åpenbart helt gal, sprø, sinnsykt schizofren, vanvittig bipolar
I’m so not really actually interested to identify with my autistic side much, I think the schizoaffective condition is truly very much more interesting both for me and to other people. I don’t understand why I don’t care about autism spectrum condition, maybe it really is boring, or I just don’t like the name and mental connection people make in their heads.
It isn’t important, or maybe that’s delusional thinking to avoid seeing the facts of my disability coming to the surface. It’s also like not wanting to admit having relatives from rival towns.
I wish I didn’t reject my label just because I feel uncomfortable discussing it. It’s strange how I’m so pro neurodiversity with others and yet I hate my own Nature deep within with a passion. And I don’t hate being schizophrenic or bipolar, I only hate the autism/Asperger dx.
I’m a really strange Aspie, I want to deny being one in non-medical settings. Even in psychiatry it’s mostly a useless label. Maybe I can blame Elon Musk for it? Or the mainstream media? But mostly it’s my own thoughts and beliefs, I know it inside.
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