights

What are your favorite physical activities or exercises?

In particular I enjoy climbing, hiking and I love looking out from the top of our Mountain restaurant; seeing our town in it’s true beauty. I truly am not afraid of heights at all. And all of these activities are good for strenght and endurance as well as your mood and the soul.

Ytre Forsøl

Do you have a favorite place you have visited? Where is it?

I mentioned this beautiful place on my other blog recently, but I want to go more in-depth here. It’s in my home county Finnmark in Norway. This little place is one I lived very close to and I enjoyed to be at the beach and see the truly wonderful scenery every time. And the connections were profound and deep, I was once there with a spiritual man interested in chakras and Eastern religions. I miss him and I hope he is doing great in his native region. We are ment to see/meet many people in our lives and to make it count. The sand and the wildlife, the beauty of the scenery and my mindset connected so strongly to create special feelings and memories I still have over 10 years since being there last time.

Thanks for reading this ❤

Winter shoes, my favourite

What are your two favorite things to wear?

And not just any kind; but those deeply connected to my roots. It’s a special shoe used by Sámi people in the winter, especially when the snow is more dry. They are called nutukas/Sámi boots and they are made from reindeer hide.

I also like the mixing of traditional and modern clothing, I wear hoodies along with my nutukas.

edit much later: I know some Sámi people are against mixing cultures and modern clothing, and I think it’s more complex than just saying no to all non-traditional dress. And of course I wear my nutukas with hoodies, I nearly always wear hoodies. Æ e tross alt same æ også ❤

Wounded healers

What is something others do that sparks your admiration?

Let me just mention that Chiron is strong in my astrology birth chart and my current life. So I identify with this theme from experience, interesting fact is that my father has the same Sun-Chiron conjunction as I have in his own chart. I believe we are all healers on some level either within ourselves or helping mend others wounds, I know nurses who are very deeply passionate about caring for others, physical wounds or emotional. I really admire these people because it’s inner strenght and also dedication to something larger.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤