Why do you blog?
NOTE: Difficult themes and might be quite triggering or heavy reading. And I don’t hide here anything about what it’s like peeing in my pants in childhood, youth years, continues to adulthood. It might seem off-topic but it’s a lot about why I blog, to process my memories and inner world while sharing moment with the visitors to my blog. I want people to feel less alone in the darkest times, and bring some personal experience with my journey.
Norwegian language title, and sometimes it really is true. Like I haven’t peed on myself recently. I was target of bullying and abuse. I didn’t pee myself yesterday. I also have several disabling neurological conditions that can cause me to lose control of my function of the body.
Wanting to be brutally honest, but not offensive. Sharing without shame, dignity of my words. Knowing when to stay silent and when to say yes. Nothing can clean my memories away.
They bullied me because I wasn’t like them.
So my issues were several and it wounded me inside. Soaking wet down to shoes, I hope they didn’t see it at all. Temperature. Feelings. Spot.
Plus. Double. Accidents. At. School. Yeah I pooped in my pants, too. It hurts writing but I need to say it because it’s taboo and it’s against any shaming for people to talk about this. The following is related to try breaking taboos and the connection to my own astrology features.
It’s often easier writing about taboo topics so this where I start. I’m not afraid of my body, I have seen so many different things little can shock me. And I’m not cowardly about physical wounds either. Honestly I’m kind of proud I’m not too sensitive and being unafraid of my own body function.
I’m a Lunar Scorpio in fourth house with Pluto in Scorpio exactly opposite my Taurus Midheaven. Quadruple Leo. Double Virgo. Astrology for the big girls… with Asperger syndrome.
So this is my experience, accidents at school and on my way home from school. Wetting the bed. Feeling of wanting to hide inside forever. The sad shameful times. And how do I really see it now, at this moment?
One thing genuine good about my situation I’m also having a lot of joy in my life. I’m so blessed with life and here I am, telling my story to the readers and my healing process is awake, alive and aware.
Thank you for reading my blog ❤
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