Tag: dailyprompt

Daily writing prompt

When do you feel most productive?

View all responses

I just recently writing about difficult topics so I wanted to talk about tea now.

We are heading for the brighter parts of the year, Midnight sun is soon back again from end May to end July. And I love my Earl Grey a lot, the English Tea Shop one is the best according to my perspective. So it doesn’t get dark at night in June but I take my sleeping pills when it’s difficult to fall asleep naturally. And dark curtains are a big help in the all-day light if you have a room where it’s sun on it at nighttime.

I feel more productive after a cup of Earl Grey and I’m present within the moment, more aware of my mind and surroundings.

And I wish to thank every reader for your time and quiet support. I wish you all well ❤

Det er vanskelig for meg å skrive om enkelte tema på mitt eget morsmål, det er mye lettere å skrive på engelsk om problemene jeg hadde på skolen. Men noen ganger er det nyttig å øve på å virkelig være åpen med seg selv og andre på morsmålet. Så her er en tekst jeg strevde med å få sagt.

Jeg ble mobbet mye i barneskolen og på ungdomsskolen, jeg hadde udiagnostisert Asperger syndrom og psykotisk lidelse i tillegg. De stjal tingene mine, truet med å legge ut bilder av meg da de så hva jeg hadde på under jeansen. Trengte bleier fordi jeg ellers hadde tissa i buksa samtidig som den månedlige syklusen, jeg takker Gud for at jeg brukte dem likevel. Jeg hadde sengevæting også, så jeg brukte dem også da. Jeg mener det virkelig, det er mye vanskeligere å faktisk si dette på norsk. Jeg var i BUP systemet et par år og de gjorde ingen utredning for å finne hva jeg egentlig hadde slags diagnose, dessverre maste vi ikke om å få ordentlig utredning på tidspunktet.

Sosionomen jeg snakket med fra BUP visste ikke at jeg ble mobbet fordi jeg ikke hadde fortalt han det før jeg brøt sammen i gråt etter en helt ekstrem episode i Sverige på klassetur. Han ble ganske frustrert av at jeg ikke hadde sagt dette før, men det er ikke lett å innrømme at man ikke strekker til sosialt med jevnaldrende som utnytter svakheter og annerledeshet til noe de kan heve sin egen status med i gruppen.

Jeg skulle ha snakket med noen om dette, og fortalt dem om symptomer på psykose og bipolar lidelse. Jeg hadde fortalt dem om mobbingen jeg strevde med, og livet generelt med en fraværende far som var rusavhengig og ustabil.

Klarer ikke skrive mer, beklager. Jeg er takknemlig for at dere leser bloggen min, det betyr mye for meg ❤

Daily writing prompt

What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

View all responses

Note: some text in Norwegian language

because our Arctic winters are so long, we really appreciate the Arctic summer even when it’s far from warm: I feel good in summer time even at 10°C and rainfall. We have the all-day light during our summer holiday; the Midnight sun and it’s magical really we are so used to it but it’s still wonderful to experience.

Norwegian; Jeg gleder meg sånn til sommerferien i år, jeg skal være mye ute i hagen og drikke kald energidrikk sammen med kald rusbrus og pærecider rundt midnatt i det vidunderlige solskinnet og den magiske stemningen vi opplever rundt det. Å bli litt solbrun fra å være ute i solskinnet og få nok D-vitamin fra naturen, jeg tar D-vitamin (kosttilskudd) hele året fordi jeg alltid ligger lavt i nivå på blodprøver. Ha på musikk på iPod og noen ganger koble den til høyttaler når jeg trenger en oppmuntring.

so summer holiday is my favourite because it’s wonderful spending time together outside in the garden or walking to local store or visiting family and drinking cold drinks together in the summer warmth, or just being by myself contemplating the meaning of this joy and being happy for what is good for our family, and also for our society as a whole. We all deserve peace ☮️💜

Daily writing prompt

Have you ever been camping?

View all responses

I remember we were at very first weeks of 8th grade we went to stay the night in tents with sleeping bags on high altitude close to the mountain and a lake. When we need to be relieved it was a kind of latrine outside so it was hardcore trip. We also had a lot of fun being together at night time, some of the other youths had bought energy drinks in Sweden (living right next to border with Northern Sweden, Norrbotten county) and I got a sip/taste of one, Burn brand in particular. And I prepared well for the trip ahead so I didn’t have to worry about wetting the sleeping bag at night. We were singing sad/deep lyrics songs at night, and my classmates were quite nice to each other right then.

I’m strongly interested in our natural environments and I feel connection with the World around me in this situation of sleeping outside in a tent.

thanks for reading ❤

Daily writing prompt

What makes you nervous?

View all responses

1 teenagers;

Teenagers scare me because of my negative experiences with them as a teenager and they are unpredictable in general, my heart starts racing when I see them and this used to be much worse when I was younger before getting on my antipsychotics and SSRI.

2 unexpected questions;

Unexpected questions make me nervous because I’m not prepared to answer correctly in a confident way.

3 rejection;

This is a major issues I have and many people fear rejection also, btw I have Saturn in Aquarius so it’s also a big part of my astrology.

4 paranoid delusions and voices in public spaces;

I have schizoaffective condition and I don’t like being outside when I have my more psychotic days, it’s very difficult to deal with this when I’m not in a very familiar setting.

5 being outside during rush hour;

This is especially difficult if I also experience the other things that make me nervous.

6 anxiety and obsessive thoughts;

I have anxiety and OCD, and I fear being nervous with others even though I have nothing to hide.

I truly wish I had a close relationship with another woman, a kind of romantic type at the core. I’m a lesbian and I’ve known about my preferred direction since at the earlier parts during late childhood and later in my teens more in-depth and with intensity. I’m if you don’t know me from before an autistic/Aspie woman turning 32 this late summer and I’m from Northern Scandinavian region with strong Finnish roots.

Despite my conditions and deep insecurity I wish to connect with someone on a deep level that I’ve never experienced before.

And thank you so much for reading my blog ❤

Daily writing prompt

What topics do you like to discuss?

View all responses

I’m on the far-left side politically and my family in general is socialist-leaning or even communist in the older generation. We are all passionate about our natural environment and importantly in actions as well as words. I’m the only anarchist in my family but I like speaking with my political left side family members, we have some strong right wing members as well but we don’t bother with much politically charged arguments as we know we don’t mutually understand the others perspective.

Daily writing prompt

How do you unwind after a demanding day?

View all responses

after a long day on errands and visits to other people I need to just unwind in my own way, and in the summer the natural conditions are different from other times. I also spend time listening to music I enjoy after coming home again after hectic errands and other activities involving many people together. This is completely necessary if my well-being is to be good.

about our summers it’s very prescious to the local people because our winters are very long. On very warm days it’s like 30°C outside and sunny so hot tea is not ideal right then, luckily I always try having some type of iced tea. My favourite brand/type is either the peach black tea or the wonderful white tea isTe types. I just love chill tea in summer season ❤

Note: I know this particular example in title isn’t really a physical book, but I search online for different names (often Norse origin ones) on that website very, very often these days. I think that website is very interesting and I use it to get deep understanding of the meaning and statistics, like how many got the name in a particular year.

I love learning about names and the statistics involved, it also relates to my interests in genealogy and ethnicities. I’m from Norway and I like Norse origin names especially, also because many of my family members have quite strong Norse influence in given/first names.

So a good book about names, including last names/surnames also, will be a very well-read book on my shelf ❤

(About my favourite emojis, dailyprompt)

❄️🌨💙🇫🇮 + 👌💗💕 + 🤔🇧🇻🌞😂 + ♀️💜♀️

buorre eahket, buorre idja, buorre iđit, buorre beaivi

good evening, good night, good morning, good day

And this, in Finnish: Hyviä aikoja toivottaen!

Norwegian language text:

Monster-E og en cider, hipster-karsk; eple alt sammen som jeg skrev på andre bloggen i dag. Say it ain’t so og effektiv smertestillende for Chiari type 1 (Chiari malformation) og de hjelper meg faktisk med mange symptomer i tillegg til sterke fysiske smerter. Og jeg hører på musikk ❤

English summary: alcohol-containing cider and energy drinks with apple flavour, the band Weezer and their track ‘Say it ain’t so’ and the painkillers that help. And I’m listening to music ❤

Daily writing prompt

How do you use social media?

View all responses

I’m not on any other social media currently, but I have a online family tree as well. I read and post, like searching for my favourite music from my youth years on YouTube. I write different kinds of texts, whether creative or plain. I enjoy the community here a lot as well. My news come from (far-left) left side political themes and I like what resonates with me and stir my emotions, poems or creative acts of kindness. I could not easily go back to life before blogging, it’s become a big part of my everyday life actually and I think it’s better in many ways.

thank you for listening ❤

In 2016 going on our summer holiday to Kristiansand in Agder county we actually took the train from Oslo to Kristiansand, we don’t have any railroads in Finnmark county and in general Northern Norway doesn’t have railway except some places in Nordland county.

And while me and my mother were talking we saw a young man in front decided to speak with him and this conversation was so interesting, he was a Southern student on one of the schools in the region. He had curly hair and he was listening to us, two Northern women on summer holiday seeing our close Agder family and visit our memories of Kristiansand as a city. And I had gotten on quite effective psych medications so I was much more outgoing/social in general.

We were talking for at least an hour according to my memory and perception of time, many different topics and his accent/dialect was so unique and he told us where he was from during the conversation we had.

Btw I love far-Southern culture in general and the people are so kind in a quiet way at the same time being honest and good sense of humor.

I’m so thankful and happy we got to speak with someone we never would have met staying home, and I hope he thought it was interesting as well.

Thanks for reading ❤

Daily writing prompt

Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

View all responses

it’s raining, or rather right now something Norwegians call ‘sludd’ a mixture of rain and snow. So the winter is soon to leave, but we live here in the Arctic location so snow can often happen unexpected.

Note: this is kind of different from the question. But it was the first thing I thought of apart from that I mentioned on other blog.

Our school trip to the Mountain lake was as usual very much an escape from the adversity I often experienced, but I had an inner adversary as well; the voices in my head. I sat alone on a rock cover with moss and then a dark hair foreign student joined me, she was actually from (Iraqi) Kurdistan. We got along so well that day and soon after we were best friends, it was so worth the trip and being apart spending time with an outsider kind of similar to myself in many ways.

Love your random encounter with future friends, it saved my school years from being worse.

Thank you for reading ❤

Note: this is mostly about the Kven language and culture.

I’m of Kven ancestry and our family culture is very strong in Kven influence. The Kven people are kind of like an old diaspora from Northern Finland going often centuries back, living in Northern Norway and speaking the Kven language that is quite similar to the Finnish language. I’m a proud Kven ❤

If my ancestors had been able to keep the native languages we had likely spoken Kven and North Sámi as well as Norwegian. There are forced assimilation policies mostly in the past but make no mistake it’s actually still somewhat of a problem especially for Kven people due to the perception we are just really immigrants and not ‘urfolk/indigenous’ to Northern Norway, no such prejudice toward the Sámi as they/we are already recognized as indigenous/urfolk in Norway.

Me and my maternal grandmother have strong attempted to learn the Kven language from language course and we are passionate members of the local Kven group and the national ‘Norske Kveners Forbund’ that fight for Kven topics in general and awareness of our culture, including the languages. I also want to learn North Sámi language and standard Finnish as well.

Honestly I still am not fluent in Kven language, but I truly am going to practice a lot with my Kven identified family members to know more, and not to mention it’s also fun ❤

Thanks for listening ❤

I’m afraid of visiting my main youth home town in Nordland county, and it’s of many reasons I haven’t been there since moving further North in 2009. I want to see the beautiful environment I remember with joy in my heart, the pure nature being amazing to experience. But I’m also afraid of ruin my nostalgic love for this wonderful place when it reminds me of some very difficult and moments of pitch black Darkness within, meeting my old classmates that were bullying me through these years and our Norwegian supremacist teacher who disliked me strongly for my issues and ethnicity of my friends, of my own ethnic minority origins that I was proud of because that no one could take away from me. And also the town could not be like in 2009 for obvious reasons plus I’m nearly 16 years older now. I loved it so much and I hated it while living in mental agony.

I feel quite ambivalent with this mixed relationship with my youth experience and I’m likely never going back, to keep my good memories from being darker than I thought.

Thank you for reading this ❤

Daily writing prompt

Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

View all responses

In my late childhood years I had a three years younger friend, I’m calling her HR. She had very significant case of AS/Asperger syndrome and was really a unique person, I’ve never known any autistic person as well as I knew her. I’m mentioning HR in particular because honestly I was playing God with my younger friends, especially with HR and I regret this with my entire core inner being and I so strongly wish I had been more understanding and truly compassionate. I had no clue we had this condition in common before it was too late to apologize in person and I would have really listen to her opinions and vulnerable state, I’m literally in tears for the things I didn’t understand then. I wish I had done so much more and been an equal in real ways. I wish we had many more of our deep philosophy conversations and our unique connection being treated with care.

And I was so lucky to know this wonderful and special young girl, I truly hope she is in good spirits and survived the difficult years we all go through in life.

Takk HR og unnskyld for at jeg ikke alltid forstod deg, at jeg var den som dominerte over de yngre vennene mine jeg skulle satt mye større pris på, du er fantastisk og var gull verdt, jeg glemmer deg aldri ❤

Daily writing prompt

Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.

View all responses

since 2005 when I was 12 years old I got actually psychotic and bipolarity much more strongly than before, I had some bipolarity already in 2001 at age 8 years. But in fact I went 8 years with this strong schizoaffective condition before I got effective treatment and diagnosis of real mental health conditions, I had been diagnosed with autism/Asperger syndrome a couple of years before this but they didn’t listen to me or close family so I got more severe symptoms. But after my treatments started working everything changed and it wasn’t easy at all, very difficult in fact. I realised how delusional I had been and how much the voice-hearing had dragged me down to nothing, how my mood disorder twisted my perspective on life in general. It was very hard, but I kept taking my medications for the sake of my family members well-being, and thank goodness for me to make this choice and the efforts to get even better; still a living project even 12 years later. And I thank my family, my psychiatric nurse and my first psychiatrist for fighting and to believe in my recovery.

It’s really about passion and effort from all directions, both health-care workers family members and importantly also the person within this state of being. I learn something and it goes:

There is Light behind even the Darkest moments.

thank you everyone for visiting ❤

Our family has Finnish roots, including mostly of Northern Finnish, Tornedalian and Kven origins.

Note: kind of long post about many related topics within culture and my experiences.

The Finnish people are known for many positive features of cultures, and I want to speak Finnish well enough for normal conversations with the native speakers. I have work book of our Kven language lessons from around 2016 and I’m going to read and practice a lot.

But the aspects that really shines is the Finnish sisu of our family, we keep moving forward despite significant difficulties in life. My mother supported me in my childhood and youth years when life was often hard to handle well, being often bullied and suffering from undiagnosed conditions of severe mental illness and moderate autism spectrum. At first in 2011 I was actually diagnosed with classic autism due to my psychosis being that severe so I could not communicate my thoughts in coherent sentences.

My mother was the one who got me into youth psychiatry along with the school nurse. She didn’t stop fighting for my well-being and my education, she is a teacher since over 15 years ago and cares about her students; many are of foreign origins, we are as family very fond of diversity of cultures and ethnicities in general.

I believe we as a society must fight for the underdogs of all kinds, including among many our immigrants and drug users having hard times coping with our long winters and the lack of sunshine during the polar nights here in the far-North region.

Thank you all for reading ❤

My mother is my most loved person in my life and she has always been there in my darkest moments, through psychosis, bipolar and even significant overdoses that got me in hospital. Single mother of two and so intelligent, she is a true Gemini with three planets in Gemini sign plus Mercury in Cancer sign, Mercury being the ruler of Gemini it’s important to her astrology. She also helps my half-brother and his children, we all get along in this part of my family. She encouraged me to get treatments for many of my illnesses and she also has her own strong fighter spirits, I love her so much ❤ ❤ ❤

Tusen takk mamma, for at du er her for oss alltid ❤

Daily writing prompt

What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

View all responses

there is no particular place I never want to visit. But I don’t do well on our Norwegian summer heat; only 30°C is too warm for my well-being and health conditions. Being naturally warm even on very cold winter season days with -25°C makes me quite sensitive to very warm summer environments. I do very well with only a true mild sauna experience and I also appreciate our Finnish and our close Kven roots, the culture around these ethnic minority groups. I cannot imagine what the desert environments really feel within my perspective, when the locals there feel too much heat for their well-being, health.

This is an astrology book about the astrological houses in Western astrology. All of the astrology books I own are interesting to read even many times, especially when I need to inspire my true spiritual side and the inner world I carry with me. I have two books from Sue Tompkins and one book from Howard Sasportas being his work writing the book ‘The Twelve Houses’. I have many planets and placements in the 12th house including my Sun and Mercury in conjunction from two different astrological signs; Virgo and Leo. I’m a quiet person in my everyday life and I value being true to my inner world, finding new parts of me within my introspective search.

I love reading different kinds of books from fantasy novels to spiritual/psychodynamic topics and non-fiction as well. And I also enjoy writing, maybe I’ll write something for any person that wishes to learn about voice-hearing and important aspects of Asperger syndrome from my own perspective and experiences.

I’m very grateful for this blog and I thank you all for reading and I hope to ignite the inspiration in people to explore their deep inner passion with mentioning my favourite astrology books and other works.

Daily writing prompt

Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

View all responses

I had a classmate named Dennis, he was a farmer boy and they had horses there. It was in the more rural part of our town, and since my mother didn’t own car I used to be a passager on the bus or some adult bring me to this place.

But my East African origin female friend really bullied this boy a lot, and I wish I had made her stop. Btw he was dyslexic and l one time joined the evil ones just laughing at a song one of the Norwegian ethnicity bullies came up with about this poor boy. It’s never a good idea to bully people and be your best compassionate self instead of this tbh quite abusive treatment.

The reason I joined them was a combination of mania, paranoia, voice-hearing, wanted the feeling of being superior to someone. I was myself bullied significantly for being different with my undiagnosed conditions including Asperger syndrome and long-term psychosis. I was feeling shame around my farmer roots and the youth environment (and the adult culture) had dislike of farmers and toward the people of rival towns in our close region.

I wish I had spoken out against the youth bullying this boy, get the teachers to pay attention to our youth culture and to promote equality in actions, not just words.

I’m truly sorry Dennis for not helping you, and I hope your life is good for you now.

Thank you all for reading ❤

Daily writing prompt

How do you unwind after a demanding day?

View all responses

Having a cup of lovely hot tea, a particular brand of Earl Grey is my favourite. I get cozy sensation from my many wool blankets (including merino wool) and the feeling of being done for the day, being happy and finished with something is one of the best states of mind to be in for me. 

And I reflect on my experiences of the day, it’s so important to really let the mind work through the events and words, sometimes it’s kind of like a connected disconnect in life. Btw I have mental-health conditions affecting my life quite significantly including while on medications.

I feel comfortable in mind and body after some time doing this, especially if I’m suffering pain and then it gets better so I can sleep through the night and wake up with a new perspective.

(Norwegian text, in my native language)

Tusen takk for at dere leser ❤

This is funny in Norway, and I am Sámi so this fits well with the title. And I assume some of my life will be mostly similar to now, but different still.

I’m going to keep researching our ancestry and appreciate our cultural background. I want to know well the languages that were taken from us by Norwegianization/Fornorskning, (forced assimilation policies) and I’m likely getting traditional clothing from my type of ethnicity and also not forget the beauty of it in several meanings.

I intend to grow and healing wounds, to nurture different relationships and support my strong causes and build my own activism efforts.

We need people in our society to see how connected we are with each other and the Earth, and I’m going to make it into a realistic goal of my own lifetime to fight for the underdogs.

thanks for reading, visiting and for listening ❤

Daily writing prompt

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

View all responses

mostly I see myself moving forward with my goal of healing in general, my difficult experiences in perspective different from now. So I really believe I will have grown as a person in several ways and keep evolving this self-compassion. Writing about my experiences of adversity and severe mental illness and being an autistic woman. I can be someones good friend listening deep. I could have a partner that loves me as much as I love them, and you need to learn how to love yourself to really be compassionate with others on deep level.

Note/warning: Very much self-critical of my name and I’m in a very dark mood now. I advice to not read if you feel unstable in your identity.

I have one name I don’t like. I really don’t like it actually, I feel resentment just thinking about it. Maybe it will get better when I get my name ‘fixed’ so I feel good about my name identity. It’s a Norse origin name apparently but it isn’t cool enough like Ingvild and Torunn that are great names of respect. I hate my name with a passion, get rid of the stupid four letter word that I cannot even write properly with my handwriting. I’m very feeling resentment toward even my parents for choose it sorry that’s evil of me to feel, to tell the World. Lost in my mind now, the memories are strong how the bullies made cruel fun of me for having this ‘old aunts name’ (that is different from Torunn a pretty and cool name common in 1950s to 1960s just like my name I hate, this four letter name it’s not a pretty name i hate it)

The point of this is to show what it look like inside someone with self-worth issues around names. I deep within know my name isn’t really ugly or wrong, it’s because I am listening to the past hurts of my child self being bullied by people with common names from early 1990s Norway. I hope your days are good ❤

Thank you all and I do wish I liked the name that I currently despise. Happy Saturday ❤

important part: this is about a lot of different topics so it might seem very not related to question. But I did learn this in my early to late teenage years, it’s a very big part of my life actually still today.

I had mostly non-European origin friends in my youth and we went to same school and same class. My friend from Uganda had extreme ADHD and troubled with a strong tendency to bullying behaviour, especially toward one of our dyslexic classmates. And I had a Kurdish best friend, we had a lot of fun between severe arguments and ignoring each other afterwards.

We had a Norwegian supremacist teacher who hated non-European origin youth like my friends. He also strongly disliked people like me with undiagnosed, untreated severe conditions and importantly my far-Northern roots. I’m of Sámi/Kven origins as well as Norwegian and this teacher was discriminating against us, both my friends and myself he said to other adults the worst racist comments and related misogyny.

In my time taking Sámi language lessons in a nearby little town I remember once being called strange racist slurs, I was so surprised that young boys were shouting to a much older Sámi girl. 

I also experience this in adult life, people judge by appearance what ethnicity you are and one tine we were visiting another town in our county when a local man asked two men there if they came from our town, but they were instead from Porsanger and local man said in essence ‘you look that way, like not from this town, Saami or Finnish rather than us Norwegians’. Strange man, my grandmother and me had conversations after this, what was he thinking about us we were from the largest city here, that he was referring to.

I’m rambling now, but I felt like writing exactly my perspective on this.

Thank you all for listening ❤

Daily writing prompt

What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness?

View all responses

1 first I will mention my passion for tea. This include everything from Earl Grey, Darjeeling, oolong tea to rooibos, ginger, herbal and strawberry tea. I need at least two cups of hot tea every day, and I drink with mindfulness focus on the tea experience and my tea rituals.

2 second I’ll mention is writing on my blogs, I enjoy this a lot and it’s both the writing and the reading, the great online community here as well. My life really is different after doing this since late 2023, I’m more aware of my thoughts and the feedback. I’m thankful for my decisions to start this journey and let it unfold natural.

3 third is my friends and family, I need people just like any other person and they often help me get out of my dark moods when I’m in struggles related to my schizoaffective condition. They help me with a lot of things and I’m grateful forever to them, we connect deeply as well.

4 fourth nature outside our house, the beauty of our wonderful view and our lovely garden in the summer, having some cold drinks and getting tan in the Arctic sunshine. Mountains and forests, sea and the diversity of wildlife right outside our doorstep.

5 fifth my Arctic location and the unique features of living so far North, especially the Midnight sun in summer season. It’s all-day light for over a month, the sun does not set and nighttime is not dark at all. I watch the Northern lights when the winter sky is clear of clouds and there is little air/light pollution here. Our winters are very long and we are used to quite cold temperature often at -25°C without the account for the sometimes strong winds.

So those are my 5 parts of everyday happiness. Thank you all for reading ❤

Note: this is mostly about my relationship with my father as it relates to my life in teenage years.

I didn’t have contact with my father after we left in 1995 due to his addictions and other severe troubles that affected the rest of the household very strongly. But in beginning of 9th grade he made contact with us via advocate/lawyer(?) that he wanted to meet me and we met soon after in a safe supervised setting and spoke together about different topics. But I learn the hard way he was quite unstable and broke promises to share to me important information on his experiences of his biological father and the pictures I wanted to see of him when he was my age.

And he was unfortunately quite manipulative toward me, he tried to make me dislike and distrust my mother along with trying to make me feel very guilty when he was hospitalised for significant injury at his job, I care about his well-being a lot and honestly it was quite cruel to to this manipulative thing toward a 15 year old autistic girl. I hadn’t even got a message so how would I have known this?

But he gave me quite expensive gifts and shared a little information on his biological father and his family. This I’m very grateful for and I know his childhood and youth were extremely hard for him and his family, he was severely bullied and even a victim of racist violent attacks by xenophobic youths who beat him severely with metal chains when he was just 12 years old. His family contacted the police but nothing came of it so they got away with this hate crime.

I love him no matter what and I hope he is doing okay with the poly-drug use and severe alcoholic condition. The school system failed him completely and should face serious effects. There are organisations for adults who were bullied that can help bring the school and other abusive treatments to justice for this horrible things. And I hope also that he gets help for his traumatic memories and the mental-health conditions often related to trauma and adversity.

Thank you for listening and I wish you all a good weekend ❤

Daily writing prompt

Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

View all responses

NOTE: kind of sensitive topics

when I turn 13 years when I got my monthly cycles I needed help because I had chronic enuresis and bedwetting and luckily my mother decided to seek help from general physician to help me with this difficult situation. When we had the appointment I admit I often wet myself and also the fact that my cycles were long lasting and quite heavy. My doctor then prescribed me protective underwear so we didn’t need to spend a lot of money and I really needed this aid to function. So my mother really was saving my social life in several ways even if it felt strange wearing it to school in teenage life, my classmates sometimes noticed that I wore them and bullied me saying they would post photos on nettby but I don’t believe they actually did that.

I have Asperger syndrome and was often bullied in general for my way of being different in several ways; I was of different ethnicity than the tall, blue eyed kids and I came to identify strong with my background and the cultures of Sámi, Kven and Finnish peoples as well as my likely Romani/Reisende roots after finding my deep passion for family research/genealogy. And thanks to my mother I could sleep much better and don’t worry a lot about visible accidents at school.

I want to break the stigma around bedwetting and enuresis as well as about period troubles in youth and I hope to be successfully bring hope to the people, including the teenage girls struggles with these experience in life.

thank you for reading and don’t hesitate to seek help from health-care and support groups. You are worthy as you are ❤

I used to be very anti medication and just thinking I could find another way to feel better. But the reality is that medications help you function much better and it works quickly to calm the worst psychotic symptoms so you can do other activities and feel good/normal in life. So that is on of the most important changes I have made in life, it keeps me alive and be okay most of the time. I’m asking my psych doctor about a different antipsychotic soon because they help me in different stages and the symptoms they work in particular well for.

Thanks for visiting ❤

Currently I drink average of two cups in a day, but my love for tea and my very large variety and amount of them needs at least four cups. So I’m working on it now, there is nothing truly stopping me from practice my healthy habits.

My message tonight; Enjoy sipping the hot tea and having iced tea in summer time ❤

Daily writing prompt

What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

View all responses

any city too big, largest city I’ve been to currently is Oslo and of course that’s our capital city in Norway (I’m Northern Norwegian). Somewhere I don’t know the official language or most of the people there cannot speak English with me. Anywhere too hot/warm; that’s actually the biggest problem of all the examples here. I’m a Northern person who is naturally warm even in really cold (like -25°C outside) winter season weather, my cousin calls me ‘radiator’ so even in our town when we get 30°C in summer I’m just very fatigued and uncomfortable.

but in general all places have some good aspects to them and that’s what really matters.

As I’ve mentioned in other post my cousin is an animal rights/animal welfare activist who loves animals in general and especially cats. At one point for several years she had four cats in the household and two of them were Bengals, they are very beautiful animals and her children like them as well. They are funny ones, right now they have a single cat. It’s a Bengal and my cousin got her first Bengal cat in 2009 I believe it was. I love animals and sometimes I join my cousin visiting the local cat home/place.

I grew up having dogs in home and my mothers dog is so lovely and eccentric even, she sometimes walks outside on her hind legs with her front legs stretch out, so I call her ‘zombie dog’ because of the way it can seem like it with some strange type imagination. I cannot imagine how life would be without her, she is elderly and our family are lucky to have this wonderful dog as friend for over a decade together.

One sad important aspect of keeping any pet in family/household is how to feel grief of losing a pet friend, a family member either due to hard choices, sudden illness or similar type of unexpected death. So be prepared to experience the sorrow as well as great joy and love.

Thanks for reading ❤

I love audio books and listening to audio plays/drama is great also, in the old days in Norwegian radio they made episodes of different kinds of stories known as ‘Radioteatret’ in Norwegian language. We used to listen on CDs to these stories and just be within it with the vivid mental images, often listening before sleeping or while on long road trip travel from Finnmark county to Nordland county for 8 hours. So in this case it’s many different books and plays, I love to use my imagination in this way.

Thank you for visiting, reading and listening ❤

Daily writing prompt

What’s the most fun way to exercise?

View all responses

moving to music I do every day, close my eyes and embrace the feeling in my inner core being. There is no one ‘fasit/answer’ to this exercise, it’s an individual way to move no matter the genres one listens to or types of dance. I might look silly, but I’m so happy moving to the beat

Just Dance, gonna be okay ❤ ❤

I read this book several times and it is interesting thinking about the history and about our current society. I’m on the left in political ideology, it truly matters to me how we choose to live with others. And right now tonight we have a snowstorm here, still not quite spring where I live in the Arctic North. And the book is so worth reading again and again ❤

Daily writing prompt

What book could you read over and over again?

View all responses

Giant spiders and the Basilisk, ghosts (like mentioned earlier Myrtle Warren), Gilderoy Lockheart and Tom Riddle. And so much more, I have been reading it several times over in my lifetime and maybe I’ll read through it again soon?

I enjoy the Harry Potter universe a lot and every book is interesting in unique ways, I like audio books a lot and this makes it easy both getting vivid mental images as well as hearing someone else reading the story with emotional skill and passion.

thanks for listening ❤

Daily writing prompt

What’s the most fun way to exercise?

View all responses

as I have sometimes said on my different blogs I used to climb as after school activity and it’s really quite fun in part because it tests you in several ways more than you would believe before trying. I also really enjoy hiking in Mountain regions and I don’t have a fear of heights so these activities are suited for me. I love nature so much and I could not live somewhere without a stunning view to the sea, the sky and the Mountains and forests around us. Walking is part of my everyday outdoor life, we don’t own a car and I also am epileptic so it’s no driving for me.

Enjoy your favourite exercise no matter what it is, we all have strenghts that we can use to grow.

It would be either or both the characters Luna Lovegood and Myrtle Warren from Harry Potter series. Luna is one of a kind and eccentric, very good-natured as well and I truly admire her persona and deep values. She remind me of my brighter days and being authentic no matter what others believe. Myrtle is like me when I’m in a much darker mood, I’m extremely sensitive at times and we share history of being a target of frequent bullying. I also have a big soft spot for troubled male youth, just like Myrtle.

And these characters even feature in my life experiences with my friends when we were acting to be different people from the Harry Potter universe. I wore glasses so I was often also acting as Harry with our group and I also liked being the villain like for example Draco Malfoy. And in our former house we had a room under the stairs like the Dursleys had where Harry used to sleep in the beginning of first book.

Thank you for reading and enjoy the fantastic in real life, and no limits on the imagination ❤

Daily writing prompt

What is your favorite restaurant?

View all responses

in our previous town we always loved to be at the local Peppes Pizza to eat and talk together. It had a nice view to the sea port(?) and the food was good as well. Sadly they closed it after we moved to other town, but they still have a local restaurant right close to it; it’s called Qa and they are known for the food being great and of course the wonderful view.

in my current location I like the local Chinese restaurant a lot, and we have two takeout shops very close to where we live. I must mention we often order from Uno cafe a lot, their lactose-free oreo shake is wonderful and I always enjoy it ❤

So I have several favourites in our Northern Norwegian environment, when I lived in Nordland we very often went to cafe and spoke together over some food.

thank you for visiting my blog ❤

Daily writing prompt

Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

View all responses

I don’t know my father and I rarely speak with him, but last year he and his mother agreed to take MyHeritage DNA-tests to help my research and know our genetic roots better in several ways. I was kind of surprised he agreed because he had a lot of experience with racist plus xenophobic bullying and education adversity in the 1970s and early 80s. I’ve mentioned before on blogs with his addictions and more about his very difficult school years, and his past affected me even when not knowing how or why we are so alike in many ways. So it’s about our connection more than anything else.

Thank you for reading this ❤

Note: more thoughts on what I wrote about in previous post regarding this type of pet

We actually did quite well despite our lack of experience taking care of this kind of animal. They are also very cute and funny animals in my memory of them, I think they are good pets.

Here is a picture I found (not mine)

Note: this is partly about Corona virus pandemic and some thoughts about psychiatry in relation to the pandemic. Kind of off-topic, but it’s related to Covid-19 also. Health care was the main things that affected my life in particular during pandemic.

As I said in earlier post my Swedish psychiatric doctor could not travel to Norway for his usual office appointments for over a year. But we had call appointments instead and we spoke once every month through this year of big changes.

I really honestly miss him a lot, my current psychiatrist has not spoken with me for several months and my mental health is suffering so it’s not good. They also are very different doctors in general, he was less authoritarian and more compassionate with my perspective. But I truly hope my current psychiatric doctor will be there now when I need help with the treatments I need to function. And I like having a good relationship with my doctors and health-care workers, so I try and see the positive in every person.

Thank you for reading ❤

In 2003 our family got two degu, a type of South American rodent. They are certainly good for people who know rodent care very well, which we unfortunately didn’t. They had little ones unexpected in early 2004 and it was both joy and sorrow in the years we had them in our house.

My cousin at one point had 4 cats, two of them Bengals and she is a true cat person and animal welfare activist volunteer with Dyrebeskyttelsen to save animals suffering from difficulties and taking care of them, finding new homes. Her cats were/are wonderful pets for their household and very beautiful animals. I like cats and respect their true nature as animals but I’m also really very much a dog person. My mother has an elderly little dog that we love so much, unique and so much a part of our family.

Every animal needs and deserves good conditions for their particular needs and their true nature must be of deep value to the humans living with them in everyday life. Animals are living beings just like us.

This is about my life and of course the genealogy is a big part of my service to others in my offline and online official life.

I do some work for so-called free, I’m not rich by Norwegian standards but I’m  okay with my situation at this time. But what I do is I help my grandmother/other older relatives with phone apps and my ongoing genealogical research interpretation and the DNA-testing information. I’ve been researching our families ancestry since year 2007 at age 14 so I know some of my work well and I embrace genetic genealogy as a way of finding out more about our roots and connection with relatives. There are other activities I do that don’t give me extra money but I love it so much to have something to offer other people that I also enjoy doing for my own mental state and well-being. That’s what it’s about at right now.

Thank you for reading this blog ❤

Note: Very astrology related topics and of course it’s about how I could be described in one word. So Leo influenced truly and double Virgo and a Lunar Sagittarian, etc/osv/aso

The people around me tend to see either my Leo side or my Virgo Rising, but when I tell them I’m a double Virgo it’s often a surprise to them. I’m also a 12th house Sun and importantly I have Mercury and Chiron in Leo close conjunction aspects with them and my Sun and I have Moon in Sagittarius in 4th house. And a fun aspect of astrology is how in-depth and fascinating to think deep about what it really is.

And everyone is special even if they born on the same date and the details truly matter a lot in astrology, something interesting for my strong Virgo perspective 😂❤️👌

Thank you for reading ❤ ❤