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This is one of my fears, meeting the same-aged peers and possibly my Norwegian supremacist teacher who disliked me and my foreign non-European origin friends. To get me to do this reunion I need plenty of oxazepam and someone I know and trust coming along with me. I don’t live in the same region as my former classmates and teachers and I’m not active on usual social media sites/apps so I’m quite an outsider just like I was back then. Maybe it will happen one day, and I will be stronger within me if I dare to try.

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I really want to go to one large event/several day festival but my conditions make it difficult to predict my mood and mental state. I also am not used to lots of young party lovers taking different substances along with heavy drinking, I’m the kind of person who drinks alone listening to music not too loud to disturb my neighbors. I’m wondering why I want to go to festival now, honestly. Teenage dreams of times past?

But I might actually manage a one night music event, it’s my big goal to get there in the not too distant future ❤

If I ever want to get more formal education I must confront my fear of schools and school systems and generally my fear of teenagers in general. This is a major part of my life and it’s often the reason I write about my school years and my struggles there. I don’t know really how others could truly convince me without me actually wanting to put in the efforts it needs. So those are some of my thoughts this evening.

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Daily writing prompt

What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it?

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stepping out in society feels strange to put it mildly, I do it a couple of times a week now. In my late teens I was housebound for over six months due to my untreated and undiagnosed schizoaffective condition and my severe paranoid delusions played big part in this. But in my late 20s I began more withdrawal from people and I don’t socialise almost any currently. I guess to get me out of my house and out of my dark inner world when I spend time in public I need some help from friends, family and of course health-care workers. In addition I believe I need continuing treatments with medications and to optimise these drugs positive effects.

those are some of my thoughts now around this, thanks for reading ❤