Ambivalent, not never

What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

I’m afraid of visiting my main youth home town in Nordland county, and it’s of many reasons I haven’t been there since moving further North in 2009. I want to see the beautiful environment I remember with joy in my heart, the pure nature being amazing to experience. But I’m also afraid of ruin my nostalgic love for this wonderful place when it reminds me of some very difficult and moments of pitch black Darkness within, meeting my old classmates that were bullying me through these years and our Norwegian supremacist teacher who disliked me strongly for my issues and ethnicity of my friends, of my own ethnic minority origins that I was proud of because that no one could take away from me. And also the town could not be like in 2009 for obvious reasons plus I’m nearly 16 years older now. I loved it so much and I hated it while living in mental agony.

I feel quite ambivalent with this mixed relationship with my youth experience and I’m likely never going back, to keep my good memories from being darker than I thought.

Thank you for reading this ❤

Heat, too much

Daily writing prompt
What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

there is no particular place I never want to visit. But I don’t do well on our Norwegian summer heat; only 30°C is too warm for my well-being and health conditions. Being naturally warm even on very cold winter season days with -25°C makes me quite sensitive to very warm summer environments. I do very well with only a true mild sauna experience and I also appreciate our Finnish and our close Kven roots, the culture around these ethnic minority groups. I cannot imagine what the desert environments really feel within my perspective, when the locals there feel too much heat for their well-being, health.

anywhere I’m not

Daily writing prompt
What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

any city too big, largest city I’ve been to currently is Oslo and of course that’s our capital city in Norway (I’m Northern Norwegian). Somewhere I don’t know the official language or most of the people there cannot speak English with me. Anywhere too hot/warm; that’s actually the biggest problem of all the examples here. I’m a Northern person who is naturally warm even in really cold (like -25°C outside) winter season weather, my cousin calls me ‘radiator’ so even in our town when we get 30°C in summer I’m just very fatigued and uncomfortable.

but in general all places have some good aspects to them and that’s what really matters.