The question of names

What is something most people don’t understand?

Note/warning: Very much self-critical of my name and I’m in a very dark mood now. I advice to not read if you feel unstable in your identity.

I have one name I don’t like. I really don’t like it actually, I feel resentment just thinking about it. Maybe it will get better when I get my name ‘fixed’ so I feel good about my name identity. It’s a Norse origin name apparently but it isn’t cool enough like Ingvild and Torunn that are great names of respect. I hate my name with a passion, get rid of the stupid four letter word that I cannot even write properly with my handwriting. I’m very feeling resentment toward even my parents for choose it sorry that’s evil of me to feel, to tell the World. Lost in my mind now, the memories are strong how the bullies made cruel fun of me for having this ‘old aunts name’ (that is different from Torunn a pretty and cool name common in 1950s to 1960s just like my name I hate, this four letter name it’s not a pretty name i hate it)

The point of this is to show what it look like inside someone with self-worth issues around names. I deep within know my name isn’t really ugly or wrong, it’s because I am listening to the past hurts of my child self being bullied by people with common names from early 1990s Norway. I hope your days are good ❤

Thank you all and I do wish I liked the name that I currently despise. Happy Saturday ❤