What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time?
I really enjoy the experience of dreaming, I have often quite vivid and interesting dreams almost like movies of some kind. And even the difficult topics in my dreams are useful to my waking life to some degree, we face our fears while asleep. I’m an introspective mind and I enjoy what can never be taken away from me; my dreams.
Thank you for your time and I wish you a good weekend ❤
our far-Southern family love boats and traditional Southern food like shrimps/(also known in Norway; reker) and I love the accent/dialects our Agder county close relatives have, and further back in generations Southwest Norwegian dialects from Rogaland county. We are likely of Reisende origins and I’m happy for the diversity of cultures in family tree.
in the Northern Norwegian region, especially those with a lot of Kven and Finnish influenced cultures and language the sauna experience is especially important to our identity. And I enjoy wearing traditional clothing and most of all our unique traditional shoes ❤
and the animals my father side share in common like horses and cats, and further back on his side even a couple of reindeer living at farms according to census records.
btw, can you tell I’m very interested in our families cultural features and identity? ❤
Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t got around to visiting.
This mountain is very close to our town and I really wish to go to the top at some point soon. It’s famous for it’s history in our region and it’s a quite tall mountain.
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?
I was one of the war prisoners in this play, it was about our towns history in the second World War. I really tried to go deep into this character perspective, and I believe it was maybe noticed by the other actors/actresses. It was not a major role, but I really remember it quite vividly. If you know some of the history of WWII in Northern Norway, it will be quite clear why this was important to our town and why we had this play in the teather.
If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be?
I’ll be there till the end, no matter what. You are my sunshine in the polar nights, dear little black dog, and even though you are my mothers dog I care a lot about you being happy and healthy.
Thanks for reading ❤
I write quasi poetry
I drink hipster-karsk, alcohol plus caffeine cocktail (esp. alcopop and energy drinks)
I listen to electronic dance music
(I also listen to heavy metal music)
I play with words, and speak Norwenglish
I research different important topics and/or order hoodies online
thank you for the visit, and I’m really a silly girl today
Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc.
As I mention on my other blog my first names are mostly of Norse origin, including Ingvild and Torunn. I’m going to write about our family name Jorunn because it has special place in my heart and the meaning is wonderful. I have an older close relative with this name and a younger close relative being named after her great-grandmother. It’s of Norse origin and it means ‘love of horses’. And horses are amazing animals as I wrote here a couple of days ago.
Jeg er veldig glad i deg, Jorunn ❤
What’s your dream job?
I honestly wish I had the confident nature and real skills for it, it’s likely not easy being a woman doing this as it’s often a male dominated vocation. I’m going to put a music video here if you want to hear a track from a hardstyle DJ I like who is also a woman, I enjoy her tracks a lot. I create tracks in the night, sleeping. That’s one reason why I should be a female DJ, at least in my dreams 😂❤️
DJ Stephanie – Black High Heels
I want to work for the benefit of the have-nots of our society, straight from my inner core being. I also wish to work at the local pharmacy as I’m very interested in pharmaceuticals and health care in general, plus I like helping people find what they need. It’s all connected actually, many who visit the pharmacy are have-nots with chronic health conditions that affect their ability to work. I also hope to feel useful in this way, that I’m doing something good in this world.
Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it?
First taste in 2006, it wasn’t legal in Norway then but my classmates got it in Sweden (we lived very close to the Swedish border). It was unlike anything I had tried before, I believe it was Burn brand. I didn’t try it again before the energy drinks became legal in Norway a couple of years later, but one day I had a big can of them and basically I was on a cloud with energy and motivation. My undiagnosed schizoaffective condition made me prone to apathy and avolition, and the energy drinks helped with this.
At some point not long after starting drinking them I became dependent on them to function, and I was a heavy user of these beverages for 10 years. After I turned 18 I could combine them with cider or alcopop/rusbrus (or vodka/rum occationally) and this cocktail was very powerful in my experience, it made me feel much more intoxicated in a good mood. Btw I have periodic alcohol use especially in summer time because drinking is fun in the sunshine.
But in 2018 I decided it was time to end the addiction issues, and at present time I’m only using energy drinks occationally most of the year. I have a can every morning in the polar nights/mørketid to boost my energy in the all-day Darkness/twilight. But the Sun returns now, so I believe there will be less caffeine needed now.
Thank you for reading ❤
If you could un-invent something, what would it be?
I know I’ve mentioned this earlier but I really feel strongly about this. I don’t believe ordinary people should own guns and explosives should only be used to make tunnels or similar jobs, never target people. And so many other weapons do a lot of unnecessary harm, as I mention in my other blog including metal chains used in violent/hate crimes against children even. It’s personal to me because it was a very close relative being the target of this horrible crime.
Thank you all for reading and we must be kind to all living Nature; humans or other life forms ❤
Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
I believe it was 1999 or 2000, my mother was on a several week trip to Russia and my maternal grandmother was taking care of me when she was away. When she came back I was really very emotional and I had missed her so much I could not speak in words. Btw, my mother used to translate Russian language writing and she has had good use of her language skills now with the war bringing youths to Norway.
I love my family members and I know they love me back as well, from the core being ❤
this experience was special to me for many reasons, I didn’t expect how strong the culture affects us even through harsh Norwegianization/other forced assimilation policies for centuries. I was with my maternal grandmother in Børselv in Finnmark county, visiting a Kven family we are not known to be closely related to. I had never experienced being so welcomed in this way by strangers or even by my Norwegian friends families, it was like true connection with our roots. We watched television soccer game and had conversations about the reason we were visiting; getting my Kven costume made. And I realised how Finnish and Kven culture is different from Norwegian and this was profound, I had thought of myself as Norwegian in my childhood when I had foreign friends and our home language being Norwegian. But now I knew at 16 years old how it goes deep, our ancestors live within us always no matter what the State and rest of society does to wipe out our subtle but significant differences of culture.
This changed my perspective on myself and our family, and it made a positive inpact on me in several ways. It was both fun and very deep experience.
And I want to thank you for visiting my blog, I hope it was interesting reading ❤
Norwegian language:
Nabokommune til vår egen, familien har vært på sommerferie der og det var idyllisk på strendene der som ofte er tilfellet i Finnmark fylke. Jeg har lyst til å besøke denne kommunen ved kysten i sommer, det hadde vært en interessant opplevelse.
English summary: I want to visit Hasvik in Finnmark county. The beaches are reported to be absolutely wonderful and some of my family members have visited this little place on the coast in summer holiday.
Takk/Thank you ❤
What is your favorite animal?
I want to mention some more about my favourite animals I wrote about on other blog. I’ve been horseback riding on several occations and I knew classmates who were very into this activity. In fact it was one of the boys in my class who had horses on the farm, I’m truly hoping he is okay now but I’m worried because my best friend bullied him hard and at one point I joined in with the evil ones due to psychotic symptoms and shame in my own roots. And I’m truly sorry I didn’t help him, I was really psychotic and delusional but still I know I’m a better, a kinder person at my core. And horses are interesting animals in themselves, I recommend learning about them even if you don’t have horses or go horseback riding. I learn from YouTube channels especially.
Okay, so on we move
Reindeer are fascinating beings, and I appreciate them as they are; not through some kind of feeling of hatred toward anything Sámi/indigenous related topic. I wasn’t used to seeing them when I lived in Nordland county so I was surprised with a neighbor boy throwing rocks at the poor animals. Never ever do this I say. And as I said in other blog (and other posts on here) I have a pair of nutukas/Saami boots (with the fur on, outside) and I also have a pair of kommager/summer shoes made from reindeer hide. There are also Sámi inspired regular shoes that are great in any winter weather with ice traction cleats on to keep from harm if you start to fall.
And my favourite everyday animal is the dog, my mother has one and this dog is like no other dog I’ve known, so special and lovely in her strangeness ❤ She is 13 years old at the moment and she is mixed breed and colour black (with a lot of grey with age). I adore dogs in general like the Lapphund, the collie and our Sheltie we had for 14 years before we got this dog (as second owner) 12 years ago.
Thank you so much for reading this, I love animals and my cousin really does very strongly advocate for animal rights and welfare. Good evening from the North ❤
without going into much detail I’ll just say I could greatly reduce clutter in my home environment. I love having tidy and clean living space and being free to move in open spaces, I need this to feel really good and well-adjusted.
thank you for reading ❤
What is your all time favorite automobile?
I don’t have a particular favourite model, but I like the way it feels driving (sometimes at high speed) on the snow. And it’s a big part of our winter season culture, some Saami people with reindeer can use it for herding and travel in Finnmarksvidda region. Lynx is one brand of snowmobile I’ve seen, another brand is Ski-Doo plus several others.
In what ways do you communicate online?
On my other blog I often post YouTube music videos and lyrics, it’s actually a big part of how I communicate my inner world to others. I live for the music and I enjoy interpretation of lyrics and how it connected to the other parts of a track.
Thank so much you for reading, I might find a video to post here on this blog later today ❤
as I have written about on my other blog one of my first names is Ingvild. It’s of Norse origin and it comes from ‘Ing/Yngvi’ (a Norse mythology god) and ‘hildr’ (meaning battle/struggle) and it can be translated as ‘foremothers struggle’ which resonates with me deeply not only because it’s the meaning of my name but also our family history and my passion for genealogy research, ethnicity and culture.
My other name is Johanne from Hebrew and it means ‘God’s mercy/mercy of God’ or ‘God is gracious’ and I also have another Norse origin name I will not mention here due to privacy reasons.
What snack would you eat right now?
As I am lactose sensitive partly due to my ethnicity (Sámi/Kven people; indigenous to Northern regions of Scandinavia, Finland and Northwestern Russia) I very much appreciate lactose free alternatives to milkshake, and our little town has a great oreo shake at one of the fancy fast food places at the local shopping mall. It tastes very good and best of all no trouble drinking! 🤩👌
Btw I’m having a cold can of perry/pear cider atm, Northern Norwegian brand ❤
Thank you for the visit and attention ❤
they both kill, and I’m lucky I don’t use any of them. I don’t like anything with nicotine in it, both Swedish snus or smoke. I really want to un-invent cigarettes in particular, and please do not use combined with other substances. I’ve seen too many people I know suffer from combined smoking and drinking.
and regarding the weapons there too much horrors from their use against innocent children and other people doing no wrong. Really imagine how painful the injuries are and think (at the very least) twice before doing harm. I hate weapons for a reason, including metal chains used in hate crime.
I really like pommes frites/French fries and I indulge on them occationally when we order takeout or I go to a fast food place. And the food varies significantly from every place and I enjoy when they are just right and with the optimal amount of salt and spices.
I love snacks of many kinds, btw. I try to keep them special, not having every day ❤
I’m not certain that this is relevant to the question because we don’t have many billboards in my region, however we have plenty of traffic signs and symbols. And I really believe Máze Pride could be interesting to contemplate around the true meaning. And please don’t shoot at the Sámi language road signs (in a song from 2000s about people doing exactly this), because we are all in the same boat here in the North. There is no need to hate the native/indigenous language so strongly.
What makes you feel nostalgic?
I used to live in Northern parts of Nordland fylke/county and I remember feeling like a foreign influence in terms of my appearance, ethnicity and culture. When I moved back to Finnmark fylke/county in 2009 I believed my life would get much better, but it turns out being different is universal no matter your location; my undiagnosed autism was large part of the experience and my untreated severe schizoaffective condition as well.
What I really love about Nordland is the Nature and outdoors activities, our dialects and the memories of youth that were very happy ones. No matter how difficult life was it never broke my fighter spirits and passion for life, I had wonderful times there. Thank God for this life ❤
in addition to the aspects I mention on my other blog, I could really be more mindful in everyday life. Notice the wonderful beauty we have around us, like the view from our home and the stars in the sky. And watching my thoughts without judgement like I’ve been reading about online, it could possibly be useful even to people like me with the severe mental-health conditions like schizoaffective, OCD or psychotic bipolarity.
I’m going to write about this trip again, mentioned this wonderful holiday on my other blog last year.
Some background: Me and my grandmother are members of a local Kven group and through this group also members of one of the larger organisations for Kven people in Norway. Kven people have deep origins in Finnish speaking regions of Northern Sweden and Northern Finland (mostly Lapland), some (like our family) have other Finnish roots as well, for instance we are also distantly Karelian and Savonian of origins.
okay, back to the trip: we started in Norway and travel down along the Torne River Valley regions, crossing along the border every day with our tourist bus. The Finnish forests are a major part of the trip, and we spent time walking outside and enjoy the Finnish summer. We stayed at several hotels on our travels and I really liked the different activities we had with the group, genealogy related, history and culture. The weather was mostly wonderful and fun times every day.
I love being of Finnish roots ❤
my favourite electronic device is my iPod. I’ve had several, first I believe was in 2009 when I was 16 years old. My latest is from 2012 and I love using it in everyday life. What my iPod does for me is quite profound; it helps me cope with psychosis, depression and voice-hearing and really it makes my medications more useful and life more deep and interesting. I still have an iPod and I hope it keeps working for many more years ❤
What is the greatest gift someone could give you?
I really want to mention that I appreciate my family members especially, I have no partner or children and I mostly interact with them (mother, grandmother, cousins, aunt, half-brother, nieces) in everyday life. And the bond is prescious so I do what I can to maintain connection with our roots and culture. The time is a great gift to both give and to recieve, and attention is important to connections with others.
I believe this idea would make a difference to most cultures in our world; including the USA, Norway and so many other countries. Astrology is part of something we need to explore in great depth and passion to significantly evolve our general society. All love that is genuine should never be punished.
i have a passion for astrology and I want lesbian/bisexual women to really relate to it with pride and genuine curiousity.
Honestly I would love this business/activities in my own case because I enjoy learning and to explore different cultures. Kind of social skill groups included in the activities as well, getting to know deep connection with other people in similar situation.
Life is good at the deep layers of our lives, and to see Light in dark places really matters to my own well-being and health. Thank you all ❤
iI’m not certain that this is relevant to the question, but I’ll try to answer it. It would be close to a bridge and it’s about preventing suicide and maintain hope in daily life. The band Tokio Hotel has a song called ‘Spring nicht/Don’t jump’ about this topic.
What relationships have a positive impact on you?
Honestly this is kind of not the answer to this question, but I just write this to help me find out my true relationships. I don’t know my father at all really, and it’s a complicated issue because he has a strong resentment toward my mother for leaving the relationship. I actually know him better than I thought, we spoke several times in 2023 on the phone.
He always wants to buy me things or clothing, but what I need is someone who listen and answer questions I have that only he can know how to explain/express. Btw he obviously has a positive impact on me; I share 50% of his genetics and he is my father! 😂💗
right now it feels like this blogging is my mission in several ways, this is where I meet the most diverse people with very interesting perspectives and expressions. Other parts of my current life are honestly often both very boring and too difficult and I don’t care about this right now.
but I know deep within that my offline life is more important no matter how it feels inside from my perspective.
another part of my possible mission is being politically aware and passionate about this, in addition to passion for life itself.
I hope you enjoy some aspects of your days.
What are your biggest challenges?
Even with treatments my psychotic/mood disorder affects my daily life significantly. If I don’t sleep for a couple of days I get really psychotic quite fast and to stop it in the beginning phase is very important, because the longer it lasts, the harder it is to get back to baseline. The schizo-deficit symptoms are maybe not as strong in my case but still there, I often cannot get going with my activities. I also have an autistic spectrum condition/Asperger syndrome that influences my whole life in many ways.
Other medical conditions that really affect my daily life are pain and epilepsy. The pain is severe in degree, often due to the conditions of paroxysmal hemicrania and Chiari malformation. I take opioid painkillers when I cannot function due to pain level and the emotional part of physical agony. The epilepsy is kind of in control by my anticonvulsants but I still have some difficult symptoms and there are limits I cannot break due to this disease.
But no matter how many challenges I face, I’m still here and I’m never giving up the fight. Thanks for reading ❤
What makes you feel nostalgic?
Every time I see a school, I’m strongly reminded of what happen to me and my father. The xenophobia and my best friends who saved my life through this hell, the teacher who hated anyone not ideal to their Norwegian supremacist point of view. It contributed strongly to my mental-health conditions and I still struggle.
But I’m so grateful to youth psychiatry for finally diagnosing my autism spectrum condition in 2010/2011 and we knew what it was. I’m currently in a somewhat dark mood, and I understand this can be misunderstod by people.
I’m okay now, nothing can ever kill my inner strenght gained from these experiences or my basic passion for this life. I hope you find true peace and someone who sees your Light.
How are you creative?
I like stories and acting/roleplay, writing about my thoughts and quasi poetry and I absolutely love music; the visual part almost like a kind of synesthesia. I like interpretation of lyrics and to the overall feeling I get from a track/song.
Another thing I like doing that’s kind of creative is dream interpretation and astrology, I also enjoy visual arts of many types. But I mostly write from the inner core being and I hope you may find it interesting in a way unique to you ❤
I just think of the series ‘True Blood’ when I read this question. How the vampires could get stronger and more powerful with time, but the most interesting part is their perspective on time and death. Living for a over a millenia but being not human, being the undead. I personally would prefer living long enough to almost get tired of living but not wishing death to arrive before timing is right. Sorry I’m so almost morbid in my writing, these are my thoughts today. I hope you will have a wonderful life ❤
What was the last thing you did for play or fun?
I played the mix I downloaded from YouTube on my old iPod with some good ear buds for music. And I actually love drum&bass; as it says below on the text I enjoy electronic dance music ❤
And I often create music in my dreams, maybe I should be a (female) DJ or something. Have a great time everyone ❤
My family is truly great, my best friends saved my life in childhood/youth and even society as a whole can affect how I relate to others joy and suffering and my self-worth. My enemies actually remind me of being the better person and this possibly sometimes helps their own issues as well, nothing is completely random in relationships including the difficult aspects/people we face.
Everyone matters to the Spirit in the Sky.
I have finished one class/topic in 1st year of videregående skole (I believe this corresponds to late high-school years in the USA?) and no more education after this, I was too sick to even get home-based school or special adjustment. But I did what I could to make it through the day, minute by minute. So I have not attended college or university, unfortunately.
thanks for the visit/reading ❤
it’s probably clear from my writing where my thinking is most often directed, the past is where I write from frequently. A part of it is the feeling that the future doesn’t exist yet and I cannot remember it.
Another aspect are my passions for astrology and genealogy, I know astrology is related to our future as well but I’m often using it to understand past thoughts and behaviour. So it’s clear I’m into history in general, including DNA-testing.
And I do try and be here in the now as much as possible, but things don’t make sense to me without knowing the past. Thanks for reading ❤
How are you creative?
In addition to my schizoaffective condition I am an Aspergian/Aspie/autistic woman and I feel like I have a creative side influenced by these states of being different from the norm. I think outside the box and colour outside the lines on paper in several ways, especially when it comes to social interaction and writing from my core being. It’s not easy being different but it’s my true life and part of my mission in human nature, we make life interesting in ways the NT’s cannot explain from their perspective. Btw I believe we are one in our humanity despite our differences, and I love my mostly neurotypical relatives with every nerve in my inner fire/soul. And we absolutely do have souls like every other living human or animal, never ever forget it 💔🤔
When are you most happy?
I’m kind of exhausted from this Christmas time celebrations with our large family events, and I’m now going to relax completely the entire evening. I love tea and I really enjoy being comfortable and spend time by myself when I need it. I’m looking forward to the new year.
It’s the most social I’ve been this year, and it’s mostly a good thing. I hope your days are good and have a great holiday ❤
I don’t know how to drive a car, but I have tried successfully driving a snowmobile though it wasn’t strictly legal. Btw I had a lot of fun in the Easter sun spending time there in the Mountains, our family has a cabin/cottage very close to a frozen lake which was where I was driving the snowmobile on. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and I don’t need to know how to drive anyway due to our location and our household is quite environmental minded.
Back to the topic of cars; I like special cars in different kinds, from the very fastest ones to the most iconic looking. Like a Ferrari or similar type of sports car.
I used to search for thinspiration online when I had relapse of my restrictive eating disorder, but once my treatments began working on my obsessive part of the conditions I didn’t care much about it. I actually think it reveals interesting parts of our society and to learn from this should not be forgotten or ignored.
And I have enjoyed writing my whole life, it’s part of my everyday life and a major reason I blog. I like posting music videos as well, I have plenty on my other blog and I may post something here soon. Storytelling is interesting also, the visual arts and outside the box way of thought. I’m schizoaffective and I believe this can be a part of my creative strenghts.
Who are the biggest influences in your life?
I live on this Earth with every terrestrial being. It’s the most obvious answer really, when I think in terms of life itself. And I believe we should honor our host in everyday life, we would be completely lost without Her.
What skills or lessons have you learned recently?
I have looked into spirituality and my experiences with adversity and mental illness, and seen many aspects I’ve never thought about deeply enough. How I affect others with what I share, how my words reveal my mind to the outside world. A lot of what I’ve learned I actually already knew deep within myself, but didn’t think about in the Light of awareness.
I’m currently 31 years old and was born in late summer in Arctic region Scandinavia. Varg Vikernes killed Euronymous in August that year, very close to my birthday. Black metal. Also Nirvana released their album In Utero in 1993. Bill Clinton in the USA and Gro Harlem Brundtland in Norway. Yugoslav Wars and the Gulf War. I’m sorry this is not very in-depth but I’m quite manic and I hear voices so loud I cannot think almost.
Thank you for reading this ❤
Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
I met my father in Autumn 2007 after 12 years not knowing him. It was him who contacted us, we actually met three times at a spescific location with someone else present. I’m not going into details about why he didn’t visit our home.
I remember being very nervous and excited about meeting him, btw I was an emo kid so I wore heavy black eyeliner on that faithful day.
When I saw him walking past the room I was like ‘omg, he really is just like me!’ and that was true every time we met, I was used to see how I was similar to my mother in political views and philosophy etc but my appearance is more like his and the way we think and respond to others.
This was profound in every way, and I am grateful for those moments and when the conversations were friendly (they were not always, I mention again he wasn’t in our home), and I learned a lot about him and myself in these experiences. I hope this was interesting to others, and true Sámi passion forever ❤
We don’t have mascots in sports in Norway? I might be wrong, but I don’t really think we do. And it matters the particular sport they play, I like volleyball. If I would choose colour and mascots it would be black and red, and the mascot would be a raven. Maybe I should mention I’m an anarchist so black + red is very symbolic of my ideology. Yes, anarchist volleyball with a raven. ❤ ❤ ❤
the biggest one for me is the music I was listening to in my late childhood and youth, it really is special to me. Another thing that makes me nostalgic is looking at old journals and notebooks, especially when my best friends wrote a message to me in them. I miss my youth a lot even though I was psychotic and depressive most of that time, I’m now 31 and quite lonely. And seeing my old toys is especially emotional, the mean kids tried to destroy them when I was “stupid” enough to bring them to school with me. I’m really feeling it now, but maybe that’s a good thing sometimes. Thank you for reading ❤
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