What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?
I should just post what comes to mind when I write and be genuine about who I am. Often people appreciate honest expressions more than we believe they are, I’m trying to just be me and not the person I want others to see me as.
Btw, Noisecontrollers with Give You Bassline
(I love it, a great hardstyle genre track)
the Billy Talent track came to mind, as I said I think in lyrics and this is an example of that. If I could let go of something for the sake of harmony it would be strong fear of rejection and critical looks. It has big impact on my life, I don’t say things I would myself be upset by if they said it to me. But people are different and complex, so something that I’m okay with could upset them a lot. It’s also related topics to my mental illness and autism spectrum.
it comes from my experiences and how my thoughts are in direction in terms of my moods, themes and the psychosis. The bullying doesn’t stop once you graduate(? It means possibly to leave after being done with the 10th grade in school?) from 10th grade education, it goes on in your head long long after that at least for me. My voice-hearing remind me I’m a wounded person and sensitive to shame and self-hatred.
but honestly there is nothing or very little to lose in this way, I only need to avoid letting fear of rejection rule my life and ruin the inner world of magical joys.
I need to believe in myself and my ability to effectively deal with a challenge from being human beings in communication, from different family cultures and diverse ethnic backgrounds.
i love the music and my mind drawn inspiration from the lyrics and overall mood in the sound and yes, the harmony.
have a very wonderful morning ❤
answer to dailyprompt-1992
Note: Might be trigger topics for someone with similar life experiences
As I’ve described before I was a bullied child and teenager and with undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and schizoaffective, I was different in ethnicity from the other kids and especially my short height was the issue. I had long-term issues in nocturnal enuresis and wet myself at school. Some things happen I cannot talk about here now. I really think, ruminate and pine over things too much sometimes. So what could I let go of? My strong tendency to focus on something I cannot change and also must live with no matter what happens. I need to let go of the shame. My origins must be respected honestly and fully through. I’m actually far stronger than I believe I am.
btw I’m not drinking, but I’m obsessive about having enough alcohol-containing cider tomorrow for a good session outside in our garden. But the forecast says cloudy all day. The weather here is absolutely wonderful tonight I was even outside sitting with my mother and her dog and drinking lactose-free iced coffee. I love life in summer time ❤
Thank you for listening to my story ❤
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