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answer to dailyprompt-2000

what bothers me and why;

I’m not comfortable seeing reflection of my own. It just feels completely wrong inside, I don’t think a lot about my appearance when I interact with others. But when I must see my self in a mirror I really feel uneasy and even guilty. Why am I feeling guilty then? Self-hatred isn’t that good for anything. Doesn’t help when I remember my youth difficulties with my identity and the bullying I was experience then. The words used toward pretty girls from Finnmark county online is a perfect example of the xenophobic views in society. They say to them things like ‘you are so pretty.. for being from Finnmark’. I don’t think they realise what they really implicitly saying. We are as group of many different ethnicities here for centuries, thousand years maybe. So it’s clearly ethnicity motivated abuse disguise as rude compliments.

so that’s some things that bothers and upsets me. Mirror Mirror fuck it all

(Btw, we swear more here in my county, at like in the general society)

Note: I get to the point eventually.

Yes, I enjoy a drinking session and yet I don’t ever want to drink again. I really mean it. Oh, the cold cider is so intoxicating and lovely. I’m Norwegian.

That the answer would be both in different ways. I’m a lot seeking security within me even through dark times. And the inner world is an adventure if you begin to observe it with mindful state and creative expression. I’m autistic and strongly introspective by type, so the safe place is inside my own world.

The adventure has several features that are important to consider. To face the fear with courage and the Darkness of life to heal wounds I carry from life experiences. As an example of the difficult times I struggled with school system and the bullying, I believe it is opportunity to make this a part of my inner strenght even more truly powerful in my healing journey across several generations of childhood/youth adversity.

I want to write a real book about everything I wish to share with the World around all different countries. I have a lot of things on my mind now. My dreams and in several meanings dreaming of something greater than the self, the unity of life and last but not least creative activities like writing and musical expressions. I come from a musical family and I’m so thankful for it.

I hope this was meaningful and of interest to others, thank you for reading my blogs and be safe and explore everything ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2007

The ideal image and the values of thin living. I used to be thinner and had a restrictive eating disorder in late teens. Then after being on antipsychotics I began to gain weight and currently I’m not obese, I was nearly 80 kilos like 6 years ago. One meter plus 56 centimeters ‘tall’. Okay, so what would I change about modern society? It’s on the Internet, the pro-ana culture online. I see these youth on photos and wish so much to challenge this trend with some methods that can get people thinking about themselves differently. No matter your weight or appearance you are worthy and loved by the Spirit.

Thank you, my readers, for the time ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2004

Like I said on other blog a year ago my favourite computer game is Sims. I got lost within the games for hours and my imagination was working on things while playing. It was very immersive and fun, sometimes quite deep experiences for me. The sims were a part of me, I got close with them when I play for several sessions and I still remember the experiences long after.

another game I enjoy is called ‘Skip-Bo’ it’s a card came, I was introduced to it while patient in a psychiatric unit/psych ward. It’s fun as a social activity and I often actually was on the winning team 😂👌

have fun playing ❤ ❤

Note: off-topic in nature, but still relevant.

Both, really. Combined in the right way it can help get things done successfully.

I should add to this that I seek balance in security and adventure. Adventure is needed just like security is also. I’m a Norwegian Aspie so sometimes my expressions of English is different.

And being an Aspie (Asperger syndrome person) my physical coordination and balance can be affected in adverse ways. Like I fell after losing my balance in physical education lesson and the shame from the unfortunate accident. I feel like confessing to my shameful times now, but should I do that? What did the teacher say and do after this episode? I will not go too far with this post. Maybe it’s not needed to reveal all here. I want to respect your feelings and difficult topics. Btw, I used to be quite good in walking gracefully with very high heel boots, other people said so at least.

As I mention in previous answer my Jupiter in Libra is in 2nd/second house and together with Mars in a weak conjunction. Libra themes is very related to fairness and harmony along with grace and beauty. I’m very into astrology at this time right now. Being autistic can make me passionate about my favourite interests and topics like this. Sometimes too strongly, talking with them, for the patience of other persons.

Thank you for reading, for some reason I feel insecurity about this post.

Daily writing prompt

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

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I truly need some adjustment in my antipsychotics and other neuropsychiatric medications as soon as possible. So I would want to gather all my current and my many former doctors to discuss my symptoms and what treatments would be best for me through their common thoughts and suggestions. It would be very useful and my first psychiatric doctor was so interested in my strong points being of use in tangible ways. He liked giving me food recipies to make, of course very healthy and kind of exotic.

answer to dailyprompt-1998

Note: possibly triggering topics

I seek balance of security and adventure. Jupiter in Libra and Moon in Sagittarius, 2nd house and 4th house. My large Pluto in Scorpio influence from 4th house exactly opposite my Taurus Midheaven. My roots. Everything is relevant to my balance in life. I remember a childhood particular physical education lesson that was very difficult experiences. I lost my balance and then right after had an accident, it was very embarrassing and the teacher follow me to wardrobe. I don’t clearly remember everything but I know it was very dark. I don’t know why I’m saying it now, I need some help honestly. I have schizoaffective and Asperger syndrome, I take medicine.

but the real lessons was safety is relative and adventure is indeed risky. The balance is an art, and we all fail sometimes. As I learn from that lessons sometimes shame is profound when we lose that balance.

thank you for listening

answer to dailyprompt-1999

one: my father is my biological father (not surprised at all, we look very alike)

two: I’m maternal haplogroup W4 (again DNA-tests show my relatives and origins)

three: my new given names are Ingvild, Torunn and Synnøve. I chose them myself this year.

four: I’m a Virgo Rising/Ascendant in astrology. I’m actually a double Virgo with strong Leo placements in close conjunction with Virgo in 12th house.

five: I’m soon 32 years old. Omg I’m still young ❤

six: I prefer women even if I’m not ever in romantic relationship.

seven: I have autism spectrum condition. I’ve been diagnosed three different times by three doctors that agree.

eight: my mother is a teacher.

nine: I don’t know when the last day will be. It could be five minutes or fifty years from now.

ten: I’m writing this post to answer the dailyprompt-1999 and I was alive in 1999, began first grade that year.

thanks for reading ❤

About my mental illness conditions and lifestyle.

I’m quite certain if I don’t get to sleep soon my day will be like yesterday; up all day, up all night. It’s my phone and my scrolling and writing listening to music. Mind is going so fast through the rhythms, lyrics are alive very strong in my thinking. So I’m sleepless and a little bit too high energy. I’m not using any strong stimulants, btw.

So Ingvild stays up all day, all night. Currently.

answer to dailyprompt-2006

it’s crazy fun to work to the rhythms and tech aspects. I like psytrance in general. I work best with lyrics related to my work tasks since my thoughts are in lyrics and music sounds.

answer to dailyprompt-1997

as I’m very deeply passionate about genealogy and family research, our family heritage and roots I would like to meet my ancestors in waking reality. One of my ancestors was a deeply conservative Lutheran Christian that form own Church and faith community. Another ancestor was of a spiritual path in healing passed from earlier generation, a feature of the diversity of Sámi culture and faith. And being very interested in my ethnic roots I would be curious where exactly my trace ancestry non-European ancestors estimate is in our history. I’m really wondering also who they were as real people living in past generations with historical events in their lifetime and how they would see our 2025 society. Both women and men from both sides of my family, I would have to ask what they would like to enjoy in food and drinks. If I could just choose something I really like it would be pasta, Swedish meat balls, grated(?) cheese (revet/raspet ost) and pasta sauce as dinner and hard (alcohol-containing) cider to enjoy along with. But that’s my preferance, so it would likely be different if it was to be real, the true meeting of minds and personality.

it would be very interesting to meet all these people around a dinner setting and hear of their stories from centuries back.

thanks for visiting ❤

answer to dailyprompt-2005

what is my go-to comfort food?

Vegan ice cream and lactose-free variants of milkshake and iced coffee.

I am lactose sensitive/intolerant due to genetics/ethnicity so I cannot have regular ice cream without lactase supplements. But one thing I enjoy as a lactose sensitive person is vegan ice cream with dark chocolate, strawberry taste. I’m not otherwise vegan but I admire the lifestyle and qualities that need respect. But that wonderful ice cream alternative is great for the many Sámi and Kven origins persons who are more often lactose sensitive/intolerant. And I love lactose-free oreo shake and the chocolate iced coffee I enjoy that is also without lactose.

these are great comfort food for me, and I stay well with following the rules of my body. I have lactase supplements that I take with any drink/meal with milk that is regular type.

I love vegan ice cream ❤

Right now I’m drinking a cup of raspberry tea mixed with something relaxing herb mix with valerian, chamomille and other herbs. It’s delicious and strong, plus organic (økologisk) of course and no sugar added.

It’s romantic because it is so heart-warming and lovely. It also helps to relax so I would give someone this tea mix if they came to visit me in my home. I enjoy being genuinely useful to others and I really like this cup of hot tea ❤

Other romantic activities and symbols include hugs, deep conversations, comfortable clothing and blankets, raspberry anything (not only as hot tea), dreaming and a lovely hot meal like lasagne or a great pizza. I don’t have experience of true romantic relationship, but I know my own likes in other relationships and my own well-being.

Thanks for listening ❤

So most often I wake up at 5 in the morning and bedtime for sleeping at 23 in the night. Lately my sleep has been often at strange times in late morning or afternoon, but I like the summer time fun we get to have being awake during the sunny days. The winter seasons are most of our year and the polar nights are the opposite of right now with Midnight sun and no snow on the ground.

It is a relief in summer seasons (giđđageassi, geassi, čakčageassi in eight seasons system) that we must appreciate deeply. I like feeling the sun warming my skin and my dark colour hair in the sunshine in comfortable temperatures.

Have a good late evening ❤

Daily writing prompt

What strategies do you use to increase comfort in your daily life?

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The hot tea I’m drinking must be the right temperature for drinking. Not too hot, but just perfect for a pleasant warm feeling.

the clothes are suited to my needs and the weather outside. Pretty in colourful ways and very comfortable both physical feeling and emotional well-being.

blankets made from merino wool plus the others are in year round use, there are few things as wonderful as the merino wool blanket on a very cold winter season night.

so these are some strategies I use to increase comfort in my daily life.

thanks for listening ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1996

At least compared to my early teenage self my confident nature is stronger and I’m not so worried about being different as I used to be. Things began to change when I learn of my conditions after getting diagnosed and treated for the symptoms. I’m still in progress of the process to understanding and living well with my severe mental illness and the moderate Asperger autism spectrum diagnosis. I don’t have a mild case of it, tbh. But I’m doing quite well on medication, I’m trying to get my doctors to switch me over to one antipsychotic the quetiapine instead of two other different antipsychotics.

I also think some food and drinks get better once I reach a certain point in life. I used to hate boiled potatos in early mid childhood but then I had some really good ones so I tried again and liked it. I eat several vegetables now that I would not eat before, it helps when they are included in more spicy healthy foods.

so those are some of the things I feel like get better with age, I’m almost 32 years old so still have likely many more years to experience in future. We never know the last moment will be.

Thank you for reading ❤

Ingvild; the Leo rebel Queen of the Arctic. I’m very identity oriented and I like writing about it to share with others what I think and believe in. I’m a Northern Norwegian so I’m writing something about it in my native language now.

Norwegian language text;

Jeg ønsker å bli mer aktiv i samfunnet jeg er en del av og vise verden hvem jeg faktisk er. Hjelpe andre som har det vanskelig i livet, spesielt flyktninger, romfolket og innvandrere. Jeg hadde venninner med utenlandsk bakgrunn da jeg var tenåring, en var fra Uganda og en var fra irakisk Kurdistan. En annen venninne var fra Afghanistan og hun hadde så spesielt tykt hår. Jeg hadde også tykt hår, men jeg var ikke nær hennes nivå. Okay, nok om det. Jeg er også opptatt av samiske temaer i samfunnet, jeg er med i samemanntallet og kommer til å bruke stemmeretten min i valget i år samtidig som stortingsvalget. Jeg er lidenskapelig opptatt av politiske temaer og menneskerettigheter generelt i globalt perspektiv. Alle kan gjøre noe som hjelper andre å forstå ulike livssyn og å utvikle empati med vanskeligstilte grupper i samfunnet.

English translation mostly from Google translate;

I want to become more active in the society I am a part of and show the world who I really am. Helping others who are having a hard time in life, especially refugees, Roma and immigrants. I had friends with a foreign background when I was a teenager, one was from Uganda and one was from Iraqi Kurdistan. Another friend was from Afghanistan and she had such particularly thick hair. I also had thick hair, but I was nowhere near her level. Okay, enough about that. I am also concerned with Sami issues in society, I am a member of ‘samemanntallet’ and will exercise my right to vote in the elections this year at the same time as the universal Norwegian ‘stortingsvalget’ (for adult Norwegian citizens). I am passionate about political themes and human rights in general from a global perspective. Everyone can do something that helps others understand different views of life and to develop empathy with disadvantaged groups in society.

I hope your days are good, and thanks for reading ❤

My grandmother is really good with making this delicious food for me every time she has opportunity to give it to me or other visitors. I used to eat more often this type of meals and it throws me back to teenage years and my late childhood. The bread, cheese and salami are perfect made and wonderful. Crisp and warm, the right texture of it.

So this is one food that transport me back to young years. I’m going to miss my grandmother so much when the days are gone.

I hope you enjoy the food and drinks that strong takes you back in time emotional, sensory and mental. And writing about this made me crave some grilled sandwich. Thanks for reading ❤

Daily writing prompt

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

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the Billy Talent track came to mind, as I said I think in lyrics and this is an example of that. If I could let go of something for the sake of harmony it would be strong fear of rejection and critical looks. It has big impact on my life, I don’t say things I would myself be upset by if they said it to me. But people are different and complex, so something that I’m okay with could upset them a lot. It’s also related topics to my mental illness and autism spectrum.

it comes from my experiences and how my thoughts are in direction in terms of my moods, themes and the psychosis. The bullying doesn’t stop once you graduate(? It means possibly to leave after being done with the 10th grade in school?) from 10th grade education, it goes on in your head long long after that at least for me. My voice-hearing remind me I’m a wounded person and sensitive to shame and self-hatred.

but honestly there is nothing or very little to lose in this way, I only need to avoid letting fear of rejection rule my life and ruin the inner world of magical joys.

I need to believe in myself and my ability to effectively deal with a challenge from being human beings in communication, from different family cultures and diverse ethnic backgrounds.

i love the music and my mind drawn inspiration from the lyrics and overall mood in the sound and yes, the harmony.

have a very wonderful morning ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1993

note: I’m actually excited about this, but I’m keeping my realistic expectations about what I’ve seen in life.

what I’m most excited about the future is a global awakening to our mission to make the world a better place for every living beings on planet Earth. We really need this awareness of the important nature of global environment and fighting injustice any place in the World, btw I have a Libran Mars and Cancerian Venus signs in astrology in astrological houses of Mars in 2nd house and Venus in 11th house. I have Virgo Rising sign, Sun in Virgo but I’m more like a shy Leo in some ways. Mercury in Leo plus close conjunction aspects to Chiron and my Sun placements in 12th house. I’m kind of sad and lonely tonight.

And the title is relevant to this writing, global awakening is through to become more mindful state of being and deep care for every living beings. Watching someone harming others for fun or status in groups is terrible experiences to me. Be kind and kindness will come your way as a benefit of consequence. I’m doing something kind of similar to mindful state every day now. Watching my thoughts with some distant and yet insightful times, my ego is really sometimes too big for my own good so I’m truly giving my all for getting better in terms of mindful living, consciousness.

And we must never start WWIII and never again. I am an anarchist type of far-left politically, and I’m not hiding this here.

thank you for reading my blogs ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1992

Note: Might be trigger topics for someone with similar life experiences

As I’ve described before I was a bullied child and teenager and with undiagnosed Asperger syndrome and schizoaffective, I was different in ethnicity from the other kids and especially my short height was the issue. I had long-term issues in nocturnal enuresis and wet myself at school. Some things happen I cannot talk about here now. I really think, ruminate and pine over things too much sometimes. So what could I let go of? My strong tendency to focus on something I cannot change and also must live with no matter what happens. I need to let go of the shame. My origins must be respected honestly and fully through. I’m actually far stronger than I believe I am.

btw I’m not drinking, but I’m obsessive about having enough alcohol-containing cider tomorrow for a good session outside in our garden. But the forecast says cloudy all day. The weather here is absolutely wonderful tonight I was even outside sitting with my mother and her dog and drinking lactose-free iced coffee. I love life in summer time ❤

Thank you for listening to my story ❤

Warning: triggering topics for alcoholic persons and also rambling about everything. Happy Sunday everyone ❤

A wonderful pear cider plus a Battery Pearberry. I really enjoy this combination in taste and not to mention the high/intoxicated feeling. I like perry.

I’m not addicted or anything, I just love drinking psychoactive beverages. Alone. Outside in the Midnight sun glow of July. I like combination of effects in my cocktails, caffeine and alcohol together along with my usual medications like SSRI and I’m going likely back to Seroquel soon. I don’t drink a lot of alcohol and I’m more careful with energy drinks now than in my youth years. And I take anticonvulsants for my TLE/temporal lobe epilepsy so I really should not drink much. And my father is an addict, I like drinking. I’m not drunk or tipsy even not affected by my medications either.

So it’s about drinking for me at the moment and drinking is no good without music along. Rock/metal genres or electronic music on my sound system or with ear phones in the Darkness. The really dark roll down curtains will make it dark. Literally, the sun is up at midnight several weeks in May, June and July months. Arctic benefits, and a sometimes slightly difficult aspect also.

I know it sound crazy in several ways but it’s how I feel right now.

And thank you for reading my blog ❤

Daily writing prompt

What is your favorite genre of music?

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In addition to my other favourite music genres there is World music and variants of Sámi joik. Joik or Yoik is a type of traditional singing kind of slightly similar to Siberian cultures. I’m of Sámi roots and I’m not practiced in joik, my ancestors were successfully Norwegianized(?) (Fornorsket same/fornorskede samer) so I’m not core Sámi regions identified. Many were Sea Sámi and some Mountain Sámi; including from places like Tysfjord, Måsøy and Kautokeino. Okay, so enough about my ancestry; lets get to my favourite types!

I enjoy listening to Mari Boine (she is my genetic relative in extended family, we are both DNA-tested) and other type Sámi musicians like Sofia Jannok and also other World music artists. I like Native American music, Siberian, Mongolian and indigenous Australian as well as different African traditional song/music. Every culture has great tradition and talented musicians among them.

thanks for listening ❤

Note; an answer to dailyprompt-1990

my absolute favourite year summer holiday was the summer of 2016, I’ve written often a lot about this time and I will write even more about it soon.

but this memory is from 2004 the year I turn 11 and it’s about my strong imagination and about my psychotic thought patterns around events. Btw I just remember something right now, how I had those cotton padding like from removing makeup on during that time.

(I was not happy with my shape and especially the size of the upper pair).

so I was walking outside living in my own world of magical powers and the inner delusional identities, it sometimes began to rain right after I thought it would soon be rainfall. I thought this was special powers on my part and that they were related to the identities within my mind. And don’t get me wrong; I really really don’t have dissociative identity disorder/MPD; I’m diagnosed as autistic and with strong psychotic disorder. And a quite strong vivid imagination as well.

It was an inner world that was heading for the Dark times to come. My mind just got darker every year up until 2013/2014 after effective medications got my psychotic symptoms more under control.

I’m going to write some more (about my great 2016 vacation events and places) on both blogs.

I hope you feel well on this July day of 2025. Thanks for reading ❤

I’ve written about this before on several dailyprompt answers so I just say it was three different regions and many towns in Finland and Scandinavia; both in far-Southern (Agder) and far-Northern (Finnmark) county in Norway. The Finnish region was along the border to Sweden so we pass border several times during our several days trip.

First our visit to the nearest hospital in other town on the coastal region on an island. Finnmark county natives know what this is about very well but I think it’s very strange how the largest town in Finnmark has no hospital. And the roads are frequently closed due to strong weather during winter season which is a big part of our environment. It’s a sensitive issues sometimes because the large town is seen as demanding special treatments but that’s wrong. We have MRI machines here now but no hospital.

The weather condition there that day was very good, it’s s different environment with less trees and more strong winds especially some local places during winter season. We went up a path to a higher level area so we could see town clearly from our position. I love this small town and I lived there for several years in youth and young adult years.

Second our visit to Agder county in far-South areas, we have plenty of living relatives and ancestors living in Agder regions from the Eastern parts to some degree and all to the far Western area very significantly. Rogaland also. It was great weather and comfortable temperature in Kristiansand that year, it’s a beautiful place to be visiting and the local Norwegian dialect is so dear to us my grandfather was far-Southern and he had three living brothers when it was over. We learn so much from my mothers uncle about the history of our family even back to 1900s.

The third adventures were travelling with many other fellow genealogy researchers and the different Kven groups like our towns community.

We had a really awesome summer trip to Northern Finland and Sweden along the Torne River border between the towns. I love being in Finnish local stores and trying to understand the price of something they have Euro currency not our Norwegian kroner currency plus everything is at least written in Finnish language which I unfortunately know not well enough yet to understand immediately without using memory.

Btw I’m of significant Kven ethnicity and culture even though the State policies were very harsh on Kven and Sámi speaking peoples, it’s name is ‘Norwegianization’ or in Norwegian language ‘Fornorskning’. That’s how we lost the languages of their generation to next, and I’m learning some Kven language books for education in our Kven group in this town.

Thanks for listening from my vacation journey ❤

Cannot remember if I’ve written this in previous answer so I’m just going to maybe write again about this. My favourite blankets are of merino wool and so wonderful; especially on very cold winter days at minus 20 to minus 30 degrees celsius. So I wear several blankets together along with organic type Earl Grey hot tea, and don’t need that much electric heat turned on with the indoor oven. (Btw, for some reason I’m rambling more than in my usual state of mind? Or am I a little delusional about my post?). And in minus 30 it’s absolutely needed with blankets and winter sleep duvet (often called ‘vinterdyner’ in local Norwegian terms), there is good in using other methods of keeping warm.

Now it’s summer season here and I love an iced tea tomorrow along with the alcohol and energy drinks together. Thank you for visiting ❤

And enjoy July to the fullest ❤

Note; I know I’ve written about this several times, I just wanted to answer it again. And I had some wonderful green tea with pomegranate, the lovely weather conditions right now too.

Absolutely I would wear my Sami boots from Topaz brand along with dark blue colour jeans and my favourite yellow colour hoodie with blue print design. Most of the year it’s winter in my county of Finnmark so the clothing needs to be winter wearable mostly. I love the two pairs of seal hide boots I bought earlier in January/February this year.

In summer time we most often have temperature around 15°C (celsius, 59°F, Fahrenheit), and quite rarely 30°C (86°F). I would put on my sleeveless hoodies on the very warm days. Okay, so that’s what I would wear most of the year. Hoodies, jeans and some awesome winter season boots.

Thank you for reading ❤

I’m soon 32 years old and I have a couple of strong interests as part of my life. I’m passionate about my origins in Arctic region and I feel this is not being an authority but I really care about our cultures and ancestry, diversity in languages. I do genealogy research on my online MyHeritage family tree, have been doing this since age 14 in 2007. I also have learned some about DNA-tests and genetics from this interest in origins and finding genetic relatives.

It’s easier to write about what I’m decent at than what I’m truly an authority. I’m good with research on topics that I care about, such as my medications and different social causes I’m very passionate about. I have strong points in reading astrology texts and thinking on different depth depending on my mood.

I’m an Aspergian and some of my symptoms are actually useful in learning about the different subjects I’m interested in. I know from my own experiences what it’s like to have voice-hearing and other experience with psychosis and insight.

And I’m still learning through experience and research, so it’s always getting more deep and interesting.

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

A kind of follow up to my other answer

Why clothing, food, drinks are romantic to me;

I really like pretty and comfortable clothing that express my identity and passions. So the black high heels are a strong symbol of being powerful and of a particular beauty. I really like my new Arctic winter boots. Hoodies are my favourite items and I like them so much because they make me feel safe and comfortable at the same time being fashion conscious, btw I live colourful items a lot I don’t wear all black. I have a new found passion for jeans and as I have lost some quite significant weight the skinny jeans are welcome, they need to be comfortable and of good quality. I really enjoy drinking and delicious food, especially my favourite energy drinks and warm meal like lasagne plus some cans of good alcohol-containing cider. I love when someone decide on buying and then tell me on the phone they bought me something.

It shows they care about me and then I very want to do something for them also, I do pay attention to what someone values and likes and I am there for my friends and family members. I buy good quality socks to my cousin who really appreciate them and likes to get practical items. I remember their birthday and send texts every time to make them (and myself) feel happy and appreciated.

My definition has several other aspects too, I value the relationship with my close ones. I’m interested in astrology and symbols, my roots and good social/political causes related to fairness, justice and equal rights. I have a 11th house Cancerian Venus, second house Libran Mars. And I like giving someone attention and care about how they feel inside, that they are very important to me and genuinely valued for who they really are. I’m strongly Leo and Virgo influenced in 12th house and Rising sign.

To me it’s all about our relationship and caring deeply about the other persons needs and wishes.

Thank you for listening ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1988

Note: about astrology heavily, and written in some Norwegian text

My Venus sign is Cancer and my Mars sign is Libra. I’m going to add a page on my astrology here soon. I have Asperger syndrome and astrology can help to understand others and myself much better. I never have had any romantic relationship but I know my feelings about what I want in a close relationship and what I can give to others.

Norwegian language text; Jeg synes det er romantisk når noen setter pris på det jeg gjør for folk, når lar meg vite når jeg gjør noe godt nok eller til og med overrasket dem. Jeg liker når de kjøper gaver til meg som jeg virkelig liker fordi de følger med i hverdagen. Dette er venner og familie altså, jeg er uten partner og uerfaren i kjærlighetsforhold.

Det jeg gjør selv for andre er mye relatert, jeg gir folk på besøk en kopp med varm te jeg selv liker veldig godt og tror de liker den spesielt også. Det er små ting, men veldig dyptgående likevel. Selv er jeg veldig glad i å føle meg komfortabel fysisk og emosjonelt, vakre gjenstander og noen som ser det gode i meg.

Black high heels, a hoodie and skinny jeans. A wonderful energy drink I really like drinking or a surprise warm meal. A couple cans of cider and a pair of good quality socks. I like physical things and that’s how I feel valued and seen.

Thank you for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1994

so I drink relaxing hot tea, eat wonderful healthy food, watch online television sometimes, wear comfortable clothing like hoodies and pyjamas, take as needed medicine; some for significant symptoms of severe pain and others for anxiety-related states, listening to music that is calming in some way and I wear several blankets to increase comfort in everyday living. I really value being comfortable.

thanks for reading ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1995

When I get to sleep at night I go to bed at somewhere around 23 at night and wake up at 5 in the morning. Lately I’m sleeping very irregular times and stay up at night because I sleep so much during day and our Midnight sun shines bright through my window where I sleep. I have to ration (rasjonere) my sleeping pills because the doctor is too strict about giving me prescribed sleep aid. I get very psychotic without sleep so I really value my sleep a lot, dreaming is a way to cope with the mind and just reset the border psychosis before it gets stuck in my perception.

And the time I get to sleep after going to bed varies significantly from day to day and with the seasons. Our polar nights affect the body to mess with regular melatonin levels due to lack of natural light from sunshine. I’m very thankful for our unique conditions of the Arctic regions. I’m getting a dark roll-down curtains soon, it works well to get the room dark at night.

So it’s 23 in early night and 5 in early morning.

Thank you for visiting my blog ❤

The colours of the rainbow visible without being seen, our biodiversity and tech, climate changes with each passing year. And the insecurity of political actions, the darkness of the far-right gaining in support worldwide and again our environment being destroyed. More horrors.

Anthem of Defqon.1 2008 by Luna and Deepac (Extended mix)

Thank you for listening ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1987

I express my gratitude in being there for my family members and just being alive. I’m just sometimes stuck somewhere very dark inside. I’m grateful for my dreams and good nights sleep. I let people know I truly care and mean what I say when I say something kind and friendly. I’m very thankful for many of the lucky parts I enjoy living in Norway. I believe being grateful is a way to improve life for everyone, just also the little things are significant to see for what they are; blessings and meaningful.

thank you for reading and I’m thankful for this life as human on planet Earth, and for the love within us waiting to be shared.

Note: I’m writing in my native language of Norwegian, but a translation at end/later text.

Det jeg kommer på av egen erfaring er forskjellen på en god lærer versus en usympatisk en. En usympatisk lærer er noe av det mest uheldige man kan komme ut for, jeg hadde en sånn type lærer på ungdomsskolen. Han var rasist og likte ikke oss samiske, de innfødte i regionen. Jeg er same, men det har noe å si fordi han fikk klassen til å se filmen fra 2008(?) om Kautokeino-opprøret (Kautokeino rebellion in 1852) og det er en god film men jeg tror han hadde noen baktanker med dette. Han hadde favoritter i klassen som han hadde kontakt med utenom skoletid, gutta som hadde fotballtrening etter skolen og de peneste jentene i klassen som alltid var flinke og normale. Han mislikte også guttene med dysleksi og lavt på hierarkiet i klassen, og som sagt likte han ikke meg heller. Jeg var alvorlig psykisk syk uten diagnose og helt uten medisiner mot det, pluss at jeg har Asperger syndrom som ikke var offisielt før jeg var 17 år gammel. Han sa rasistiske ting om vennene mine fra ikke-europeiske land da han trodde ingen la merke til det.

En god lærer ser potensialet til elevene uansett bakgrunn og måte å tenke på. De oppfordrer også elevene til å være gode medmennesker og være den de faktisk er, å tenke kritisk om informasjonen de finner på Internett og andre medier. De lytter og er tålmodige med andre, venter til de er klare til å uttrykke seg på ulike vis. Jeg kommer fra en familie med mange lærere, min mor og bestemor inkludert. Jeg har hatt noen meget gode lærere av andre type yrkesgrupper enn skoler, jeg har flere venner som lærte meg så mye om livet og sosiale forhold. Jeg lærte med å undersøke ting meget grundig og i dybden, både slektsforskning og utforske naturen rundt meg de stedene jeg vokste opp.

Takk for besøket og jeg håper du har gode opplevelser med lærere av ulike typer ❤

Håper dere har en god siste dag av juni 2025 ❤

English translation by Google translate and my own words:

What I can tell from my own experience is the difference between a good teacher versus an unsympathetic one. An unsympathetic teacher is one of the most unfortunate things you can encounter, I had that type of teacher in middle/high school. He was racist and didn’t like us Sámi, the natives of the region. I am Sámi, but that has something to do with it because he made the class watch the film from 2008(?) about the Kautokeino rebellion related to Sámi history (Kautokeino rebellion in 1852) and it is a very good film but I think he had some deep ulterior motives with this. He had favorites in the class that he had contact with outside of school hours, the guys who had soccer practice after school and the prettiest girls in the class who were always smart and normal. He also disliked the boys with dyslexia and low on the hierarchy in the class, and as I said, he didn’t like me either. I was severely mentally ill without a diagnosis and completely without medication for it, plus I have Asperger syndrome which wasn’t official until I was 17 years old. He said racist things about my friends from non-European countries when he thought no one would notice.

A good teacher sees the potential in students regardless of their background and way of thinking. They also encourage students to be good people and to be who they actually are, to think critically about the information they find on the Internet and other media. They listen and are patient with others, waiting until they are ready to express themselves in different ways. I come from a family with many teachers, my mother and grandmother included. I have had some very good teachers from other types of professions than schools, I have several friends who taught me so much about life and social relationships. I learned by investigating things very thoroughly and in depth, both genealogy research and exploring the nature around me in the places I grew up.

Thank you for visiting and I hope you have good experiences with teachers of different types ❤

Hope you have a happy last day of June ❤ ❤

I’m the kind of person that believe god is in all, everyone is part of the global consciousness within us. So it’s a type of spirituality that is somewhat different from the usual percieved nature of religion and many social settings.

But at music events like concert, rave or even a party of significant number of people it’s clear something in the music unites the groups of persons to feel part of the spirituality of the gathering. People are part of the divine and all music is the divine on a very profound and basic level. There is a reason they call it trance music, the rhythms are an inner journey of sound and deep within us is the core that needs connection.

I have some significant sympathy with atheist or humanist social movements. My close family are not of specific religion or faith my mother lays tarot cards on table with some rituals at certain points of insecure future and difficult choices along with reflection on the symbols. I really am interested in understanding my dreams on deep level of meaning in this life.

My clear favourite activities is to listen to music with my ear phones eyes closed in total darkness, it takes me to another place deep within and it’s even at times profound insight and well-being beyond recreational drinking or stimulants. I really enjoy music mostly EDM genres on my iPod touch device bought more than 10 years ago and I use it very often especially when I’m upset, on a drinking session or just want to listen for a time.

So that’s what part of my spiritual side is related to. In addition I have tea rituals and spend time outside in natural environments, the wonderful view from my home and there are few things as profound as nature in it’s morning glory. Our awesome Midnight sun, all-day light 🌞❤️

And believe in yourself, it’s a good thing.

Thanks for listening ❤

Even though I just now cannot remember what year it was or my age then, I remember being at the hospital layout on hospital bed and kind of confused after the anesthesia it’s very vague but my mother remembers this much more clearly of course. The benign tumor was removed from eye region and as mentioned they did tests to find what it was. I was lucky they did very good surgery so the scar wasn’t that obvious after it healed. So that’s my first surgery as far as I can recall now. Thank you all for reading ❤

Being Norwegian i think the Danish visit would be most easy to communicate and to understand in cultural aspects. I’ve never been to Denmark yet and I’m curious about how the climate is like, the more flat landscape to our mountain regions perspective. And the lovely very different Danish language. Being in København would be maybe like visiting Oslo in some ways since it’s the Capital city, I don’t know what size it is in terms of people living there. (It was like a million more people living there 🤭🤪❤️)

I want to visit Portugal because I’m quite well interested in the history of this region and the Portuguese language seems so different from my own native Northern Norwegian type sound. I also am wondering how the people interact with Norwegian tourists visiting the country. And how it feels being somewhere I never have been close to experience the landscape. Southern Europe I’m looking forward to see some time in this life.

And last but not least I want to explore North Western Russia, I have been in Kirkenes to the much further East of Finnmark county where I currently live and my deep roots in this county in our far-Northern region. I’m curious about the Russian Sámi culture and the Nenets people living in Northern Russia. I want to visit the cities Murmansk and Arkhangelsk Archangel plus other locations. My mother has been to Russia in the late 90s and early 2000s and has learned Russian language that is especially good now that many of her students are often Ukrainian youth. I know several Russian people and I admire the art history and several aspects in the culture of Russian regions, I have a dream of travel by train on the Trans-Siberian railway and on the same trip visiting Mongolia. I’m very distantly of possible Siberian and/or Mongolian ancestry according to DNA-testing estimates, but that tbh is likely my Scandinavian and Finnish ancestors meeting Eastern peoples several centuries ago.

These are a part of my curiousity of environment and cultures within Europe. I have visited other places in Norway, several places in Northern Sweden and Northern Finland. I really genuinely love almost anything Finnish; culture, art, language, way of being etc. I’m significant part Finnish origins and my ancestors were very Finnish, so our family culture is actually more Finnish than Norwegian. I’ve experienced so good mutual understanding and also see the little (but very significant) unique aspects in visiting fellow Finnish and Kven culture persons in their own homes. Wonderful ❤

Thanks for listening ❤

Oh yeah, I’m a Aurora in my dreams. The Northern Lights, the Spirit in the Sky as the famous KEiiNO track lyrics say. But my name is Torunn now, it’s more than good enough in my everyday life. My current waking reality is important like dreams are also. We can have our dreams and live awake as well. Aurora ❤

I might also identify as a Leah even if it would be very far ahead of it’s common use. I’m turning 32 this late summer, and I think it’s a pretty name I would wish to have the appearance for it. I don’t feel like I could match the name in physical ways.

So maybe I would be a Leah Aurora in parallel reality, together the name origins mean ‘tired/close’ and ‘morning glory/dawn’. I believe names are interesting in general, how to describe and define an aspect of life and mind.

Thank you for reading ❤

My current given names are Ingvild, Synnøve and Torunn. I was born with other names and change last month (mid-late May) to my new names. I didn’t really dislike my former name but I’m more aware of my identity and felt like being more true to my new perspective on names. Plus I like them, they are awesome Norse mythology origin female given names ❤

But if I had to change my name again I would likely choose something very similar with the same meaning, Ingvild is very similar to Inghild in meaning, both are from Norse mythology and Ing is from ancestor/fertility god Yngvi/Freyr and ‘hildr‘ meaning struggle. So; ancestors struggle. Sunniva means ‘sun gift’ and is from same roots as my current given name Synnøve. I don’t think I would have three given names if I had to get new name again. But btw, I’m also actually quite happy with my new so-called ‘old aunts name’ Torunn being included in current name.

And I’ve mentioned before my last name is rare and that’s one of the reasons I’m not revealing it. My alternatives in last names include Hætta (Saami origins), Niemi (Kven origins) and Myrland (Norwegian origins, in this case from a Northern Norwegian farm/place). 

I like my last name in adult age and kept it the same. I used to hate it in childhood years because it was quite unusual, just like my divergent (and particular mostly of the neurodivergent) inner world of autism and psychosis and the very strong imagination I am truly blessed with.

I have several other alternatives in names, I also like the names Aurora and Leah.

Have a wonderful day, it’s night here right now. Thank you for reading ❤

My Norwegian fantasy land of dreams

I have frequently depraved dreams at night. People being lifeless or person not in control of the function of the body. Things that are depraved in real life happening to me or others in the dream. I describe my dreams as soon as I remember some when I wake up or suddenly remember something from a dream in everyday life. I’m diagnosed with chronic psychosis type condition and it is clearly an influence to my depraved dreams along with other traits. I’m from Norway, from the Northern parts.

Nordnorsk natur ❤

Sorry for often repeating my nationality, it’s just to make clear the context of my posts.

My taglines;

Lives in the Darkness, inside the outsider

Feeling fear, yet with nothing to hide

Tried to act normal, but it’s not real

I’m actually in an okay mood and mental state, just affect by something I’m using (only one yet). But I will return sober and relatively not off my bass. Off my bass is a track from long time ago, it’s about a dx schizoaffective man suffering from delusions and paranoia. But I really like that track I have it on my iPod.

Thank you all for your time ❤

Note: these are my summer habits, in winter it’s different due to our short days and polar nights in between. They cause all-day darkness, twilight.

Take my regular medications two times a day. I have epilepsy so I need anticonvulsant treatment. Plus my mental illness and physical pain, in addition hormonal medications. I don’t need it for contraception, it’s for a hormonal/gynecology condition. I need these medications to function.

Some of my other daily habits are drinking, listening to music, speaking with other people about our lives, I go to sleep usually earlier during early night like 22:30 or so. Now it’s Midnight and the sun is up. Arctic location ❤

My healthy food helps me feel full but not gain so much weight. walking outside, I don’t drive. spending much of time by myself and I write about topics, especially on my blogs. sleeping enough hours to feel okay and to keep moving forward. looking at apps on my phone, scrolling and as I said I’m drinking something every day.

(Btw, not alcohol dependent, but I like being intoxicated during our summer holiday and I’m right now not drinking).

I’m out for tonight maybe I’ll take a Stilnoct soon. Happy dreams ❤

Enjoyment of Earl Grey in the Light of the Midnight sun of my Arctic location. Serious, I’m drinking tea in middle of night in a very bright environment, no clouds right now. I’m also a true Razzpergian 😂❤️

Yes, I have Asperger syndrome and I like the Bacardi Razz in reasonable amounts. I’m not an alcoholic, I just like certain nice tastes along with being kind of affected. Okay, so that’s something about me and my favourite drinks.

The Earl Grey tea is of organic type and it’s the best Earl Grey I’ve tried yet. And I drink a lot of different brand teas, this it’s English Tea shop 🥰

I also don’t drive, recycle everything we recycle here in Norway, save electricity in winter using several wool blankets (most of the time when it isn’t minus 30 degrees celsius outside, but then we truly need more heat from electricity and also heat from house fireplace in addition to blankets and the hot tea), drink our local town tap water (that’s actually very good quality), rarely buy new phone, other organic tea and healthy food plus several more daily practice of sustainable lifestyle.

Good night ❤

Note; I get to the main point eventually. And talking about the Midnight sun.

In some Sámi cultures the Northern Lights are an admired but powerful force, and I feel kind of like that when I see it from clear winter sky.

One of my given names is Ingvild and I’m of Sámi origins including as well other ethnicities like Norwegian and Finnish/Kven. I’m DNA-tested and many family members have taken DNA-tests too. I’m interested in genealogy and Finland, Finnish related topics in general.

I chose my name for different reasons mostly the meaning in Norse and my mothers wish to call me Ingvild before I was given the other name. Ingvild; ancestors struggle, foremothers battle. It’s most often quite easy to change given names in Norway, I fill out online secure form to change name and it was automatically approved right after. But after this it isn’t as easy because family and friends are used to the old name, yet I don’t regret at all making this big change. I am Ingvild.

Another aspect of taking risks is I took Sámi language lessons in 2009 despite my difficult life situation in life back then and prejudice against Sámi identified persons. At least one time the much younger children were calling me ethnic slurs completely out of nothing, I have some traits that are slightly different. But it was so worth it, I really felt much more in tune with my cultural heritage knowing some North Saami language.

Btw, off-topic;

We have Midnight sun here right now entire June and most of July, no sunset all-day light. We have strong sunshine through my window now, it’s to shine through here at night and be on other side of house in the morning. Maybe I should take the Stilnoct (zolpidem) soon?

Thank you for reading my blog ❤

answer to dailyprompt-1991

My favourite types are electronic music, metal and grunge. I most often listen to what some consider old or outdated music, like 2010 to 2018. And 90s music too, I was born during early 90s or early-mid 90s. I’m a Scandinavian, btw.

I listen to music several hours on most days. It doesn’t just involve listening but also involves imagination, energy, memories and as I’ve said some times that I think in lyrics. There are always lyrics coming to mind when I go about with my activities and it helps me in my daily conversations to remember what I was supposed to say from before, I often lose track of my mind if I cannot listen to music. Btw I’m diagnosed as being autistic (Aspie/Aspergian/person with Asperger syndrome etc osv) and with strong psychotic disorder (paranoid schizophrenia/undifferential psychosis/schizoaffective disorder)

In particular the EDM I like drum&bass, dubstep, psytrance and hardstyle genres. I like especially these artists; Delta Heavy, Headhunterz, Psyko Punkz, Skrillex, Ephixa, Gemini, Brennan Heart, Neilio, Da Tweekaz, Wasted Penguinz, Astrix, and DJ Stephanie (a great female DJ😍❤️)

In rock genres I like particular bands of different including among others; Metallica, Nirvana, Children of Bodom, Bullet for my Valentine, Soundgarden, Pearl Jam, Puddle of Mudd, Dream Theater, Satyricon, and of course the band Weezer with the song ‘Say it ain’t so’, there is a music video posted here on my blog with the song and the video includes the lyrics too.

The main parts are the feeling I get inspired by, harmony with my favourite music, my physical feelings and inner state. The deep level of unity.

Thanks for listening (yes, music related!) 😍❤️🇧🇻