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Being kind of border psychotic I’m just going to admit this I talk to myself, or talking with my inner core being. It’s kind of strange that it’s view as crazy in schizophrenia patients but normal for the so-called sane persons.

But to get to the answer, the point; I want an honest and deep conversation with my inner core, in Darkness and in Light both. The little brunette short eight year old girl being bullied by tall Nordic looking kids, the Aspie who felt lost inside from the grip of strong paranoid delusions.

I’m not going to hide my diagnoses from the readers and I’m self aware significantly. I’m also drinking today, plenty cans of cider. Love this life no matter what they tell you ❤

Being a psychiatric patient is a real reason to seek help from therapy. I’m right now struggle with my memories and border psychosis and I need help, the thing keeping me from getting it is how I don’t like talking about my fears and vulnerable state with offline people even (maybe especially) health-care workers. It’s easier open up here despite not always safe tbh it scares me thinking about this fact of life.

And I also know from own experiences that Aspergian people are regard as more difficult to treat with psychotherapy, and this is another reason I don’t want to talk in-depth about these issues. I’m trying to help my mind to heal without really healing the inner Darkness of my difficult times in childhood/youth years.

But another way to look at it is I’m still opening up to people and this might actually help me long-term in healing on deep level within.

Note: psychiatry related and possibly unusual answer to question.

I want to have deep conversations with the shadow side of my mind, not ignore the Light that comes from communication with the unknown aspects of the inner world. If you know me from before it’s clear that I’m very familiar with both the inner Darkness of my mental illness and our Arctic location being in total darkness during December month as well as my home environment being much darker than average due to several reasons to do with my conditions and traits. One is my PHC/TAC and migraines plus other neurological conditions.

I also am very interested in how other minds work and what other people feel about their inner world and place in society. I’m Aspergian/autistic and I’m not afraid of most people, after getting treatments for my psychiatric conditions I feel less intensity of the schizoaffective symptoms and other conditions. Honest I’m still somewhat ill, not cured; but I feel and act quite different from when I’m severely psychotic and strong manic depressive.

Thanks for listening ❤ ❤

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I would like to have a deep conversation with someone similar to me, like maybe a fellow Aspergian/Aspie/AS patient with different life experiences we could discuss and contemplate deeply in the settings of our common diagnosis, our shared experiences and also how we are unique and part of something greater than just ourselves in isolation.

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well, not everyone on Earth exactly but my family members and close friends. I need to tell them of my new official names it’s so strange how fast it happened after the fact I sent in the things. I need new passport, new ID and I honestly need an oxazepam (benzo) as well.

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I’m looking forward to spend more time with my friend I’ve known now for ten years, she is a psychiatric nurse and we got along very well from beginning she is the close relation to friendships outside of family members. We are somewhat apart in generations, her gen X versus me Millenial, she is so good-natured and funny as well as very interesting speaking with. I’m so happy to know her ❤