Psychosis

What are you passionate about?

I want peace on Earth and peace of mind. My mind is going to pieces and I fear the future so strong everyone know who i am sorry rambling words I’m not crazy but I want to say this now

Psychosis is waking extremely painful nightmare to me my experiences of schizoaffective is this ambivalent and self-hatred self-harm I want you to like me bor hate why I don’t really know you why do I need likes to feel normal

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Astrology and creative work

What are you passionate about?

Some background info: I’m very passionate about astrology and the realm of dreams. I’m a 12th house Sun along with Mercury and Chiron. 4th house Moon and also 4th house Pluto in Scorpio. 6th house Saturn in Aquarius, the Uranus/Neptune conjunction in 5th house. I’m mostly Leo and Virgo from 12th house placements.

I’m very passionate about dreams and creative work related to dreams and the collective consciousness as well. My 4th house influence is of the personal subconscious, often family and roots within this part of life. I withdraw from outside world quite often and I’m sometimes too intense for other peoples comfort, I have schizoaffective disorder and Asperger syndrome as well.

I enjoy learning about my family roots and genetics also, I’ve taken DNA-tests to see the deep level connection of every person I’m related to. It’s very fascinating to me. I’m of Sámi origins significantly, live in Finnmark county but grow up in Northern parts of Nordland county mostly.

I don’t know how long text it will be, I’ll just write til it feels right. I like creative activities like writing, performing a play or fantasy drama films we did in youth school assignments/work. I’m autistic and I like being sometimes creative.

I love music of many types; mostly electronic dance music like drum&bass or metal genres like heavy metal or black metal. I love the bands like Nirvana and early Pearl Jam music. I’m soon 32 years old this year. I don’t know more what to write about now. It’s my mind in words in some ways and I like blogging a lot.

Thanks for the visit ❤

I’m really passionate

I really feel passion for genealogy and the roots of my family members and my self. I have a drive to understand the past to shape my current life, the darkness of our roots can be illuminated by introspective work and communication with others. I have history in my family of xenophobia toward our ethnic minority origins, even a actual hate crime toward one of my close relatives. Even if we are mostly white/European we look different enough to spot for abuse from racist youth. My Pluto in Scorpio is exactly opposite my Taurus Midheaven, I know dark hidden riches in my roots. One of my ancestors died from attack from an actual bear. I’m diagnosed with severe mental illness and went eight years untreated from psychosis, I have early onset schizoaffective/schizophrenia. That is another topics I’m passionate about, mental-health and psychiatric patient human rights and well-being.

I truly like this blog in my life and I hope you will appreciate something about my writing.