answer to dailyprompt-1974
really I’m mostly lesbian but I had crush on some boys at age 11. I liked R, M and M. I’m not giving full name. One of the M’s was an outsider and I asked him if we could be together, he said no in a surprised but kind way. I later learn he had enuresis like myself and I hope he is doing well in adulthood. The other M was likely interested mostly in male partner and he was so physically beautiful with dark eyes and blond hair. I liked him a lot. R was my favourite and I felt drawn to him even in teenage years when I mostly look at girls.
And the girls I was wanting to know better in a different relationship were often high-status girls who were not bullies, I however could not relate really as I was an outsider and mentally unwell. Sometimes I liked girls more like myself, I believe one was an Aspie like myself. But she was somewhat younger and I was shy and with insecurity in getting to know people.
in the gym change(?) room I may look too long at the others, but I meant no harm. I was known as ‘that short weird lesbian with dark hair’ in certain groups of teens.
Some information on my background, slightly off-topic but I thought I would share;
I’m from Norway and English is not my native language, plus our Northern Norwegian culture is slightly different. The youth in the different Nordland county places I lived in youth were more Nordic looking and much taller than me, my roots are a lot of Finnmark region Sámi ancestry. Sámi persons are more often shorter like I am and in childhood I was very short and they bullied me, but in late childhood and my teens I grew fast to my current height at 156 centimeters.
so that’s some information abour my early crushes in tween/teenage years. Btw I’m not in a relationship and never have been. I’m soon 32 years old. Well well, so it is.
thank you for reading ❤
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