What could you do more of?
Another aspect of my everyday living is to be introspective and contemplate reality as it arise from my awareness. I sometimes practice certain activities related to meditation and mindfulness, especially trying to be an observer of my own thoughts and pay attention to the real present sensations in my being.
Note: I’m from Norway, I try writing in good English language for people to understand my posts better. This may go wider in topics than expected.
One of the ways to do it in my life is to drink tea regularly and with some tea rituals along, the rituals are not complicated but still powerful enough to shape my perception of reality. I don’t remember if I’ve told this here before, I love Darjeeling type black tea as well as many other teas and different herbal teas. I drink the lavender tea when I need the peace of mind and matcha green tea for clarity and helping my meditative state of being.
I’m diagnosed with severe mental illness, in particular schizophrenia and mood disorder, sometimes it’s very similar to the condition schizoaffective disorder. I am in addition diagnosed with Asperger syndrome in a moderate-severe case, I have the autistic passion for my environment and the political ideology of my ancestors related to my own political opinion. The medicine is important to keep me stable and feeling better in several life areas.
I’m very interested in exploring genealogy and the astrology features of my life story and my true mission, my vocation in mind. Being a double Leo or Virgo (Sun + Rising sign) in 12th house shapes my path and my spirituality. I’m of Sámi origins and it’s very important to me to honour my ancestors and my cultural roots. I have Moon in 4th house (in Scorpio) and Pluto conjunction with this essential piece of my own emotional life.
The music I listen to is necessary to my complete well-being and mental health. I like the electronic music for some purpose and grunge/post grunge music for the feeling of authentic expression. I listen a lot to heavy metal and the black metal as well. I live for the music and my thoughts are in most ways driven in lyrics, it’s a big part of life to listening to the messages in sound, the overall mood of a track/song plus of course the song lyrics themselves.
I want to mention something I thought about recently and it’s how it can be a burden to be unusually pretty. I’m average and my avatars are truly based on me, but better looking. Yet I’ve heard from some that strong beauty puts a lot of pressure on a person, high expectations and other difficulties. Like they have hidden pain within, I don’t know the experience from their point of view. I’m not really saying I’m extremely not good but the extremely beautiful people do suffer just as much as the average person.
That’s a lot of my writing, but I just want to write something from the heart. And thank you for listening ❤
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