answer to dailyprompt-2062
lessons I wish I had learned earlier in life?
I used to hide myself a lot in earlier life. I was hiding bullying and abuse from adults and someone I will not specific here in age or relationship. I had to grow up struggles with my identity and wounded inside from these adverse life experiences and I developed severe mental illness in late childhood to early teenage years, hearing voices and strong paranoid delusions connected with this, my identity a big part of it. I almost forgot now to mention my enuresis conditions as part of my issues, it was very harsh and affected my self-worth deeply. I got some relief after being prescribed aid for the conditions but some of the mean girls bullied me for using it at school, threatened to post pictures of me on social media visibly wearing it. No way I caved to that! Sometimes I was so vividly dreaming of revenge and justice being carried out I was sad when I woke up.
(AI avatars are based heavily on my teenage self, they look like me that I was then. Can you tell I’m of Sámi and Northern Finnish ancestry/roots?)
so back to the lessons I wish I had learning earlier in life I would not hide so much my pain and my truth inside. Yes, and now I’m not silent or excessive shame over being different. Thank goodness.
so be proud of your inner strenght and authentic personality. It’s what you carry through life.
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