it’s been a long time since we travel by airplane and I just thought of this now, I believe it was last time in year 2016? It might have been more recently but I know we took a SAS flight to Oslo in summer holiday of 2016 to visit our far-Southern Norwegian close relatives.
btw, an AI avatar based on me (a slight difference to my current appearance, but still it’s based on me. I’m a natural brunette and my eyes are not blue, but more hazel)
i don’t have paid work due to my medical conditions. This doesn’t make me lazy at all though. I struggle with everyday life even on plenty different types of medications for neurological, psychiatric and somatic treatments like beta blocker and medications for womanhood curse and possibly endometriosis. I’m seeing likely a gynecologist soon. So often it’s these appointments and health care activities outside of office setting. We are outside speaking with each other and eat wonderful grillpølser from the campfire and pølsebrød witb ketchup on it.
I’m on Stilnoct now must sleep soon.
thanks for reading ❤
List your top 5 favorite fruits.
Note; answer this before, just wish to write some more about cider ❤ ❤
I enjoy cider a lot, I buying them once a week to store in a cool place like ‘kjøleskapet’ in my home. It’s actually more about taste than getting intoxicated, and since I have epilepsy must be more careful and my medications can interact in different ways to alcohol. So here are some types I love to consume with joy ❤
My favourite cider right now are pear cider from different Norwegian brewery like Mack (Northern Norwegian legends, we are connected to this company by ancestry and family relations. In apple cider I like Grevens a lot, I like passionfruit and mango combination it is a perfect thing to enjoy in the heat or on Christmas Eve ❤
I like non-alcoholic grape juice a lot. And grapefruit is one of my favourites especially, we have a particular milder type of pink grapefruit juice at the local store. I like iced tea and especially the peach/black tea combination of isTe (I live in Finnmark, a Northern Norwegian)
I hope you enjoy drinking no matter tipsy or completely sober beverages.
Thanks for listening ❤
I have a big collection of different types of tea, of course I also drink tea from this collection so it’s a living project. I have a shoe/boots collection with wonderful high heels and even one with a vampire on the design! I happen to have a large collection of pill boxes/organizers I found at pharmacy or similar places, btw if you don’t know me yet I’m autistic (Asperger syndrome, I’m Norwegian also) and I really like having several different hobbies and some prescious collections. I also have like around 15 different hoodies and many blankets that are in constant use.
thank you for reading my blog ❤ ❤
What is your favorite drink?
Pearberry; it’s a unique type of very sweet drinks, and the design on the box/can is pretty with the pastel colours and of course it’s a Battery energy drink so I like the brand as well. I just recently tried them I believe it’s quite new, and I’m loving it. I wish I had a couple of them right now in a cool place in our home.
Bacardi Breezer; I like the combination of sweet delight and the tipsy feeling along, it is best in moderation and together with water (Imsdal does the work perfectly) and a little can of energy drink as well.
Perry/pear cider; Honestly I love cider, pears and especially perry, the taste and the cold drinks in summer season spending time outside enjoying these beverages. I appreciate our wonderful garden and the Midnight sun ❤
Imsdal (or other plain water); there is nothing like water to match the hydration and relief of thirst that is part of everyday life. I like our local tap water, it’s definitively one of the best in our region.
Others; I enjoy my Earl Grey, herbal tea and combination of teas. I also like the lactose-free drinks like special type oreo shake or iced coffee.
Hope you have a wonderful afternoon ❤ ❤
note; likely off-topic and inside our ethnic group perspectives
our people are very used to quite cold temperature and plenty of snow, we are thankful to the good-natured Spirit inside all life on this planet Earth. Btw, I actually cried real tears of environmental passion and pain when they cut down a wonderful old tree to get more sunlight in our garden. I believe I was 4 or 5 years old then, I really love nature and being outside in our local wilderness was one my favourite activities as a child/teenager.
so back to cold weather, we sometimes get as low as minus 30° celsius and I often after that event have a lovely cup of hot tea after the errands in outside world; plus some really comfortable and warming blankets.
I’m like a radiator according to many, and it’s actually true, I get out in minus 20° celsius and feel pleasure in the cool breeze. I’m of Arctic indigenous origins partly, if we include the Sámi people as indigenous it’s clear that the Sámi eight seasons are central especially to Mountain Sámi culture, but other groups of Sámi people also honor features of these seasons. Giđđageassi ❤
Winter time can help creative persons make great art in their particular medium of creative expressions from deep down at the inner core of life. All seasons and all weather can inspire great works of art ❤
So I mostly enjoy cold weather and it’s both the reality of living in our Arctic environments and my tendency for heat during our winter season.
Thanks for listening ❤
NOTE; POLITICAL THEMES AND MY OWN OPINIONS, OFF-TOPIC IN A WAY
I’m a leader in my everyday life and follow the good-natured Spirit. I have a strong Leo influence in my astrology chart and the placements are in 12th house; the realm of dreaming and deep spirituality related topics. I listen and I speak both, in different languages and from several points of view it’s diversity that drives me toward the future through our present moment. Learning from the past is extremely important also, the World is going through the darkest, most difficult events in my lifetime here on Earth and of the many types of injustice and abuse of different kinds.
On a distance I feel drawn to special men and women, I look at music videos of of beautiful people ofbany oriented identity. Sorry for spelling I’m sleeping pills csn not se through the blurry mess of screen. Yhey began jumpsuiten sorry cant wrjnte4y well in my Stilnoct Russian influence i just not illegal and
I’m kind of giving up writing fornyæthe sleep imfding egenskaper
Note: my point about mostly this post is that the medications need to be adjusted to my current situation in symptoms and new options to help me improve my health in different ways, including nature and some good activism for important causes.
one thing I would love to be realised is taking one antipsychotic that does impact my overall mental-health conditions in a better way than right now I’m on two different antipsychotics that influence each other in effects so I get some side effects from the cocktails of psychiatric and epilepsy medications along with the painkillers I need for very severe pain conditions. I would also aim to be more active in political themes and for the lovely environment around us in our everyday lives as Norwegians.
I don’t have children and never will, I’m mentally ill severely and also somewhat troubled eemotionally from difficult experiences in my childhood and youth.
I don’t have a romantic partner for many of the same reasons and if I was to have a partner it would be likely a outgoing type woman with a good heart and open mind.
I don’t have paid work and I go outside a couple of times a week, especially in winter season which is most of our year here in the Arctic location I live in.
and most importantly my sense of who I really am has gone through many profound changes, it was truly a different kind of World after being finally diagnosed with autism and psychotic disorder in my late teens/early twenties. It wasn’t a little thing on the side; it’s a big part of living life itself, knowing I’m not ‘normal’ has been eye opening experiences through my journey.
What public figure do you disagree with the most?
Note: About the Norwegian politics and themes of minority rights in my country, but also global in perspective to a certain degree in terms of right-wing politicians in other nations.
This can sound strange to many on the right-wing side, but I believe some of the well-known politicians on that part are not just right-wing politics oriented, but with actual far-right opinions and methods. They stirr up prejudice against many different minority groups including refugees, drug addicted people, the mentally ill, the disabled, LGBTQ and many more.
I have a couple individual politicians I dislike opinions of, one of them being the Progress party leader Sylvi Listhaug as mentioned earlier answer to this prompt. Street art was made of her a couple of years ago, you can research online if you wish to see it.
In the end I think we need to be compassionate with the different have-nots in society and fighting the system will help in that direction. Thanks for reading my blog ❤
I had a month a couple of years ago commenting on the website ethnicelebs.com and I had done this also much earlier in 2009-2010 when I was around 16 years old. But in September 2023 I got banned there so I moved on after getting at first upset and angry about being a target of strange censorship. And honestly, now I’m fine with can not be commenting there, many are making some strange views on humanity and appearance related supposed to ethnicity and celebrity status.
if you look at the name of my blog and visited this website in August 2023, that’s actually me writing those comments. cloudB, yes it’s me. And that website is a big part of the reasons for beginning writing my own blogs.
Have a nice day everyone ❤ ❤ ❤
It includes these types; pear, apple, clementine/mandarin, orange and grapefruit
And I especially like these fruits also in candy and beverages like juice and hard (alcohol-containing) cider.
Enjoy the Fruit ❤
What was the last live performance you saw?
I know this isn’t exactly an answer to this question but I really wanted to write about it. I have a dream of visiting one or several very large music event related to my favourite electronic dance music genres. In particular I want to visit the Netherlands because they have a large community of famous deejays and music producers that are known all over the World.
I want to feel the music with every nerve ending, the crowd in awe of the moment and the visual light show as part of it. The emotional journey of lyrics and being deeply moved by the music itself. It’s been one of my dreams for a long time and I believe I’m getting closer every year to making it come true in outside reality.
I love music so much and I would love to be there among the other passionate ravers (I’m soon 32 years old), but everyone is different in some way so we are truly united in spirit ❤
Thanks for listening ❤
My biker shorts are several years old, maybe I bought them in 2022 because I just loved them a lot. It’s not truly shorts as much as really a kind of long legs boxer underwear. I believe I have at least 5 of them currently, and I wear them often.
I do like clothing and fashion in general, maybe it’s clearly quite visible on my blogs 😂❤️
I will mention this event even though it’s over 10 years ago, because it was special. In September 2014 we were four people together in Oslo staying at a hotel close to the concert hall/stadium, we were watching Lady Gaga live. We also did plenty of fun activities while in Oslo, like walking outside on the opera ceiling(?) taking great pictures of the warm and sunny late September day.
My cousin is a big fan and had been to several concert events before. In my case it was the first large music event I had been to, so I remember the impact of the bass and being together in a passionate crowd of her fans.
I will never forget this evening when I got back to hotel room with exhausted legs from standing for several hours, so worth the trip to experience something new ❤
thanks for listening ❤
What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?
as I said in previous answer I would be a psychiatric doctor for just one day, to see it from the other side of my long career as a psychiatric patient with severe conditions. And I was seeing my own current psychiatrist today, so it is quite relevant now especially. I wonder how their other patients interact with the doctors, and I would like to know about their life and how the symptoms of different conditions affect their days (and nights) in this type of relation.
honestly I mostly stay inside and don’t socialise a lot outside of my common environment with friends and family. But I do some useful activities that help our community thrive, like going to local store and speaking with other people there and help the local economy in this way. We go on trips outside and with the campfire events we enjoy some food heated on the fire like Norwegian grillpølser. I also participate in cultural activities in our local Kven ethnic group, our family are proud Kven people and we intend to learn the languages (both Kven, modern Finnish and North Sámi) for use in daily life.
so these are some of my small efforts in the local community, I wish to do more as well. Thank you for reading ❤
What are your favorite brands and why?
I have some preferred brands in different aspects of my lifestyle. One of these brands is English Tea shop and it really is very good also just without sugar or anything added to it.
It’s not really about the brand itself but often the qualities of the products including being organic and fairtrade.
I adore tea so much and I like many types, including the blend of white tea, blueberry and elder flower from this brand. The calming chamomille tea in the evening before sleep and the lovely Darjeeling tea in the morning. Their Earl Grey is so wonderful, the best I know of. So it’s English tea shop that’s often my favourite brand of teas of different kinds.
I also like New Nordic supplements and herbal skincare, it’s a Scandinavian brand and I use the different supplements to enhance my health. I like my brand new Topaz brand boots of the two different models; Amundsen and Sami. They are so warm in even minus 25 degrees celsius and they look very beautiful in true winter season nice weather.
I’m kind of rambling now, so I’ll close with this:
Enjoy this lifetime and feel the bliss of everyday delights ❤
All I can think about is how my worldview may change from one name to the other, in what order I’m intended to choose first second last. Ingvild is a not very rare name in my generation, so Torunn may have some advantage in being more unusual for my age like my current name that sound kind of similar some way to Torunn. And also my relatives with name of Jorunn can be very confusing to family members because it’s so similar you can hear wrong name easily.
But I’m most curious about how I will really feel once I’ve had my name change in several different stages, can my half-nieces see me as Ingvild or Torunn after my other name they have known since forever? My mother used to my birth given names?
I must make up my mind before change officially, I’m almost there but not quite yet.
no surprise to many people I like drinking a lot, especially energy drinks. I had a heavy 10 year habit in my youth and early adult years but I’ve cut down a lot still.
my favourites:
1 Battery energy, Finnish brand and I had several cans in real Finland it was special.
2 Red Bull, especially the deep dark blue little can
3 Bacardi, both the Razz and the Breezer in particular
4 Coca-Cola it’s classic and easily available in any local store
I wonder what it’s like being on the other side of the relation with patient doctor roles. I’m also interested in what other patients do in their sessions with doctors.
Hope we all get through this hard time
it is possible to get to that state with some imagination and effort. And to keep dreaming and making it living reality by truth and belief in the good nature of the World at it’s core. Face the fears and believe in your own power. Fight the system by small acts of rebellion.
Do you vote in political elections?
Note: I live in Norway. I say just to provide some info on my situation if you are curious.
I remember one elections I must mention some funny things about. It was in 2019 during elections in September and I decided to vote before visiting the local store to shop food and drinks as well as a notebook and I had recently altered my dose of psych medications. So I went into the voting booth to choose my political party to put in the box after getting a stempel on the vote. When I came out of the booth they asked me if why I only had one vote in hand, and me being kind of distant in mind didn’t understand why they asked me about this. After coming home I late in the evening realise I didn’t vote in one of the local elections because I forgot to choose two votes! I call my mother to tell her about this event and after this I remember to choose in both votes so I can have influence in local political environment.
I hope this was interesting to you, and thank you for reading my blog ❤
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?
I have spoken about this before, but I just want to say how much I enjoy celebration of Midsummer, in the context of Arctic location and culture.
I see it like the Light within us is especially visible during this particular holiday, the bonfire and grill/BBQ events around our area. People enjoying some mild alcohol-containing drinks like cider, alcopop/rusbrus or beer (I don’t like beer myself, but most other people here love it). The Light of the Midnight sun, the comfortable temperature outside, the feeling of community and our roots in both pagan and Christian traditions. The moments of spending time outside in awe of nature.
Can you tell I absolutely adore this holiday?
Thank you all for reading ❤
yes, I vote in national and local elections. And since year 2021 I have voted in our Saami elections as well after grandmother and mother and myself also joined the samemanntallet. Being in samemanntallet means you get influence over who is elected in Sametinget located in Karasjok.
I focus on Sámi political elections because they are somewhat controversial in Norway especially among Norwegian identified right-wing Finnmark county natives. I think it’s actually hypocritical for opposition to Sametinget at same time supporting the centralised Stortinget in the Capital Oslo and the State policies. My opinion on the topic matters to me and family members as well as rest of society and for indigenous/basic human rights.
thank you for reading ❤
so I’m far-left and grew up with strong left-leaning family members. But Progress party politicians get on my nerves when they say stupid and mean spirited things.
in particular one of them is Sylvi Listhaug who is possibly controversial even among the fellow members of Fremskrittspartiet (or FrP), she is so forceful in her way of speaking.
but still we are all human beings together on Earth, we may not agree but all are welcome to share opinions. I’m not defending her positions at all, however.
What are your two favorite things to wear?
As I’ve likely said many times earlier I truly have a habit of wearing my favourite hoodies along with jeans and last but not least my new Arctic seal hide tall boots; combined they express my identity strongly and it’s also very comfortable using during our winter season. I’m interested in different traditional clothing and in particular traditional shoes of different ethnicities but being mostly cultures of Northern/Arctic indigenous groups. Kind of a side note I also like Arctic dog breeds like the Lapphund, Samoyed, Siberian husky and Alaskan Malamute.
Thank you for reading ❤
Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?
I mentioned this poem on my other blog and I want to communicate my thoughts on it as of right now, present moment.
This quote from the poem;
‘Du må ikke tåle så inderlig vel, den urett som ikke rammer deg selv’
It’s about seeing others like yourself and compassion, doing the morally right thing in hard times. I think it’s very relevant to us in present environment even if our society has got much more digital than in 1930s including in Norway where the poet/writer Arnulf Øverland came from. This poem is well-known, and rightly is so.
And to close this post;
Du må ikke sove
I’m autistic and psychiatric conditions very strong, I’ve never had paid work and nearly never been at work in a common sense. I had a couple of days at a library organizing books and other activities, but that was part of something else. It’s still a useful experience of library life behind the scenes.
If i could choose something that resonates with my perspective and drive, it would be deeply related to helping people like myself navigate the complex mental-health systems with very good support. I would also enjoy creative activities like producing music and to practice writing some types of poetry to learn something new.
what gives me direction in life.. well, it’s many aspects together and all are important parts of this experience of life.
I have my fighter spirits strong especially important in the harder times in life, we all get beaten up by life in some way and it’s so strange how we fight against each other rather than see our unity and compassion for others. Btw I’m not perfect and I know.
my activities give meaning to me, the music and writing are what I need to keep my mind in good working condition. I need creative work to deal with this reality of my true nature. Being schizoaffective and I know my psychiatric label isn’t actually all that I am, and also know it greatly affects me even though I’m taking two different antipsychotics currently. Asking about quetiapine next week in my doctors appointments opportunity to get this moving in the right direction.
the thought of my family and other people are important to me no matter how solitary my lifestyle is. We cannot do this all alone.
and last but not least this experience online is much more significant than I thought of in the beginning of my journey. So this community is part of something greater than just me writing into a void.
Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?
Note; not intended as complaint of my life, only the honest impression of my experiences with psychiatry and treatments for mental illness. And my passion for writing, change in perspective in psychiatry; both adult and youth type.
I got into youth psychiatry in 2007 at age 14, but I spent 6 years without real treatments, diagnosis or most importantly without any antipsychotics for psychosis after the introduction to psychiatry.
What I would have done differently would be to try push the youth psychiatry to really get more in-depth into why I came into the system in the first place. I could of course not ever be actually successful without the truly great efforts from my wonderful family, especially that of my dear mother.
So this is part if my experiences being without effective medications in the youth psychiatry settings. I began my treatments with medications at age 20 years old and I’m taking my medicine as I am supposed to. And I’m working on some type of creative writing to bring awareness to the about the role of patients in understanding mental-health conditions from different, from within, true perspectives that are valued as real.
Thank you all ❤
This is interesting topic for autistic people writing different types of texts, and being creative in writing style is possibly somewhat different also.
I’m Norwegian and it’s my native language so it’s interesting writing in English about Norwegian culture aspects of everyday life. If I wrote everything in my native language I could improve my ability to translate between the meaning and words.
And being an Aspie I like to talk about my interests with others, sometimes I recall watching a video on YouTube from long long time ago about being a half autistic mind and when I saw it first time didn’t know it was related to my life, some peers had said to me earlier I was Aspergian by design.
I’m going to try not fall asleep too early yet not being up too long either, it is after all May month now and experiences tell me it’s going to be challenging. It’s true every year for like 16 years or more, other family members know it’s a real issue and it’s true it affects nearly everything.
Those thoughts are mine today and will be seen at some point by someone else. Does this change the meaning within my words?
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?
It’s one of my favourites and it’s special to our family as Kven people interested in learning the Kven language and history of our ethnic group. It’s not as well-known as Samefolkets dag but I celebrate both with enthusiastic feeling of belonging to something greater in meaning than just being Kven; it’s more about the community and humanity we all share.
Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.
When I was a child and teenager I had really long hair. It was the lenght to my hips and quite thick and coarse in texture, dark brown and nearly completely straight. My great-great grandfather (tippoldefar in Norwegian term) had raven black hair, he was of Sámi ethnicity. Btw I’m of strong Kven roots in addition to being Sámi plus Romani Traveller, and also of other Finnish ethnicity than Kven type (in particular Karelian and Savonian, in Eastern Finland) and this is relevant to my hair type features. I’m also very Norwegian of background I must admit, I love many aspects of Norwegian culture of my ancestors and close relatives, including our Northern Norwegian and Agder/Rogaland cultures.
Thank you for visiting my blog, fellow terrestrials/Earthlings ❤
Truly I believe in the message of this; we are not broken, so we don’t need to be ‘fixed’ in any way. Let people be who they are ❤
Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.
My Leo influence mostly comes from 12th house placements, my Mercury and Chiron plus my Sun are in very strong conjunction aspects opposite my Saturn in Aquarius in 6th house. I’m not of the outgoing/extroverted type at all and I’m on the autism spectrum as well, but I’m like a very introspective Leo in many ways.
I’m soon going to officially get my new name, I need to be prepared for challenge in this process of my identity and everyday life. I truly am an Ingvild inside and a Torunn of nature, and I want to be officially the person I feel like I am inside.
This day 6th of February is Samefolkets dag and it is important to me for several reasons, the Sámi culture is honored and there are a lot of Sámi related topics in the news. Sámi traditional food and traditional clothing are big part of the celebration as well as the Sámi languages and music. I feel like it’s about diversity as well as the unique features of Sámi culture.
I’ve written a bit about this school trip to high altitude location near mountains and the lake, this was in Northern Norway. But I thought to add a little something to it still.
As I forgot to mention last time we went on foot to the lake in rainfall and fog, yet I remember it not as pointless, but actually meaningful. I remember we had a bonfire and some food, I believe it was ‘grillpølser’ as we call them here.
We also played with laser lights and other very trippy stuff, pun intended. We were 13 and had no alcohol or anything, of course; just some Burn energy drinks that were legal (in Sweden). And I was okay waking up outside, it was an interesting experience out in our natural environments.
thanks for reading ❤
Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.
I’m really happy and enthusiastic about today right at this moment, I’m feeling better than usual and that I am genuinely thankful for.
I feel most productive during my waking nights, whether in our December winter during our darkest polar nights or the June Midnight sun Light of summer. During these nights I get so much done, feels like sometimes it’s kind of manic this thing. And I used to be a heavy user of energy drinks (three to four each day on average) but now I don’t drink every day because I’m not so dependent on them anymore.
I feel like night time is sacred to us on the neurodivergent/schizoaffective side, I’m also epileptic (temporal lobe epilepsy) so I need to be careful staying up all night for extended time. I enjoy an iPod session during the waking nights, playing some drum&bass music to get my energy in balance. Often I write quite a lot during these nights, blog or other media/forms including writing in physical notebooks. I like reading in different ways either a book or reading something on my electronic device. Sometimes I watch a great and interesting documentary of some kind, or old tv series from 1970s television (NRK).
There are a lot of activities to do during the nights in every season, but the Midnight sun presents special moments due to the all-day light. Enjoying a can of cider outside in the garden, watching our wonderful view in mindful state (or maybe slightly tipsy and affected by the different psychoactive beverages), it’s special. I really love our Arctic summers and the place I live is so magical, we get plenty of tourists wanting to experience our unique environment and culture.
Thank you so much for visiting my blog, it truly means a lot to me and I hope it was interesting to others reading. Have a wonderful day ❤
I’m from Norway and we celebrate Midsummer in late June, Sankthans. I like just walking outside watching people and the places the bonfire is and with the BBQ celebration. I choose sometimes to have several cans of cider being outside, and we live somewhere that’s close to nature so the view we have is absolutely wonderful.
Our summer is short and our winter is very long, so summer time is special to us in ways difficult to explain to even many Norwegian Southerners, they have true Sankthans as well but not Midnight sun like here and they have a slightly shorter winter.
so we have a mix of Christian and pagan tradition during Midsummer, people get together and light bonfires and grill/BBQ celebration outside. And often alcohol for the adults, people should not buy alcopop to underage teens, it’s illegal in Norway.
I’m looking forward to this holiday, thank you for reading this blog ❤ ❤
Topaz; I have two new pairs of seal hide boots with fur outside and wool inside, the tall boots are called Amundsen and regular boots are called Sami. They are pretty, warm in freezing cold and symbolic of my roots/ethnicity. I really love these shoes and therefore I like the Topaz brand as well, high quality boots.
English Tea shop: I really like the Earl Grey and they have a lot of very nice teas of different kinds both Earl Grey, oolong, herbal tea mixed, berry tea, good plain white tea etc/osv. The box is pretty and I enjoy drinking hot tea in morning and evening, afternoon or night.
Sloggi; I’m wearing Sloggi underwear mostly, I have some favourite models from this brand. They even have unique types for use during the womanhood curse (my own term for periods) and that is so useful to many of us. I have a top as well, it’s very comfortable wearing.
so those are some of my favourite brands, I hope this was useful/interesting to others. Thank you for reading and I wish you all a nice day ❤
Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.
I’m drinking this type of energy drink tomorrow morning, I like it a lot. The taste is not too sweet and not too sour either, and I like apples in general; especially our Norwegian kind that’s quite different from other types. I of course also love berries like cloudberry (in my blogs name as well, a strong symbol of my Saami and Kven heritage), raspberry and strawberry.
What books do you want to read?
I want to read both non-fiction and fantasy, about genealogy, ethnic minorities and astrology. Collections of poetry, in any language. I enjoy reading a lot and I truly want to write something about my experiences and perspective, maybe some of my creative writing as well.
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
Sun + Moon + Rising/Ascendant in Leo. I want to know what it feels like being so regal and proud, mystical in a true Leo way. I also want to live a day as Björk who is a triple Scorpio, I love her music as well with that special voice and way of being. Btw my astrology interest goes much deeper and into the many details than it can look like from this post.
Chaos
The voices call me
‘Chaosbitch’
Because I’m just
So much disorder, so disorganised
But my doctors
don’t know me
New medications
are desperately needed
Do not panic, someone is watching closely
For unknown
reasons
I feel
strong paranoia
because it’s true, or a delusion
these two topics go well together and I like that. Genealogy and ethnicities have been some of my autistic passions over the years and still strong today. I don’t have narrow interests; many neurotypical people like speaking with me about my topics of interest. And I’m useful to my family members in this way, I know a lot about our ancestry and in these times also our genetic ethnicities estimates from DNA-testing like MyHeritage and 23andMe.
What makes you nervous?
School for me was quite difficult and I had enuresis (often day, and nearly every night) so I happen to have accidents quite often. This made me very anxious and nervous, and bullies like that feeling in the victims so they can inflict more shame and make people break down in tears. I got some help when I needed it most, thank goodness for Norwegian health-care.
Sorry this isn’t at all happy, sometimes I just cannot express my sense of humor.
But on the bright side I have a blog and I know the World has beautiful aspects hidden in the deep Darkness and everything makes sense in nature of the spirits world. We can grow to be stronger and more compassionate human beings, that’s very important.
Thanks for reading ❤
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
I enjoy online shops from Cubus, Sunkost and the pharmacy. So I sometimes go on an online shopping spree and buy both very useful and not so necessary things, and spend a lot of money on this. Recently I bought another pair of jeans, had to buy a smaller size than usual and it fit me much better. But clothes are quite expensive sometimes, I also love shoes and I have a pair of wonderful boots thst cost me 5000 Norwegian kroner and I absolutely adore them, seal hide tall boots with fur outside and wool inside they are called Amundsen and it’s Topaz brand. I’m rambling now maybe?
But I think many things are worth the risk, and same with life in general. I blog and write about dark topics every day and it’s risk involved there too. and I choose to blog and be authentic as I feel. We need to be open about mental-health conditions and adversity plus minority groups topics, plus political themes of interest to the identity and community.
Thank you for visiting my blog and happy Friday! ❤ ❤
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