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Healthy food, good shelter, health and wellness. These are part of a good life. In addition I believe meaningful activities and a sense of being a part of something greater than yourself is a big aspect of a good life. Being politically active and aware of your social potential are very important to my view point. Also the different forms of genuine spirituality and psychological aspects of life really play a major role in the well-being of yourself and others.

Thanks for listening ❤

I’m just going to say I’m currently kind of slightly psychotic and unstable mood so what I should do is to disconnect with something calm and still rewarding interesting activity. I’m not spending these hours online writing about dark topics or rambling thoughts about my own life and I will be good and kind to myself and online people. So I do something different to make my mind calmer some way.

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If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

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The title is from a Headhunterz track ‘Just say my Name’, I think it’s from year 2008. It’s hardstyle genre electronic dance music and I really like a lot of what he made in my listening time, I quit paying attention to any of the new music when I turn 23 years or so. I like mostly old music by any producer of this particular genre. I’m really talkative right now, I know.

This is about my current names;

I have three new old Norse origin given names. The first of them is Torunn which I chose as the first because it made sense putting it as first. I’m really a private person and I don’t want my offline life invaded by anyone, also truly I do not intrude upon strangers in any part of life. I respect privacy and freedom from any related force used in this part of living. Sorry I go so deep into this topic here. I value privacy and pride, fairness and true compassion also.

About the fantasy of new alternative names;

My new names would likely be Norse too, like for example Ingeborg, Borghild or Ingrid as first name and possibly a Finnish/Sámi/Kven last name like Aikio, Eira, Hætta, Wirkola or Virtanen. I could also go with Arctander if I wanted my name extremely Norwegian in meaning. It is literally north + man.

Thank you for reading my post ❤

Yes, I am a Leo and also an anarchist. I’m very far-left politically, and I also believe it is nature in practice to see it like this on the deeper level behind the many layers of propaganda.

In addition to my strong Leo influence I’m very Virgo in astrology, my Rising sign and maybe my Sun sign is very early Virgo or very late Leo. My name is Torunn. I live in Northern Norway.

I’m good with writing different kinds of topics from my Aspergian way of thinking/perception. I have good insight into my conditions. I’m kind of decent at creative writing and I have a vivid imagination and sometimes quite profoundly insightful dreams. I’m a 12th house Sun, 12th house is the realm of dreams and of nightmares.

Thank you for reading my mind 😂❤️

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Who do you spend the most time with?

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well, most often by myself in my room in the Darkness. But my family comes next and my mental-health workers together with other patients once a week. I like being social sometimes, no matter who we are it’s important interacting with others not too seldom. Btw I’m diagnosed with schizoaffective condition and Asperger syndrome so this has an influence on my social life even at home with close family members.

Thank you for visiting ❤

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If humans had taglines, what would yours be?

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note; I’ve used some of them on my blogs, I hope that’s okay ❤

Ingvild stays up all day, all night

They got me again, Synnøve admits

It was dark outside, and Torunn knows the Darkness very well

Thank you for reading ❤

I’m sorry that i cannot remember the name of the books always. I was strongly psychotic without any official diagnosis or treatments with antipsychotics. But I was able to read and I loved it, being inside the novels and the story as it was in my head with my different experiences.

The Lighthouse by PD James; I was reading this book in my youth at 16 years old. I brought it to school and my favourite teacher asked me what I was reading. Jeg lånte den av bestemor og det var interessant lesing.

Another book was very scary reading and it’s well known, they made a film about the story that I was watching a few years ago. It was about a French man with extremely strong scent detection ability who later met women and killed them to make perfume.

And I must again mention Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets by JK Rowling. It was my favourite book in childhood and youth, I’ll write about it every time someone asking me about impact of books. I remember that I could relate with Harry, Ginny and especially Myrtle Warren/Moaning Myrtle.

Thank you very much for listening ❤

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Describe your dream chocolate bar.

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white chocolate with vanilla, with the patterns like Ritter Sport has. I don’t know how to describe it in English. So here is a text in Norwegian language;

Hvit sjokolade med vanilje og vanlige sjokolade-ruter som Ritter Sport og andre sjokolader, jeg antar at det er vanlig med hvit sjokolade også. Den er i små mengder og ellers nesten akkurat som den min mor bruker å kjøpe. Og selvfølgelig med veldig god smak og med tilfredsstillende kvalitet.

Quite off-topic text about me being lactose sensitive/intolerant and beverages.

I know it’s not the same ingredients used to make chocolate. I’m lactose sensitive/intolerant mostly due to my strong non-Norwegian ethnicity (of Sámi and Kven, btw). But I really enjoy it in small amounts and sometimes I take lactase pills to handle the possible lactose in it just like milk chocolate which I cannot eat much of without lactase supplements. Btw I need lactose-free form of milkshake, I really like the lactose-free oreo shake from local cafe. And the other variety of isKaffe with chocolate taste rather than regular isKaffe/iced coffee and anything other made with regular milk, I’m very grateful for these lactose-free variants that I get to enjoy.

thanks for visiting ❤

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What is your favorite season of year? Why?

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this Geassi and Čakčageassi are two of the eight seasons of Sámi culture and I was born somewhere between Geassi/summer and Čakčageassi/autumn summer. I’m quite strongly Leo and Virgo in astrology. We are having the beginning og Midnight sun now, the sun os above the horizon for over a month so no sunset. I like the green environment and our natural features of animals living here.

You can get tan from spending time outside, I get less sun burns and easy tan comparison to most people. Since most of our year is winter we appreciate a lot the summer time, 10 degrees celsius is very comfortable when the sunshine being round noon. The best temperature for me is from 16 degree and 20 degree celsius.

flower trees and the sea of our wonderful view on top of hill(?), the pine forests and berry delights. Spend time outside in our garden sit on garden chair with some cold beverages. I like late summer a lot ❤

Hope your days are good ❤

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What fears have you overcome and how?

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tbh this still bothers me in everyday life but I’m seeing improvement from how it used to affect me. I am not useless and in fact no person anywhere is useless, at least not in inner truths. I’m good enough and worthy of living.

How I overcome it is some insight partly from researching quite in-depth astrology related to my chart. I also learned from people I’ve met in life that made me see the Light within every person and meaningful insight in several parts of life.

And last, but not least I’ve gotten medical treatments for my severe mental illness and bring awareness of my autism spectrum condition that I got diagnosed with at age 17.

and my blogs are very helpful in seeing good in others, and partly to see my inner core being in the same light.

thank you all for reading my blog ❤

I enjoy a bottle of iced tea, especially the isTe brand you can find basically in every local store in Norway no matter if in Oslo or Kirkenes on border with North Western Russia. I love isTe like the white tea and the regular peach flavour one.

I have very fond memories of a cafe that had the best iced tea I’ve had in my time drinking tea. And the cafe had a wonderful view to outside world as well.

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What’s the one luxury you can’t live without?

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Note: I’ve said it before about my passion for these, but I need to say it’s a luxury that’s hard to imagine being without for me.

I love to wear hoodies every day. I have a large collection of them, my favourites in particular are definitively a luxury to me. Colourful and comfortable, and I even have a couple sleeveless hoodies for warm summer days. I enjoy them a lot and I have since my youth had many good times wearing hoodies in the rainfall and the snow we live with here.

And they were especially useful for my TTM worsening condition in 2022. It saved my social well-being and when my hair grew enough they contribute to helping me along with my SSRI. Btw that’s also one of them; my different psychiatric medications and anticonvulsants really help me function and stay well.

The luxuries don’t need to be fancy; it’s how useful and appreciated they are that matters most to me.

Thank you for visiting ❤

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What’s the one luxury you can’t live without?

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The music and my smartphone plus I’m getting my beverages habits return already now. It is possible to limit the degree of use and thinking twice before buying some or too many. It’s so expensive in Norway at least, I used to drink four big cans every day and I needed them in the morning waking up. Okay, so those are luxuries I cannot imagine without at least in reach of my town. I can manage without alcohol most of the year, including most of the summer if I’m thinking sense and not very psychotic state of being. I honestly need a more sedating antipsychotic to treat my schizoaffective condition, I don’t like using two different ones. Back to the quetiapine, even max dosage if my doctors think it needs to work. I hope and will work for it ❤

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Do you remember your favorite book from childhood?

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I remember Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets by JK Rowling and several other books. But this book stands out in significance to my childhood years and we also watch the movie version of it many times. It’s interesting also to me from the diary that Ginny Weasly was writing interact with Tom Riddle, the future Voldemort. I wrote a lot in my journal and being on chat websites. Like Harry Potter who heard things from the walls and later in the series heard voices relates to my own conditions of auditory hallucinations and voice-hearing. Myrtle Warren or known as Moaning Myrtle I can deeply relate with from my own experiences of being bullied and being very sensitive about topics related to that, feeling that people were against me always.

So that’s my main favourite book from childhood world and fantasy, I had a very vivid imagination that I used for creative activities like story telling, talking with adults family or other like later mental-health workers and to play with my often slightly younger friends.

Thank you so much for reading ❤

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If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

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i have three given names (that chose for myself) around just over a week ago. I kept my last name/surname the same as before.

If I could change my last name it would be from my deep level family research and the cultures of my ancestors carry the names. I have a direct maternal line ancestor with last name Hætta, it’s from a place just Beyond the border to Finland. It is of Sámi origins. As I’ve mentioned before I like the name Niemi as well, Finnish roots and so beautiful sounding. I considered getting my middle name from my mother, but it was long enough to feel a little bit too long even without a middle name from mother.

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Describe one simple thing you do that brings joy to your life.

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I need to express my mind in words, and reach out to the World Wide Web through my blogs. It’s a necessary good activity and it helps me feel useful and worth reading to others as well. I don’t write to get a large following but I like the person reading to get something interesting reading maybe.

other examples kind off-topic

Apart from this activity I talk with my close family and my main good friend either on the phone or in person, have some Earl Grey tea in most of the year or drink isTe on warmer summer days. I listen to music every day for up to five hours when I feel like it’s a good thing, I used to listen constantly when I had very severe manic depressive psychosis.

I’m an actress in some ways, I live in a role I need to play and that changes sometimes so I’m forced to be more flexible. I have Asperger syndrome moderate case and I’m surprising good at real life acting and true drama plays both. I like being someone else for a certain time/phase and I kind of forget who I really am sometimes. So I have a slightly creative side in different parts of life, I spend a lot of time writing my blogs at different times of day.

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What quality do you value most in a friend?

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I’m not a English language native speaker. And I’m little tipsy from drinking. Sorry. I hope it’s still okay reading

I like friendships where we get the other person like they understand how you work and getting to know what they like in general, like what good conversations are for the other friend. I like deep level thoughts from different perspectives from just mine, we interact from the inner core being and that’s why it feels very special.

I don’t have many friends but I love people at the core and I’m quite friendly with strangers and people I know casually. I’m not saying it from my perspective, others have told me in their honest words. I had some best friends in childhood and youth thank goodness ❤

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List three books that have had an impact on you. Why?

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I remember answer this last year on other blog. I’m trying be writing about some different books now that have had impact on my life and my thoughts on why.

entire Harry Potter series; because it was a part of my youth when the books were released and we waited for next book. I think it made an impact because it’s so interesting how magic and human nature are a part of the experience. I also have deep reasons to relate to some of the characters like mentioned Harry Potter, Luna Lovegood and Myrtle Warren. I could write a lot more about why.

a book I cannot remember the name, but it was very interesting reading it in my teenage years again after last time in childhood years. It was related to some type of boarding school and hypnosis, what struck me in teenage years was the ending of the narrative with a girl with an abusive father from memories that’s what it was.

And my third is obvious from last year. But I had to mention some more; Hellemyrsfolket by Amalie Skram. It’s deep and emotional to a much more intense way than other fiction very realistic and moving. If you read them be prepared for emotions strong and deep thoughts on life and meaning. In addition I’m Norwegian and really very interested in genealogy research and history.

Those are some books that have had important impact on my life and view of this world through narrative. Thanks for reading ❤

Being kind of border psychotic I’m just going to admit this I talk to myself, or talking with my inner core being. It’s kind of strange that it’s view as crazy in schizophrenia patients but normal for the so-called sane persons.

But to get to the answer, the point; I want an honest and deep conversation with my inner core, in Darkness and in Light both. The little brunette short eight year old girl being bullied by tall Nordic looking kids, the Aspie who felt lost inside from the grip of strong paranoid delusions.

I’m not going to hide my diagnoses from the readers and I’m self aware significantly. I’m also drinking today, plenty cans of cider. Love this life no matter what they tell you ❤

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What fears have you overcome and how?

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I have a couple neurological conditions that can contribute strong to accidents. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and Chiari malformation type 1, a condition with many possible symptoms/signs. I had long-term nocturnal enuresis even as a teenage girl. In addition I’m diagnosed with autism spectrum and severe mental illness.

When I was a child I felt such deep shame I avoided school to escape the bullying and adversity in form of teachers who hated me. I could not focus on my work due to psychosis, anxiety and my undiagnosed Asperger making me very sensitive to the sensory aspects; especially the noise in the hallway outside classroom and the fire alarm was just helvettas/fucking painful to hear for me.

and I had often accident at school, before we got prescribed aid from pharmacy place I knew it would be hell inside my head. Classmates making cruel fun of my issues. But really when I finally got this help I could actually sleep well at night and also through the nine days of the womanhood curse, I truly needed it and the shame was much less intense inside. I must mention I’m epileptic and have Chiari type 1, and the protection helps to sleep well at night.

so in my case I mostly overcome my fears with different treatments of difficult times in youth and childhood years. Don’t be afraid of seeking help no matter the shame related to the conditions, it’s often a great relief.

thank you all for listening ❤

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If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

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I would consider the names Ingeborg or Borghild, both are Norse origin names to be related the words ‘vern/protection’ and ‘hildr/struggle’ and the god Yngvi/Freyr through ‘Ing’. I’m a proud member of this group of having Norse mythology origin names and it’s a large part of our family cultures.

In last names I consider Niemi, Arctander and Hætta as possible last name, but since I recently change my official name but kept my last name the same it’s an imagination thing.

Thank you all for reading my blog ❤

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What jobs have you had?

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well, that’s honestly my only and current job I’ve had. I went to school for 10 years and it wasn’t easy, mostly due to my autism spectrum condition and the severe mental illness I developed in my late childhood years. From 10 to 13 my issues became visible literally I had a bald spot on my head due to TTM a type of compulsive disorder. I also had a bulimia like state for many years and schizoaffective of course mentioned before here. I was a target of moderate bullying and experience other adversity in general. My father is a poly-drug user and an alcoholic, I don’t know him really well but we speak very rarely on phone. I’m sorry this goes on and on about my history, but this is my experiences with life. We had an assignments in school where I chose to work at the local library for a couple of days, I was psychotic but I wanted to know work environment and the library is a quiet place. It was great insight into how a library truly works behind the scenes. I’m thankful for this experience of life and I’m kind of proud I did this work despite my illness untreated and not diagnosed yet.

thank you for listening ❤

I look at the World through the perspective of everything being part of the core, we are all part of the unity of our universal energy. In practice this means I can relate to atheist and Christians in similar ways, the atheist can have deep values that is equal to organized religion and spiritual ways of belief in this life. I value our natural environments a lot.

In my own life I go to funerals and weddings at Christian church and my best friends in youth were most often either Muslim or Christian faith. I’ve written about our family history in religion and spirituality, it might be of interest to read this if it ignite insight or contemplation.

So that’s something about me and my practice in terms of religion. I hope you find your Light within you.

Thank you for visiting ❤

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If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

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I just a week ago changed my name, it’s three first/given names of Norse origin and I’m so happy for this. My new names include Ingvild, Torunn and Synnøve.

if it was my last name/surname I would choose the Finnish origin name Niemi or the Norwegian origin name Arctander. I’m very interested in genealogy and we have many last names including for example the Saami origins last names like Hætta, Gaup and Eira.

so I’ve already chosen my new name and I like that. Thank you for reading ❤

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What jobs have you had?

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as I’ve written about before I don’t have regular paid work and never have. So I’m writing about my full time job of being mentally ill and my deep passion for life.

I’ve been chronically psychotic since 2005 at age 12 years old and I went many years untreated and undiagnosed. This has shaped my character in various ways, I know what it’s like feeling the inner emotional chaos of this condition.

i got on medication in December 2013 and I’m still on medication for my conditions. There is a thing in Norwegian society/working environment that closes doors for many who may strongly want a regular job but the cultures are twisted by a idealised image of social skills and interactions. I’ve written about a young man who was fully able to work through education and other qualities, but since he had AS/Asperger they didn’t employ him.

I do plenty of things outside of traditional work/Jobs. Some of them include our local Kven group and weekly trip with a psychiatry related group spend time in local natural environments and speak with each other about different topics Finnmark natives like to discuss around a campfire. I’m also a member of our close and extended family cultures, I’m so thankful for my great family ❤

so I have a full time job in many ways, despite the lack of directly related pay.

have a wonderful time living ❤

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Do you practice religion?

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my roots are deep in religion, very strong conservative Lutheran Christian culture of far-Southern Norway. My grandfather was part of this in his youth by family, but he disliked having this outside mainstream label, it was hard times for him and his brothers in the community of their faith.

on my grandmothers side were different type of Christian tradition roots in Sámi culture, healing powers inherited from past generations and these are real aspects of our family history in Northern ways.

in my own life I’m connected with religion loosely through tradition and general faith in life. Many Norwegian people are not involved with a particular faith but our spirituality is a real part of society. I had an atheist confirmation in 2008, you get the celebration elements just as strong and the true ‘rite of passage’ in some ways very similar to Christian confirmation.

I believe in the good-natured Spirit as I’ve said earlier, it is deep within me to be alone with my inner life in focus. Introspective and passionate about doing good in the World, especially for the many underdogs and downtrodden among us.

I think it’s a part of my political themes as well, I’m interested in deep level actions for all people human rights and care for the forest environment and natural habitat of animals. I’m an anarchist and also on the autism spectrum, I see the world there outside through eyes and ears as well as with the inner core being.

so I do practice religion in simple ways. Thanks for reading and believe in yourself, you know the truth deep within you.

Off-topic slightly

I remember the beginning of Internett. I remember being outside playing and explore my local environment alone or with friends and family members. I recall my grandmothers farm and all the collies they had. The forests and mountains and the fjords of my different places growing up.

And those good memories are priceless and truly prescious to experience, including today with my digital life being so much a part of my current life.

But during these years there was also a lot of adversity and difficulties in life, I will not lie about it in the form of denial of pain. It was worse than I know right now, in part because I don’t remember several of my school years experiences for long term memories.

And I will say it clearly: I am here now thanks to others love and my love for them. My writing is a good friend in dark times and also in the brighter days.

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How do you know when it’s time to unplug? What do you do to make it happen?

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when I begin feeling exhausted by the activities I know I need time to do something else, like the few times I get tired of listening to the music on my iPod I choose to do something quite different like just texting a friend or drinking something cold I enjoy if I want later to listen again. Alcohol, energy drinks and music mix well together in my opinion at least it is so.

and the tired feeling is in common to every experience of having too much impressions of something I enjoy when I’m not in that intensity exhausted and it works to help me cope with life that I set limits on some activities when I feel it change from a positive experience to burden or annoying. (Very long sentence, I know)

English isn’t my native language and it can sometimes show in my writing, so I will apologize for any errors or some difficulty to understand what I meant by the words.

Thank you all for reading ❤

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Do you remember life before the internet?

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I was born during early 90s in Northern Norway and I cannot remember Internet before around age 7. And for many years the Internet was not a big part of my life, I spent my time being outside in natural environments for hours on end. I liked this way of being young, it didn’t take away my emotional life and my curious nature was strong. Once I was a teenager the Internet had gotten more interesting especially after YouTube became big. So I spent more time in front of a screen, and right now I’m most of the day watching my little device and not spend it with other people.

so I remember life before the Internet and also life before it got big part of everyday living. I need less screen time and I’m working on it now.

thanks for reading ❤

Norwegian language text

Jeg skrev dette på norsk fordi jeg må øve på å snakke om det på morsmålet og ikke skyve det fra meg så det ikke går innpå meg så mye. Men her er noe av det jeg mener folk flest ikke forstår.

To av tingene er mobbing og psykiske lidelser. Det er dette jeg skriver om akkurat nå, fra min egen erfaring og perspektiv.

Mobbingen var for det meste moderat i mitt tilfelle, jeg hadde stort sett en venn tilgjengelig for støtte og for å ha noe å se frem til på skolen. Men likevel har det påvirket meg betydelig, jeg husker ikke hva som egentlig skjedde alltid. Forresten har jeg Asperger syndrom så det var en del av det, fikk denne diagnosen/tilstanden offisielt da jeg var 17 år. Jeg har alvorlig psykisk lidelse i form av schizoaffektiv lidelse og hadde ulike typer tilstander relatert til dem.

Jeg vet ikke hvor lang denne teksten blir til slutt, bare skriver det jeg føler er viktig akkurat nå. Jeg liker ikke å snakke om det. Jeg unngår temaet i samtaler med folk enten det er familien, venner eller (spesielt) helsepersonell. Så noen ganger er denne bloggen nyttig å beskrive hvordan jeg hadde det da og hvordan jeg har kommet hit jeg er for øyeblikket. Akkurat nå for tiden er jeg grensepsykotisk (border psychosis) og grubler mye over livet mitt. Tiden går fort og jeg lever et tilbaketrukket liv, jeg håper inderlig at jeg klarer å være mer sosial med venner og familie nå. Jeg er i gang med små tiltak for å tilbringe tid med andre mennesker i større grad. Så det er bra.

Takk for at dere leser, og jeg håper dere har en god mandag videre ❤

It’s one of my lucky traits to have a good memory for names, birthdays and the details in our recent conversations. It’s a very useful strenght in daily living. People like being seen for who they are, that someone cares about their unique qualities.

As I mention on my other blog I believe I’m good at writing in my particular style of expressions. I share my world with the online community I’m involved, especially on my blogs I share a lot of thoughts and music videos.

I’m naturally good at learning new languages, especially I’ve had education in Finnish and North Saami and I listen outside of the lessons to hear the way the native speakers expressions and cultural features. Some media I’ve found very useful in this way include watching Ođđasat, the news related to Sámi topics and other shows of different kinds. I remember a youth program from 2009/2010 that really helps people like me to learn about Saami sense of humor.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

Being a psychiatric patient is a real reason to seek help from therapy. I’m right now struggle with my memories and border psychosis and I need help, the thing keeping me from getting it is how I don’t like talking about my fears and vulnerable state with offline people even (maybe especially) health-care workers. It’s easier open up here despite not always safe tbh it scares me thinking about this fact of life.

And I also know from own experiences that Aspergian people are regard as more difficult to treat with psychotherapy, and this is another reason I don’t want to talk in-depth about these issues. I’m trying to help my mind to heal without really healing the inner Darkness of my difficult times in childhood/youth years.

But another way to look at it is I’m still opening up to people and this might actually help me long-term in healing on deep level within.

Oh, I love the black jeans of any kind and I have at least three different of them in my current basic clothing collection. They are perfect for me and have been since my early teen years during mid-late 2000s fashion, I wore them to school especially. They also helped me emotionally and hide the necessary protective things quite well from the watchful eyes of other people, including at school. (I’ve written about the events at school described on earlier posts on my blog).

Sometimes the mean girl tormentors/other type bullies noticed it and made threats to post photos of me wearing the things on a particular early type social media that was part of the teen culture at the time. I don’t think they actually did post them however. And I’m just much more thankful for the aid than the fear of them occationally notice it.

I’m sorry about this kind of off-topic subjects to this question, sometimes I remember things and feel like writing about it. I’m autistic, btw

I’m very lucky with living in a safe country, Norway in my opinion is a beautiful place and I live in the Arctic North region; we have the sun above the horizon for over a month in summer season and it’s a useful feature sometimes even when it can affect sleep. I’m happy it’s now soon summer time and our nice holiday of Midsummer (Sankthans) in late June. Midnight sun ❤

Thank you for reading my blog and I hope your days are good ❤

I enjoy an iced tea right now, it’s isTe which is a Norwegian type of beverages that you can find in any local store in all of Norway. I also very loved the particular iced tea in a cafe in one of my previous home towns in the 2000s.

Tea is an important part of everyday life for me, I have a large tea collection in my living room in a bookshelf type placement. I need a bookshelf to keep my tea in good order and find the unique type easily by sight. Hot tea really helps during the cold weather months here in Arctic North region, down to -30 degrees celsius at some days.

But the feeling of having it all is to love life as it is when the basic needs are met and to aim for keeping this feeling alive, it happens to be a lot easier than I used to believe in earlier times. I’m nearly 32 years old btw. I’ve written about this before and I truly am of this opinion that life is good at the core, I’ve experienced some quite significant adversity in childhood and youth. But it’s always good to be thankful of what’s good in life currently, I feel blessed to be alive even with my severe mental-health conditions and the Asperger syndrome diagnosis at my late teenage years.

Thank you everyone for listening ❤

Note: psychiatry related and possibly unusual answer to question.

I want to have deep conversations with the shadow side of my mind, not ignore the Light that comes from communication with the unknown aspects of the inner world. If you know me from before it’s clear that I’m very familiar with both the inner Darkness of my mental illness and our Arctic location being in total darkness during December month as well as my home environment being much darker than average due to several reasons to do with my conditions and traits. One is my PHC/TAC and migraines plus other neurological conditions.

I also am very interested in how other minds work and what other people feel about their inner world and place in society. I’m Aspergian/autistic and I’m not afraid of most people, after getting treatments for my psychiatric conditions I feel less intensity of the schizoaffective symptoms and other conditions. Honest I’m still somewhat ill, not cured; but I feel and act quite different from when I’m severely psychotic and strong manic depressive.

Thanks for listening ❤ ❤

I’ve recently altered my offline official name to feel more in harmony with my inner feeling, I am a woman and I chose to have three given names and leave my last name/surname unaltered. So at this moment I mostly feel free and happy with taking this risk and doing what I felt was right. It was very easy changes, fill out a small online form with safe log in and other features of Norwegian systems. I did this a couple of days ago and have told several people of my new names, it’s interesting as well for me due to my blogs and writing about these topics several times before this event. Everything got more intense and unexpected reactions to my earlier posts about my history. Btw one of my names is Torunn and it’s of Norse origin meaning ‘loved by Thor’ which happens to be a close male relatives name and our family has strong tradition of Norse origin given names. I’m from Northern Norway and of mixed culture like many others here; but with more strong far-Southern Scandinavian history from regions like Agder, Rogaland county in Norway and Scania in Sweden as well as the far-Northern ethnicities like the indigenous Sámi people and strongly Kven/Finnish groups native to the region.

Thank you all for reading my blogs ❤

The good thing about this improvement is that I’m already in the process of realisere it right now, so it’s just a question of effort to maintain good habits 😊👌

I’m going on outdoor events at least weekly and that also I’m more conscious of my screen time.

Daily writing prompt

Who would you like to talk to soon?

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I would like to have a deep conversation with someone similar to me, like maybe a fellow Aspergian/Aspie/AS patient with different life experiences we could discuss and contemplate deeply in the settings of our common diagnosis, our shared experiences and also how we are unique and part of something greater than just ourselves in isolation.

It’s my identity and the items expressions of my views and experiences in life.

As an example, I have a fashion variant of a powerful symbol of interest to many people. I’m openly far-left anarchist and I don’t hide my political ideology on my blogs. It’s dark green in colour and in cotton fabric, I wore it frequently in my teenage years and it was an item of pride and compassion shown together a beautiful piece of fashion with deep meaning to me. It’s for the environment, our planet Earth. Human rights for all people. My passion for life.