music, writing and mental health work

answer to dailyprompt-2073

three jobs I’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter?

well, it’s more of a vocation than a true job. I don’t have paid employment as a young disabled woman on ‘ung ufør’ so I don’t know really what usual work feels like from this perspective.

But I know what I would do if money wasn’t that important.

I would listen and create music together with some friends, almost like my half-brother who is a real musician and song writer. I would use all that creative energy into something meaningful and therapeutic both for me and for the listeners. I could connect different genres and themes from my inner world and do a lot of healing through this process. We all struggle with some part of our life and we all can heal some of our wounds with the right help and guidance. Both inner and outer wounds count, I had chronic infected wounds from surgery and only healing after specialised wound nurse got the right health care and methods for me. I’m eternally thankful for her healing efforts and care.

I would write about everything that interests me in this vast existence inner world and outside events in society. I’m passionate about astrology, like some other Aspergian people feel too. I’m a 12th house Sun and a 4th house Moon so the emotional inner world feels like home to me. I’m a Lunar (Moon sign) Scorpio in connection with Pluto in Scorpio (born 1993 btw) in 4th house. My emotional life is intense to a degree maybe many others don’t know. My Sun and Ascendant are in Virgo (or other systems Leo) and my Mercury is in Leo within 12th house.

I have schizoaffective condition/schizophrenia with mood disorder and I hear voices as part of my experience with this and my history of childhood adversity, bullying and different childhood abuse. I have long history of being a patient in psychiatry since 2007 at age 14 years.

And I would dedicate my life to be a true mental health guide in my community and reach out to anyone online need some help from experienced psychiatric patients like myself to understand the way psychiatry works from the patients perspective. Even my psychiatry doctors have told me to use my abilities this way.

So guess what? That’s where I’m heading and what I’m really going to put first on my work goals along maybe with regular work at the pharmacy. But the writing and the music will be essential to my vocation no matter the title or area I work. So it’s all three in one setting. I love fantasy world and I love living in reality as well, this is both.

Thanks for reading ❤