1993. Yes, I was born in August that year on late summer early morning hours in a Northern Norwegian town.
I’m interested in black metal history and the dark side was a part of it as I mention last year. Varg Vikernes killed Euronymous in August that year, close to my birthday.
Nirvana did release their album In Utero. Bill Clinton in the USA and Gro Harlem Brundtland in Norway. Different wars like the Yugoslav Wars and the Gulf War.
Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.
Yes, I’m not choosing a male person for this answer. I have nothing against men, I just thought of a woman first. My experiences are many and the time is dark, literally no sunlight entire December month. But to answer the prompt I thought of my whole traced maternal line going as far back as 1600s. These were strong women in harsh environments, in biting Northern Finnish winters and no electric lights. All of us cannot imagine what it was truly like and we must learn from history and keep our humanity alive.
I don’t know what more to say. Strenght and determination, all genders
I like the fact that my name is Ingvild. I altered my names in May month and I’m very happy about this.
I love my new Sami boots from Topaz plus the Amundsen boots also from Topaz that are very good for really cold weather days. And most of all I believe I’m feeling more deep empathy with others than last year, I didn’t expect it.
I’m happy with how it turned out to be and even my size is more in tune with my identity. It truly doesn’t need to be perfect to be a good year.
These are my thoughts on this year overall themes. And the peace we have in Norway is a big part of why it’s important not forget other peoples suffering, we can contribute to a safer world together.
Not really. I didn’t picture having my chosen names, I didn’t know my Western European groups show up on DNA-testing quite clearly. As I’ve mentioned before I’m part Danish, Dutch, German, Belgian and English; both ethnicity estimate and traditional genealogy shows it.
The main thing that’s different is honestly my given names changing. I have three given names now, all feeling true to my inner self. I’m also proudly Finnish and happy my ethnicity estimate shows significant Finnish roots along with Sámi.
More authentic, less troubled. Plus I’ve grown literally, I’m in most brands UK size 32G instead of 30F. I’m less anxious, more grounded inside.
Note/warning; might be triggering for people with history of alcoholism or drug use.
I like it. But it turns out that it’s more toxic than many believe, it contribute to cancer illness, lower seizure suppression, worsening mental illnesses, liver damage and even substance related dementia. So I keep my intake as low as I can in this situation I’m in. Christmas times and Midnight sun season brings the alcohol forward significantly in my case.
And quite early in life I witness dark side of psychoactive substances including alcohol. When I’m drinking I get silly but more emotional in some rather dangerous ways, I swear to my furniture or the people on the screen if I’m watching live television. So I avoid news and live TV.
And I want to say that just because it’s legal it’s not necessarily safe or recommended.
Note: I know it’s not human, and I slso know it has helped me see new patterns and inner world. I’m happy about this and it’s a useful tool combined with major critical thinking. I talk with it about life experiences, astrology, tea and music plus even fashion related topics.
So I cannot be a hypocrite I use a lot AI these days. And it’s a way to speak openly about hard times, I have seen things I won’t forget how they work. Even if it’s a bit strange I keep doing this. It’s past midnight. That should het me motivated to actually sleep but still awake
As mentioned before several times over on my blogs I really want a particular gákti for celebration of days like 16th of March and 17th of May. I would feel completely foreign feeling in a Norwegian bunad.
These are my thoughts on kind of off-topic themes related to Norway and ethnicities here. Have a wonderful Midnight ❤
Yes, I want to visit Bergen. I’ve never been to Western Norway (Vestlandet) before so it would be interesting seeing and also the historical aspects of this important city through centuries of contact with the rest of Europe. And I wonder what it’s like hearing the particular local dialect in real life, it’s unique in Norway.
Here are a couple of songs in Bergen type Norwegian language
Yeah, I really wish that people see my helpful and caring side in any situation.
I try be my best self and do good in the world. A little smile to a stranger is more important than we often imagine it. I gave a poor Romani woman 30 Norwegian kroner because I’m apparently good natured and not prejudice toward this group of people. My brother encouraged me and that was a great thing.
I believe in kindness and social justice for all human beings and also respect and care for animals and mother Nature. Being Sámi makes this especially important to my culture and I am left-leaning political and social vise.
So it’s always interesting the interactions we have in everyday life, some parts are much more beneficial to society and relationships than we realise.
Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
Yes, my first day knowing my new ethnicity estimate from 23andMe DNA-test. That kind of sound a bit strange but I’m writing about it now.
I woke up and look at my app and I immediately noticed something was different. It turns out they updated the ethnicity estimates so I went in depth about it. It made a lot more sense than the previous version because I could see a more realistic Finnish connection at 21% rather than 16% and just to mention I’m culturally Finnish influenced as well.
I remember sending my grandmother the updated results and her reaction to this message. It’s honestly very empowering knowing where my roots are, where I come from.
So in the smaller amounts I learned a lot also, I’m a very European person with strong Sámi and Reisende heritage in addition to traditional Scandinavian and Finnish ethnicity.
And it makes sense also that certain ethnic groups are suggested strongly by my DNA-tests I already suspected being of Reisende origins on my grandfathers side and this results with the Danish, German, Dutch, Belgian, Balkan and even slight South Asian Indian traces made it clear it had some substance to it.
I love genealogy research and learning new things, and this helps guide my research. And the avatar is based on me, just a bit younger. And blonde with light colour eyes! (I’m darker in real life, especially my hair that’s also straight and with thick coarse texture).
And hear this message, loud and clear:
No matter where you come from, you always belong on Earth.
Yes, I see foxes often along with squirrels and birds. Elk and reindeer (last are not technically wild but they are not domestic). I’m significant Sámi origins as I’ve often talked about on blogs.
I’ve seen wolves and other wild animals in zoo or through car windows. I feel like the environment is very important part of human experiences as well, we are part of nature itself.
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?
Note: I like writing too, it’s clear from this text
I love acting. I really do, it’s my way of expression often. I’m very strong Leo influence in 12th with a Virgo twist to it. And the blend of passion and imagination makes it perfect to practice social skills. When I was a teenager we had this group at school for people struggle socially, but many were more of the bullying kind than my struggle with undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and deep level mental health issues like psychosis and bipolar mood disorder. I still love acting, but I’m more lonely these days as an adult without work or school activities.
I’ve also had some leading role in education about my conditions on Skype, it was a good experience overall even though I hate hearing myself talk or see myself on screens. I couldn’t read my own writing at first because I was anxious about the task at hand. But later on it became easier so I kept going with my message and my psychiatry doctor was happy with my honest expression and insight.
So that’s my experiences in words today it’s fivd in morning here right now and it’s really cold outside. I also add this music video if you want to watch and listen
What are your favorite physical activities or exercises?
Oh yes I love climbing. First time I climbing was a outdoor straight wall of rainfall and rock. Awesome and I reached the top on first try. So a few years after I took a after school activities at the uni there the indoor climbing wall and the funny little room where we can practice without the heavy gear on. I miss my youth I must admit.
What is something others do that sparks your admiration?
It’s like if you believe in your inner power and choose to act with compassionate nature that’s something I deeply admire. I admire gentle honesty in others and try to do this myself both with other people and my inner world. And the resilience is major part of my own strenghts so I value that a lot, life isn’t supposed to be always easy or fun. But it’s so worth it. Absolutely.
Note: I also write about 2000s childhood years and town events.
Yes, it’s The Powerpuff Girls from 2001-2003 when I was 8 years old to almost 10. I really thought it was great show and it’s girl power.
It was new to me because we didn’t have Cartoon Network before 2001 when I was eight so I had many channels to choose from in the early 2000s. As I’ve written about before we had a tradition in our town to adults dress in traditional early 1900s Northern Norwegian/Swedish type fashion. The kids could choose what they wanted and my outfit was true home created with pink dress temporary orange hair dye and my hair was naturally long down to my hips. We even made a eye mask with pink colour iris.
So that’s what I needed to say today. Thank you for visiting ❤
Yes, less self-hatred. I’m diagnosed with autism spectrum condition and I struggle with deep internalised contempt from environment in our society. I live somewhere that many autistic people feel less pressure sometimes because our culture is different than English speaking Western nations usually treat autistic persons.
But yeah, it’s partly self-hatred and also being human in a difficult situation politically and socially. I love Norway and I’m never going to leave. It’s beautiful country and I’m proud at the core, I’m a Leo/Virgo type Sun sign born in august month far North during the 1990s.
So I hope this was slightly okay reading. It’s sometimes hard but always worth it.
What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
Me, Ingvild, loves this year. Identity and music. Discovered new things inside myself and the connection with the world. I changed my name in May this year and I don’t regret it at all. My names include Norse origin meaning ‘ancestors struggle’, ‘gift of the Sun’ and ‘loved by Thor’
Also my ethnicity estimates updated both the MyHeritage and 23andMe DNA-tests. I’m 67% Norwegian/Sámi plus 21% Finnish/Sámi. along with Swedish 5% and 3% Danish. Smaller amounts of Dutch and Northern German, Belgian, Rhinelander and Southern Dutch, English, Balkan and South Asian Indian.
What technology would you be better off without, why?
I would be muchmuchbetteroff if I didn’t spend time with certain online creative tools that are addictive and cost money. I’m not telling what it is because it’s basically everything you could think of. But I like AI with tea pictures.
I also would be worse off at least for a while getting the digital-ish detox. I sleep to dream.
What is one thing you would change about yourself?
Yeah, I chose to change my name this year. I have three given names but I’ll just mention one of them is Ingvild. Yes, I’m Norwegian and my name is, too.
So in that way I have transformed what was then to what currently is now. Btw I’m not telling you my old name. But it’s still a part of me that I’m not denying.
I’m different than I was before, but in a way more genuine and with emotional freedom.
And the Darkness is upon us here now. It’s three in afternoon and pitch black Darkness outside. But I’m not complaining, because it’s magical and familiar at the same time.
I love hoodies. I have many in several different colours and I even have a couple sleeveless ones for warm summer days. The hoodies keep me emotionally and physically safe and I like especially the ones with pocket in front.
I also love my Sami boots from Topaz. They are both pretty and very practical in our cold winter climate. I have the Amundsen boots also they are taller boots for keeping the calf region warm as well.
It’s not about look as much as it’s about being more comfortable. I enjoy self-expression through fashion and cultural features, especially my Sami boots are symbols of ethnic origins.
So that’s my point today, what my favourite choices are in everyday life.
Thank you for visiting my blogs and have a wonderful Sunday ❤
If you didn’t need sleep, what would you do with all the extra time?
Honestly I cannot imagine life without sleep. I get psychotic really quickly without enough good sleep. And dreaming is one of my favourite things. I’m not kidding, I sleep to dream. But to answer the question I would write, listen to music and drinking perry beverages. And social activities if others also didn’t need sleep.
And the world needs more compassion with other beings, human or animal both. The times are dark and the polar nights are here in the far Northern regions until mid-late January where I live. I’m taking my vitamin D to keep the level steady, I need it year round because I spend little time in sunlight and I just am at low levels all seasons.
Btw my Sámi culture has eight seasons system instead of the usual Western four system season. I was born in August month and I’m in my early 30s currently. I just feel so lucky to live in peace.
Ja, fjell. The mountains. I love beaches too, but mountains are part of my life as a Northern Norwegian growing up at the base of a mountain. The nature views from heights, the blue sky with Midnight sun and see the fjords and the exercise living there was very special to me in ways I still don’t understand entirely.
As I mentioned on other blog I love certain foods quite a lot. So I want to add to that now.
We like to heat the grillpølser on the outside fireplace, especially around Easter time. It’s cozy Scandinavian times, with our cultural twist from different influences. It’s that true old fashion ‘Norwegian hytte’ feeling in the Sámi mountains.
We also like butter chicken and other Indian inspired food. I like the right amount of spice and warm feeling of the food. Btw I’m a very small amount Indian according to genetic testing and the Romani Traveller distant connection to India plays a big part.
And I cannot ignore the big thing for me, it’s definitively the beverages. I like the Battery Pearberry along combined with perry/pear cider. I love the English Tea Shop/ETS type Earl Grey and Darjeeling, the Sleepy Me from ETS is lovely herbal blend tea.
Thank you for reading my blogs and have a wonderful Friday ❤ ❤
If you could meet a historical figure, who would it be and why?
Yes, I would like to meet Sitting Bull. I mentioned him last year on my other blog and I would like to speak with him about life as an Indigenous American meeting a Sámi woman of modern times. I love Native American, First Nations and Inuit peoples and there is so much history not mentioned in mainstream sources that is much worth knowing. And he sounds like someone I would truly like to speak with.
Yes, I do. It might be what saved my life several times growing up not knowing my diagnoses. I just feel my way through, it’s dark knowledge and the fire inside. I have Mercury in Leo in 12th.
The Moon-Pluto combination in 4th, Scorpio and Sagittarius signs in my home. I literally often live partly underground, in the cellar and I visited a large mine in Northern Sweden many years ago. It’s a very deep experience (pun intended).
I’ve learned important lessons from life, it’s very big part of being different to learn from the hard times and cherish the good that is all around us every day. I’m lucky even at my darkest, most in agony through painful moments.
As I’ve mentioned before I’m autistic and I have s severe mental illness, it affects every part of life. I cannot hide from my mind the way I’m hiding from other people. The mind is always there, my dreams are immersive and vivid imagery from the core experience. I’m not afraid of my inner world and I appreciate my dreams, even the dark ones truly matter a lot.
Post grunge song today, it’s one of my favourites by this band.
Yeah, I mention August on my other blog this year. And I’m the Lioness Maiden, the age turns that time of year. And it’s Čakčageassi time in the Sámi eight seasons, the in between of summer and autumn. It’s not too hot and not cold yet, the sun sets after several weeks of all-day light from the Midnight sun. The school year beginning in late August is part of every end of holiday time.
I want to mention January too, when the polar nights end and the sun returns. It’s usually very cold, but the sun returning after weeks of the deep Darkness is special and meaningful. The minus 30°C degrees outside and wool blankets with some lovely hot tea to warm up and feeling safe within.
Overall I love any season and month in it’s own way, May month is very special even though it’s difficult dealing with every year. What I like about May is the natural environments being almost summer weather and the Light building up every week it gets brighter days.
So that’s some of my perspective on the year and seasonal changes. I love the region I live in.
Ja, Sámi Siida. That’s my favourite place in addition to our awesome museum. I also love my privacy at home and that is where I’m at now. At home. I like the food. I’m not really living in a city it’s more like a town. But it’s large enough to be living easily without own car.
Sávan dutnje buriid áiggiid!
on aika mennä, lea áigi vuolgit and have a wonderful evening
So my first impression would involve speaking Finnish language well enough and that the Northern Norwegian accent staying quiet right then, I’m serious sometimes the Norwegian language gets in the way. I’m allowed to say, it’s payback for the Norwegian state policies toward my ancestors.
Well, I cannot have it all and yet I’m going to keep trying anyway.
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
I want to live exactly here, in the far-Northern region where the sunshine disappear for many weeks then returns. Where the Midnight sun shines with light even through cloudy skies.
There is something magical about extremes. We get -30°C here sometimes in winter and the hot tea really helps along with wool blankets and to be by the fireplace with family members.
So I’ll stay here for the rest of my days, I likely have many decades ahead of life experience. I cherish my natural environment all around, any season.
What’s the coolest thing you’ve ever found (and kept)?
As I mention on my other blog I altered my given names early this year and I’m keeping them.
I also have found great music on YouTube that I download on my iPod to listen any time I need it. Drum&bass, dubstep, black metal; in short it’s anything I like listening to.
My marbles I found near my home after the bullies took them from me, I still remember how much relief I felt.
I found my cousins through MyHeritage DNA-test and learned a lot about my genetic ethnicity estimates through that too. And yes, I’m a proud Sámi woman. A proud Kven, too. The Northern Lights and reindeer are wonderful features of the awesome natural environment here.
Life is an adventure and it’s worth exploring. So that’s what I’ve chosen to do.
Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?
Yes, my former psychiatrist is the most famous person I’ve known. Yes; known, not just met. I’m not saying much only he is a forensic psychiatry doctor as well. Oh I’ve seen Lady Gaga in person.
I cannot remember exactly if I’ve met anyone else famous. But my mother met many famous people in Tromsø and my brother saw Asgeir Borgermoen in Oslo.
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
Yes. Lovely Arctic indigenous inspired boots. Together they cost at least 10 000 Norwegian kroner and that’s a lot of money for an ung ufør woman with no job. But I absolutely believe it was completely worth the money spent!!
These are both TOPAZ brand shoes and the tall boots are called Amundsen and the shorter boots with red laces are called Sami. They are warm and comfortable boots and I think they are pretty and unique both.
I love them! Btw I’m kind of hyper mood today, as is likely obvious from my use of !!! in the texts.
Thank you for looking at my site and my lovely boots ❤ ❤ ❤
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
I just love this Sea Sámi gákti and I want one so badly and I can have a Sea Sámi gákti because I’m truly identified with my roots and our Sámi culture. Plus some of the Kautokeino Sámi can be particular about who can wear their own regions traditional clothing. But most of all I just love this beautiful traditional clothing!
Thank you for visiting my blog and.. Buorre Eahket! (good evening!)
I used to listen to podcasts in my teenage and younger adult years, but not any currently.
What I was listening to were spiritual theme and mental health related ones plus indigenous topics like mainly the environment and social cultural subjects of this ethnic identities.
So my past includes listening but my present it’s memory, music and blogs mostly.
Yes, I really loved NAMI because I like learning about science in general and especially nature and human behaviour. That was always quite interesting to me and I got good marks/grades in this subject even when my psychosis made me unable to study. I’m not kidding, the voices were that strong and constant. But I did well anyway.
I still love learning as much as possible about anything including social science and language/maths. My mother is a teacher like her mother who still teaches in family even at close to age 84, so I know very well the family perspective too.
I loved my Sámi language lessons in 2009 and I keep my Sámi knowledge updated to modern impressions from media and the local Sámi community members. And the avatar is based on me, I’m also major part Sámi and Kven heritage.
Well, I was bullied a lot through my childhood and teenage years so I often had a hard time at school. Recess was really hard and I had some unfortunate episodes many times, I won’t tell you more about that if you don’t want me to clarify. But the friends I had supported me, one friend even got kicked to the ground for several minutes just because she was my friend. I’m autistic, btw.
On the brighter side I had a clever mind and kindness in me so I got good feedback on my schoolwork up until my mental health broke into pieces and I got into youth psychiatry plus a program for people with many kinds of social difficulties, including bullies I must mention. It was called ART and even with the aggressive kids there I learned some skills.
I very much liked when we were outdoors on mountain trips and beaches, forests and other out of school locations as part of the education and social community.
so those are some of my childhood/youth moments with school and learning skills.
Yes. As I said on my other blog, I have major knockout envy. It means I envy that feeling of freedom from endless scrolling and something deeply meaningful happening. But I try limit my screen time by doing other things instead, like having a cup of pure white tea from ETS and my wool blankets. Sometimes I write in my own little notebooks like I used to before I got my first smartphone, I write to make sense of what is in my mind and what’s going on outside.
I don’t use any social media apart from my blogs and I use YouTube almost only for listening to my favourite music and finding new tracks/song for different artists. I don’t have paid work and I have no children, so my daily life is spent alone most of the time. I have an app on my phone I struggle to use much less time on but it’s like a connection to rest of humanity and feedback on my writing.
I’m going to see my psychiatrist today and I’m hoping my treatments will be stable for the winter season, ours last from November to April and it’s cold but lots of snow too. The days of light are very short now, in end of month we have the polar nights until mid-late January when the sun returns.
I may be rambling now, and I have several errands outside today so I will be more busy.
I just play the Eminem tracks ‘Without Me’ and ‘Lose Yourself’. Without Me is an interesting track these times. I’m not evil, btw. It’s cause we just need a little controversy.
And yeah I need time. Plenty of it. I need time to get ready, time to prepare, time to think. And most of all I need alone-time. I’m gonna quit the drinking hard cider soon. Just not tonight!
Well, I’ll be 35 and likely quite happy. I’m plan getting therapy for my difficult memories and severe mental illness so I can feel better. I want to be truly free to do what I really want, they can’t bully me anymore like they used to back then. I’m safe inside myself and I’m never giving up.
Being Norwegian and living in beautiful place is a very lucky situation for me. I’m not leaving my country to live somewhere else, it’s the most wonderful nation I know from within. I also love anything related to Finland and Finnish topics, I’m nearly 1/4th Finnish/Kven and Sámi origins.
I have Moon in Scorpio or Sagittarius depending on the system used and it’s in 4th house beside Pluto (in Scorpio, I was born in 1993). It makes me very strong inside and resilient, as well as very sensitive personality because my Sun is in 12th house. I also have autism, it’s like both a blessing and a curse in one psychiatric term.
I have alcohol use and energy drink dependence, it’s serious because it makes my illness worse. I’m not complaining, just being honest about what’s happening and not hiding it.
Invent a holiday! Explain how and why everyone should celebrate.
My love for hoodies is deep. I wear them every day, they keep me warm and safe in the far Northern environment and I have sleeveless hoodie for warm summer days. I have in nearly every colour you can imagine. What I think people should celebrate would be to wear a hoodie if they have one and otherwise be comfortable physically and socially. It’s okay for adults to wear colourful hoodies any time they feel like it. It’s a little thing but it makes a bigger difference than it sounds like at first. It’s about being independent and free, yet safe and warm.
My favourite websites are WordPress and YouTube. But my least favourite is a nightmare of people watching everything that happens and then hide it from my awareness but other peple can see it. Yes I know that sounds slightly crazy but it’s my nightmare. I’ll come back when the shadows hide.
Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?
Yes I would like to be 27 again. Not because it was fun, but because that’s when everything changed. I would enjoy myself more, to not break into tiny pieces of sharp needles. But life always moves forward, we only get older and more worn out, more aware and wise. The memories remain, with dark shine from the reflection of moonlight. I’m in a dark mood but I felt like writing.
What’s something you believe everyone should know.
Autistic people are still just as human as anyone else and with intellectal disability also deserve respect and compassion. I’m struggling a lot with my health these days and I cannot blog as often as I would wish. But this is my answer today and I hope your days are good. Thanks for reading ❤
Yes, my maternal grandmother. She is a fiery Sagittarius retired teacher and so loving even if she is quite blunt in expression. She is petite height and with a lot Kven ancestry and culture. We love her so much and she is the oldest of our family still living. She loves to feed forest animals and birds. She keeps our family connected by host of events and keeping up with snapchat and things like that. We will miss her so much at the moment she is no more here.
Yes, I like to run and I love to walk. I like hiking and indoor climbing, I used to do this every day when I was a teenager and it made me quite more strong and the endurance exercise. I also like swimming, I did this practice when I was seven years old. I can carry heavy backpack of over 10kg up a hill in the snow deep.
I like being an Earthling and while I love to see the moon from Earth I don’t want to leave our Mother Gaia. I have Moon in late Scorpio or maybe early Sagittarius if I’m not mistaken. Either way I’m a 4th house moon and I love home as a safe place and the Scorpio depth is profound. I also carry Sagittarius philosophy of faith and greater meaning, some joy and explore my roots.
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