Yeah, my past

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

Honestly I live in the past, when I had untreated conditions and I was forced to socialise with same-aged people who were not nice to me. But I felt alive. I felt the emotional pain with my entire being and I just had to deal with it in my own ways. I spend my time alone in a dark room drinking and listening to music, which is not really that sad. At least if it wasn’t so often and if I had some good friends along there. But still I keep going and I will never give up.

Thank you for reading ❤

Remember it

Daily writing prompt
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

it’s probably clear from my writing where my thinking is most often directed, the past is where I write from frequently. A part of it is the feeling that the future doesn’t exist yet and I cannot remember it.

Another aspect are my passions for astrology and genealogy, I know astrology is related to our future as well but I’m often using it to understand past thoughts and behaviour. So it’s clear I’m into history in general, including DNA-testing.

And I do try and be here in the now as much as possible, but things don’t make sense to me without knowing the past. Thanks for reading ❤