What experiences in life helped you grow the most?
Note: This contains some rambling thoughts and psychotic experience from first person perspective.
As some people may know about me I’m dx with severe mental-health conditions and I’ve been psychotic since 2005 at age 12. And many parts of my experiences have made me more mature and given greater strenght to my already strong fighter spirits. And they have torn me apart, wounded my pride, affected my relationships and a lot of emotional struggles in the years.
I remember a couple of times in my manic depressive psychosis that I was listening to some great music and my mind start working at interpretation from my own perspective. This is not always a good thing to act on or ruminate a lot about, but it can be insightful and deeply connected to your inner world. So I was listening to this metal track and I wanted a cup of hot tea, I love tea a lot in everyday life. It was that really great Earl Grey tea from English tea shop and everything made so much sense in that moment, I saw connection with inner world and society in general. Btw I’m a 12th house Sun + Mercury + Chiron in conjunction group (Leo + Virgo signs) and my Saturn in 6th house (Aquarius).
Some examples of songs I’ve listen through over the years that I recall and can recommend to interested music listeners;
Tears don’t fall, all these things I hate revolve around me, waking the demon (Bullet for my Valentine tracks/songs, type of metal genres).
the Power of the Mind, Psychedelic, Just say my Name, Megasound (Headhunterz tracks/songs, hardstyle genre of electronic music).
The tea helps me focus and I like the feeling of having these tea rituals grounding me in the present moment to some degree even when going through a severe episode of schizoaffective condition. It’s not magic, but it’s close.
Thank you so much for reading ❤
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