What’s the story behind your nickname?
I have three given names. One of the three is Synnøve. ‘Sun gift’ or ‘gift of the Sun’ it means in Norse and I like being a Synnøve. But what is my nickname? I have many through the years, some nice and some cruel. I was ‘Sleeping Beauty’, I was ‘Jay’, I was ‘Seven of Nine’ and many more.
Sometimes I was the stereotypical “good girl” and did what the others told me to do. My classmates when they play nice called me ‘snill‘ and being snill (kind) is a truly good thing, it should not be ever used as insults. But over some years of experience I was more of a rebel, I define my own identity as a teenager learning about the world. Then after many years of being bullied, psychotic and suffering I went to the dark side.
As soon as I got to legally buy rusbrus and cider I was drinking the way Aspergian alcoholics do; alone listening to music and binge-drinking. I could call myself ‘Razzpergian’! But at my core I’m not the bad girl person I sometimes feel like being to make things okay, that at least I’m a real ‘bad girl’ not someone that needed to be better than she was. But in truth I actually just want to be comfortable living as myself in this society.
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