Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
He is 5 years older than me and he is a very creative type of person, especially music his favourite genres are progressive metal and heavy metal. one time he woke me up while I fell asleep in a chair, because he really cared about me being comfortable and safe. I believe he was only 13 years old at the time btw.
I also remember we were driving around town listening to Metallica albums in his car, we enjoy spending time talking and listening around music and his two girls are so wonderful and similar to him in look and personality. I love my brother ❤
Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
This is very honest about my youth, so it can be kind of strange. I had long-term issues with every night bedwetting and I wet myself at school also. The bullying of course didn’t help my mental-health at all and I was really thinking of ending the pain in some way, I ended up self-harming, beating myself hard with glass/plastic bottles of Coca-Cola to release emotions and for punishment. Btw I should never have done this, I believe in self-worth and kindness.
But my mother helped me in the end, because I came of age and needed more protection for the average of 9 days every month. So I saw our general physician to get access to the help I needed and this really I believe saved me from the worst parts even though it was strange and kind of embarrassing.
My mother was always there for me, even when I was severely psychotic and depressive. I have schizoaffective condition and got sick in 2005 at age 12. I have an autism spectrum condition as well, undiagnosed before 2010/2011 at age 17. One of the things I’m very grateful for is that she made me seek help while also trying hard to get me to school every day, I needed the social interaction and learning later in life. So my mother is awesome.
Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
In my late childhood I was beginning to show signs of my future schizoaffective disorder and one of these signs was my overly active imagination and believe in the power of the mind. Btw I love that track by Headhunterz, the Qlimax anthem of 2007. Okay so yes, I remember being convinced that I could have special powers or there being true mind readers among us.
I remember seeing my distant ancestors both when dreaming and/or awake. It’s something special about ancestors and the feelings of being loved, a deep bond with someone you haven’t met but still lives on within your genetics and family-history.
Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
One of the very few times I’ve gone to this kind of event was so special, it was all about the music and the people coming together to celebrate this important part of life. I believe we were around 10 to 15 people at this location, it was late summer in one of the towns I’ve lived in during youth years. I really liked the atmosphere there, with the compassionate nature of the people and the music was everything to us.
It was a mix of genres playing on the sound system including hardstyle, dubstep, drum&bass and several other EDM/electronic dance music genres. I was wearing my high heel New Rock boots because I like feeling like a badass rave girl.
I just had some small amount of alcohol and energy drinks, no other recreational substances along. We were not that many people there, but it’s still a crowd and I was lucky to know several of the people there from before.
I really wish I could still rave, but I’m so happy to have the memories still.
Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?
I believe it was 1999 or 2000, my mother was on a several week trip to Russia and my maternal grandmother was taking care of me when she was away. When she came back I was really very emotional and I had missed her so much I could not speak in words. Btw, my mother used to translate Russian language writing and she has had good use of her language skills now with the war bringing youths to Norway.
I love my family members and I know they love me back as well, from the core being ❤
this experience was special to me for many reasons, I didn’t expect how strong the culture affects us even through harsh Norwegianization/other forced assimilation policies for centuries. I was with my maternal grandmother in Børselv in Finnmark county, visiting a Kven family we are not known to be closely related to. I had never experienced being so welcomed in this way by strangers or even by my Norwegian friends families, it was like true connection with our roots. We watched television soccer game and had conversations about the reason we were visiting; getting my Kven costume made. And I realised how Finnish and Kven culture is different from Norwegian and this was profound, I had thought of myself as Norwegian in my childhood when I had foreign friends and our home language being Norwegian. But now I knew at 16 years old how it goes deep, our ancestors live within us always no matter what the State and rest of society does to wipe out our subtle but significant differences of culture.
This changed my perspective on myself and our family, and it made a positive inpact on me in several ways. It was both fun and very deep experience.
And I want to thank you for visiting my blog, I hope it was interesting reading ❤
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